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Chapter Seven- Full Moon.

We Walked Remus outside and into the shack. The moon wasn't up yet but it would be soon. He was shaking even worse than before. Seeing him in this much pain was killing me. I've never seen this before and I wondered how the boys handled it their first time. I sat him on the bed and everyone else backed up and transformed and looked at my curiously when I didn't.

"Not yet." I told them. I sat down next to Remus on the bed pulling him to me and wrapping my little arms around his shaking body. If he was confused why I didn't change he didn't say anything. He continued to shake and shake until finally then moon light hit the window. We both stood up quickly. The convulsions grew worse and I could feel the shifting taking place but still I didn't change I wanted to be there for him as a human while he changed. He was screaming out in pain and his body was lengthening and his back was hunching forward. He was screaming at me calling me crazy and telling me to transform. Prongs stepped forward pushing on my back. But still I didn't let go. The transformation was long and painful and finally his screams started turning into howls. I looked up and saw that I had my arms wrapped around not Remus, but Moony.

Padfoot was whining and barking tell me to move but I couldn't not yet. I stepped back and looked at him. His body was taller and hunched over slightly his claws were long and sharp and his muzzle was short and square. I then looked into his eyes and saw Remus's amber eyes looking back at me. "Remus." I said sadly and then I allowed myself to transform. I wasn't scared. Not in the least, I thought maybe if I saw him then I would be or maybe I would be disgusted but I wasn't. All I felt was sadness. Remus was such a great friend. My family. He didn't deserve these painful transformations. I once told him that I wish I could be a werewolf for him so he didn't have to go through that and watching him actually changing in front of my eyes didn't change that. I wanted more than anything to be able to do that for him. I walked into the corner of the room and laid down. Head on my paws watching Moony. Wormtail came was on Prongs' shoulders and Padfoot was watching me. Trying to see how I was reacting. Moony was clawing at the walls and the bed but was other wise pretty calm. Which surprised me. I began thinking back to the night were I found out he was a werewolf.

I sighed and laid down on my bed. I was counting the weeks with my calendar, I looked up and saw that I had another month before I could go back to school. I then found myself thinking of my friends and all the pranks we got up to in our first year. I laughed to myself thinking of the fun detentions. I then found myself thinking yet again about Remus. Something isn't right. Something was telling me that he didn't go and visit his sick mother every month but I couldn't put my finger on why. I remember when he told us his mother was sick. What am I missing? I sighed again and reached over to my end table to pick up the book I was reading. Magical beasts and were to find them. Okay so my library is a little limited in the books we have. I open up to page 240 and my eyes went wide. Werewovles. My thoughts immediately went back to Remus but I shook my head and started to read. While reading the sign of how to spot of werewolf my mind kept traveling back to Remmie and I didn't know why. I continued reading on and then suddenly I understood. Remus is a werewolf. That is the only solution. He leaves every month of the full moon. He is always shaky and pale. It has to be it. I didn't feel any fear or any revulsion. I felt immediate sadness. Why Remus? He was such a great person, a good friend. I knew Remus, I knew he wasn't dangerous. It didn't matter that he was a werewolf he was my friend and always would be. I didn't want to be ask him in a letter, I didn't know if my parents would intercept it than I'd really be in for it. "Associating with mudbloods, and half bloods and now half breeds you disgust me Xeomara" is what she would say. I closed the book suddenly to tired to read, closed my eyes and fell asleep.

I looked again at Moony he was now rolling around with James on the floor playfully. And Sirius was barking loudly and I assumed he was laughing. I then thought about when he confirmed what I already knew.

The full moon is today I told myself. I knew today was the day I was going to finally demand that Remus tell us. I didn't tell James, Sirius, or Peter that I knew. I didn't even tell Remus. School just started three days ago and I was bursting to tell them. I didn't understand why Remus wouldn't tell us. Did he honestly think we desert him? I was sure none of us would. How could he assume that we would. It was almost eight now. I walked out of my dorm and made my was to the boys'. I pushed the door open hard and they stared at my wondering why I was angry. I didn't speak yet and they went on talking. I sat down next to Remus and took his hand in mine. It was normal for me to hold hands with them. I did it all the time so no one questioned me. I broke into the conversation and said "Rem, you going to visit your mum tonight?" He looked nervous for a second.

"Yeah, McGonagall is coming to get me soon."

"Liar." I said softly. If Remus looked nervous then he looked it even more now.

"ZEE!" James screeched.

I didn't answer him, I turned to Remus and my blue eyes met his amber eyes. I stared at him pleadingly. I gripped his shaking hands tighter. "Tell them. Tell the Remus. They can handle it."

"You- You know?" he asked hesitantly.

I nodded, he looked grim. "Tell them" I repeated.

"Rem? What is she talking about?" Sirius asked.

He looked at me and I gave his hand a squeeze to let him know I was here and wasn't going anywhere. He gave me a shaky smile and nodded. "I don't visit my mum every month." He started, "my mum isn't even sick."

"But what-"

"Listen." He said forcefully. They fell silent. "After I tell you this, I except that you wouldn't want to be friends with me anymore. And I understand, a lot of people don't. So before I tell you, I want to say thanks. I've never had real friends before and now I know what it feels like." He eyes started to water and tears poured down his cheeks. and for the first time in years I felt tears running down my own cheeks and falling onto our hands. Remus looked up at me and lifted his other hands to wipe some tears off my face but they just kept coming. The boys knew something was wrong. They knew I never cried and to see both me and Remus crying at the same time they knew it wasn't good. "I'm you see, I'm a werewolf." I studied each of their faces separately. James had a look of shock on his face, Sirius's face was angry and Peter simply stared not knowing what to do.

"Excuse me, you're a what exactly?" Sirius asked angrily. I ripped my hands away from his, stood up and pulled out my wand so fast and before they even blinked I had it pointed at Sirius's chest.

"You better think again before talking Black. All of you had better think before speaking, especially in front of me if you don't want to get hexed. Remus is still a person. Yeah so what he's a werewolf big deal! We've known him for a whole year and he's never done one thing to harm us. So how dare you all stare at him like that! You make me sick and if ever tell a single soul about this you'll have to answer to me. I can't believe you. I excepted better from all of you, I though you could handle this. I guess I was wrong." They stared back at me but didn't say anything. I sighed held my hand out to Remus and said softly "Come on Remus." He took my hand and we started walking towards the door when I heard "Wait!" I turned around and saw Sirius's wand pointed at me.

"How dare you assume that! I would never ever degrade him for that! Don't you know me at all! How could you even think that! I was in shock. I don't care what Remus is either. He could have three eyes and webbed feet and I wouldn't care. He is my friend and he was there for me when I needed him and why should I not be there for him. It isn't his fault. Its something that probably happened to him. How could I hate him?" Just as he finished that last sentence I dropped Rem's hand and ran to Sirius and through my arms around his neck in a huge hug.

"Thank you for understand him." I murmured into his chest, crying. Crying hard. I felt tears dripping into my own hair and looked up to see Sirius also crying. I backed up a little and watched as James got up and walked over to a crying Remus. He stopped right before he reached him and said "I don't care what you are. Your one of my best mates Remus. I just wish you would have told us." He hugged Rem like a brother and when he pulled back he looked at me and saw that he was also crying. I then heard loud sniffling. Sirius and I whipped are head around and saw Peter sobbing into his hands. "I'm soo sorry Remus." He sobbed. I sat down next to Sirius on his bed crying into his shoulder. We all just sat there and cried until McGonagall came running up the stairs. She saw all and stopped whatever if was she was about to say. Then opened her mouth to say something else.

"You know." I looked up from Sirius chest and nodded. "Oh well, I will discuss this with you all later as will the Headmaster. Come on , It's nearly time." With that she escorted Remus out and we sat awake all night starring at the moon waiting for Remus to come back to us.

I shook my head quickly, shaking off my thoughts and looked up to see Pads staring at me. I shook my head again letting him now I was alright and got up and walked over to him. Moony not really knowing I was there the whole time started to get wound up. Prongs noticed and looked at me telling me to get ready. I nodded back. At first it was fine, Moony just stared as Prongs and Padfoot started wrestling around. I watched as Moony made a step forward and knew he wasn't going to them to play around. I quickly ran up and stepped in front of Prongs shocked face just as Moony's claws came down on me. They ran from my top lip going diagonal to my shoulder. I whimpered and then pushed him back hard with my front paws. I heard Sirius growl and I whipped myself around giving him a warning growl to back off. I was already hurt, why risk anyone else getting hurt to. When I was turned around I felt Moony's claw come down again running down the middle of my whole back. I faced him again and began pushing him. Forgetting all my pain and forgetting all about the blood dripping all down the floor. I then bit his shoulder in warning as he raised his claws again. He back up a little whining in pain. Then with one good push he flew back into the wall and hit his head hard. I Heard something crack and he fell to the floor unconscious.

When I knew it was over I laid down right where I stood. Hiding my bleeding face in my paws wanted nothing more to just fall asleep. I felt something poking my in the side and looked to see Prongs standing there prodding me awake. I knew I couldn't sleep it wasn't good with these kind of injuries besides I needed to be awake incase Moony woke up. Prongs laid down next to me as Padfoot whining softly laid down on my other side. Be careful not to touch my back or face. I felt wormtail crawl up under my paws and rest in the crook of my elbow. We stayed like that until the full moon was over and the sun started to come up. Once the light hit my face I transformed back into a human. And I'm guessing they did too because I heard James frantic voice "Sirius, Wormtail go get lift up Remus Now! I got Maurie." I felt someone lifting me up off the ground and hissed in pain as the hands touched my back. "Sorry, Stay awake Zee,were going to the hospital wing."

"Remus, is he alright?" I croaked out. It hurt to talk .

"He's fine still unconscious from the hit on the head. He'll be alright." I was so scared for him. I was even more nervous for when he'd wake up, I knew he hated hurting his friends and I didn't want him to feel guilty for hurting me because that wasn't Remus. It was a werewolf. Not Remus. Soon enough I heard Madam Pomfrey voice as she was demanding them to lay us down on the beds. Barking out orders.

"Sirius, got into the closet and get me a bottle that has red writing and with brown liquid inside. James Go get the tube of lotion that says fast scars on it." She yelled. I heard moaning and assumed it was Moony but I found out it was me when Peter said "It's alright Zee, you'll be okay." Laying on my back was killing me and I wanted to scream out in pain but I didn't want them to worry so I laid there waiting for something. Anything.

"Sirius, open mouth and give him the potion. And then he'll be fine. James hurry up!" I heard running and then heard James hand Madam the tube. I felt her hands ripping open my robes revealing the claw marks that went down to my shoulder. I then opened my eyes and saw her running her wand up and down and muttering under her breath. "Okay, the bleeding has stopped. Listen for I am going to explain something to you right now while I rub this on you okay. It's going to sting and hurt but it's the best I can do. I'm not going to ask what happened and why but I know these are werewolf claw marks. And Miss Raes I don't want to tell you this but I can't heal werewolf claw marks. Not even the healers at can. Werewolves are magical creatures. Surely you know that."

"So wait what does that mean?" Sirius asked.

"She will have scars . The four claw marks on her face will turn into a raised scare. It won't ever heal." I felt her rubbing the lotion along my face and shoulder. Then I felt someone turn me over and heard the ripping of the rest of my shirt. As she stopped the bleeding and started to rub the lotion on. A scar? On my face? Forever? Thinking about it I know I would have done it again. If I didn't jump in front of it this would have been James and I would rather have the scars and have people stare at me for the rest of my life than have that happen to James. "The gashes will turn into scars by the time eight o'clock comes around. You make take her to her dorm now. Such a pity, she had such a beautiful face." She said softly.

"Excuse me? Are you saying that she won't be pretty now just because she has scars because-" James was cut of by Sirius. "Let's just get her out of here." I rolled over onto my back and started to sit up. James grabbed me under the arms and lifting me up so I was standing next to him.

"Zee, I'm so sorry." I heard Remus say. How long had he been awake? I tore myself from James' grip and walked shakily to Remus.

I leaned forward and kissed his forehead. "Don't apologize you hear me? It wasn't you Remus. It wasn't you. You have nothing to be sorry for." I reached out and wiped the tears of off his face. "I'll see you tomorrow Moony." James grabbed me and supported me out of the hospital wing. I could feel my feet start to drag so he picked me up in his arms like a child and carried me the rest of the way. I must have fallen asleep because I woke up as he was putting me in bed.

"Thanks" I whispered. I didn't here is reply. I was already sleeping.

I woke up the next morning to Lily screaming my name and demanding that I get ready for lunch. "it's 12!" She screamed. "Wake up!" I sat up and half excepted her to be in here but I'm guessing she was screaming from the common room.

"Evans! Shut up! She'll be down in two minutes." I heard James yell. I got up sleeply and walked into the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and screamed. How could I have forgotten. I heard running and James, Sirius and Peter were at my side in seconds. I stared at the right side of my face, where there were four long scars starting at the corner of my top lip going diagonal to my shoulder. The scars were raised and slightly tinted pink like usual scars. I looked hideous.

"Maurie, what's wrong?" James asked.

"My- My face! Oh merlin I can't go down there." I stammered.

"Think of how that will make Moony feel Zee." Sirius said.

Of course he was right. "Your right I have to go out there. Listen I'm don't want Lily to see yet so I'm going to run up to dormitory and get changed and I'll explain to her when I get back down. Just stand with her okay?"

"But what are you going to say?"

"Leave it to me." I ran down the stairs my head down, hair in my face. "Lils, I'll be right down. I brushed my hair quickly and got dressed in my robes. And bounded down the stairs to where Lily, Sirius, James, and Peter were standing. As I walked closer Lily said alarmed, "Zee, what happened?!"

"Lily, calm down."

"No I will not calm down! What in the name of merlin happened to your face!" I was thanking my lucky stars that the common room was empty. I told Lily that last night we snuck out into the forest and that a werewolf was about to claw James and how I jumped in front of him so he wouldn't get hurt. Then I told her I turned around to tell them to go get Professor Dumbledore when he clawed my back and that Remus was thrown against a tree and that's why he's not here.

When I finished my stories the boys looked shock at my perfectly made up story. "I cannot believe you five! Running off into the forest at night! There is a reason why it's forbidden you know, because something like this could happen! Oh, Zee, your face your pretty face" Lily finished sadly.

"Are you implying Evans that Xeomara look's ugly now?" James asked coldly.

"No, I would never-"

James cut her off "Well it sure sounds like it to me. Because let me tell you something Evans, Xeomara is still beautiful and those scars on her face show how much bravery she has, something you'll never have. So I suggest you keep your damned mouth shut!" With that he turned and stalked out of the common room down the great hall. I was shocked, James never yelled at Lily. Sure they argued but it was more on Lily's part than on James. Lily seemed to be thinking along the same lines because he eyes filled with tears.

"Zee, I would never, I didn't mean-"

"It's alright" I told her. "I know."

"Don't worry about James, flower he's just upset that it happened to her, when he should have been the one with the scars." Sirius said. Did James really think that? He has no right to feel guilty I did it of my own free will.

"Come on, let's go" When we reached the entrance to the hall Lily continued on but I stopped. I couldn't do it. Everyone was going to stare, talk about me.

"Zee, you can do this. I'm right here." Sirius said. I nodded and we set off. Peter and Sirius at my side. Everyone looked in as we entered like they always did. It felt like the longest walk in my life. My head down, hair in my face. I could hear the whispers. "Look at her face" many said while others said "I can't believe it, that poor girl she was so pretty. While other simply said it looked disgusting. "head up" Sirius whispered in my ear, "Your still a marauder." After he said that I thought you know what you're right. I am a marauder. I lifted my head and shook my hair out of my face. And walked to where James was sitting.

When I sat down I through my arms around him and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Don't feel bad, because I don't." I watched as Lily walked away from her friends and took a seat next to James. James and I stared at her while I heard Sirius say "No way."

"James? I'm so sorry I didn't mean to upset you this morning, I should have thought before I said anything. I was being stupid." She called him James?! I couldn't believe it. I think James was in shock. I elbowed him in the ribs and he jumped up.

"No, I'm sorry I shouldn't have yelled like that, it was my fault I took it the wrong way. Thanks for apologizing." He stopped and added on "Lily." I smiled brightly as I watched the two talk.

"Look at them." I said quietly to Peter, and Sirius. They both had smiles on their faces.

"I see them, love. Maybe she'll finally realize that they were meant for eachother." Sirius said still smiling.

"I hope so" Peter said.

"Xeomara!" I heard someone say from behind me and saw Tim walking over.

"Oh no." I groaned. "Want me to make him leave" Sirius asked.

"No, its okay."

"Xeomara, are you okay? What happened."

"Hullo Tim. Just a fun time gone bad is all. I'm okay." I said sweetly.

"Good, were still on for next Saturday right?" he asked.

"Of course."

"Well good, see you around." I couldn't believe it! He still wanted to go out with me!

"Zee, you're going out with Tim next week? You are so lucky! Why didn't you tell me? When did you manage that?" Lily asked.

"You should have seen her flower, he came up yesterday and she puts it, she had him hook, line and sinker." Sirius told her. Lily laughed at that, as did everyone else.

"Always the charmer, huh Zee?" Lily asked.

"Always." I agreed.