Authors Note- Happy Wednesday. I would appreciate if you read the end notes.

Disclaimer- S. Meyer owns all Things Twilight.

EPOV

The next couple of days had been a complete rush, atleast when it came to Alice and Esme. They were packing, and I was pushing furniture around the guest bedroom, and hooking a television onto a wall because Carlisle had entirely no time, because he was working double shifts so that he could get a few days off.

Esme and Carlisle were going to be staying a week at the beach house with us, and then they were going to be leaving. They'd given strict instructions while we were there, of course they were mostly pointed towards Alice and Emmett, they trusted me to make sure they abided by the rules.

Rosalie was very excited to be able to tag along, and Bella seemed to be quietly excited. I'd been spending alot of time with her today moving around the furniture since Emmett went out shopping with Rosalie and Alice, along with Jasper.

Esme was out to get a few things for dinner tonight, and it was just Bella and I.

Her curtains were wide open and a breeze flowed through the room easily. I looked over at her and fought a smile. She was entirely too beautiful for her own good. Bella was wearing a white summer dress, strapless, with a pair of wedges that she ditched a few moments ago. Her makeup was light and her long brown hair in ringlets down her back.

" I'm like ninety pounds! How can I lift something that's heavier then me!" she exclaimed, trying to lift the other side of the headboard. This thing was damn heavy, and it also had the bottom frame, so really the metal bed frame that holds up her bed right now, isn't needed.

First we took the bed apart and it was absolutely amusing having her help me with the mattress to lean against the wall. She lifted up the headboard and I lifted up my end and we basically walked as fast as we could to get it in the right spot.

" That french headboard is damn heavy!"

I laughed quietly.

" Can you hand me the drill, and screws?"

Basically I had to put it together because the sides of the frame on the headboard to hold the bed up, was not connected and I needed to drill them into the wood together. There wasn't and board for the headboard, which was less of a job, but I still had to connect the three peices of the frame together, and then the side pieces to the actual headboard, putting it into words made no sense, but I do what I have to do.

Bella held up the headboard for me as I drilled everything together.

" If this bed falls apart while I am sleeping, I am holding you responsible."

" I think you should be nice, considering you stole my bed. And I took care of you when you decided stepping on the bowling lane was smart."

She huffed and looked away. I smiled and drilled the screw into the headboard. Once that side peice was connected, I pulled on it, making sure it wasn't going anywhere. I did the end piece, and the other side and then it was standing on all four of the legs. The headboard was very nice, a grey-ish silver color painted on the wood. It also had very intricate designs carved into it.

" Do I have to help with this again?" she asked, pointing towards the mattress.

" Unless you want to sleep on the floor in the middle of this, then yes."

" Your so...frusterating."

" I sincerely apologize." I stated, my voice dripping with sarcasm.

" And sarcastic! It's not funny."

I rolled my eyes at her and grasped the end of the box spring mattress. There were two, and I could get both of them on myself. I threw them on side by side and adjusted it until they were both perfect. When I walked over to the mattress. Bella begrudgingly helped me out and we slid it onto the box spring.

She was obviously not looking forward to making the bed, but I headed downstairs as she made the bed. I retrieved two bottles of water from the fridge and walked slowly back up the stairs, out of breath already from all of the lifting.

When I was back in the room, Bella laid on her back on the bed, sighing in relief. I handed her the bottle of water and looked towards the flat screen television, not even wanting to bother with it. I sighed and went to the box, opening it up and grabbing all of the metal peices that needed to be drilled into the wall. Luckily when I did measurements, there were wooden bolts so the television was a hell of a lot more secure then if I just hooked it in drywall, it probably wouldn't even have held up.

I only needed Bella's help with holding it up, and she was damn strong so I figured she would be able to. I drilled the metal contraptions into the wall and then took a seat on the floor to drink my water. All of it was drained by the time I was halfway satisfied. Bella stood from the bed and handed me the three fourths of water in her bottle.

" Here, take this. You need it more."

I hesitated, not wanting to just take it from her.

" I don't backwash."

" I didn't-... thanks."

After finishing up the water bottle I walked over to the television. I held the majority of it, but Bella was a great help holding the bottom up for me as I got it completely hooked onto the wall. Once it was finished I stepped back and looked at it. Bella stood next to me, smiling.

" It looks nice...Thanks for helping get all this put together."

" I have nothing better to do with my life." I deadpanned.

She stared up at me, about to say something before there was loud footsteps and talking behind us. I was annoyed by the interruption.

" BELLA! You've got to see all of the cute clothes Rose and I got! We even got you a few things. And we found this really cute bathing suit at Victoria's Secret for you, it's s-...Oh, hey, Edward."

I fought a laugh as I looked at Alice's excited expression. Of course all thoughts of Alice flew out of my mind when I heard the word bathing suit. My imagination ran rabid with pictures of Bella. Without a word I walked past them and down the hall to my bedroom. I slammed my door shut and sat down on my bed, tugging relentlessly at my hair.

The feelings I had towards Bella were too unexplainable, foreign. I've never liked someone or found interest in them like I have Bella, and I didn't want to fall for this girl. Because in the end, it wouldn't work out and I wasn't even looking for a relationship, not at this point in my life.

Of course in the back of my mind 'things don't always go as planned' rings out in my head.

~\\~

" Okay, Alice and Jasper will be taking the Porsche, your mother and I are taking my Mercedes and Edward, Bella, Emmett and Rosalie are going to be in Edward's Volvo. Any problems with this arrangement?"

" Why can't Bella go with me?" Alice exclaimed.

" Your car is tiny Alice, and all of your suitcases will take it up!" Rosalie exclaimed. " And I bet Bella here would like some time away from your craziness for a few hours."

Carlisle cleared his throat " Also, I do not care, if say...Jasper is the only one that has to use the washroom, we all have to stop. We need to stay together at all times, this is a very long drive to Santa Monica. When we get onto 1-5 South, we are going to be on it for over a thousand miles, passing all through Oregon on that highway. The drive is about eighteen and a half hours, and tonight we will stop at the Hilton in Redding, which is about nine hours away from here by car."

" Keep your phones on at all times, charged and everything. Carlisle and I aren't completely familar with all of the roads, so we need to keep together on the road. As he said, we don't care if one of you has to go to the bathroom, we will stop. If one of you are hungry, well, I hope you can wait until a few more are, but please do not take it upon yourselves to think you know where your going. It's hard to catch up."

It was ten thirty in the morning, on a Saturday, and we all had to get up by nine thirty and be dressed and ready. Now we had a half hour to load up our cars and use the washroom before we left. I had to say that I felt bad for Bella, because the poor girl was basically dead on her feet tired. She obviously hadn't gotten sleep.

My insides were excited to be sitting next to her for the whole entire car ride to California. I wondered how the bed arrangements at the hotel were going to go. I knew that the beach house had plenty of rooms for all of us, and no doubt Emmett and Rosalie would share a bed. Carlisle wouldn't let Alice share a bed with Jasper, she's still his baby. I internally scolded myself for being so fucking excited about a car ride and bed arrangements.

All of my bags were by the front door, because I had put them there last night and had been finished. Alice scowled at me as she walked back and forth from the upstairs to the car. Rosalie must be slumming it, because she has only two bags, one of which are filled with clothes, to which I realised were rolled up to fit alot, and the other had makeup and shoes. Emmett had one bag, and then another empty one for if they bought things back while we were there.

Bella had one bag total for all of her things, and I had two, which were actually smaller. Alice had stuffed a total of five suitcases with her in the car, and Jasper on the other had had two big fucking bags. I think Bella, Emmett and I were the only ones who decided to pack light. After I lifted Rosalie's bag into the trunk, I slammed it shut and saw Emmett sitting in the drivers seat. Everyone else was set, and Carlisle was just finishing up locking the house.

I'd very begrudgingly let Emmett drive my car, but I was extremely tired this morning, and I knew that he wouldn't piss me off purposely, especially when I am with him.

I slid in the seat behind Rosalie, because Emmett basically had the seat adjusted to the point where I couldn't fit my legs, and they bended awkwardly, he's too much of a shit head to move it forward back to my setting. Bella slumped into the seat tiredly, holding a blanket. The sky was clear and the windows in the driver and passenger seat were down. Rosalie was already in the car and we waited until Carlisle was in the car to get going.

Bella had her pillow on the middle seat, and her legs cramped up on the other seat, I felt bad, but I said nothing

What should I say?

' Hey, dollface, want to put that pillow up here?'

Yes, that conversation would go over very well.

I put my earbuds in as Emmett drove down the driveway, and we made a left to head off to the highway. The reason we weren't flying is because Carlisle figured we could use all the flying money for something else. Although Carlisle and Esme are not in trouble financially, not even close, they just thought that a drive would be better.

When we pulled onto the highway, Rosalie's hair was whipping back into my face, and I leaned over the seat and looked at her.

" Can you put that shit up or something. I'd rather not have blonde hair flying in my face."

She rolled my eyes " Whatever."

Rosalie put her hair up anyways and I leaned back into the leather seat. Emmett was crunching loudly with potato chips in his mouth, the noise drowning out the loudly whipping air. My hair was already a mess as is, so I didn't give a fuck.

" Emmett, I swear to god, if you get chips anywhere in this car, your dead."

He waved me off " I know, I know."

I glanced at Bella and saw she was soundly asleep. Her pillow was touching my thigh, but I didn't care much. For a whole two hours she was knocked out fast asleep, and she never moved one single inch. I was almost afraid that maybe she was dead or something.

We stopped after three hours of driving because Alice had to go to the bathroom after all the tea she drank. Tea is actually one of the drinks that has a certain ingredient that makes one have to use the bathroom more often. Jasper convinced her to buy water instead of tea at the gas station. I got a pack of Marlboro, and I could see Esme looking at me out of the corner of my eye. I tossed a black lighter on the counter and a pack of cinnamon gum.

After taking a long ass time ringing me up, the old man handed me the bag and I headed back out to the car. Fast asleep and stretched out over the entire backseat, Bella was there. I sighed and looked at Alice who was happily running around the gas station ground.

" Alice!" I said.

She darted over to me and looked over at Bella through the open door. " Aw, she's so cute."

I glared down at her " Wake her up, I need to get in."

" Just pick her up and lay her head in your lap or something."

" Seriously, Alice."

" Just do what I said."

With a loud groan I opened the car door and gently adjusted Bella over, she was a damn hard sleeper and didn't even move from where I put her. When I sat down she just moved herself, placing her head against my thigh and moving her hand up to rest on my knee.

Do. Not. React.

I sighed and Emmett got into the car, when he looked back at me he laughed. My hands were up by my face, not wanting to touch anything because I didn't want to look like I did this. I tugged at my hair and glared at Emmett.

" Shut. The. Fuck. Up. "

" Sorry, dude. How's Little Edward?"

Little Edward?...What? What in the fucking right does he think he has to ask that?

" Emmett! Cut that out!" Rosalie said, getting into the car and setting her Coke down in the cup holder.

I leaned my head back and Bella shifted, a small groan escaping her lips. Rosalie looked over and smiled wickedly.

" Have fun with that, my friend...It's so cute!"

More hours passed, and we'd had yet to stop for food. I had to admit that I was fucking starving, and I could even hear Bella's sleeping stomach growl. She was fast asleep with her head pillowed on my lap still. I had no idea how she could sleep in a car for six hours, but god bless her for being able to. We were already in Oregon, and it was hot and humid here.

Rosalie and Emmett talked quietly up front, and I listened to my iPod. My hand gently moved strands of Bella's hair from her face, almost on instinct.

I've never actually just wanted to be with a person. It wasn't ever like this with Victoria and with Tanya. Truthfully, my relationship was Tanya was because I was seventeen and I wanted sex. She was there to take care of that before it was over. Since Tanya, I've really not done much. Maybe a few fun nights with girls at bars, but it never went as far as to have sex.

With Bella I didn't exactly want to maul her. I mean, I'm a guy, but I genuinely liked her for more then a fact that she is a girl. I don't know her completely, but how she acts and her outlook on life just seems to be good. She seemed like the opposite of me, she saw the good in life, I saw the bad.

The car ride, I had to admit, really wasn't that bad. At around five we pulled into a small diner in White City, Oregon. My legs were cramped up to the max, and my stomach was just dying for food. I rested my hand on Bella's warm shoulder and she sat up abruptly, rubbing her eyes.

" Please tell me I did not fall asleep on your lap." she asked, clearly mortified.

" It's okay. No big deal." I stated, getting out of the car.

She followed and looked over at the others " Where are we?"

" White City, Oregon. Home of the...I have no fucking clue." Emmett stated, opening the door to the run-down diner.

Turns out that run-down diner had the best fucking burger I have eaten in my entire life. Sauteed garlic mushrooms with bacon on a thick beef burger. It was the best thing I have ever eaten on a bun, and I wouldn't be surprised if I was moaning into the damn burger.

It was amazing.

Alice jabbered on about her Birthday that is six days from today. I'd already purchased her gift, and it was very safely tucked away into my suitcase, with my clothes basically surrounding it so that it wouldn't get ruined or break.

In college, I have a good friend named Mike Newton. We spent alot of time together considering he is also pursuing a career in medicine, along with his fiancee Jessica, who I'd met a few times. Well, apparently her mother was very skilled in stain glass and making windows and all of this cool stuff, and her mom lives in Los Angeles.

Well, I'd gotten the idea to get a jewelry box for Alice, since she has her vanity's and dressers filled with earrings, bracelets, necklaces and a whole mess of other little items that she gets from Jasper and her parents.

After talking with Jess' mom, she said that she could make me a very nice glass stained jewelry box. It was mostly pink, with oranges and red's into it, making it look like a sunset, with blue stainglass on the bottom half of the top to look like an ocean.

Ever since I knew Alice, she loved the whole beach theme idea. Her whole entire bedroom had been painted like a beach, and it has been like that forever, and I figured that I'd let the box be like that when she is living in her dorm, or being wherever, just to have a piece of it with her.

The box was expensive, but it was worth it for Alice. I'd also taken a visit to a Tiffany's to get her something with diamonds, knowing she would love anything with diamonds. I purchased a diamond palm tree charm on a platinum chain. I would put the Tiffany box inside her stained glass jewelry box.

I thought it was a great idea.

After we ate our food, we all got back in the car to finish a three hour drive. We'd stopped at a rest stop because everyone basically had to use the washroom. Bella was already passed out on the backseat again, and when we arrived in California, we made it all the way to Redding before checking into the Hilton as planned.

Everyone grabbed any needed items, and Alice grabbed Bella's bag as Carlisle and Esme went inside to get the room keys. Alice looked over at me pleadingly.

" You want me to carry her through the hotel, to the elevators, to the room and into bed?" I asked her incredulously.

" Your such a great person, Edward..."

I bit my lip and rolled my eyes dramatically " Fuck." I muttered.

For the millionth time already these past few weeks, I lifted Bella up into my arms and held her to my chest. She looked like she had woke, but then she just curled right back up. Alice tossed the blanket over her and we walked into the calm hotel at eight thirty.

People stared, and I didn't stare back. Alice, Jasper and I squeezed into the elevator and I could see Jasper looking at me, smiling with amusement.

" Shut the fuck up, Jasper." I murmured as he chuckled.

" Oh, Edward. We've got two rooms, two king beds in each and your sharing a hotel with Emmett and Rose. Dad wanted Jazz and I have to share a hotel with him and mom since I convinced him Jazz and I could share a bed. You and Bella are sharing, unless you'd rather sleep with Emmett."

" Why can't she sleep with Emmett!"

" Bella and Emmett...No."

I groaned and the doors opened. Emmett had already taken our bags to the hotel room and we seperated at the door as I juggled Bella in my arms. Jasper shot me a look over his shoulder.

" Sleep well, Eddie."

" I will, Jazzy. Enjoy, Esme and Carlisle's company. Touch Alice once and your balls will be chopped off. Lets hope Doctor Cullen didn't bring his scapel."

" Fuck off, Masen."

I somehow opened the hotel room and walked in, all of the gold colors very annoying. This was a nice hotel, very regal, but gold seemed to be their only color scheme, not that I fucking care. We were two floors away from the top, and this was a pretty nice room. The beds were absolutely huge, and very inviting...

After setting Bella down, I lay on the other side of the bed, groaning from the softness. I missed a nice bed. Rosalie emerged from the bathroom in sleep attire, and Emmett was already fast asleep in the other bed, snoring lightly.

" Tuck her in." Rosalie said.

" You do it."

" Don't be a chicken. She's probably cold with just that blanket."

I stood up from the bed and grabbed my bag, dragging it into the bathroom with me. I changed my pants and shirt and quickly, brushing my teeth before going back into the dark room. The lamp was on and Rosalie was riffling through her bag for something.

Begrudgingly I walked over to Bella's side of the bed and shifted her under the covers, securing them around her little body. She curled up against the pillow she'd clung to all the way up here, and I got into bed, laying as far away as I could.

Rosalie hit the light and I shifted around the bed for a moment before I was comfortable. I was always the person that gravatated towards the middle of the bed, but I hoped that I wouldn't move a single inch tonight.

With a deep breath I closed my eyes.

~\\~

Awaking in the morning I was absolutely dreading getting up. I didn't want to move, at all. I wanted to be the one fast asleep in the backseat today, because I was just not feeling it, not at all. Unfortunetly, it was my day to drive the rest of the eight and a half hours.

Well, atleast I hadn't been doing all the driving. And Emmett looked like he was the one sleeping in the back today. I slumped out of bed and looked over at Rosalie, who was fast asleep in bed. Bella was still asleep, entwined in the blankets.

I walked to the bathroom and took a shower, using my own shower things that I'd bought. The scalding water pelted my skin as I washed off, it felt good to be clean. I dried off and dressed in fresh clothing, which consisted of jeans, a black t-shirt and my black combat boots. I ran my fingers through my hair and grabbed my razor and shaving cream. After flushing water on my face I rubbed in the shaving cream and shaved off the three day stubble on my jaw and chin.

When I walked back into the room after brushing my teeth, Bella was sitting up in bed, rubbing her eyes tiredly. I started up the coffee machine and she looked over at me.

" How did I?..."

" I carried you up from the car last night and put you to bed."

" Thanks." she whispered, standing.

" Don't mention it." I said, packing my things back into my bag as she headed to take a shower herself.

Rosalie woke up and Emmett was last. I sat on the already made bed and sipped my coffee as they took turns in the shower. My phone blared out Death by Marilyn Manson and I picked it up, seeing it was Carlisle. I clicked accept and put it to my ear.

" Hey." I answered, setting my coffee down.

" Good morning, Edward. Esme and I have already been to checkout this morning, so I hope your all ready."

I looked over at Rosalie, who was packing up her bag, along with Emmett's. Bella had her things all put together, as did I.

" Basically, they are just getting dressed."

" Okay, we'll meet you downstairs."

" Mhm, bye."

I hung up the phone once he bid goodbye and put my empty coffee cup by the coffee maker. Rosalie tossed me my car keys. I caught them and shoved them in my pocket, along with my cell phone. After slipping on my aviators and grabbing my bag, I looked over at them.

" Let's get goin' everyone." I said, opening the door.

Bella shuffled out, followed by a tired Emmett, and a cheery Rosalie. We cramped into the elevator and rode down, meeting everyone else by the couches and table's that were placed by the enterance. Alice bounded next to Bella and they spoke for awhile until we seperated by the cars.

" Sleep well last night, Edward?" Alice asked before we parted.

I rolled my eyes at her and walked over to my Volvo. We slipped into the dark car and Emmett and Rosalie got into the backseat without a word, laying awkwardly together.

I slipped into the drivers seat and started up the car. Bella got into the passenger seat and settled in with a blanket on her lap.

We stopped at a gas station first, filling up the car tanks and retrieving drinks and snacks before getting onto the highway to finish this long ass car ride. I convinced them to stop at a starbucks and Bella and I got some coffee for the road, since we didn't get to drink much at the hotel.

The ride was quiet for the most part, all of them were tired, and Bella was taking small naps every now and then. We stopped for bathroom breaks, food and anyother thing that someone needed to stop for. Alice basically got a post card for every gas station town we were in, including San Francisco and other small non-important towns.

We'd left the hotel at nine, and we'd be at the beach house at around five thirty. The time seemed to be going pretty fast, but I was tired from long hours of driving. Driving for long periods of time always tired me out. I would probably pass out in a bed at the beach house. Or sleep outside, the weather is nice here.

Santa Monica is at around seventy degree's around this time of year, atleast lower seventies and upper sixties. I didn't like hot, humid weather anyways. I looked over a Bella and found her staring at me. She looked away quickly, blushing.

Damn adorable

~\\~

I could only imagine how happy Alice was seeing the ' Welcome to Santa Monica' arch sign. The beach was right to our left and it was a very nice site to see. Emmett and Rosalie were sitting up, alert and excited. Well, Rosalie had to go to the bathroom badly, but we were about five minutes away.

We passed many beach houses already, and Bella next to me was literally vibrating in her seat with excitement. Carlisle then made a left and we pulled into the driveway to their beach house. It was a pretty nice size, and looked to be three floors. There were stairs going up to the front door and a balcony above the garage, and on the right to the front door and stairs, were plants and flowers. It really was a stunning sight.

I parked behind Alice and Jasper, and stepped out of the car. Alice was smiling wildy as she looked over at the house, and then back at everyone.

" This is going to be the best summer. Ever."

Authors Note- Okay, so things are kicking into gear now. Hope your ready for a wild summer.

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Now, onto a few important things.

Some of you that follow me on twitter probably read my note about the Bella situation. If you haven't, here is the exactly note-

Today I recieved a review commenting on how I write Bella, that she just didn't like her. And I am by no means mad at this person, because I completely appreciate all of your words. I always take them and try to make myself better in my writing.

But I've always had trouble writing Bella, and even in Ambivalence everyone really has an issue with her, and I'm really starting to have a hard time right now.

I really can't write her POV without her having bad characterizations, and now when I write in EPOV, I still can't seem to get who I see she is, right. I am deeply sorry about this, and I am very upset about it.

Truthfully, I have no idea what to do right now besides go back and just...Try to make her better because she isn't a bitch. When I look at her, she is a girl that is nice with a side of her that is strong and independent, which I think has been taken as her being mean.

Really, I am sorry about this, and I think that maybe I need to take a little bit of a break to get things together for Deep Into The Darkness, and maybe Ambivalence.

I won't be posting teasers, and I'll let you all know if I am posting on Wednesday for Deep Into The Darkness, by either posting a chapter, or not updating at all.

I hope none of you take this as me being overly sensitive, or just blowing it out of proportion, but as I've said, I really do need to just take a step back and figure out what I am going to do.

Any of you who have ever said anything about my Bella characterizations, I am not mad at all. I'd rather try and fix it and make her better. I am not trying to please everyone, but I am trying to please myself because I do not want Bella to come off as she has. It was never my intention.

Dated- August 5th, 1010

That was basically the issue at hand, about writing Bella's point of view, and I really have been struggling with it, but I can't really just change her when I don't understand why people see her that way. I try to make her genuine, she is genuine, which is being taken differently. As I said, I am by no means upset at all, not even a little.

The reason I was discouraged is because I just couldn't grasp it.

So here is what I want you all to do.

I want you to tell me any issues you have with Bella for this story, don't hold back, tell me everything. I will not be upset at you as long as your just nice about it like the reviewer the other day was.

I would really appreciate it.

So click the button, review, and tell me.