Rockstar Parents
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The H&M Chronicles
Chapter Six: Where did you go?
Disclaimer: " Where'd you go " is the sole property of Fort Minor. The lyrics were edited by me to keep the cursing out, but other than that, it's the same. I'm only borrowing it. The same goes for anything and everything that is Sailor Moon. I own nothing except my dreams and ideas.
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Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Michiru sat on her window sill, looking out on the street of Tokyo. It was raining outside and it only seemed as if her mood reflected the weather. Hotaru had fallen asleep on her bed as she normally did for her naps and Seiya too, was sleeping on the couch. Michiru sighed. She wasn't one to voice how she felt even if she was completely miserable. But this was beyond bearable. Haruka had been gone for two weeks straight. Michiru wasn't sure why this had affected her so much. She knew she was attached to always having Haruka around but she didn't know it would cause this much of a problem.
She said "Some days I feel like crap,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
It just wasn't the same. Seiya kept her company. They even went out last night. They saw a movie in the theaters. Of course, they couldn't stay out too late because Hotaru did have a bed time, but it was nice of him anyways. Michiru bit her lip. No matter how much she tried to convince herself, it still wasn't the same even with Seiya's companionship. Haruka kept invading her thoughts, her smile raiding every time she went to think, and that devilishly sweet grin absolutely refused to leave the back of her mind. It was never like this. Ever since Seiya came down to visit, it felt like Haruka avoided coming home, using every possible excuse to stay out. Michiru wasn't sure what to say. Seiya wasn't doing anything particularly wrong. In fact, Seiya was being quite pleasant. No, she wasn't dumb. She knew there had been something going on between the two and she was sure Seiya was the one who had provoked all of this. But even then, it was the blonde that was being stubborn. It didn't help that Haruka had acquired a strange new habit of lying, either. Michiru pressed her head against the glass, much like Haruka used to, hoping that some sort of connection would occur between the two.
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
Michiru heard the phone ring. She nearly jumped at the sound. It had to have been Haruka. She hadn't called this afternoon. Michiru felt stupid for rushing to the phone as if she were going to miss a chance to save the world but she had to. She couldn't forgive herself if she didn't.
" Hi Michiru. "
Michiru could hear the blonde laughing in the background. A part of her cringed, knowing Haruka was having more fun than she had for the past two weeks. Had Haruka even realized how much she had been missed, not just by Hotaru but by herself as well?
" Hi. " Michiru wanted to say something more, anything. But somehow the words weren't forming in her mind and she couldn't bring herself to say anything more than short responses.
" How's Hotaru? "
" Well. She misses you. "
" I know. I told my manager that I had to stop racing but he's refusing to let me do so. Something about the contract terms he already wrote up. " Haruka paused. " How has your day gone? "
" Normal, as usual. "
Haruka hesitated, not sure of what to say. " Okay, well, I'll try to be home tonight. If not, I'll stay with a friend. I don't want to wake anyone by coming home too late. " The blonde waited for a response but when she finally received it, it wasn't the one she was hoping for.
" Bye. " Michiru whispered, almost inaudibly, as she hung up the phone. How could Haruka be so dense? Not once did she think of coming home. She probably wasn't even planning to show up that night either. What kind of lame excuse would she pull tomorrow, the day after? Why couldn't Haruka just say she wanted to walk away? It would have made Michiru's life that much easier.
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little messed up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
Haruka promised to stop racing for a while. It wasn't that long ago that she said she wouldn't leave their side. Did her promises come with a guarantee… because Michiru had really wished they did. She sighed and returned to the windowsill. Haruka was so complex. One minute she can't stand to leave her side, then the other moment, she's off trying to win some racing cup that she said she didn't have a passion for.
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Michiru stood up. She couldn't sit her forever. She had to do something with herself or her thoughts would eat her alive. She walked to the kitchen and began to mix together her paints. After a few minutes she was ready to paint. As she made her way to her room, she noticed Seiya sleeping on the couch. He reminded her of a small child, laying there. He was snoring a bit but she thought it was cute. Seiya would probably flip out if she told him he snored but she knew she would never have reason to. She smiled at the thought of Seiya's reactions and then moved back into her room. Without a moment to think, Michiru began to paint. She knew what the object of her painting would be before she even thought about painting.
You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
Michiru didn't think it was fair that Haruka would leave. Not like she did. She was being careless. Michiru's strokes became more intense as she became more and more frustrated with her situation. A thought of Hotaru laughing in the hands of her papa found its way into her mind and she just about gave up. Haruka was being careless about Hotaru's feelings and about hers. Wasn't she? Or was she overreacting? Haruka had every right to do as she wished but she couldn't understand why the blonde had been so distant lately. It started out slow, with Haruka and her having some… complicated conversations and situations. Then on came the lying, or at least, the strange situations that they were constantly being pinned with. Then she started to disappear altogether. Michiru stepped back from her painting. Now that she thought of it, ever since Seiya had extended his stay, Haruka had been leaving the house like she was now. But what was the big deal? It wasn't like Seiya posed a threat to Haruka, or at least it wasn't that way in her own eyes. Yet, the blonde seemed to have been acting as if that were the case.
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little messed up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
Michiru gave up painting for the moment. Her frustration was becoming distracting but also, a factor of emotional destruction. The aqua-haired girl returned to the windowsill. She couldn't bring herself to forget what Haruka had said two weeks ago, at the restaurant. It hurt her to hear the blonde make assumptions about her that weren't true. But how could she blame Haruka? It wasn't like she intervened in the conversation. She simply let Haruka run when she had the chance to convince her not to.
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Michiru wasn't sure what to do anymore. She could always ask Seiya to leave but even if she did that, he was sure to stay in some hotel and visit her every day anyways. Her parents were happy they were spending time together but it seemed like she was sacrificing something way more important just to be in her parent's good graces. She would much rather have Haruka be with her, now. It felt as if she lost a part of her. They were close friends and they would talk about everything. There wasn't a memory in her mind that didn't include Haruka. She was surprised at how well they had bonded in such a short period of time. Michiru had come to rely on the blonde for a lot of things. Haruka had always been there for her, through thick and thin. And now it felt like she was just realizing it, even though she was quite aware of it from point blank.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Michiru was afraid to admit that she needed Haruka. At first, she could handle it. There wasn't a problem. Then after the third day it started to set in. It was almost like reality didn't feel like hitting her until much later. Not seeing the blonde made her feel empty and full of nothingness. It was the worst feeling in the world. She was lucky that she had Hotaru or else she was sure she would have lost it long ago.
I want you to know it's a little messed up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
The aqua-haired girl moved to the bed, tired of watching the rain fall against the window, mercilessly. The weather outside only did wonders in dampening her already dreadful mood.
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...
A part of her wanted to talk to Haruka. To ask her why she had been so cold lately but she knew it was useless. She already tried to meet up with the blonde several times but Haruka refused to meet her. There was always some reason as to why she couldn't show up. 'Maybe she doesn't want to do this anymore. Maybe she's scared of losing her life to this family…'
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Michiru traced her fingers along Hotaru's jaw, grateful that such a wonderful child had made her way into her life. Hotaru had changed everything for her. She might not have been the girl's real mom, but having their little family with Haruka, made up for that fact.
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
But maybe Haruka didn't want to have a family anymore. Maybe that's why she had been gone for so long. She hadn't even left word as to why or what she would be doing. She must not have cared.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
But Michiru sincerely hoped that wasn't the case…
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
" Haruka…. " Michiru murmured as she felt her eyelids get heavy as she lay on her bed. Within a few seconds she was fast asleep.
Please come back home...
Haruka pulled up to the building she had been so accustomed to arriving at and she stared at it for at least a couple of minutes. This was the third time today she had been home but not really home. She could never gather enough courage to waltz into Michiru's apartment. She knew she owed the smaller girl at least an explanation as to her behavior. Even she was confused as to why she hadn't come home in two weeks.
Please come back home...
It wasn't like she didn't visit the apartment every day. Haruka sighed and pulled off her helmet. What was holding her back? Why couldn't she return to her own home? She was sure Michiru was, in the very least, offended by her constant excuses as to why she couldn't come home. Michiru even tried to bribe her by making her favorite food for her last week. But it didn't work. Haruka just couldn't come home.
Please come back home...
The blonde knew for sure that it was Seiya that had driven her to the lengths that she had gone. He was the one to plant the bear in her car and he was the one to constantly try to make her look like the fiend. Yet it was him whose intentions were clear from the start… why did Michiru choose to harbor Seiya when she knew that all he wanted was for her to join him in marriage?
Please come back home...
Haruka finally put down her helmet. She couldn't take it anymore. She missed Hotaru and she missed Michiru. She would endure countless torture from Michiru for leaving if it meant that she would see her two most favorite people in the world. The blonde walked up two flights of stairs before she reached her door. She fumbled with her keys for a bit, obviously nervous and not sure what to say. When she opened it, she noticed that the whole apartment was too quiet. Seiya had apparently crashed out on the couch, drooling all over the place. Haruka rolled her eyes in disgust. And while she loathed seeing Seiya, she was content knowing that Michiru wasn't spending time with him while she was gone.
Haruka made her way to their room and opened the door. As quiet as she could be, she tip toed over to the bed and took off her shoes. She caught them sleeping and while she knew she would love to wake Michiru up just to be yelled at, she couldn't bear to wake them up. Both of them looked like angels. Not just any angels, her angels. A smile came across her face as she took her spot to the left of Hotaru. The blonde placed a kiss upon the child's forehead but soon found herself watching Michiru. The smaller girl's locks had fallen into her face and Haruka couldn't resist. She pushed the strands of hair from Michiru's face and relished the soft skin her hand fell upon. Haruka smiled, more happy than she had been in a while. She was finally home. And with that thought weighing in her mind, the tall blonde fell asleep.
Please come back home...
