I sat there staring at Piko, my eyes wide and my mouth gaping open. Exhaling, I realized I'd been holding my breath. My heart raced as nervousness started to build up inside me. I knew perfectly well that what I'd just done was wrong...but why didn't I feel as guilty as I should've? Shouldn't I have felt bad about betraying Kaito? I had to tell Piko about Kaito before anything else like this happened.

"Um, Piko..." I started to say.

"Len, I'm sorry," Piko interrupted, bowing his head in apology. "I shouldn't have done that." He lifted his head back up, but his eyes were focused on the floor instead of me.

"There's something I should tell you," I said as Piko shifted his eyes up in curiosity. "I...I have a boyfriend."

"Oh." It was clear Piko was interested in me and I felt like I'd just let him down. Closing my eyes, I thought of Kaito. I loved him to pieces, but what my time spent with him even worth it anymore? His multiple weeks-long absences always left me feeling heartbroken and alone. Plus, when he was here, what was there to look forward to? Just some small talk and a couple hours of sex? I sighed, coming to an important realization.

"But I don't know how well it's working out between us," I added. Tears formed in my eyes as I came to the conclusion that maybe our relationship wasn't going so well anymore. Piko placed his hand on my shoulder in comfort as I began to cry. I'd been crying too much lately, but I didn't want to let Kaito go. But if things continued the way they were...ah, I didn't want to think about it. I pulled Piko into a hug, crossing my arms tightly around his back as I continued to cry. I felt his arms slide around my waist and he rested his chin on my shoulder. The guilt I'd had before eased away and my heart was beating back at its normal pace. I still felt a little bad, but being held inside Piko's arms...it was unfamiliar, but it comforted me.

Eventually, I calmed down, but Piko and I continued to hold onto each other. His warm hands against my waist, his soft breath against my neck...I hadn't had the experience of enjoying a moment quite like this in a long time. I heard Piko's nervous heartbeat through the pulsing in his neck. Pulling my head back and glancing sideways, I saw that he was red in the face. The confident Piko I had met a couple of nights ago seemed to have changed suddenly.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"Mhmm," Piko muttered, nodding his head quickly and blushing a little bit more. Was he trying to be cute on purpose? The way his cheeks were becoming rosy, his sudden quietness, the little smile on his face; it was all irresistible. Leaning in toward Piko, I took his hand into my own, and looked into his turquoise eyes one last time before closing mine.

When our lips met this time, I felt the same nerve tingling feeling as before, the same rush of excitement. But something was different. We kissed with more passion and most of my regretful feelings had disappeared; plus, I couldn't stop. The feeling of Piko's soft lips on mine was driving me crazy. Caressing each other's bodies, we began to breathe in unison. These feelings were almost intoxicating, taking over my common sense. It wasn't until that I felt that excited feeling in my boxers that I pulled away.

Crossing my legs to hide my awkward bulge, I took my hand away from Piko's and wiped my bangs off of my sweaty forehead. I'd gotten excited too soon, foo fast and as I sighed, I hoped Piko hadn't noticed. I was about to mention to him that this whole thing was going too fast, but he spoke before me.

"That was even better than the other night," Piko said, grinning.

"Huh? The other night?"

"Oh, well I figured you wouldn't remember, but yeah, you kissed me at the bar."

I sat there in silence, not believing what Piko had just said. I knew I had been drunk, but I never thought I would've kissed someone without remembering.

"Piko, I'm sorry, I was drunk..."

"It's fine," he replied with a smile on his face. "I should've known you wouldn't have remembered." He pulled me closer to him, and placing his hand on my shoulder, locked lips with me once again.

...

Piko laid below me on his bed, his bright eyes staring into mine. I could tell he was nervous, and so was I, but we were both enjoying this moment together. Pressing myself closer to him, I looked deep into his eyes.

"Are you ready?"

"Yeah."

Shifting my position above Piko slightly, I pushed, entering him. He cried out in pain, but as I began to thrust, his cries were replaced by moans of pleasure. I couldn't believe I was doing this. I'd started to think of Kaito again, how angry he would be if he found out what I was doing. Too many emotions were running through me. But as I began to sweat and my heartbeat sped up, my physical feelings took over my emotional ones. My breathing became faster and deeper as I increased the speed of my thrusting. Piko moaned below me, throwing his head back and gripping tightly onto his blanket. Inhaling deeply, I finished off with one last thrust, my arms weakening. I collapsed onto Piko, feeling his warm, bare chest against mine. Piko placed his hands onto my back and sighed as we laid there embraced in each other's arms, breathing in unison, until I removed myself from Piko's grasp.

"I should probably head home now," I said, sitting up on Piko's bed. I felt bad for wanting to leave so soon, but I wanted to go back to my apartment and sort out some emotional things. I looked down to see Piko laying beside me with an arm behind his head.

"Already?" Piko glanced at me with sad eyes; he clearly wanted me to stay longer. "You could spend the night, if you wanna..." I smiled at Piko and reached down to grab to hand. Though I'd only spent a few hours with him, the way he looked at me with those bright turquoise eyes made me realize it wouldn't hurt to stay just one night.

"Okay."