Hey guys. Sorry it took so long to write this but I had a crap load of homework to do. Gotta love school. Anyways, I'm hoping to end this soon, I hadn't expected it to get so long. Anyways, reviews are love! Thanks guys for all your support! Read and Review!

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Chapter 7: Frustration

" Well, you look happy", Sam commented, as Dean walked into the motel room.

" I do?", Dean replied, grinning.

" You know you do. You have stars in your eyes. Did you finally tell Cas that you love him?", Sam asked, feeling relief settle through his body.

Dean sobered at that. " Would I really be this happy if I had?", Dean asked.

Sam felt for his brother. He had hoped that it would be easy, but he knew damn well it wouldn't. An angel was a pure being, more innocent than any virgin, and in order to be with a human, well it just wouldn't be allowed.

" Well, when you guys finally admit you love each other, it'll get easier", Sam replied.

" Will it, Sam? I don't think so. Cas is an angel. I'm a damn human. There are rules, orders that are working against us. Again, Cas is an angel, remember what Anna said? They're cold, unfeeling; what do you wanna bet Cas is those things? We already know he is", Dean said.

" Yeah, around other people, that doesn't include you", Sam replied.

" Yeah, okay. Maybe…maybe not. Still, even if he did care about me, heaven is still against us. It's not sacred in the eyes of the Lord, remember? You know, the whole gay relationship thing", Dean said. He felt a little stupid quoting some of the religious people, but it was true.

" Cas has bended the rules for you before, I don't doubt for a minute that he wouldn't break them for you", Sam replied.

Dean looked at the floor. He had hoped that Cas would break the rules for him, but he wasn't sure that Cas really would. Could Cas give up Heaven for him? His brothers and sisters? His Father? Dean didn't know. But he knew he had to try. He might get a broken heart, but he needed to know.

" I still think you just tell him. I think you'd be surprised", Sam said.

" Yeah, because that would go over well", Dean replied. If only it was that easy. Dean rolled his eyes at himself. Then Dean started to wonder if it could be that easy…

Castiel sat on a park bench, staring out over the playground riddled with children and parents of various ages. They all seemed so happy. He saw mothers and fathers holding hands, gaze longingly at each other, and even sneak kisses when they thought no one was watching.

Castiel felt a burn in his stomach. He realized this feeling as envy, jealousy even. He would never have a family, no children, no love. As if Heaven hadn't taken enough, they just had to take that.

He was willing to give up his home, his brothers and sisters, hell he would even give up God if he could just find a way to be with Dean. But it wasn't possible. He didn't want to lose his powers because then he couldn't protect Dean properly. Life was a bitch, as Dean would say.

" You're a baby, you know that?", Sam commented.

" Well…I do now", Dean said.

" Smart ass", Sam murmured.

" Bitch."

"Jerk."

" Okay, this is getting us nowhere fast. Any sign of demons, witches, hell I'll even take leprechauns right now", Dean replied, feeling very agitated. He didn't know why, but he just felt like running, shooting, stabbing…ANYTHING. But, sadly, he couldn't do any of that…except for running, but Dean didn't want to leave the room.

Sam chuckled from his laptop. " Leprechauns? Dude, those things scare the living daylights out of you", Sam said, bursting out into full laughter.

Dean threw a pillow that hit Sam right in the face. " Dude, so not funny", Dean replied.

" But no. Silent as the stars", Sam replied, sober now.

" Great. So we get to sit here on our asses all day. This is gonna be fun", Dean commented, wryly.

" Maybe you should just make it easier for yourself and go find Cas…and talk to him", Sam suggested.

" And maybe you should grow a vagina and join Dr. Phil", Dean suggested, smirking.

" Haha. Very funny", Sam said, rolling his eyes.

" I thought so", Dean replied. " I should be a stand-up comedian."

" How about you start with NOT being a coward?", Sam replied, sweetly.

Dean rolled his eyes. That comeback wasn't even worth replying to. It was just pointless.

" You can't keep avoiding it, Dean. You know that the more you try to put it out of your mind, the more it'll come back and bite you in the ass when you finally attack Cas", Sam said, softly.

Dean raised an eyebrow. " Umm…Sammy? 'attack Cas'? What does that even mean?", Dean asked. Then he immediately regretted asking. Suddenly he didn't want to know.

" Would you have preferred me to say when you jump his bones?", Sam answered.

Dean winced. Well, now that Sam put it that way…

" Yeah, I would. I would not attack Cas. That's an awful way of putting it. You make me sound like I'm beating him up", Dean explained.

" Or just having your way with him in a frenzy of need and lust", Sam pointed out.

" Great. Now I sound like pervert", Dean complained.

" No. You don't", Sam said.

" Uh yeah, kinda does. Having my way with him, attacking him, jumping his bones. If that doesn't sound perverted, then I don't know what does. He's a freakin' angel, for God's sakes. So yeah, I do sound like a pervert", Dean replied.

" Well, tell him before you lust gets out of control and you lose it and do end up doing something like that", Sam said, calmly, as he reached for a book.

" How can you be so calm at a time like this?", Dean asked, pacing the room and running a frustrated hand through his short, spiky hair.

" Simple. I'm not getting hot and bothered by an angel", Sam replied, opening the book and sticking his nose in it. Sam could hear Dean as he sighed and flopped on the bed with a frustrated groan. Sam smiled to himself. It wouldn't be long now.