Author's Note: Thanks as always for all of the reviews. Your kind words mean a lot. Sorry about the delay in updating. Hopefully this chapter of continued lust, more suspense, and sweet confessions will make up for it being so long between updates. The great thing about fanfiction is that I'm a fan and this is my fiction. You will soon be able to tell that there is one character I don't really care for. However, I am grateful for Tess Gerristen's creation and for Janet Tamaro's vision and bringing them to life on my screen.
Closer to Fine
Chapter 7
"God Maura…I thought…shit…I thought that after finally being with you…fuck…that feels so good…ahh…"
"Having a hard time talking, are you my love?"
Maura had pinned Jane up against the back of her apartment door as soon as they had made it across the threshold. Her hands were roaming all over the dark haired woman's body and her tongue had demanded entrance into the soft confines of her lover's mouth. The doctor deftly removed Jane's gun and badge from where they were clipped to her pants and moved to set them on the table before claiming the detective in another searing kiss.
"I thought once we did this I wouldn't be so consumed with you…but shit, I just want you more. I can't get enough of you Dr. Maura Isles."
Jane had found her voice when Maura moved her lips to mark her neck and her hands lifted her blazer off her shoulders only to puddle in a pile at her feet. The heat of the moment was the only time that Maura did not chastise Jane for her frequent use of expletives. The good doctor was no one to pass judgment as she saved it all up for these exact moments as well. The detective was feeling lightheaded and she struggled to catch her breath following another round of intense kisses.
"Women reach their sexual peak at 35. Men at 18. One of life's great mysteries regarding sexual relations and pro-creation of the species."
"Maura…no Wikipedia. I'm taking you to bed."
"No. Right here."
Now it was the doctor's turn to be breathless and reduced to monosyllables as she simultaneously pushed her knee between the dark haired woman's legs and ran her hands over her breasts and pinched the already hardened nipples through her clothing.
"I was just trying to explain your voracious sexual appetite. That, and making up for lost time."
Maura pushed her knee tighter against Jane's center and felt her moan as her head connected with the back of the door.
"Ouch!"
"Sorry. I'll make it up to you, Jane."
Maura's hands had undone Jane's belt and the button on her slacks. The good doctor wasted no time as she slid her hand under the band of Jane's black panties and into her soft and very wet folds.
"Shit Maura…you are unbelievable."
Jane had managed to get her hands under Maura's silk shirt as she freed it from the waist band of the matching skirt. She considered moving her hand between her lover's legs as well but was momentarily stymied by the half slip Maura had on under her skirt. Jane instead moved her left hand to the fast becoming favorite part of her lover's body…her amazing, full breasts. She moaned in relief when she found the front clasp of her bra. Jane's agility in undoing the clasp one handed made Maura hesitate briefly before circling Jane's clit and sliding farther along the path of wetness to slide inside of her. The sensation almost caused Jane to lose focus but she moved her right hand to join her left as she held and squeezed her lover's breasts and let her thumbs brush roughly over her nipples.
The two lovers continued to kiss feverishly while each sought for dominance. Jane considered turning Maura so that her back was against the door but was startled by the doctor's strength in keeping her pinned against the wooden frame. Jane couldn't take it anymore as she needed to put her lips on her lover's breasts and moved to gently lift the emerald green silk top up over Maura's head where it joined her blazer on the floor at their feet. Her bra strap followed suit as it slid down her shoulders. Maura used that moment to remove her fingers and pull off Jane's slacks and underwear in one fluid motion. Jane felt a chill that had nothing to do with her exposed skin but with the anticipation of what was yet still ahead. They were quite a pair…Maura topless while Jane was naked from the waist down.
Jane made the first move and leaned in to lick and nip at her lover's nipples while placing both soft mounds back in her hands. She could feel Maura's lips marking her neck and breathing heavily in her ear but her voice barely registered to Jane over the beating of her heart.
"Where was I?"
"Doctor, I think you were about to fuck me."
Maura moved back towards Jane and held her tightly against the door again. She wrapped both her hands around to rest against Jane's firm buttocks and lifted her closer to her still. Maura's finger dipped lightly through Jane's dark curls and this time she gasped at the arousal evident there.
"Spread your legs, Jane."
Jane didn't hesitate to do as her lover commanded. She moved back over each breast loving, teasing, and stroking the soft flesh beneath her fingers as Maura's entered her again.
"Maybe you are ovulating Jane?"
Jane was struggling to follow her logic but realized that the doctor's brain was back to trying to explain her level of desire and wetness.
"Why, are you planning to impregnate me?"
"I'm going to try."
The sky was the color of gun metal grey and the clouds were circling in an ominous warning of a possible cool fall rain. Agent Dean cursed under his breath as he flicked the cigarette from his fingers and moved to crush it underneath the tip of his shoe. He turned towards the razor wire fence and could see the guards with their machine guns in the towers above the prison. He checked the pocket of his coat one last time to make sure the picture was still there. The FBI agent turned and scanned the parking lot that was several rows deep as he checked his watch again.
"Where are you Sanchez?"
His question went unanswered and he started to wander farther amidst the parked vehicles and away from the entrance. He would still have to go in and question Hoyt just to follow his tracks. He had spoken enough with the older man that he knew just how to communicate with him without drawing any attention from the guards that would be present. The rest was up to Sanchez.
Gabriel was about to light another cigarette and pulled his blazer closer to his body as the first drops of rain started to fall.
"Shit. Cold and rainy."
"Sorry I was late. I'm here now."
The shorter man had come up behind the agent, his Spanish accent apparent as he shifted uneasily in the parking lot. The correctional officer did not want to be seen by any of his co-workers.
"I don't have much time. We are short staff and I pulled the double—just like I told you I would. Those new jacks get so upset about mandation so then I can be the hero by agreeing to work."
"Sanchez, I need you to focus. Get this to Hoyt, that's all you need to do.'
Dean pulled the photo from his pocket and handed it to the guard. Sanchez took a look at the picture and whistled under his breath but it was still loud enough for the agent to notice.
"Those are some fine looking ladies. Looks like they are awful friendly."
"Just do as you are told. " Gabriel was losing his patience and the softly falling rain drops were starting to soak through his jacket.
"I don't know. This is getting more difficult. Everybody is watching Hoyt so closely. He is like a celebrity."
"Look, Sanchez you do not have a choice. I've still got that evidence that I'm sure the police would be glad to use to put away your brother—for life."
"Fine. I'll keep being the go between. Speaking of…this is from him for you." Sanchez handed a folded paper to the agent and then stepped back away from him while he glanced nervously around the parking lot.
"But just know, I never signed up for murder."
"Sanchez, go back to work. I've got to question Hoyt before it gets any later."
Agent Dean returned to his car while he watched the younger man scurry back towards the entrance. Too bad he wouldn't live long enough to worry about someone else being murdered. He simultaneously lit another cigarette while pushing the speed dial on his cell.
"Damn it, Jane. Where are you and why are you not answering?"
Gabriel had to re-focus his anger and frustration while he waited to hear the beep that signaled it was time to leave his message.
"Jane, hi, it's Gabriel. I can't stop thinking about you and I want you to know that I am here for you. I'll make sure you are safe and that Hoyt won't hurt you anymore. I'm getting ready to talk to him and I'll see his reaction when I bring up Alison's name. He isn't happy that both of you are the only ones to ever get away from him, thanks to you. Listen, I was hoping I could take you to dinner tomorrow night. Alison will be moved to a new location and we will keep monitoring Hoyt's calls and actions. That's about all we can do for now. I think we should try to focus on something else for awhile. Maybe I can take your mind of all of this for a few hours. Okay, Jane, give me a call."
Dean wanted to say more on her message but was cut off by the beep indicating that the message had reached the maximum length. He was confident that Jane would call him back and accept his dinner offer and that is when the next part of his plan could be set in motion.
"Hi, Dr. Wilson, this is Debbie. I'm sorry but I'm not going to be able to see you any more as I've had to move out of town to take care of a family member suddenly. I was wondering if you had any kind of referral list for other therapists that are trained in EMDR. I'm not sure exactly where I will be settling so I can't even give you my address but was hoping you had a listing for other states. Okay, you can leave me a message at this number but I'm not sure I'll be able to give you a call back. I'm sorry that I couldn't see you one last time. Okay…I've got to go. Thank you, thank you for everything."
The young woman had a hard time containing herself as she ended the call and lost the fight as the tears started falling and the sobs escaped her throat. She sat alone in the airport away from the other passengers also waiting for their flight to Madison, Wisconsin. Alison…Debbie…now Kelly…the names all rolled around in her brain and she fought to remember what was the most important. She was alive. The FBI decided that it would be a good idea to relocate her again just in case that her aunt and uncle's death was somehow related to Hoyt.
She had a hard time answering their questions as she was never close with Amanda as the woman was 20 years her senior and so caught up in the world of money and privilege. A world that was foreign to Alison and her family. Amanda's mother was a sister to Alison's grandmother and the two families couldn't have been more different. She had told Agent Dean and the others that she had probably only seen her second cousin twice in her whole life. The more they had talked the more convinced everyone seemed that this all was just a coincidence and unrelated to what had happened with Hoyt. Alison hated when anything happened to remind her and was just starting to find some relief in her weekly therapy with Dr. Wilson. Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) was the first type of therapy that had seemed to make a difference and alleviate some of her traumatic flashbacks and nightmares.
Alison fought back the tears again and looked at her watch to see how much longer until they would start boarding for her flight. An agent would meet her at the airport and drive her to new location and help her get settled…yet again. The only bright spot about all of this was that she had seen Jane again. She wished Jane could have come with her so they could spend some more time together. Being with her never brought the bad memories…only the good. Something was different with Jane this time and Alison couldn't quite put her finger on what that difference was exactly. It was as if she was finally finding some peace of her own regarding this whole nightmare. And if that was really true, Alison was happy for the detective as Jane only deserved the best life had to offer.
Jane was awaken by the sound of her stomach growling and struggled to take in her surroundings and figure out what time it was. The blinds were drawn in the bedroom but the detective could tell by the lighting outside that it was well past dinnertime. She was naked in her bed and lying next to an equally naked Maura. Flashes of memory from the last few hours managed to seep back into her brain as she felt the stiffness in her back from earlier. Jane and Maura had made it to the bedroom after a round of intense sex against the door. They were far from finished and what followed was tender and intimate compared to the urgency they felt when first being alone together. Jane marveled in the amount and intensity of her orgasms with Maura and moved to snuggle closer to her new lover. This time it was Maura's stomach that sounded the alarm that reminded both women that they hadn't eaten since late morning.
"What time is it?" Maura stirred and turned to face Jane in the bed. She ran her fingers through the dark curls and struggled to wake from a blissful but short sleep.
Jane moved to turn towards the digital clock on the nightstand and saw that it was almost 9 p.m. The two lovers had been so focused on each other and their desires that they had lost track of the evening. Jane didn't want to break the mood or move from the bed for days but she knew she needed to collect Jo from her neighbor and both of them needed to eat something.
"Will you spend the night?"
"Haven't I already?" Maura leaned in and kissed Jane's cheek. She, too, did not want to leave the bed and the closeness with Jane. She nodded her acknowledgment and reminded Jane that unless either of them received a phone call they would have the next day off together. She needed to return to her home to change clothes and feed Bass but was hoping they could spend together the better part of the next 44 hours or so until work returned for both of them Monday morning.
"Oh crap, I forgot I promised my mom I would be at Sunday dinner tomorrow."
"Well, maybe I could come with you?" Maura's voice was tentative as she didn't want to rush Jane into anything she wasn't ready for but she dreaded spending any time apart from her.
"The last thing I want to do is be with my family when I could be alone with you." Jane smiled and leaned in for a soft kiss. "Besides, I don't think I could keep my hands off of you and my mom would definitely notice. I think I want to take this to the next level and be honest about our relationship but I'm not sure my family is the best place to start."
"Well, as much as I want to stay in bed all day having my way with you, there is somewhere else I want to go with you tomorrow."
"Where's that?" Jane questioned while she moved to trace lazy circles on Maura's face and then began to move her hand through her soft auburn locks.
"I want to go to the shooting range. I want you to finish my lesson on handling and shooting a gun."
"Ooh…my girlfriend the badass! That is hot, Maura but something tells me this isn't about finding a new way to turn me on, is it?"
Maura's demeanor changed rapidly and she looked away from Jane's eyes. She moved to separate their legs and started to turn away from Jane without getting out of the bed. Jane noticed the change instantly and moved to turn her girlfriend's face and eyes back towards her.
She saw tears in Maura's eyes and for the first time remembered that she had also been crying when they were in her kitchen last night about to take a leap in their new found relationship. It was clear that Maura was trying to hide her tears but just like lying she was failing miserably.
"Maura, talk to me." Jane's thumb caught the first tear but others fell in its place and so quickly that Jane had no choice but to hold her and feel the wetness on her own cheek.
"Jane, now that I have found you I don't want to lose you. I was so scared the last time when we all realized that Hoyt had somehow got to you when you arrived at your apartment. Those hours of not knowing where to look or if I would ever see you alive again were torture. I hate what that bastard has done to you and continues to do to you every day. If I'm going to be around you, and I hope that I am for a long time, then I want to be able to protect you."
"I can protect myself…"
"Jane, I'm not done. I need you to listen to me."
Maura's tears were replaced by a sternness that unsettled Jane more than her friend being vulnerable and emotional. Jane realized that her actions and her line of work now affected another person besides just her family and while it wouldn't keep her from doing her job it was something she would always think about in the corner of her brain. She thought if she ever got this close to anyone she would hate this feeling but Jane realized that with Maura, everything has been different.
"I'm listening. "
"Jane," Maura started softly and proceeded slowly, her eyes never leaving Jane's as she needed to see her reaction to what she was about to say. "Jane, I love you. It is scary as hell to say this but I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't say it to you now. I was attracted to you the first day we met and I was pretty certain that you weren't being honest about your attraction to women. I never thought we would be friends as we are very different and I don't make friends easily. But it has always been different with you, Jane. I enjoyed spending time with you and looked forward to doing things outside of work together. I realized I was falling in love with you and I wasn't sure you would ever allow yourself to reciprocate the feelings so I thought it would be best if I could fix you up with someone else. I tried to keep an open mind to Grant and Agent Dean and even Jorge but I kept wishing that it wouldn't work out with them so that we could continue to do things together…and so I could keep flirting with you. This is all so scary but it also feels so good and I'm too far in to stop caring about you…and us now. I want to be with you more than anything in the world and that means doing whatever I can to help you stay safe."
Jane's eyes never left Maura's face and she realized that her friend and lover had stopped talking to take a breath and was now looking expectantly at Jane. It surprised the detective that it was her own tears now falling on her face and she took in everything Maura had just said to her. She leaned in and placed a soft kiss on the doctor's lips and moved to brush the tears out of her eyes. Jane was not used to this level of vulnerability and tried to lighten the mood.
"Okay, dinner at five and shooting practice in the afternoon but the rest of the time between now and then I plan to spend alone with you, preferably without any clothes on. You said it yourself, Maura. I'm making up for lost time. Well, that and I love you too and I love making love with you."
TBC
