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Thanks to lucky-charm930 my beta for this chapter!
I feel the need to warn you that later in this chapter there is quite a bit of swearing!
The Curse of the Smiley
Chapter seven, The Meadow
EPOV
"Edward we need to talk about something," her voice sounded serious but scared at the same time. I wonder what could bother her on such a perfect day as this. Lying on the beach watching the wave's crash onto the shore, she was so close it was almost unbearable.
"Ok what is it you want to talk about?" I really couldn't understand why her face was so hard it was like she was trying to hide something. For some reason I couldn't really understand her expressions and I am usually a great judge of what people are thinking but I have no idea what is running through her mind.
"Well you remember the last time I was here."
"Yes, it's quite hard to forget," the night I was with her was unforgettably amazing, I have never had any woman feel as good as her something about her made me want to be with her every minute of every day. She is still so stressed about something and I can't figure out why.
"Well there may have been a minor slip up with that," WHAT? I thought she enjoyed herself as much as I did. How is this happening if she didn't like me sexually why did she even agree to come here with me. "Edward don't get me wrong I loved being with you, more than I probably should but there is a slight complication with the after effects." Complication, what complications, I have been examined regularly and there is no way I gave her anything. She did say that she enjoyed herself maybe she is just as amazed by me as I am by her.
"Are you telling me that I had the same dazzling effect on you as you did on me?" Her face began to look like she didn't believe me she must not see herself very clearly if she thinks anything other than what I have said.
I heard her mumbling something about doubt "Edward this may be difficult to believe but I am pregnant, and before you ask I know its your you were the only guy I had slept with in the recent months." There is no way to describe the way I felt, what had happened how could this happen we used a condom. Although I can't say I remember clearly when I took it off, I glanced at where the baby was. Ugh what is happening, I know she is wonderful and amazing but a baby? I couldn't help but look at her stomach soon it would be round and as sad as this sounds I really want to see her that way. There was no way she could do this on her own but I had school and I really don't think I am ready to just drop my life and run off with her. A lot of people have kids without being married it's almost normal to be a single parent I hate the thought of not being with her. I looked at her stomach again how long would it be before I could see her again. With school it's not like we could see each other often and when would be the next time Alice would bring her, a month two months? I felt deeply for her but I really just want to take the normal route dating then boyfriend and who knows where it could go from there or if it even will. I still don't understand any of this how did she even get pregnant.
"How?" all I could manage was a whisper how I don't understand this.
"My only guess is that we didn't notice a break or hole in the condom." She could be right I really got lost in her that night I couldn't focus on things like the condom. I don't know how to react what to say I had to be impartial I am not exactly thrilled that this is happening and I really don't know what to do.
"Bella I think I should take you back I need some alone time to think." I needed to get out I needed to think, I needed to control my emotions before I could hurt her. I have been known to have a bad temper and if she tried to pick a fight I would defiantly lose what control I had, I would say something I would regret.
"You can just go I'll call Alice to pick me up," how could she think that I would leave her here doesn't she see that I am doing this for her, for us even though we aren't an us?
"Don't be silly Bella, I would never leave a preg- any woman stranded on a beach." How could I get through this when I can't even say the word? Her face was sad I could see it, when I couldn't say the word and that hurt her.
We walked to the car in silence I was lost in a million thoughts. I was trying to remember what happened to the condom to get her pregnant and why didn't I notice? What were her plans and why didn't she tell me when she first arrived? I had a million things I wanted to ask her but if I did and she said one thing wrong she could set off my temper. I need to stay in control with her here I can't hurt her in anyway possible.
"Edward say something anything!" she was angry, how I could have done this I put her through so much I made her pregnant and now I could hardly talk to her. Why didn't I say no when we had sex, I can't even think that. No matter what the outcome was there is no way I would have given up that night with her. What could I say to make her understand, I would give anything to know what she wanted to hear.
"What do you want me to say Bella," I could only manage a whisper I didn't want to set of my unruly temper.
"Anything, everything I need to know what you're thinking I need to know whether you can forgive me." She was begging me to open up my mind to her when all I really wanted was to know hers.
"A have a million things going thru my head all at once and there is no way I could tell you them all. Some of the things aren't appropriate some are angry some are scared and I have no idea what to do or say or even think." I tried to suppress my voice to keep it calm and subtle. I needed to get away I needed to think or rather not think.
We were silent the rest of the ride, I jumped out of the car quickly to open her door after all I told her I would. After this whole mess I needed her to know I would never try to hurt her again. After she was out I ran back and slid into the driver's seat I didn't know where to go but I was going. I stepped hard on the gas peddle hoping the speed would help me loosen this tension to leave it in the dust behind me.
Before I knew it I was in front of The Meadow, it was my favorite coffee shop and I always found peace there on the other hand I also found Tanya there. Tanya was special in her own way, I had known her for a long time and my father had loved to see her visit me when I was still at home. However her flirting was just plain annoying, she just wouldn't listen to the fact that I didn't like her that way even after telling her multiple times.
I walked to the counter and of course Tanya was there, she was always there. I ordered my coffee and went to wait by the window shortly after sitting down Tanya came and sat down across from me. "Hello Tanya," I answered bleakly.
"What's up, you seem really out of it?" she was honestly worried I could hear it in her voice.
"Do you remember hearing about Bella?" she simply nodded yes. "She came to town with Alice, I took her out on a date and she told me some very scary news." My voice was dead it had lost all emotion.
"Ok do you care to explain why it looks like she ran over your puppy?"
"She's pregnant," I whispered my heart was aching and my palms turned sweaty whit those words lingering on my tongue. I could hear Tanya's jaw drop and then snap shut, no matter how annoying she could get she was still a good friend.
"Wow," she whispered, "so what are you going to do?"
"I have no idea, I want to help and I want to be there for her but it's not like I just want to run away with her and pretend everything's fine." I may be a gentleman but that doesn't mean I have to run away with her, it's not like it was eighty years ago.
"I don't want you to do anything you might regret, you are one of my favorite friends. However you really need to tell her what you want to do with this whole thing." She was right and I knew it, at one point while she was saying this she tried to reach for my hand and I pulled away, her touch was nothing compared to Bella's.
"I know I do I just needed some time to think through what I want to say. I don't want to upset her and I didn't even talk to her about her plans for the baby, I don't even know if she plans to keep it." I didn't know anything about what she has planned for this whole thing. I still didn't think I could handle going back yet I needed a little more time I needed to relax.
"So I thought I should let you know I am leaving the meadow," she must have known I was done with the topic that I needed to think about other things. I really thought she would work here for the rest of her life, I wonder why she is leaving?
"How come?" I inquired.
"Well a couple girlfriends are moving up to Alaska and I thought it might give me a fresh start. There are only so many losers that I can handle to date in this town," she looked in my eyes as she finished, "and all the good guys are in love with someone else." Was I really in love with Bella? If I was is it really that obvious?
"Edward I have known you long enough and I have never seen you like this over a single person. After the last time you saw her you couldn't stop talking about her! You need to tell your self the truth and when the time comes you need to tell her." I didn't know how to reply to that part of me knows exactly how I feel about Bella but the other part screams that it is too soon to feel that way.
BUZZ!
Who is calling now, I looked at the screen to see it was Emmett. "What do you need Emmett I kind of need my space right now?"
"Well get you ass over it! Shit happens babies happen and you are acting like a complete jackass!" I was stunned by this comment when did Emmett find out.
"Emmett how do you know about this?"
"I knew about it before you did I'll tell you that much, I'll also tell you that if you don't fucking stop acting like a five year old I will find you and kick your ass like a good brother should!" I know he would do exactly what he said but I'm not quite sure I could handle going back yet.
"Em, you will tell me exactly when you found out later. Right now I need some more time to think, as a sign of good faith I'll tell you that I'm at The Meadow."
"You jerk, you went to see Tanya when you find out about this! Why the hell would you do shit like that! Do you know what has been going on since you took off like that! No you don't cause you are an immature piss ant!" the entire coffee shop was watching me Emmett was screaming so loud in the phone that they all heard him.
"What are you talking about?" I was getting frustrated and I was sick of Emmett's screaming.
"Oh, let's see how about me finding Bella on the front lawn and having to carry her! Yeah she was crying so hard because of your stupid ass that I had to carry her inside. Alice and Rose have been trying to calm her down this whole damn time and if you don't get back here to fucking fix this so help me you will be in pain!" I can't believe that she was that upset it hurt so bad to know I could do that to her. It hurt that I had caused her so much pain, it hurt to know that the right thing caused her pain. If I hadn't gone away we would have gotten in a fight and everything could have been lost.
"I'm on my way," with that I snapped the phone shut and ran to my car. I was about halfway there when I got stuck in traffic and just my luck the person in front of me had a huge glittering smiley face bumper sticker. Its mouth was open and showed his teeth, he looked like he could chomp the head off a chipmunk. I had to keep focused I had to get to Bella, the next exit was a back way to the house.
I jumped out of the car and started running for the house. Then something or rather someone grabbed my arm with so much force I couldn't escape.
"Let go Emmett!" I spat.
"I need to know what you plan to do when you get up there." he spat the words right at me.
"I have no idea but I know that I need to talk to her, I need to help her and I need you to let me GO!" I was sick of his games I needed to see her now!
He started to loosen his grip when he spoke, "if you make this worse I will take her side you may be family but with this baby she is too." I knew Emmett had always thought of Bella as a little sister, when he said this I could truly see how much he cared about her.
He let go of my arm and I started to run again, when I reached the door to Emmett's room Rosalie stopped me. "Are you ready to do this?" when exactly did Rose start to be caring?
"I think so," I was till stunned that Rosalie was acting like a human instead of a bitch.
"She isn't in the best shape right now I thought I should warn you. You should have seen her before the date she was so panicked about how you would react. I know you did what you had to but know that she was so scared."
"Was I the last person to find out about this?" why would she tell Rose before me?
"We sort of walked in on her talking to with Alice, I had to threaten Emmett not to tell you. You should go in and see her now." When she mentioned Emmett I saw her unleash an evil grin.
I walked into the room to see Alice holding Bella, she looked a mess but at the same time beautiful. I whispered for Alice to leave and slowly crept next to Bella on the bed. Gently I wrapped my arms around her needing to feel close to her to fix the problems I had caused.
Author's Note;
Ok my first thing is I am sorry if you don't like the length but I couldn't see breaking up the chapter. Next is that I love the responses I am getting, and so far I am proud to say I have replied to every one that has been sent. Last night I spent about an hour replying, I honestly love your input! I may not have the next chapter up tomorrow I need some time out in the world! I will try to have it out but I can't make promises because it is a very important chapter. So I thought I would let you know I almost danced on my bed when I saw that the hits for this story is now around 3,700.
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