I forced the door shut and pushed John against it, I let go for once. I let my wild side run free. My hands explored every part of John I could find, his chest, arms, face, neck. I didn't want to stop touching him. I kicked off my boots and John kicked off his sneakers. He grabbed my hair forcing my head back and trailed hot kisses down my neck.
The sensation had me moaning before I could even think. My mind turned to mush when I felt a quick hot flick of his tongue against my collarbone. I knocked off John's hat and kissed him firmly on the mouth, he pushed his tongue against my lips and I opened up for him.
The feel of his tongue in my mouth was warm and soft. Just him kissing me made my legs weak and my tummy tighten. I didn't want to think I just wanted to do before I regretted what I was doing. I didn't want John to stop, I wanted him to carry on till he couldn't breathe anymore. I was already running out of air.
John grabbed me and turned us so I was now trapped against the wall. He nudged my legs apart with his knee and pushed me high up the wall. He nibbled my neck and brushed my arms gently with his hands. He stopped for a moment and looked at me. His lips were a little red and mine probably were too. He shouldn't stop I might changed my mind. God I didn't want to change my mind. "Whisper…"
I shut him up myself by kissing him again. I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck and held him close to me. I couldn't… wouldn't let him stop this. I grabbed the back of John's shirt and pulled it only breaking the kiss so I could get the shirt off. My hands explored even more, loving how smooth his was. I threw my head back and closed my eyes. Letting the thought of him fill me up.
It was insatiable. It was unrelenting, I was having little mini orgasms just thinking of him. I looked down at John as he grabbed my top and ripped it open. His hands went straight to my waist exploring my bare flesh as I'd done to him. I couldn't take it anymore. I pushed him off me and onto the bed and crawled up the length of his body, pulling off the remains of my tank top. That would have to go in the bin.
"Whisper…"
"Don't talk John. Don't even think." I stood above him on the bed and turned so all he could see was my butt. I unbuttoned my jeans and slowly pulled them down my legs. The feeling of excitement that went through me when I heard John gasp was pure ecstasy. And we hadn't even gotten to the really good stuff yet. I kicked off my jeans and turned to straddle his waist again. I could feel John through his jeans and through my underwear.
God, I hadn't felt this good in a long time, it was as though I'd been in hibernation until now. The feeling was too much to handle. I took off Johns jeans quickly and he sat up, running his hand slowly up my back. He reached the clasp of my bra and popped it open with one hand. I had to admire the talent. I pulled it off and threw it to the floor along with everything else. John's eyes widened in wonder and he leaned in and nibbled on the delicate skin above my breast.
I had to gasp it felt amazing his mouth was warm as he kissed lower and my stomach jerked with feelings of wanting and anticipation. He took me in his mouth and I grabbed onto his shoulders squeezing tightly. I leaned into him and pushed him down onto the bed. I kissed my way down his chest. Making sure no skin was left untouched. I went further down till I kissed just above his boxers.
I nibbled on his hips and licked my tongue gently over his belly button. I felt him convulse slightly and groan. It made me want to please him more. It made me want him more. Just the feel of him underneath me made me want to scream out.
I stopped and thought for a second. Was this really the best idea? Was I doing a smart thing right now. My body was screaming 'yes! Yes you are!' But my head was getting in the way. It was telling me I was being stupid. I shouldn't be doing this. Get John out now and save yourself the embarrassment.
"I can't do this." I moved away from John and stood from the bed grabbing the remains of my tank top to cover my bare chest.
"What are you talking about?"
"I mean I can't do this." I pointed at myself them John, I felt like an idiot. I was an adult and I could control myself. I calmed my breathing down and relaxed a little. I could feel myself hyperventilating and right now, I really didn't want to pass out.
"Whisper, you cannot be serious."
"I'm deadly serious, this is a mistake. I shouldn't of let you in here. I should of…"
"You should just let yourself go once in a while."
"I don't think its any of your business telling me I need to let myself go."
"Oh, come on Whisper! You are so tense and cold that even I know you need to have a little fun."
"Cold? Is that what you think I am? Cold? The only person I'm cold towards is you! And do you want to know why?" John stood up, it looked like it hurt, because well you know. He was tenting.
"Come on then tell me why."
"Because, I. Don't. Like. You." John moved towards me quickly. Faster then I could move out the way. He grabbed me and kissed me hard and strong, he didn't let me breathe he didn't let me think. He ripped my shirt from my arms and threw it away. I wanted to push him off. I wanted to hold him closer. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs tightly around him.
He finally let me breathe and we looked at each other our chests heaving passion. He didn't seem to take my no seriously. He took over and dominated till I could take it anymore. We rolled around on the bed till we both couldn't take the tension any longer. John put me underneath him and ripped off my underwear taking me off guard. I couldn't say anything, didn't want to.
Suddenly we were both naked and hot. I knew what was gonna come next. I even welcomed it. John kissed me and nudged my legs apart. I was so ready, I let my body take over and forgot all the consequences. Bet I was gonna regret it in the morning.
I woke up with the sun shining brightly. I didn't like it, nothing like the sun waking you up from a nice slumber. I groaned weakly and opened my eyes. My body felt sore, my lips felt numb and my body felt naked. As I slowly woke I started to remember and my heart started to beat frantically.
It was stupid, stupid, stupid. I looked at my phone. 5 missed calls from River and one from my dad. I looked next to me, John was so deeply asleep he was snoring a little. I crept out of bed and started pulling on clothes as quickly as possible. I grabbed my jeans and a clean top, my phone and key card. And ran as fast as I could from the room.
Once I was in the elevator I could breathe, I could think again. How stupid could I have been! Why did I do it! I gave into everything I'd been fighting. Me and John never got along, said a thousand times, I'll say it a thousand more. Why did I sleep with him? It was stupid, impulsive. I should of stopped it. It should never have started!
I got off on floor 5 and went straight to the one person I could talk to. The one person I knew wouldn't judge me. I knocked roughly and loudly. It was 7 in the morning and he wouldn't appreciate me waking him up but it was emergency. I got no answer at first but I knocked more loudly and heard cursing from the other side of the door. I bit my nails waiting for him to open the door.
When River finally did, I'd never been do glad to see him. "This better be an emergency or I am going to seriously kick your ass."
"I slept with John last night." There was a pause.
"Come in." I stepped into him bedroom and threw myself on his bed groaning as I went. I felt the bed sag as River took a seat next to me. "Was it really that terrible?"
"No." I kept my head buried in the sheets. "It wasn't terrible. I'm such a fucking idiot."
"Oh I don't know about that. Come on Whisper." River grabbed my arm and pulled me into a sitting position. "What happened?"
"I was out with Randy, we were drinking and after a while I left. John caught up with me. We argued. And he chased me to my hotel room. Then he kissed me and all of a sudden I just burst. We went into my room and started pulling at each others clothes and it was wild. But then I couldn't do it, I stopped him. But then he was an animal he took over and…"
"And what? Come on Whisper give me the dirty details!"
"Aw, hell, River! I can't say it!"
"Okay I'm gonna say it for you. You had sex with John Cena."
"Put bluntly, yes. Oh god." I shoved my head into the bed again and wanted to disappear. After everything that I had said about him and I'd gone ahead and let my libido take over. Stupid, stupid, STUPID! I cursed in my head, for all the ridiculous things I'd done in my life this was the one that made me feel worthless.
I couldn't work out why. I couldn't understand in my head why it had made me feel like nothing. Was it because I'd given in so easily? Maybe because I'd had sex with someone I didn't even like. But… I'd slept with him, did that mean I have feelings for John? No. Maybe. I didn't have a clue.
"You must be thinking awful hard for your face to be looking like that Whisper."
"Am I a bad person?" I looked at River, trusting him to tell me the true.
"No. You're just a normal human being who got caught up in the moment I suppose."
"Then why don't I feel so good about what happened? Why did I run away from my own hotel room, while John was still sleeping? Why am I praying he wont be there when I get back?" River looked at me, his face smooth and trustworthy.
"Maybe you don't want to face him. After all the arguments and bitching between you two it's gotta be hard to face him knowing what happened. You scared of what his gonna say? Think?" All I could do was nod slightly.
"What if people find out? My dad, Randy; all those people who know how I feel. I don't think I could face them at all."
"You gonna run away? The Whisper I know would never run away from anything. You have to stand tall."
"And do what? I sure as shit don't know how I feel or what I think about anything that happened last night. All I know is that I have to face the guy at work. When he's with Randy, I cant avoid him forever."
"Then maybe you should suck it up and go speak to him." I looked at River and knew he was right. I wasn't going to be able to avoid John forever, if at all. My stomach clenched at the thought of facing him, but River was right. I didn't run from anything.
I was looking at my room door, breathing in oxygen like it was going out of fashion. I slipped my key card in the door and walked in not knowing what I was going to find. John was in the process of zipping up his jeans. My face flushed red and I had to blink a couple times to clear my vision.
"Where'd you go Whisp?"
"To go see my friend, River. I had to clear my head."
"So you let me wake up alone so you could see your friend?"
"I had to breathe. I had to clear my head…
""Yeah, you said that."
"Why are you acting like I left you like some cheap one night stand. It's a lot to handle!"
"That's what it feels like, you selfish bitch." Blood ran into my ears and felt like it was spilling out. Instant anger helped clear my head plenty. I wanted to rage and rant and throw anything my hands could get at his head.
"Get the fuck out my room."
"You throwing me out? You don't even want to discuss what happened here last night?"
"Right now all I want to do is rip you a new one you piece of shit! I'm a selfish bitch am I? What the fuck makes me a selfish bitch?" I waited and watched him. I could see his mind thinking up all sorts of answers. Some of them were probably not so nice but I was geared up for a fight. "You gonna answer me or just stand there?"
"Let's just chalk this up to experience okay? You were just a cheap thrill Whisper, a mistake. One I wont be making again." Tears, stinging my eyes. I shoved them away, went to emotion number two. I turned to the bedside table and grabbed the vase. I turned again and hurled it at John aiming for his head. I missed by inches. John flinched away from the shattering glass. I jumped onto the bed and over to him, shoving at his chest.
"I'll give you cheap thrill you fucking asshole! Motherfucker!" I screamed in his face, so badly wanting to hit him square on the jaw. So I did. My hand throbbed instantly and I backed away from him. His head was snapped to one side and I could already see an angry red mark on the side of his face.
"Cheap thrill Whisper. Wasn't worth it."
"You think it was anything to me Cena? I felt worthless waking up this morning. Knowing I'd ditched my morals for a one night fling with the likes of you." We both stood there. Anger filled the room like a heat wave.
"You are a piece of work Whisper Michaels, you know that? Last night was so not worth this." John picked up his sneakers and went for the door. Pausing for a second.
"If a word of this gets back to my brother or my dad. I will make you regret the day you were born."
"Trust me, I wont be telling anyone." He opened the door and walked out, slamming it behind him. I folded on my bed and stared at the shattered vase at the floor. I'd missed John's head by inches and I wondered how I would of felt if it had hit him. Happy? Regretful?
One thing was for certain I didn't know. And I still didn't an hour later after the tears had run dry.
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