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It belongs to Mashima-sama. I'm just a fan trying to make a story about my OTP!

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This is for avidfanficreader.

Thank you so much for the advice and kind words. I appreciate everything that you said. Your theories though! You almost hit the mark. The thing is a week ago I kind of change my mind about how it goes, good decision I must say because now you still need to wonder what would happen! ^_^\/

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"Did you just bring me here to help you clean all these couple of year worth of dust?" Juvia eyed Gray who was wiping the windows while she swept the floor covered with dust.

"Are you tired?" he asked looking back at her. "If you want you could just sit on the couch while I finish this."

"I didn't say I'm tired." She's far from being tired. She's just wondering why they end up cleaning when she thought they would talk or that he would show her around in his apartment which was awfully familiar to her. When she got herself back together after their unexpected make out, Juvia got a chance to take in the place and it did brought distorted images playing in her head. Just standing there gave her a feeling of finally being home for the first time after a long time. It's as if she used to truly belong in that place. "When will we talk about our past?"

Gray completely stopped what he was doing and just stared on the rug he was holding like it would answer for him. Our past. It sounded so good coming from her. If only it indicated that two of them could still be considered as one. But it's just exactly as she said it, past. No longer. "Juvia," he called her name after a short moment of contemplating in his head. "Would you mind if I ask you to give this day to me?"

"W-what do you mean?"

Silence filled the air for more than a minute between them and Juvia could hear her own heart beating wildly inside her chest like it wants to jump out. What does he mean? Didn't he said the other day that he would tell her what he could to help her remember everything and that he would give her the answers she seek.

"I just want to spend a day with you in this place where we used to be so happy before," he explained not looking at her anymore. "I know it's too much to ask from you but I just want to have one more happy memory of you because there's a big possibility that after you heard everything from me you would walk away again. Five years was a long time but with your memories unclear to you, recalling what came between us might just trigger your anger again. You might just hate me again."

He's not looking at her and she could not see his eyes but she could feel the pain and longing in his voice. It's like he's trying to hide his weakness from her by avoiding her gaze. "Gray I-"

"I promise," he suddenly blurted out cutting off what she's about to say. "Tomorrow. I'll tell you everything tomorrow. Ask me everything you want to know and I'll give you an answer but please not today."

She sighed and walked towards him. "I'm hungry," she nonchalantly said. "Can we go out to eat something?" she suggested with a smile when he looked at her flabbergasted. "You said you want to spend a day with me so maybe we could go out and eat just like a date and enjoy the day together." She had no idea where did that came from but she could not bear seeing him so sad like that.

His face lit up and it's enough for her to know that she said the right thing. "Sure! I know a place. It's not that grand but you'll love it."

"Okay. But..." her eyes darted away before she finished what she was saying. "What becomes of your shirt?"

"Wha—" Gray looked down and found himself shirtless. "I—I...I'm sorry. I – It's just a-an old habit," he tried to explain looking around for his shirt.

Juvia's cheeks were red from embarrassment but she was taken aback when her eyes caught something on his right chest. Unconsciously her hand lifted up to touch it, unaware of what her touch was doing on Gray's senses. "Snowflake," she whispered. "I have it, too." What does it mean? Why does he have the same tattoo she has on her thigh? Did they have it together? Was it something important to them?

Gray gingerly took her hand in his and brought it to his lips, closing his eyes in the process. Of course he knew about it. Those matching tattoos came along with a very precious memory and just thinking about it was maddening. He's doing his best to hold on to his self control. "I know, Babe," he said unaware of the use of the endearment. "I know you have it, too. On your left thigh, a blue snowflake."

They were threading on a dangerous path, she knew it. The way he gripped her hand, it was telling everything. That simple touch made all her senses run wild. "Gray," she breathed out not so sure as to why she's having a hard time breathing all of a sudden. Her skin that he touched seemed to be on fire. She could feel a heat starting to burn in the fit of her stomach and the need to touch more of him was growing from a hunger to maddening desire.

Her other hand moved up on its own accord to touch his face but he was quick to let go of her leaving her stunned with the emptiness that surged through her being due to the absence of his touch. Without a word he rapidly walked out of the living room. She just heard a door closing rather harshly indicating that he went to the bathroom.

What just happened, she had no clue.

But one thing is for sure.

Juvia Lockser cannot stay alone in room with Gray Fullbuster without anything happening.

The attraction between the two of them was too strong for them to handle.

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Awkward silence hang in the air as Juvia and Gray sat face to face inside a small cafe in Magnolia's downtown. There were only few words exchanged between them after the tattoo incident. When gray came out from the bathroom he hastily asked her that they should get going and the walk to the cafe which happened to be the nearest to his apartment building was completely silent. Everytime their eyes would meet, it's either she would look away or he would find the table decor much more interesting and she's becoming wary of it.

She looked up on him when she heard him heaved a deep sigh. "Look," he looked back at her. "I'm sorry about what happened back there it's just that I-"

"I know," she butted in. "I'm aware of what happened. "I felt it, too."

"It's just so hard to hold back." There's just too much sexual tension between them.

"But I'm glad you were able to control yourself," she murmured. "I don't know what could have happened if you didn't pull away. I-I don't know what's going on with me but I just can't seem to control myself around you." She was clearly ashamed and it's very obvious by the shade of red painted on her cheeks.

There was silence again but that time it was welcome for they don't know what to say to each other. Juvia was thinking what would be the come out of their time together while Gray was thinking if he's doing the right thing prolonging their time together even just for a day. He's still not sure what would be the end of it and he's definitely has no clue if Juvia just want to merely have her memories back or if she's that eager because she wants to come back to the life she left behind and completely forgotten.

What was bugging him even more was why she was acting like they had all the time in the world to deal with getting back what she lost in that accident. She said Rogue was someone who had always been there but what role he exactly played in her life? He knew that he already decided not to delve on it but it won't stop popping in his head.

"Juvia—"

"Gray—"

They called each other at the same and Gray let her talk first. "Go on. What is it?"

"I think, even if we try to just enjoy this day it's unavoidable that things from our past would keep on getting in the way. There would always be questions that cannot wait to be answered." That was just simply impossible.

"You're right," he agreed. "Obviously I'm just delaying things because I know that I did a horrible, unforgivable thing before. I was such a bad boyfriend. Bad won't actually fit how terrible I was to you. I always took you for granted. I don't know how to treat you properly and I'm just too possessive because there's always other men trying to get your attention." Words seemed to just pour out of his mouth out of his control. It's just like a flood cannot be contained and he thinks it would be best just to go with it now that he's finally talking so he continues. "Heck I even pretended to be sick once so you won't be able to make it to the Miss Magnolia University competition that our friends blackmailed you to join." Remembering about that, Gray could not help but to realized how stupid he was. "I always want to keep you for myself. People used to think you were obsessive but what they failed to see was how selfish I was when it comes to you. I was a full time jerk towards you."

Words failed her once again. There's nothing her mind could think to say. Hearing him admit the wrong things he did to her were not what she expected to hear from him. She was ready to hear what the reason of their break up and why she came back to Oak Town but nothing prepared her on hearing him confess his own wrong doings.

She blinked when he spoke again. "My life had been pointless before I met you. I was just going along with what my friends were doing. I really got no dreams because I knew whatever happened there's something my parents left for me so surely I'll get by and still live a comfortable life. But then you came," he paused to gave her a weak smile. "At first I thought you were weird, always spacing out and lost in your own little world then you started following me around. Eventually we started hanging out with each other until I no longer knew how to pass a day without talking to you. It used to be so easy because, you know, we had the same course, and we're on the same class. "

"Y-you mean to say we're always together?"

He shook his head no. "Not always, but most of the time." And he missed those days. "When we're just friends, I tried my best not to fall for you because I'm scared. I was always scared that if I let you in in my heart you would just leave or disappear just like everyone else that I held dear in my heart. That's why when you became mine I did everything to make sure that you won't go anywhere or that no men other than my friends would ever get near you." Those words left a bitter taste in his mouth. How foolish he used to be. "I easily get jealous but I was an asshole who always played it cool so I didn't show it, instead I bent it all out on you. More than often I made you feel so worthless without me. I did it so you won't think about leaving me. Rather than to let you have a fun life with other people I caged you using your love for me."

He waited for her to say anything but from the looks of it, she's still processing all what he said. He gave her a couple of minutes before he resumed talking. "That's not all what I did," he started catching her attention once more. "I accused you of something I know in my heart that you would never do. I was so jealous when I saw you with another man in a hotel room that I accused you of cheating on me."

Juvia looked surprised. "I-I was with another man?"

He smiled dejectedly. "Yes you were, but it's someone I should have known and you were not cheating at all," he said dolefully. "It was Gajeel, your brother."

"You thought I was cheating with my brother?" No wonder Gajeel didn't like him at all.

"I didn't know he was your brother," he defended himself lamely. "I never paid attention whenever you talked about your family." And he should have. It was so important and only a fool like him would do what he did.

"That's the reason we broke up?"

"Part of it," he sighed. Looking straight in her eyes Gray told her all about what happened on that awful day that if only he could turn back time he would surely change it. He watched her as she listened to his story. The tale of how their love story ended because of his own stupidity. "I did try to fix it but I was too late. Our foundation was long gone, maybe we were actually fated to crumble down but I was still hoping. I did promise to wait for you to come back... And I'm still hoping."

No more words came after that.

Their order arrived just after he finished his story and they started to eat in silence but Juvia barely eat anything from her plate. She looked stunned and seemed to be lost in her own thoughts and Gray just let her be. He knew the things he said were too much to absorb. He could tell by looking in her eyes that she's having an internal argument with herself.

Juvia on the other hand could not believe what she heard. She might not be able to remember her past but she knew to herself that she's not one to go around whoring when her boyfriend was not around. What kind of man would accuse the woman he said he loved like that? She could now understand why Gajeel didn't want her to come back, he probably knew about all of what Gray just said. Knowing herself, she always tells Gajeel everything because he was her best friend.

And it was so clear that Gray told her everything truthfully. It was good of him not to fabricate anything with a lie which she surely won't be able to know not unless she gets back her memories. But still, what he said he did was so bad she could not fathom what she felt that day. It must hurt a lot that it was enough to drive her away.

With her eyes closed tight, she inhaled deeply as she forced herself not to show Gray any indication that her head was hurting again. There's just too much she heard for a day and the screws in her brain were working double time that it's making her feel dizzy. "I-I must go now."

That's all she said before practically running out of the cafe leaving Gray alone in his own thoughts.

Maybe with or without her memories, Juvia was still hurt by what he did.

Maybe the forgiveness he's craving for would not be coming in a long time.

Reminding her of what happened could be compared to removing stitches to an unhealed wound without a care, stretching it to bleed again and putting salt on it to ensure more pain and torture.

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There!

I finished it!

I hope you guys like it.

For all the readers who gave me a review, thank you so much.

All I can say is that, I'm happy that my story made you feel the way you feel about it because that's exactly what I want to happen. Let's just give Gray a little time. We all know he's a bit a jerk for real and it's not easy to evolve from being one.

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P.S.

This might be my last post for this month. My sister begged me to let her have my laptop for a while (which I perfectly knew would be few weeks) because she said she needs it more than I do for the time being. Since it's her birthday in a few days I'll let her have it. That means I won't be able to write but I would try to use my cellphone or if I can manage I could use my employers spare laptop (You see I work as a part time assistant to my former professor while I'm waiting for my Practice Teaching to start which will be in few months) Imagine I actually have a life aside from virtually living in fantasy! ^_^\/

So, once again, I hope to get reviews. It will surely motivate me to do something about finding a way to be able to have an update.

Bye Bye!

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this was actually written few days ago but my internet connection was bitching.