Down the rabbit hole

Dressed in a mouse-grey, waist-long coat, said [h/c] haired girl strolled down the streets, her hands stuffed in her pockets. King Winter was finally starting to show his face and the first snow was slowly falling from the grey sky. She liked the winter. It was always so beautiful, so peaceful, so mysterious. She remembered as child how her father would lit the fire in the fireplace and her mother would bring her little family warm tea and chocolate as they sat before the sparkling fire, altogether.

Soon enough, she found herself stroll through the city's park. The large fountain was beautiful as ever. Due to the season there was only a little water left before it eventually would freeze to ice. She liked the winter. Stopping by a bench, she sat down in the opposite site of an old lady, who merely smiled at her before continuing feeding the winter-birds. [Name] smiled faintly at the sight. Leaning back she let her eyes scan over the place. Couples holding hands, smiling so tenderly and warm to each other. She forced a small smile.

[Kanda's POV]

He stuck his hands deeper into his pockets as he walked down the snowy streets. The winter didn't annoy him at all. In fact he liked the cold weather. Yes, Kanda was tough when it came to that. Turning around the next corner he entered the city park, but took a halt when his dark orbs landed on a certain someone not far away from him. He could just walk by, pretend like nothing, but he felt a twinge inside his heart. She didn't seem to have noticed him and somehow he was thankful for that. He wouldn't admit it out loud, but seeing the eternal smile on her yet so pretty face, be gone gave him an odd feeling.

"Kanda" even from the distance he could still hear her clearly, and he caught himself in staring. Che. How embarrassing. He closed his eyes and turned one hundred and eighty degrees, walking off the spot. They were through so there was no reason to keep lingering.

"Kanda… wait" he heard her call after him. He would pretend like he didn't hear her, but when he felt a hand grasp his jacket he stopped. He sighed, but didn't look at her. What should he say to her? Why was she even talking to him? Nothing in his head made sense.

"What do you want?" he asked dryly, refusing to turn around.

"I…I… I… miss you" her voice was trembling, he could tell. Kanda exhaled. He was no good when it came to expressing feelings, nor to respond to them. Jerking his head over his shoulder, he looked down at the small, young woman behind him. He looked at her deadpanned. He wasn't glaring, nor smiling. He observed her face, her eyes. The [e/c] optics that usually held so much happiness within them, now filled with tears. Rare had it happened he had seen her cry. It somehow hurt to see that; he was still a human nonetheless.

"I…" he huffed and averted his gaze from her, shutting his eyes closed stubbornly.

"I'm sorry" he was taken aback. Her lithe figure pressed against him ever so lightly. Could he just put his arms around her and hug her?

"It's nothing" he murmured back, cracking his eyes open just a little. He couldn't tell her he needed her. He couldn't tell her how much his heart was arching, how hurt he was inside. He was filled with frustration, but he couldn't get himself to let it out.

"Can I… see you tomorrow. I want to talk to you" he managed to bring out. [Name] looked up at him slight confused.

"You can just-"

"Not here" the blunette interrupted. "Don't be late" he pointed out as he turned about and walked off. No, he couldn't tell her here, not now. It wasn't the right time.

"Okay" was all he heard before he exited the place.

And back again