Misty: Woohoo! Two chaps in one day! :3 Since I hadn't update for so long, I thought of making it up to you by posting two chaps now c: Welp, hope you guys will enjoy it! ^^
MISTY OUT!
I woke up the next morning by someone calling my name. I sat up in bed, rubbing the sleep from my eyes as Pan walked into my tent. I blinked at him a few times, trying to get my brain to wake up. "Mornin'..." I mumbled sleepily.
"We need to have a talk. Get dressed and meet me outside" was all he said before walking out of my tent, a slight anger shown in his eyes.
"Geez... Someone woke up at the wrong end of the bed..." I mumbled as I dragged my sleepy body out of bed and got dressed as quickly as I could. I left my hair loose after brushing it, not really feeling like putting any effort in making a hairstyle.
I walked out of my tent and was instantly met by Pan, looking a little pissed at the moment. I gulped down, thinking that he might murder me or something. He walked into the woods without saying anything. So I just followed after him.
As we came to a small clearing, he suddenly stopped and turned around, making me almost crash into him if h\it weren't for him pushing me against a tree. The anger in his eyes had grown more intense as he glared daggers at him.
"I know what you and Felix did yesterday. I advise you to stay away from him if you want to keep your pathetic little life. You don't deserve to be here in the first place. Should have send you away when I could. But the boys seemed rather... happy to have you back...
You better stay away form them if I were you. You don't belong here. You're just a weak, pathetic piece of trash that doesn't deserve to be here" Pan said to me, looking more that furious as he finished talking.
I tried my hardest to hold my tears in, not wanting to look weak in front of him. I just glared up at him as he backed away and turned to walk away. "Head my words, girl" he spat before disappearing between the trees.
I finally broke down, falling to my knees as the tears finally escaped from my eyes. I sat there, crying for what felt like forever, before finally getting up and walking back towards camp.
Walking into camp, all the boys looked up at me, seeming concerned as they saw my tear stained face. I watched as Felix got up, about to walk towards me, but I quickly walked to my tent, wanting to be alone.
(Felix's POV)
I sat around the fire with the boys, talking with them. Although all I could think about was the kiss with Amelia yesterday. It felt good at the time, but I knew that Pan wouldn't like it if he know... which he probably already did.
I looked up as I noticed Amelia walk into camp. Her eyes were red and puffy and her cheeks tear-stained. I frowned as I watched her looking our way, feeling a slight sting in my heart of seeing her like this. As I got up and started walking towards her, she quickly walked to her tent. I stared at the closed tent entrance for a bit when one of the boys nudged my side.
"What's up with her?" I looked beside me to see Rufio standing there, his gaze locked on Amelia's tent. I shrugged in reply, looking back at the tent. I turned and looked at Pan, seeing him trying to quickly hide the smirk on his face.
"What did you do to her?" I asked... or more like demanded as I glared at the brunette boy. He looked at me with that sickening smirk of his. "All I did was show her her place here in Neverland. She's a bad influence on you and the boys..." he replies, making me only angrier. I quickly turned around before I would punch him in the face.
I walked over to Amelia's tent, standing in front of the entrance. "Amelia? Are you okay?" I called out, getting no repsone. All I heard was a choked sob, making my heart break a little. I quietly opened her tent, closing it again behind me. I looked at Amelia, horror filling my heart at the view.
Tears were streaming down her cheeks, her eyes full of sadness and emptiness at the same time. But what was the worst was the bloodied knife in her hand and the fresh blood on her wrist. A few fresh scars ran along her arms, blood leaking out and falling on the floor.
Tears formed in my eyes as I quickly walked over to her, taking the knife from her and placing it down before pulling her in a hug. Her arms wrapped tightly around my torso as I held her close. She broke down and started to cry as I just held her, not caring that the blood from her cuts and her tears were staining my cloak and shirt.
We sat there for a while, me just holding her and rockng her softly back and forth as she slowly started to calm down. When she finally stopped crying, I pulled away and held her at arm-length from me. With one hand, I wiped away the remaining tears.
"What happened?" I asked softly, looking her in the eyes. Her eyes were cast down to the floor.
"I'm sorry... I don't deserve this..." she mumbled quietly while removing my hands from her shoulders.
"I don't deserve to be here... or to live for that matter... Pan was right... I'm just a piece of trash, and I'm a distration for the boys..." she added. Hearing this made me feel like my heart feel like it broke into a million pieces.
"No... no, don't say that... You deserve better than this. You're a wonderful person" I tried to comfort her, but she didn't listen to me. She backed away from me, as if silently asking me to leave her alone. I let out a soft sigh, not wanting to leave her, but I did like she asked. On my way out, I took the knife with me so she wouldn't hurt herself more.
I stood outside her tent, wiping away the tears when I heard a soft melody of a guitar and the voice of Amelia as she sang and played. The song itself was sad, although I didn't know it.
"Time has run out for me, everything's distant and I don't know what to believe
It's so hard, lost in the world's confusion and I need to leave for a while,
Life is so meaningless, there is nothing worth a smile. So goodbye, I'll miss you...
And I'm sorry, but this is my faith,
Everything is worthless, no one want me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long,
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me,
I'm not worth any tears..."
I listened as her soft voice drifted along, feeling the sadness return once again. I wanted to go in there and comfort her, but she made it obvious that she didn't want to.
I walked back towards the camp fire, sitting down on a log and staring into the flames with a blank look.
"Felix, I need you to do something for me" Pan said, looking at me with a smirk. I didn't respond at first, but I turned to look at him, glaring daggers at him.
"Fuck you! It's your fault Amelia is in a lot of pain! You're a monster" I yelled at him, storming off into the woods to cool down before I would end up murdering someone.
Misty: I'm sorry for the short chapter... I'm having a lot of trouble with my depression problems and I didn't want this chapter to end up getting darker than it already is... There is self-harm involved in this chap, and I want to advise people who have troubles with depression; Do NOT do self-harm. It will ruin you till the breaking point where it might end up with suicidal thoughts. I've experienced this a lot of times, and it breaks me on the inside. The scars will always remain there, and it will difficult to stop...
Also I won't update for a while since my depression problems have been getting worse the past few days, and I don't want to end up dragging my feelings into the story like I did in this chap... I hope that it will be better soon so I can work on this story and the other ones again...
Goodbye for now...
