So I thought I would take this moment to answer some reviews :)

Miri-san: I feel like Finn's storyline is important for Clarke's… Part of her whole character development throughout the season is because of what happened to Finn. Clarke needs to harden and, despite her feelings for Lexa, she did still sleep with Finn and have feelings for him so this should be kept in mind during the next few chapters. It's all for Clarke's development.

AmazonianTheifEss: You are right on both accounts and more. Finn could never survive on Earth. Personally I like Finn until about half way through the first season but still his death upset me. However I think his love of peace and role as the pacifist was always going to come back and bite him. Bellamy's leadership is questionable… Let's be real here Clarke is in charge. The 100 followed her even when Bellamy was their leader. However I feel like it is important to remember that he has the unique ability of being able to inspire the people that do follow him and Clarke is maybe too realistic to make the sacrifices other leaders are willing to make (Though again this all changes with her character arc). Bellamy doesn't take the leadership role in the second season, that's all on Clarke, and I wanted to show that but that doesn't mean he's still not a valuable character to have around.

RagnarWolf: I'm glad you love Anya too! I really want to explore her dynamic with Lexa and I'm still trying to get over the fact that we never actually saw any of that on the show. I'm glad you'll be willing to read no matter what I do haha Bellamy and Clarke you say? Hmmmm… No not happening. After having my life threatened by my tutors at college that 'gut you' was practically an 'I love you' hahahaha :') Love reading these reviews

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It is a man's own mind, not his enemy or foe, that lures him to evil ways.

Buddha

Clarke stood above tonDC at Anya's side yet she couldn't help but feel like an invader. This was not her place to mourn nor was it her place to feel the anger of these deaths and yet she did. She did because it was Finn. Finn, the boy who had been so kind to her, been so protective and had risked his life for her, Finn… the boy she could have loved.

Anya was practically shaking next to her but Clarke still couldn't quite believe the scene before her. Finn was staring up at her with a relieved smile, Bellamy and Octavia seemed to be struggling between relief and horror.

"Clarke!"

She looked down and spotted a group of people she hadn't seen previously. Her mother was holding a hand over her mouth with tears in her eyes but Clarke's gaze fell on the figure next to her. Lexa.

Anya slid down the slope towards her commander and Clarke followed after. They ran over to the group and she immediately started talking rapidly to the commander. Clarke allowed Abby to pull her into a tight embrace.

"I thought- I didn't-"

She nodded into her mum's neck understanding what she couldn't say. Lexa turned away from Anya once the grounder was finished speaking and looked to Clarke. Her face was impassive but she could see the relief shining behind her eyes. Lexa had been worried about her.

"Clarke of the sky people" Lexa greeted and she pulled out of her mother's grasp to face the commander.

"Commander" Clarke looked between Abby and the commander, "What's going on?"

"We were discussing terms for an alliance"

"Were" The woman standing behind Lexa snarled out. She had her sword drawn as did the other grounders in the area.

Lexa was watching Clarke but she didn't try to correct the woman. Instead she turned to the two men behind her, "Take him"

Clarke stepped in front of their path and pleaded with Lexa, "Wait, please, we can talk about this"

"Jus drain Jus daun"

The grounders behind her roared and repeated the sentiment until Lexa raised her hand for silence. Clarke shook her head and took a step forward.

"Please, we want peace not this"

Lexa's eyes fluttered slightly "You may have your truce… just give me the one you call Finn"

XoXoXoX

They were back in the Ark. Clarke had been washed and dressed in replacement clothes for the rags she had been wearing since mount weather. Finn was watching the proceedings from the corner, he was still apart from the darting of his eyes between those speaking then back to Clarke as if he couldn't quite believe she was there. Octavia and Bellamy were side by side with bowed heads having the decency to look guilty. Abby and Kane both wore grim expressions as Clarke paced trying to work out the events from the moment she had left with Lexa to this point with Finn killing the innocents of tonDC.

Bellamy shook his head, "It looked suspicious okay? You left with Lexa and she reappears without you a few days later… Our trust of them is on shaky ground"

"You didn't have to trust them" She pointed out, "You just had to believe that I knew what I was doing"

"We did" Octavia argued, "I tried to tell him okay? I trust the grounders"

"It doesn't matter why he did it. What matters now is what we do about it" Kane jumped in.

Abby nodded, "We don't know how they treat this type of thing"

"Knowing them they aren't likely to just let him go… We were lucky Lexa allowed us the choice"

Clarke shook her head, "It's not a choice, not really, and she knows it"

"What are you saying? That we hand over Finn?"

Bellamy looked angered but Octavia didn't look opposed to the idea. Kane sighed and rubbed his temple, "We might not have a choice"

Bellamy spluttered, "We can't just hand over Finn. They'll kill him"

"He killed people!" Octavia gave him an incredulous look.

Finn stood up and walked over to Clarke and looked at her pleadingly, "I did it for you Clarke. I was looking for you… I love you"

"No" The room was silent aside from the two of them and Clarke shook her head, "No. I don't care if you love me or not Finn that's not a reason to kill fourteen innocent people that having nothing to do with this and don't you dare say that you did it for me because I don't want their deaths on me"

"He did do it for you"

Clarke stepped back from Finn and wiped away unshed tears, "I killed someone, hell I killed more than one person, in that mountain to escape. It makes me feel sick and I was sick. I don't think I'll ever forget that but they were killing people… they were draining grounders of their blood and they were going to do the same to me. I don't like what I did but I did it because I had no other choice. I'm not trying to justify my actions but I was backed into a corner.

You had a choice Finn and you chose to take the life of a child. You chose to take those lives. If we hand you over to the grounders then they want justice for those lives and they will get that justice whether we hand you over or not. If we don't give you to them then they will kill us all but if we do then they'll do something unimaginable to you"

Finn was shaking his head. Abby walked over and pulled Clarke into a tight embrace. She crying freely now having been reminded of the events in the mountain, "Shhh, its okay we'll figure something out"

She sighed and gasped out through the tears, "I need to try and talk to Lexa. Figure something out whilst I'm gone"

Clarke didn't wait for permission before leaving.

XoXoXoX

Clarke trudged up the path behind the three grounders. They were taking her to where the commander was waiting in her war tent. She ignored the ominous glow of the flames against the cool night air and held back a shiver.

Anya was waiting for her at the entrance. She too had cleaned and dressed into her normal black garb complete with war paint. Surprisingly to Clarke she nodded in approval at her approach.

"This way sky girl"

She pulled back the flap and led the way inside. Lexa was sitting on a throne at the back of the tent. She was slouched slightly and spinning her knife in hand almost with an air of arrogance about her. The woman from tonDC with scars across her face stood in the back on Lexa's left and Clarke spotted another guard far to the right. She swallowed and raised her head. Anya moved from Clarke's side and stood in front of the guard the closest to Lexa's side.

The young grounder herself wasn't looking at Clarke but rather chose to follow the actions of the blade in her hand as it spun precariously, "Do you have an answer for me?"

She took a deep breath but didn't allow her eyes to waver. Lexa herself had told Clarke not to break eye contact, "We need this alliance. Our people need the promise of safety and you need your people released from mount weather"

Lexa halted her movements and allowed her eyes to flicker up to Clarke. She didn't waver at the mention of the mountain and Clarke assumed Anya had taken the opportunity to tell her all about the actions of the mountain men.

She continued, "There may be a way to turn reapers back if we can have a look at one and work thoroughly. Our medicine is far more advanced than yours, this can and will benefit you"

"Lies" The woman at the back growled, eyeing Clarke suspiciously, "Don't believe a word. People that are about to die will say anything"

"Shof op Indra"

The woman called Indra seemed affronted but didn't speak again. Clarke had no idea what had just been said but decided to further her argument.

"You don't have to do this. You don't have to kill him"

Lexa dug the knife into the arm of the throne, "I'm sorry Clarke. People died today, now my people call for justice and I cannot deny them that. I will not deny them that"

Clarke sighed. She had been afraid of that and what scared her most was that she couldn't find a single argument against this… Lexa was right.

"What will happen to him?"

"He will suffer the pain of fourteen deaths and then die by the Heda's sword" Indra puffed out her chest.

She swallowed the bile down and nodded, "Does he have to die?"

"It is justice Clarke"

Lexa stood from the throne and stepped down to stand in front of Clarke. She eyed the girl for a moment before turning her head slightly and shouting an order in their language. The guards nodded and left, Anya looked like she wanted to protest but left begrudgingly whereas Indra looked livid.

"Heda-"

"Shof op indra"

She stormed out of the tent a second later leaving Clarke alone with the commander. It was the first time she had seen Lexa in her full commander clothing and she found it slightly off putting. However the second Indra was gone Lexa seemed to drop the mask and Clarke could finally recognise the grounder that had saved her life all those weeks ago.

"Clarke of the sky people"

"Commander"

She raised an eyebrow and lifted her hand to Clarke's cheek which she rubbed gently, "I feared you dead"

Her eyes flickered and Clarke saw a hint of fear swimming amongst the emerald green and her stomach lurched. She leant into Lexa's touch for a moment before shaking her head.

"I can't believe you did that in the tunnel… The braid… You thought you would die…"

Her other hand came to rest gently at Clarke's hip and she shook her head, "I never feared for my death I merely feared for yours. My people would know what the braid meant… Clarke… What happened in there?"

For the first time she found herself relaying the story. All of it. From the moment she kissed Lexa and watched her walk away to the moment her and Anya broke through the tree line to see Finn shoot those people. Lexa nodded along to her account of finding Anya and being taken by the mountain men. Her gaze never wavered as she heard of the torture her people were enduring and nor did she flinch during the retelling of the escape.

"Was he the first life you took?"

The question took Clarke by surprise and she fumbled slightly, "W- Yes… Yes he was…"

Lexa nodded solemnly and rose back to her throne where the knife lay untouched. She picked it up by the hilt and returned to Clarke.

"Jus drein Jus daun means blood for blood Clarke. We answer each death in blood and the debt is paid. If death has no cost, life has no worth. We are taught this first before anything else… However some find it soothing to feel as though their debt is paid to those whose life they have taken"

Clarke looked at the knife, "You want me to draw blood for those lives I've taken?"

"I want you to pay the debt you feel you need to pay. If their lives have no worth then you need not pay it"

"I… They're monsters. They're killing people for their own survival…"

"We all kill for survival"

Clarke looked up into her eyes, "How many?"

She seemed to know what Clarke was asking because she unstrapped her armour and pulled down the leather of her jacket to reveal the strikes against her skin. Clarke counted 30…

"Thirty?"

Lexa pulled her clothes up and gave a short nod, "Significant kills… I have killed more but they are the ones I have killed through justice…"

"Will you bleed for Finn?"

"I won't bleed for the boy that took lives. He bleeds for the lives he took"

Clarke sighed and raised her hand to the dagger, "I… I won't bleed for their lives because they bled for the lives of your people"

Lexa nodded and sheathed the dagger. Clarke swallowed and let out a shaky breath.

"Finn is going to die isn't he?"

"Yes"

Clarke rubbed her temple and tried to hold back the tears. She just wanted to curl up and cry… They had already lost so many lives and now Finn had doomed himself just when they were on the peak of freedom and peace.

"But he may not have to suffer Clarke…"

She looked up from her hands with wide eyes.

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