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"Well, I'm going to say this. I can't be your friend right now. It's too hard to see you and Melissa together. I feel like such an idiot right now." I told him and my tears kept on falling. "Look, I don't know where I stand with you. And I don't know what I really mean to you. All I know is everytime I think of you. All I want to do is to be with you. You're all I ever think about Jacob. Do you know how hard that is to see you everyday and not be next to you? When you avoided that week I came back to school from being sick, after our great conversations. That hurted me so bad. But I couldn't...I wouldn't let you see how bad that hurt me. And you know what sucks about that? I still wanted you. Why?! Because of how you make me feel. You know how to make my day not even having to say a word to me. You being yourself around me and you being one of my best friends...I couldn't help but fall for you. I fell Jacob. And now that I know that you're not going to be there to catch me. I can't see you right now. I can't talk to you right now. It's going to hurt too much. I need to get over my feelings for you. And until I can do that I just have to keep my distance."

"But..." Jacob started saying something until I cut him off.

"But if you can tell me that you're something more than "straight" I don't know how I'm going to handle this." I can tell my eyes were red now. My face was full of tears drops rolling off my cheeks. And I can see Jacob just standing there staring at me. Speechless. "It was fun Jacob, but this is a goodbye for now."

I turned around and headed towards the door. Even more tears were falling from my eyes. I couldn't believe all this just happened. Jacob was just standing still behind me. Not moving an inch from where I left him. I got to the door trying to get my breathing in order. As I turned the doorknob, all I can think of was this was it.

As I turned the doorknob I heard footsteps rushing up behind me. Oh god, was he going to punch me? I started to open the door slightly until Jacob slammed the door back shut. He grabbed my arm and turned me around aggressively. He pushed me against the door and just stared at me. What was he thinking?

"What are you..." I started to say when Jacob leaned in and kissed me.

As shocked as I was this had to be the best kiss I had ever had. His lips was so soft and moist. There was not tongue, but it had all the emotion to back it up. I could hear his heavy breathing and I could feel his heart beating against my chest. He then backed up and I think this time I looked like a deer caught in headlights.

We were silently looking at eachother until I broke the silence. "W-what was that?" I asked. This time it I was the one left with all the questions.

"I couldn't help it. I couldn't let you walk out." he confessed.

"So where does this leave us? What are we? Are we anything?" I inquired.

"I don't know. I didn't lie to you when I said that I wasn't gay. But since the first day we talked on the phone I started gaining all these feelings for you which left me confused. I wanted to talk to you more. I wanted to spend every day with you at school. I wanted more, but I'm not gay. Or at least I don't think so. I'm still trying to figure this out. As hard it was hard for you when I ignored you, it was just as hard for me to treat you that way. I didn't know how to act around you. When the first time I saw you after you came back I got nervous. Sure, I was excited that you were back, but seeing you walk up to us I couldn't help get butterflies. No one has ever done that to me before. Seth, you don't know what you do to me. Everytime you laugh I can't help, but not laugh myself. Seeing James hitting on you I made me want to punch him. He was trying to get at you and I wanted you all to myself. That sounds selfish I know. Granted I didn't know you liked me as well, but I don't know if I would have ever been the first to confess my feelings."

"What about you and Melissa? Where does this leave you guys?" I asked another question

"What about Melissa?! You keep talking about Melissa and I'm here confessing how I feel about you!" Jacob yelled seeming frustrated.

"Well aren't you guys kind of dating?"

"Melissa and I are just friends. You have Jasper and I have her. End of story. Should I assume somethings going on with you and Jasper? You guys spend a lot of time together." Jacob said

"No! We're just friends!" I yelled back at him

"Exactly! That's what I'm trying to tell you." Jacob now calming down and sitting down on the couch. I took a seat right now to him.

"So what does this make us? Are we together? Or are we just friends?" I asked.

"I don't know. I can barely grasp on what's going on right now. Honestly, I can't believe I just did that right now." Jacob telling me.

"Look, if it was a mistake then we can just pretend that never happened, but if that's what you're telling me right now then I still can't be your friend because that doesn't change the way I feel for you."

Jacob looked defeated and said softly, "I don't want to lose you as a friend or anything else. I don't even know where I stand right now. Just like you're probably trying to find yourself. I've been fighting these things for awhile as well. Since you came here to Forks my life has been turned upside down." Jake reached over and held my hand. "I can't promise you much, but I can promise you that if we take this one step at a time we'll figure this out. All I know is that I want to be with you and I'm not going to let an opportunity like this walk away from me."

I couldn't say anything, but smile and nodded.

As we were sitting down and I was staring at Jake, the room started getting darker and it seemed like Jacob was starting to fade away. What's going on here?! There was a loud buzz that echoed everywhere.

I opened my eyes just to see that I was in my room. My phone was violently vibrating next to me. My eyes felt so heavy and puffy from all the crying that happened last night. Then reality slapped me on my face. Jacob confessing his love for me was just a dream. The only thing that happened last night was me walking out of Jacobs house and running home to confine myself in my room. So many tears was shed last night which also caused me to fall asleep. Did I make the wrong decision in not wanting to talk to him for awhile. My heart hurts so much. How am I to act around him now? Did he tell everyone else?

My phone continued to vibrate next to me. I grabbed it to find out it was Jasper that was calling. Oh god. How am I going to tell him. I guess there's only one way to do it and just tell him. He said he'll be there for me. And right now, that's what I'm going to need.

"Hi Jasper." I greeted lowly

It sounded like he was driving somewhere because I could hear the sound of wind through the background. What time was it? I looked at the clock, it was only 6:30 in the morning! What was he calling me so early.

"So! Tell me, did you do it?!" was all he asked.

I couldn't hide it even just talking to him over the phone. I started crying again. It hurted so bad just to think of what happened last night.

"Are you crying?! OMG what happened. Never mind, I'm a few blocks away from your house. Open the door for me." Jasper said quickly and hung up the call.

He was right, it wasn't long till I got a text saying to open the front door. I really wasn't feeling the want to get out of bed today. I slowly made my way downstairs. Looks like everyone is still sleeping, I'm glad because I would hate for them to see me like this. I opened the door for Jasper and made my way back up to my room with him following right behind me. I jumped back in bed and put the covers over me so he wouldn't see me. I heard Jasper close my bedroom door and i felt my bed dip as he sat down next to me. He pulled the covers over me and he saw that I was still crying. He scooted over to me and placed his hands on my cheeks and wiped my tears off with his thumb.

"What happened last night?" he asked softly

As I began to tell him every detail of what happened last night. I continued to cry some more. This time Jasper jumped to the other side of the bed and just cuddle with me and hold me. His hold kept getting tighter as I continued to tell him about my confession and how I just walked out of his house.

"He's such a dick" Jasper said

I turned over to face Jasper. "No he's not. I kissed him. Not the other way around. I guess he just acted like anyone else would."

"Fuck that bullshit. He shouldn't have let you walk away. Even if he didn't feel the same way, he shouldn't have let you walk away!"

I didn't expect Jasper to be this angered. My emotions started to take over me again and I started the water works. He pulled me closer to him and he let me cry on his chest.

"Now you know. I hate seeing you like this. It breaks me to see you crying. But you know what? We'll get through this. I promise you that." Jasper said as he rubbed my back

I looked up at him, "What's going to happen today when we get to school? I don't know how I'm going to act around him. I told him I can't be his friend right now because it would hurt too much to see him with Melissa. What if he tells everyone?"

Jasper gave a sigh and looked into my eyes, "I may not know Jacob all that well, but I know him well enough that he's not going to out you. I can assure you that. Look, if you don't want to see him right now then we can both hang out somewhere else. Yea, people might start asking questions, but just tell them that you're going through something personal. The guys won't push the issue. They're guys. As for Jacob and Melissa. Try not to let that bother you too much. After all, at the end of the day. You and Jacob are still friends right?" I nodded. "Good, start getting ready. You're going to ride with me to school. I'll wait here."

I started getting ready. I got to the bathroom and looked at my face. Oh god, I looked like a mess. I took as shower and Jasper was left in my room waiting for me to finish up. I quickly finished up not wanting anyone in the house to see how horrible I look. Jasper and I left my house and started driving to school. When we got to the parking lot, we didn't get out. We just sat there talking. Jasper trying to get my mind off things and asking me random questions. I'm glad I have him as a friend. I don't know how I would be able to handle all this all alone.

I got to my first class and I noticed Embry wasn't there today. Good cause I didn't feel like doing any explaining. I kept my head down during class trying to avoid any wandering eyes. My thoughts came back to Jake. My feelings were so split right now. Half of me didn't want to see him, but the other half did. But how would I even act around him? Would that even be possible?

As the lunch bell rang, I quickly got out off the the class and headed towards the other side of the field of where we usually all hang out. I looked over at the group to notice that Jacob wasn't even there. Where was he? I heard a familiar voice behind me. I turned around to see that it was Jacob and Melissa sitting down on some benches behind me. Jacob and I made eye contact. The way his eyes looked made me feel like he was surprised to see me there. Melissa saw me and smiled and said hi. Before I could even greet her back I heard Jacob say "We have to go" and they both got up and left. I started to feel even more crushed. Was he avoiding me again?!

I took a seat at the bench where Jacob and Melissa occupied and just put my head down feeling defeated. I heard someone sit next to me and clear their throat to gain my attention. I thought it was Jasper, but I was wrong. It was James.

"What's up buddy? Where's your guard dog?" He asked with a smile.

I rolled my eyes and looked forward. "What's it to you?"

"You seem down, is everything ok?" He asked me another question.

"Why do you even care?" I answered with another question.

He nudged his shoulder with my shoulder. "I always see you smiling and today there's not a hint of it on your face."

I turned to look at him again. "I'm just going through some shit right now that's all."

"Did you need anyone to talk to?"

"Why? What are you getting from this?" I inquired

He gave me another smile. "I'm not getting anything from this. You seem like you need a friend since you're isolated away from your group. I was just walking around I saw you here. I saw your dog and his little chihuahua walk away so I decided to see if you were ok." He looked away from me and took a deep breath, "I know you hear a lot of stuff about me. Bad stuff. I can tell you that a lot of them are true, yea. But if I can say, no one has ever asked me why I'm even like this. Why I put up such a front with everyone. Deep down, I'm broken too."

I was trying to study his face. I didn't why he's even wasting his time.

James turned to look at me again. "Give me a chance to be your friend. That's all I'm asking. I promise you're not going to regret it. I want you to see that deep down, I'm not a douche. Just a guy trying to survive his high school life. Just like you. I may not have a lot of friends, but can't say that I don't try. Here's my number." He took out a piece of paper from his pocket and started to write down some digits and handed it to me. "When or if you feel like you want to give me a chance of your friendship; I'll be on the other end waiting for your phone call." He gave me another one of his charming smiles, got up and walked away.

He was right though, he has a reputation. I doubt anyone has even tried to get to know him. I took his number and pushed it into my pocket. Maybe I should just give him a chance of friendship if that's all he's asking for. It was another 5 minutes till Jasper met up with me at the bench. He asked me again how I was doing. I told him about what happened with Jacob and he seemed angered by Jacobs reaction.

"It's going to be so awkward in my math class now. We have the same class." I told Jasper.

"Then don't make it awkward. Pay attention to class and pretend that he's not even there. There's not much you can do with him being in the same class." Jasper said.

Ugh, Jasper was right. As I heard the bell ring, I dreaded going to my math class. I purposely walked to class really slow. I got in a few minutes before the bell rang and I see Jacob still hasn't come in yet. I took my normal seat. A few seconds later Jacob entered the class. With his head down, avoiding eye contact. He sat down a few seats behind me which was awkward because he usually sits right next to me. This time for sure I knew he was avoiding me. This was actually worse than before. At least before he still sat next to me. I'm losing this battle. I turned to look at him, but as I turned he looked the other way. Ouch! Did I just lose him as a friend? I felt my eyes start to tear up again, but not wanting him to see I turned to look forward again. Wasn't this what I wanted. To be away from him for awhile? Yes but I didn't want to be treated like I wasn't even in the same room. I was breaking in many different pieces. I'm breaking too fast to even try to put myself back together now.

The end of class didn't come soon enough. I grabbed my things and flew out the door without taking a chance to look back. I know that I have Jasper, but even just that I still felt alone. The one person that could have put me back together is making it clear that he doesn't want anything to do with me. I walked towards my locker when I saw Melissa running my way. Great, someone who I really didn't want to see right now.

"Seth!" Melissa yelled out as she continued running towards me.

"Hey" I greeted her.

As she was pulling her hair back into a ponytail she never left eye contact. Her eyes looked very concerned and I could see a hint of sadness in there. What did she want?

"Can I help you?" I asked her since she still hasn't said anything.

"I know there's something going on between you and Jake..." she started saying until I cut her off.

"Look Melissa. I don't want to sound rude, but you're the last person I want to talk about Jake with." I interrupted.

I tried to walk pass by her, but she pushed me into a locker so I wouldn't leave without hearing what she wanted to say. "I've been talking to Jake and I've been telling him what he's doing is stupid and immature."

"What's your point?!" I was getting frustrated.

"My point is that you guys are friends. Whatever happened between you two..."

"Whatever happened between Jake and I are our business." I interrupted once again.

"I'm trying to help you!" Melissa said

Getting even more frustrated I pushed her hand out of my way. I walked passed by her, turned around and said, "I didn't ask for your help!" Feeling more heated I left her in the hallway as I turned the corner.

Why did she even try to seek me out? I didn't ask for her help. What was she even trying to do? Rub the situation even deeper. No, that's not what I want. I'm not going to let her. She won. She has Jacob and I'm left without him. For all I know, she just needs to stay away from me.

I'm starting to lose a grip on everything. The rest of the school day went by slowly. I wasn't even paying attention to any of the lectures. All I heard with the ticking the clock was making. I was so anxious to get out of here.

When I finally got home I went straight for my room again. I've been feeling antisocial and I really didn't have a need to communicate with anyone right now. Thinking on the events that happened today at school I start to question if Jacob told Melissa what happened or did she notice it all by herself? And if Jacob really did tell her are they just laughing at how pathetic I've become? Feeling so low, I needed to talk to someone. Someone new. I decided to take James offer. I reached in my pocket and decided to call him.

"Who's this?" James said as he picked up his phone.

"H-hi. It's Seth." I replied back to him shyly.

"Oh hey buddy! So you decided to give me a shot." I could tell he was smiling on the other end.

I rolled around in my bed thinking if I'm making the right decision. "Yea, so um. I really don't want to be home right now. Did you want to meet up for coffee and just talk?" I asked.

He chuckled. "Yea, that would be great. When did you want to meet up?"

"About half an hour. There's a new coffee shop that opened down the street from our school. Do you know the place?"

"Yea. See you soon." He said and hung up the phone.

I rubbed my face with my hands and took a breathe. There's nothing wrong with just talking right? After all he's just asking for my friendship and that's all I'm willing to give him.

I started to walk to the new coffee shop which is about a 10 minute walk from my house. The only problem is that I have to pass Jacob's house just to get there. There was no avoiding it unless I want to go around and take an hour just to go to the coffee shop. As I walked pass Jacob's house, I noticed his truck parked in the driveway. So that means he's home. I tried to hurry past his house when I heard his truck door open. I don't know why, but my feet suddenly stopped and turned towards the trucks direction. Jacob was just getting out of his truck. Again, we both made eye contact. Staring at eachother once again. Not saying anything. I could feel the tension between us and we were nowhere near each other. I started getting frustrated and hurt at the same time. I decided to turn around and walk away. I could feel my heart swell every time I see him.

As I got to the coffee shop I noticed that James wasn't there yet. So I decided to take a seat outside on one of their patio furnitures. My phone started ringing. I grabbed it and saw it was Jasper calling. Probably trying to check up on me.

"Hey Jaz."

"Best friend! Where are you? I'm at your house and your mom told me you left." Jasper told me.

"I'm actually at the new coffee shop that opened down the street." I replied back

"Oh cool I can meet you there."

"Um. Well I'm actually meeting someone here already." I confessed.

"Oh whoo?" Jasper asked.

I gave a big gulp not wanting to hear what Jasper had to say. "James"

"W-wait?! Who? I thought I heard wrong. Did you say James?!" His voice started increasing with every word.

"Yes I said James." I answered quickly

"But why?! He of all people."

"He just wants to be my friend." I said starting to regret telling him.

"NO! I can't allow that!" Jasper now seeming to be even more frustrated.

I was starting to get annoyed. "Jasper you don't even know the guy!"

"I know him well enough. We dated for a day in our Freshmen year. When I mean a day I really ment a day. We started dating one morning and I caught him cheating after school with another guy. I don't want you hanging out with a guy like him." he confessed to me.

"I'm not trying to date him. All he wants to do is talk with me." I said irritably

"And you can't talk to me?! I've always been here for you. I'm your fuckin' best friend for christ sakes!" Jasper now starting to sound sad.

With all these emotions rolling over me I just decided to hang up the phone without saying another word. I know that was stupid of me to do, but I didn't want to hear anymore of his lecture.

I sat around for another good 10 minutes till James arrived. He asked if I wanted something to drink and I nodded at him. He disappeared into the shop and came back out with two frappuccinos.

"Oh you're finally giving me a coffee date. It only took you a few months." He said as he sat down next to me.

"It's not a date." I quickly replied back to him

"You can call it whatever you want. I still get to sit here with you drink coffee" he said with a smile . "So are you going to tell me what's going on? Why the change of heart?"

"I've decided to stop listening to other people and make my own decision."

He seemed amused. "I don't think that's the whole truth, but either way. It still benefits me. So what are the rumours going on about me this time. I lost track with it years ago."

I was starting to feel uncomfortable with his questions. "Well...let's just say they're not the friendliest rumours." I said

He pushed me gently and gave me a small laugh, "Oh c'mon. I promise I'm wearing my big boy pants. I can handle the truth."

I didn't want to look at him. "Um..well. Most of it is just that you're very promiscuous." I confessed.

To my surprise James started laughing hysterically. "Oh that's it. That's old news! I would have thought they would make up something a little more exciting than that. Something like I was secretly pregnant or I have half a dozen kids walking around town."

I looked at him puzzled. "That doesn't bother you?"

"No because they don't know me. They never took the time to get to know me. All it is are words and assumptions that I let them believe."

This guy keeps surprising me. "Why don't you let people know the real you?" I asked him.

"Nobody ever cared enough to find out the truth. Plus, this isn't the right time for that kind of conversation." he said as he gave me a wink.

We talked a little bit more then out of the corner of my eye I saw Melissa coming up. Oh god, there she goes again. I swear I'm going to punch her in the face one of these days. Does she have some kind of homing beacon on me or something?! She noticed me sitting down with James and to my dismay she walked up to me.

"Hey Seth, can I talk to you over here for a few seconds." She said as she waited for me to stand up.

"I don't think I have a choice do I?" I irritably told her.

We walked over to the other side of the patio just out of earshot. She put both her hands on my shoulder, "Hey so you're hanging out with James?" she asked concernedly. "I know we're not that close or anything, but you really shouldn't be hanging out with him."

Getting annoyed I rolled my eyes. "Look, you're not my friend. You can't tell me what to do and I can hang out with whoever I want." I spat back at her.

She lowered her hands from my shoulder to grab both my hands, "I'm just trying to look out for you and be a friend. No matter how much you don't want my friendship."

"Yea thanks for the advice." I took my hands away from her grip and walked back to James.

As I sat back down James asked "What was that about? It looked like an intense conversation."

"Oh nothing serious. Just someone sticking their nose where it shouldn't belong." I replied back.

"It was about me wasn't it?" he inquired.

I looked at him, "It doesn't matter if it was or not. Let's get back to our conversation."

We stayed and talked at the coffee shop for about an hour till we decided to depart our own separate ways. So much has happened today. More than I would have liked. As I was making my way back home, I dreaded the thought of walking past Jakes house again. His truck was still parked in the driveway, but hopefully he was inside his house. I couldn't help, but think how things have turned out. I've lost Jake as a good friend, but hopefully I've gained a new friend in James.