Edward P.O.V.

I cannot believe I said those things to Bella. I was so horrible and nasty. The way she looked at me it made me want to die.

As soon as I got out of the house I ran. I just couldn't run fast enough. Everytime I got faster it still felt too slow. Soon I came upon the meadow.

It was still beautiful, but something was missing. I immediately knew what it was. Bella. She was the only thing that made this place seem worthwhile. I still love her so much. From what I've heard in people's thoughts, when I left I took all the love she had to offer with me.

I now know that I never have and never will deserve her. I should have never come back.

No. Don't think that. If I hadn't come back she would be dead right now, and I never would have seen her again.

I looked around the meadow once more and took off. I didn't know where I was going. I just needed to go somewhere, anywhere but here. I kept running for days, passing many things most of which reminded me of Bella.

I just need to stop thinking about her. She doesn't want me, especially after what I said to her.

How could I do that to her? I could I be so heartless, so cruel? I had made fun of her illness, her depression that I had caused. I just wish I hadn't spoken out in anger. It made me say the stuff I knew would hurt her most just to watch her squirm. I just really wish I hadn't done it. If only there was a way for vampires to commit suicide, I would kill myself right now and never regret it.

Wait... there is one way.


Author's Note:

So what did you think? Let me know. And I'm so so so sorry that it was so short again! I'm really trying to make it longer. I might start adding more than one person's P.O.V. to make it longer. Please review!

-Courtnie