THANKS FOR THE FEEDBACK. GUYS, I KNOW YOU ALL WANT THEM TOGETHER LIKE NOW BUT I'M TRYING TO DO IT REALISTICALLY & GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT ;)
THE MORE FEEDBACK, THE FASTER THE UPDATES.
Lorraine sat in her car, studying her reflection in the mirror and putting yet another coat of red lipstick on. Any excuse to spend longer in her car, waiting for Nikki to drive in. Wanting to walk into the school with her. Close to her. Just the two of them. She spun around in her seat as she heard the roaring of an engine and instantly sunk back down again when she realised it was just Maggie and Grantly. She didn't want to have to explain to them what she was doing there. Not on her own. She wanted Nikki beside her. Like how it used to be. Once she'd watched Maggie and Grantly disappear through the school doors, lorraine sat back up in her seat. Just in time to notice Nikki's car pull into the car park. Lorraine was slightly disappointed when she turned left instead of right and so wouldn't have seen Lorraine's car. Still though, she quickly got out of her car to casually watch Nikki appear from hers. Lorraine's eyes lit up as she watched Nikki running a hand through her silky dark hair. A smile spread across her face as she wondered how long it would be until she could do that again. Run her fingers through Nikki's hair whilst kissing her. Pulling her closer. She quickly lost her smile as she saw someone else appear out of Nikki's passenger side. Lola. Ugh, Lorraine had momentarily forgotten about her. They're arriving together. So she obviously stayed at Nikki's. Images of them together flashed through Lorraine's mind, Lola laying on Nikki's chest, Nikki kissing around Lola's lips before parting them with her tongue, Nikki biting down hard on her own lip as she looked down at Lola taking her to places only Lorraine wanted to. Everything they shared together but she wasn't there, it was just Lola and Nikki. Her Nikki. Lorraine's stomach churned with regret and panic. Suddenly she wasn't ready to talk to Nikki. Not with Lola there. She saw them walking towards the school, she didn't think she had time to get back in her car without attracting attention to herself so she quickly jumped behind it instead. Kneeling on the floor inbetween the back of her car and the car park gate. She'd wait there until they had gone in. Luckily she had her phone so she mindlessly scrolled through her emails waiting for it to be safe to go in. She pulled a cigarette out of her pocket and lit it up. Nicotine hitting the back of her throat, grabbing her anxiety & she breathed it out closing her eyes slightly. Calming down with every drag.
"Ahem...!"
Lorraine looked up like a rabbit caught in the headlights to see Nikki standing over her with a small smile.
"First day and caught smoking? Tut tut Miss Donnegan..." Nikki shook her head as she suppressed a giggle.
Shit. How was Lorraine going to explain hiding behind her car? She blushed slightly as ridiculous reasons ran through her mind. She opened her mouth, not sure what was going to come out. Luckily Nikki cut her off.
"Budge over then..." Nikki sat next to Lorraine, making her move over slightly so they were both hidden by her car. She took the cigarette from Lorraine and took a small drag. Leaning against Lorraine's car and looking up, blowing smoke towards the sky. Lorraine watched as her eyelashes involuntarily fluttered. How could Nikki make smoking look so sexy? Nikki turned to Lorraine and narrowed her eyes slightly wondering what was making her stare so much.
"Erm... I... I didn't know you smoked?" Lorraine leaned against Nikki as casual as possible but relishing in the goosebumps travelling up her arm. Hoping they were contagious and also running up Nikki's.
"Well I didn't know you did." Nikki raised her eyebrows and handed Lorraine the cigarette back. Their fingers touched for a moment. Their eyes meeting. "You're nervous aren't you?" Nikki let go of the cigarette but continued to look into Lorraine's eyes. Reading her thoughts. Well some of them.
"How do you do that?" Lorraine whispered as if it was a secret question. Between them two and against logic. "You always know. You know what I'm feeling. Theres no hiding anything from you." Lorraine looked all over Nikki's face as if searching for clues.
"Not always." Nikki's eyes were pulled away from Lorraine's and drawn to her hands now idly resting in her lap. Lorraine hated herself for ruining the moment. Reminding Nikki how distant she'd been last time. But loved that their arms were still touching.
Nikki gently nudged Lorraine. "Come on. We better get in there eh?"
Lorraine nodded with a smile watching Nikki jump to her feet. Her heart pounded as Nikki held out her hand to pull her up. Lorraine didn't want to let go. But she did. Of course she did. She didn't want to push Nikki. They were growing closer again. Rebuilding the friendship that started it all.
"Let's do this." Lorraine let go of Nikki's hand and they walked into the school in a comfortable silence. Neither aware that the same thoughts were running through each others minds as they walked up the steps where it all ended. Regret consuming them both they echoed a sad smile towards each other. A silent "we totally fucked up".
