Hello beautiful readers! Thank you so much for your coments, for following this fic, for made this fic one of your fav, to the visitors and guests you have no idea how happy I am to know that you are out there.

I want to apologize with all of you for the delay. I'm not a person who give excuses but I think you should know that I had a little accident and my hand got hurt so it has been really hard to write this and post it. Doctor says is going to be a whole month of recovery but not even that is going to stop me so... here it is a new chapter.

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Shay's POV

"Shay, are you ok? You seem a little distracted today" Marlene pointed out. We were on the middle of a scene with the girls and it already took me 5 shoots to hit the good one

"Ah, yeah… I'm fine just a little tired that's all"

"You want us to take a break?" she looked at me concern

"Uhm… no, is not necessary. Let's keep going, we already are out of schedule" I assured her

"Ok… girls back to the door, we're going since the beginning" Marlene called

Truth was that I haven't been able to concentrate in any of the things I did these past days. Since I found out that Linds was going home, I've couldn't stop thinking about her and I don't even know what she was supposed to do there. Was it something important? Did something happen to her family? Was that just a visit? I have no idea, and to make it worst I don't even know if she's alright. The whole idea of calling her has been killing me the whole weekend but what if I sounded too needy or too intrusive? I know we have to shoot together later but I can't wait for her to come here and talk to me about it. Ugh… and the worst part is that now I'm sounding like a worried girlfriend. Great!

It took me a little longer to realize that Marlene was already talking with us about the scene "the four of you are in the store talking when suddenly Emily realizes that Jenna was there too. Shay, Emily has to get the girls attention and make them look on the direction she is looking to, and then they silently get close to Jenna and try to hear what she is saying to the seller, got it?"

"Gotcha" This has to be the one, come on just breath and focus

"Ok, everybody ready… Keep silence… Action"

I was supposed to be looking at Troian and then turn to the side to look at Tammin, who was at the other side of the store waiting for me to say my line, but that never happened. Just when I was about to do it, my eyes focus on the person I was waiting for. There she was; at the other side of the set, hiding between some guys of the crew, she was staring at me with a big smile on her face and I couldn't stop myself from smiling back

"Cut" I heard Marlene's voice "Shay, Emily is supposed to be worried about this not happy, why are you so smiley about?" she turned to look at Ashley

"Hey don't look at me, I didn't make her laugh… this time" Ashley defended herself

I blush a little because I didn't know how to excuse myself "I'm sorry, Mar. I was a little distracted, but I'm fine now"

"Are you sure?"

"Positive"

"Ok, can we go back to our scene?"

"Let's do this" I smiled at her

"Fine… everybody focus… Action"

And it was finally over. For my own and the rest of the girls' surprise, we finish shooting in just an hour, it was like the whole weight I was carrying just a few hours ago was gone. Now, I was allowed to focus in someone more important.

"Hey, you're back" I couldn't stop myself from hugging Lindsey when I got close to her

"I told you, you wouldn't get rid of me" she hugged me back. It's so good to feel her so close

"And I told you that I don't want to" I smiled at her once we left the embrace

"Good" she smiled back

"So… how was your trip?" Although I was feeling more relax because now I was sure she was fine I was still worried about the reason behind her trip

"It was productive, to say something but I want to tell you everything with details"

"You're not going to give me anything, not even a clue?" I pouted

"No, just know that I've never been happier in my entire life" I smile wildly, knowing that whatever it was, it makes her have a different glow in her eyes, which makes her look more beautiful than she already is.

"Linds, you're early" Marlene came close to us when she saw Lindsey on the set

"Hey Mar. I promise you I would be here as soon as I can and here I am"

"Perfect, go get ready then. Mandy is waiting for you two in her office"

"Ok… see you in bit" Linds looked at Marlene and turned around to head to Mandy's office, making me a gesture to follow her.

Lindsey's POV

I don't remember the last time I've felt so good about myself, hiding such an important part of my life to the ones I love has been a really hard thing to do but now that I'm totally free and that I can finally be myself, all I wanted to do was to come back here and tell Shay everything about it. She is a very important part of my life now and in the short time we've shared she's demonstrated that no matter what, she'll always be there for me. It's amazing to have such a wonderful person by my side and, although I have to confess that nothing would make me happier than be with her in a whole different way and not just as friends, I can't rush into things and just go and tell her that I feel attracted to her. I have to take things slow and wait to see what the time has prepared for us.

In the meanwhile, I have to be professional and focus on my job, Marlene trust in me to do a good job and give my 100 percent on the next scene; things between Paige and Emily are going to become intense and I have to concentrate myself to give the best of me

"Linds…" I was heading to the stage where the next scene will be shooting, when I heard Mar calling my name "where's Shay?"

"She is coming, Mandy was almost done"

"Perfect. Now, you know the next scene is going to be an emotional challenge, you've made a great job so far playing Paige, she is everything I wanted her to be and now I want you to surprise me with this, ok?"

"Absolutely… I prepared myself for it and I want to show you the best of me"

"That's what I wanted to hear… ok, there's Shay"

"Ok, I'm ready" Shay was walking in our direction

"Excellent…! Ok, everybody ready? Listen, I want this scene to be perfect and I need you to make me feel what your characters are feeling at that exact moment. Focus on what you're doing and show me of what you're capable of. Ready?"

"Ready" Shay and I say at the same time

"Action…"

Emily opens the door and finds Paige standing outside her house, under a heavy rain.

Emily: Paige? Are you… alright?

Paige: No

Emily: What happened?

Paige: You have every reason to hate me… I don't even know why I'm here

Emily: I don't hate you

Paige: I will... I do

Emily: Don't say that

Paige: I'm sorry, Emily. I just wanted you to know that

Paige turns around and starts to walk away

Emily: Wait, Paige

Even when Emily called her Paige didn't look back, she took her bike and rode it back down the street. Emily just looked at her disappear around the corner, not knowing what to do

"And… Cut…" I was standing in the same spot where the scene cut off. I couldn't allow myself to move, I didn't know what to do and I knew the reason behind it. I've been always proud of being a professional actress but right now I have mix feelings inside "That was so… intense. It was amazing girls. I'm so happy for having you both working with me; the chemistry you share is awesome. I ask you for the best and you gave me the best. I'm speechless"

But Marlene wasn't the only one, Shay was speechless too. I looked at her from afar and I can tell she is feeling the same way as I am. I don't know if something wrong happened but I've never seen her like this before. I don't know if I should talk to her about it or not, maybe when we have some time alone we could discuss it.

"Thanks" It took me a little while to get myself together, go back to Marlene's side and give an answer to her words. To be honest I was still in shock for the previous scene. Yes, it was intense and everything but Shay's look was so deep that I couldn't help myself from asking if it was part of her acting or not, because if it was then she is a hell of an actress; she fooled me completely. I don't want to get into any kind of conclusions but just remember her gaze on me makes me have goosebumps all over my skin. I won't say that I didn't feel anything because I did but I don't know how to react to the things she makes me feel.

Shay's POV

"Shay, are you ok?" It's the second time in the day that someone ask me that and this time it wasn't just anybody; it was Lindsey talking to me. Truth is that I'm not ok; I'm in shock and really scared right now. I need to talk to someone and she is not the right person to talk to, not about this.

"Uhm… yeah… I'm… ok. I just need to take a break. I'm sorry" I just turned around I went directly to my dressing room, walking as fast as I could

"Mitchell, did you finish already?" I forgot Sammy was here waiting for me

"Not yet, I just… could you give me a second, please?"

"Are you ok?"

"How many people are going to ask me that?" That came out too rough

"Jeez… I'm sorry I didn't mean to bother you"

"No… I'm so sorry; I didn't mean to say it like that… I just need a moment alone… please" I begged her

"Ok, call me if you need anything" I could notice she was worried

"I will. Thank you"

I wait for Sammy to close the door and took my phone to call the only person who could help me with this situation. I know she is going to give me a speech but at this point I really don't care, I need to tell her

"Hello?"

"I'm so screw Blaney… I shouldn't do that but I couldn't help myself… I thought I had everything under control and now…" I was feeling desperate and I was on the edge of tears

"Mitchy, slow down, what happened?"

"I… I think… No, I'm sure that… I'm… in love with her, Blaney" I couldn't hold my tears anymore

"Who? What are you talking about?"

"Lindsey… I fell in love with her, Blaney… How could I let that happened?" I was crying nonstop. Being aware of my feelings was one thing but say it out loud was a whole new level of reality

"Ok, take it easy" she was trying to comfort me but I couldn't help to feel upset

"No! How can you tell me to take it easy? You know what this means? I'm so screw! It was supposed to be just a crush and with time I would get over it but now… now I can't even notice the difference between fiction and real life"

"Mitchy; is ok…"

"No is not!" I cut her off abruptly "We had a scene together just a few minutes ago, the whole thing was intense and deep but all I could thing about, the whole time was to get close to her and hug her, tell her that everything would be ok and that I would be there every time she needs me, and it was just a fucking scene! My worst fears became true, I can't be professional because I can't stop thinking about kissing her and hold her and…"

"Ok, Mitchy you have to breathe… take a deep breath and calm down. I now you're scared, you've never been in this situation before and you don't know how to handle it but I'm sure it's going to be alright. Why don't you talk to her and tell her the truth. Linds is a great person and I'm sure she is going to understand"

"Understand? Are you kidding me? I just put my whole career in danger because of my stupid feelings. How can I go and tell her that I'm in love with her?"

"Just for a second stop thinking about your career and think about yourself. Don't you want to know how does it feel to be with someone you love?" Now it was her turn to be mad

"Easy for you to say, it's not you the one in the middle of this problem" I fought back

"Problem…? I'm sorry Mitchy but I don't see the problem here; you told me she is gay so she is not going to be surprised if you told her you like girls too"

"And what if she doesn't feel the same way? You know how awkward would be for her to work with me since now on?"

"You're getting into early conclusions Mitchy; you have no idea how is she going to react besides, what if she feels the same way? Don't you think it would be your chance to have a real relationship for the first time in your life? Think about it"

"I still can't believe I let this happen. I'm so stupid… I had everything under control…"

"You keep saying that over and over again. You're my friend Mitchy and I don't want to say I told you so but I told you so" she tried to easy off things by making a joke but I wasn't in the mood to laugh, this was a serious issue and I really needed an answer

"I knew you were going to say that but I'm so desperate right now that I can actually take your stupid jokes" I said in a bitter tone

"Wow… it really hit you, isn't it? I've never heard you so upset before. You really love her, don't you?" and now she is finally taking things seriously

"I do. I thought that by denying my feelings at some point it would go away but it didn't, and now I'm sure that I love her and I don't know what to do…"

"Take the chance. I know your whole professionalism is in danger and blah, blah, blah but I've never saw you in love before, and I'm so happy for you because now you could have the change to share your life with someone you really love and that can love you back, someone who takes care of you and share with you the good and the bad things Don't you want to be part of someone else's life too? Mitchy believe it or not; this is good for you. You just have to give it a try and let your heart speak for you, at least once. Please don't let this go just because you think your career is ruin, maybe is not and you can have the best of both worlds"

"I don't know Blaney, is not so simple. I think…"

"Don't think, just act, listen to your heart and make it happen. Don't make me go there and hit you because you know I will"

"I don't know how I'm going to face her now"

"One step at the time; go get some coffee or something with her and then look for the right time to tell her. I know there is a lot to lose but there's also a lot to win"

I let out a heavy sigh "Fine. I would… talk to her but I can't promise to tell her right away. I'm going to test the waters first"

"Take your time. Just don't waste the time you could probably be enjoying just because you're afraid, ok?

"Ok…" I have to admit that I feel a little less worried now. At least the tears are gone "Thank you, Blaney I knew talking to you would make a difference in this moment"

"I love you Mitchy, you're the bravest person I know and whatever you decide to do I'm always going to be there for you, I just want you to be happy"

"I love you too; you're the best friend ever"

"I know…" This time I allowed myself to let out a soft laugh "call me to know how it went"

"Sure. I'll call you later. I have to go back and make things right. I left everyone waiting for me on set"

"Ok, talk to you later… Bye"

"Bye"

I hung up the phone and stopped for a second to think on Blaney's words. I have to admit that she is right; there is a chance for things to turn up alright but what if they don't? What if she rejects me and everything we've worked on goes to hell? I can't avoid the scary feeling of losing her as a friend. I don't want to ruin things between us. I don't think I would be able to handle Lindsey's rejection or worst; I don't think I could resist the idea of her being away from me.

I can't lose her. I don't want to lose her…


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