AHH! I can't help it. I love angst-filled fanfictions!
After all that he's been through, Lelouch really thought that he would have kicked those damn habits. He thought he would have stopped waking up at dawn and go back to being a night owl. He thought that he would've stopped cupping that silver bell whenever he would get nervous. Tracing the intricate designs and feeling every bump and curve.
He thought he would've stopped hearing snippets of Suzaku's laughter bubbling up in his head. Swimming and wandering at the space where his heart once had been, but now filled with nothingness. And he smokes more that ever now, but that was no surprise.
So when he found out that Suzaku was with his ex, it made it hurt even more.
Gino Weinberg was an interesting figure, and Lelouch had long suspected that he too had worked at a club before. He appeared to be sunny and full of energy with a hint of slyness that Lelouch never noticed. Gino had Lelouch wrapped around his pinky and was in total control. Lelouch didn't find out anything until that night he came home from work. Of all the people that Suzaku, his Suzaku, would be cheating on him with, it had to be Gino.
Suzaku's POV
Lelouch can be a closed book if he wanted too, and right now, the lock was sealed shut and the key had just-so-happened to vanish from sight.
"Why Suzaku?" Lelouch's voice sent shivers down the brunette's spine as he tried to make sense of what the younger man was saying.
Suzaku awoke to another dream filled with Lelouch, and what happened that day. Shuddering, he got out of bed and took a cold shower.
"You cheated on me with that.. that bastard!"
It's been two weeks since that happened, and Lelouch literally seemed to have disappeared from existence.
"What? Was it the photo Lelouch? You have to listen to me, that photo was taken four months ago. I already broke up with him before I met you. Please Lelouch. Where are you? I need to talk to you about this."
After the job interview he managed to book, Suzaku miraculously got an unbelievable position of a CEO at a new company that was just opened a few weeks ago. The manager seemed to really like him, and gave him the job right away. Putting on a tie and giving it one last adjustment, Suzaku headed out the door.
"Four months ago? You really don't when to give up huh? The date on the back of the photo says that it was taken on Mar 2nd, that was two days ago you fucking prick."
Waving to a taxi, Suzaku got in and handed the driver the location. He had not yet gotten used to driving the car that the company provided, so he opted for the cab.
"What? That can't be possible..." Suzaku trailed off, boggled by the date. He knew that the date was incorrect, but why did it show March and not November?
He reached his office and opened his laptop. A quick scan at his email, and only to see it full of business ads, he went to work; Approving papers and signing contracts.
"I knew that this was a bad idea, but you made it seem so right Suzaku. I could've left after the club meeting, but I stayed, and ignored all the warnings since you looked so sincere. But boy was I wrong. Let me just tell you one thing. It's going to come back," Lelouch said with thick venom, "It's all going to come back one day and ruin you, Suzaku Kururugi."
With a sigh, Suzaku spun around in his chair and starred out the window of the building, his building. Something was not right about the photo. The brunette tried to recall what happened, but it only made his head hurt. Whatever it is, I'll get to the bottom of it. Lelouch was impossible to get to when he was in a state of complete anger, and was just like the saying, 'if you play with fire you get burned'. But then again, no matter how much the danger was, Suzaku was always captivated by it.
Lelouch's POV
Getting laid by men was easy. They would unzip their pants, get the lube and grip his hips before Lelouch could even reach for a condom. He never had to work for it because his status in the club and the others' hormones already does that for him. All Lelouch really had to do was plaster a smirk on his face, wiggle his hips, mew out little moans and make it look lewd even though the sensations only turned him off.
Those men were easy to handle. There were no arguments, no complaints and barely any words exchanged.
Except Lelouch didn't want that. He wants stress, the tension, and the pain and pleasure of being with Suzaku so much it hurts. He wants it the way Suzaku thrust him against the way so hard, it leaves bruises on his shoulders, back and thighs. So hard that he would limp the next day. So hard that it made him crave even more. He wants it the way how the brunette would whisper sweet words in his ear that tickled. The way he would kiss Lelouch on each eyelid and wipe the sweat and bangs off his face when it was rough. He wants the aggression that Suzaku and him both share. He wants how Suzaku would moan deeply whenever he would get it just right. He wants how Suzaku was innocent, but can be so rough at the same time.
He threw the butt of a cigarette down on the pavement beside the club. Stepping on it to put out the spark before going back inside to finish his shift.
And the thing that stood out to him most was that despite having this happen, he still wanted Suzaku.
Lelouch choked out a strained laugh
Again, not a surprise.
-A. Lullaby
