Valentines day special! Hope you all enjoy your holiday (I would love more reviews! Let me know what you're thinking!)

I spent the rest of the day at home in bed. I tried to watch movies and get some sleep but Saukra was home playing loud music and banging things around like she always did when I tried to relax since she caught Sasuke and I together. I went to take a shower just to get out of the room and she left, locking me out in my towel knowing I hadn't brought my keys. When I finally got back inside I got dressed, wrapping myself in Sasuke's large sweater that he had left in my closet and curled up on my bed.

After our first class together the next day Sasuke came with me back to my room like he always did for the hour before math.

"Hey Sasuke?" I started nervously wondering how he would react. He had asked me to see other people, but I guess I really hoped he would be jealous and say he wanted me only for himself.

"I slept with Gaara"

He laughed. Clearly he didn't believe me.

"Sasuke," I said quietly.

He scanned my face knowing me well enough to figure out it was the truth. I was completely stupid to expect him to care. All I got was a "hn" and a shrug. Then he took out his homework and scribbled silently for the rest of the hour.

He packed up, kissed me, and walked to the math building with me. He smiled turning to go to his own class.

Gaara blushed when I walked in and sat next to him. I guess I was nervous because I said "Hey, nice pen." Then laughed at myself. It broke the tension causing him to laugh too. We spent the rest of the lesson looking at each other then blushing and looking away.

After class as I packed up my books Gaara asked, "Hey what are you doing this Friday?"

I have no idea what got into me because I cockily replied "Going out with you!"

He looked nervous and shocked for a second but recovered and quickly smiled huge. "Good."

We walked to lunch together meeting up with Kiba and everyone.

"Did your head ever stop hurting Naruko?" Hinata asked politely.

"Yeah thanks, I had a great time thanks for inviting me." I blushed looking in Gaara's direction.

"You two," Neji said glancing between us. His eyes never missed a thing.

"Oh my gosh!" Kiba shouted catching on. "You finally asked her!"

"We're just going on a date Kiba, it's not a big deal. " Gaara said a bit embarrassed.

I turned scarlet and hid my head behind Gaara's shoulder. which caused a collective "awe," from everyone.

The rest of the day passed pleasantly until I sat next to Sasuke in the last class of the day. He wasn't paying attention, just playing some stupid game on his phone the whole time. Every time I looked over he'd hiss at me and tell me I was to stupid to not pay attention. After class I walked off not bothering to wait for him. We ate dinner together every night but not that night. I went home after class deciding I'd rather starve then eat with Sasuke Uchiha.

I finished my homework quickly and went to bed early, but I couldnt sleep at 9 o'clock. I watched some tv and started to drift off until my phone rang. Sasuke was calling me at 10:30 on a weeknight. I ignored it, I didn't want to hear him insult me some more.

At 11:30 the phone rang again, and again and again. No matter how many tines I hit ignore he called again. He must have called ten times before Sakura got up screamed at me and chased me out of the room threatening to kill me.

I answered, "Hey, "

"Naruko, It is Lee. You need to come over here now." Then he hung up.

I went back into my room getting dressed as Sakura yelled, then quickly ducked out the door.

I was terrified for the entire twenty minutes it took me to walk over. Was Sasuke alright? Why had they called me? I wanted to run but I stopped myself, if it were that important Lee would have told me over the phone. Nervously I knocked.

"Thank god!" Choji yelled grabbing me by the wrist and pulling me in.

"What is going on?" I shouted pulling my arm away from him.

"We went to see some friends from home who were in town and Sasuke. Arrghh. Well Sasuke..." He couldn't finish shaking his head.

"Sasuke drank, he drank so much. We told him to stop, we tried to take it away from him but..." Lee trailed off.

"Is he ok!?" I shouted my mind reeling. "Where is he?"

"We can not tell if he is alright. He will not let anyone near him. It was hard enough just to get him home. He keeps saying your name." Lee filled me in opening the door to their bedroom.

The lights were off and Sasuke was curled up in a ball in the middle of the floor. He held his arms out to block the light and shouted profanities. I kneeled down next to him and had to wrestle his arms down.

"Sasuke," I said softly and he calmed down. "Sasuke," I repeated running my hand over his face, thumb gently caressing his cheek.

"Naruuuko," He slurred.

"Shhh, I'm here. I've got you." I cooed pulling his head into my lap. "Sasuke," I used my serious voice. "How much did you drink? You could have alcohol poisoning. "

He reached a shaky hand out and grabbed mine. He felt fine, and I relaxed knowing he wasn't in danger.

"Naruko," came Lee's voice from the doorway.

"He's fine Lee" I said. He nodded closing the door again and then came back with a glass of water.

He handed it to me saying, "See if you can get him to drink, he wouldn't take it from us." Then left us alone.

I brushed his hair off his face, his eyes were closed but he needed to stay awake. I shook him a little, "Sasuke, Sasuke" He opened his eyes weakly. I pushed the glass at him, he stumbled a little trying to sit up so I put the glass down and gave him a tug pulling him up so he was leaning back against me using my legs on either side of him to hold him up then handed him the water.

I was relieved when he drank but I had to take it away from him so he wouldn't get sick. Lee came back in, it was past midnight and he was obviously tired. I nodded at Sasuke and Lee helped me get him to his feet. He helped Sasuke into the bathroom knowing he was going to start throwing up soon. While I rustled through his drawers to find some things he'd need.

"Thank you." Lee said laying his hand on my arm sympathetically then going to bed.

It was not by far my favorite night with Sasuke. I had the whole time sitting in the bathroom while he forcibly removed the alcohol from his system to think about why he had gone on this binge. To this day I still don't know but I've always thought it was because he was jealous of Gaara.

After he stopped throwing up and several glasses of water I helped take his clothes off. I took mine off too and guided him into the shower since he smelled like vomit.

Once I had made sure to get the soap all over his body, I turned off the water and helped him dress.

"Naruko,"

"It's fine Sasuke, " I said holding the shorts he used as pajamas. He kinda hit my hand and put them on himself. I was glad he was starting to perk back up, he was standing straight and acting almost human again. He leaned in as if to kiss me but I handed him his toothbrush instead. He brushed his teeth quickly then turned to me again.

"Naruko."

Tears formed in my eyes. "What the hell Sasuke! What were you thinking?" I then hit him hard on the shoulder knocking him back against the wall in the tiny bathroom. I opened the door and turned to go but he grabbed me and pulled me close nuzzling his face into my hair. I continued, "You can't do this to me Sasuke, it's not fair." and pulled away again.

He put his hand on the back of my neck, turning my tear streaked face towards him. His deep dark eyes bored into mine and I felt his soul. He was scared, sad and completely vulnerable in that moment.

"Don't go." he said simply. He meant so much with those words. He wasn't asking for just that night.

"Sasuke," I started not knowing what to say.

"Please." He said tears forming in his eyes.

"Shhh," I tried to calm him putting my hands on his face directing his eyes into mine. "I won't leave, not ever. I said I loved you Sasuke and I will, always."

He kissed me deep, his hands wrapped around my back like he was holding onto his life. I could taste his mint toothpaste on his tongue and I was still mad about his recklessness. When he pulled back for air I led him by the hand to the couch. I laid him down and he pulled me down next to him. That night he curled up tight to me laying his head on my shoulder over my heart.

The next morning I had to roll off the couch to get out from under him to get to class but he barely stirred. I was tired and in a terrible mood that day so I stayed away from my friends claiming to be sick. As I headed back to my room Shikamaru stopped me.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"Nothing, just not feeling so well today." He sighed.

"Look, this is kinda a drag but it'd be easier if you didn't lie."

It all just came spilling out the whole thing with Sasuke, and Gaara, and Sakura, all of it. He sat next to me on a bench in the shade of the courtyard and heard the whole story. When I finally finished he tilted his head back watching the clouds thinking it all over.

"I guess it comes down to, is Sasuke enough for you? If this is all he'll give you, is it enough? I know that's not the answer you want to hear but that's it." He said standing up. "Feel better" He called over his shoulder as he walked away waving.

I avoided everyone for the rest of the week, Sasuke, Gaara, all of them. I spent a lot of time walking the first day until I found a creek just on the edge of the school grounds with a bridge over it and rocks nearby large enough to sit on. I sat and watched the water flow by for hours wondering if Sasuke was enough. I could learn to love Gaara. It wasn't my responsibility to sacrifice being loved to suit Sasuke's needs.

I kept my date with Gaara. Friday night he picked me up giving me flowers and a teddy bear. He took me out to dinner and cosmic bowling. I wasn't any good and Gaara was worse, but we laughed at ourselves and were glad we had other things to be good at. When he pulled up to my building he opened my door for me and kissed me goodnight tenderly like I was something delicate and breakable, something immeasurably precious.

When I got up to my room Sasuke was sitting next to my door. He stood up as I approached, eyes narrowing as he noticed my gifts. I gave him a look demanding an explanation.

"Sakura went home for the weekend." He said. Not exactly the answer I was looking for. He continued, "Nice gifts," He nodded his head at the flowers and the bear then checked his watch. "9:30? Over pretty early for a date."

"Sasuke!" I growled warningly unlocking my door. I walked into my room standing in the doorway not letting him in. "He has to be up early for practice, you should know that!"

"Hn." He was getting angry too. "Stop being ridiculous let me in."

"Why?" I glared at him. Tired of his whole liking me then hating me thing.

His anger abated and he backed down. "Naruko, please. Let me in so we can talk about this." The desperateness of his pleading caused me to open the door.

He came in but remained standing while I closed the door behind us and put my gifts down on my desk.

"I'm sorry," He said shocking me. "What can I do?"

"I need more Sasuke, I need more than this." I waved my arm around trying to make my point.

"Like what?" I literally took a step backwards I was so shocked. He wanted to compromise?

"Uhhh," I stumbled over my tongue trying to find the right words. "I don't want you sleeping with other girls or kissing them or anything."

"I'm not" He said not understanding.

"But you could and I don't want you to."

He stayed silent thinking before replying "Is that it?"

"No!" I hung my head and sighed, "I want to be able to hold your hand in public, I want to be able to tell my friends about you, I don't want to have to date other people! I want you to come home with me for winter break and meet my grandfather, Jiraiya. I want you to tell me what you're thinking!" I shouted it all out.

He sighed, sitting down on my bed and running his hands over his face. He moved his hands downward so they were only covering his nose and mouth, then just his mouth where he intertwined his fingers. "Ok." He said hesitantly. I sank to my knees on the floor staring up at him in disbelief. "Not to all of it though," He clarified. "I won't see anyone else and I'll go with you for break, but I'm still not ready to make this public."

"What about Gaara?" I asked.

He looked at the flowers and the stuffed bear then stood up and physically turned away from me. "Keep seeing him." He said in a whisper.

"Sasuke," I said standing up and wrapping my arms around his waist from behind. He turned in my arms kissing me on the forehead protectively. The look in his eyes as he bent down to kiss me took my breath away. My heart could have stopped in my chest and I wouldn't have noticed I was so completely lost in his eyes. When his lips touched mine I could feel his heart in my chest, mine was gone. I gave myself completely over to him breaking all the barriers I had put around my heart.

Staying with Gaara would hurt like a piece of jagged wood stabbed through my leg that I couldn't take out, but losing Sasuke would destroy me like losing half of my soul. As his tongue entered my mouth I was his forever. His hands cupping my face moved to pull my shirt off, his every move slow and deliberate.

His every touch screamed his love for me, his hands setting my every nerve on fire as they moved over me. I could barely breathe, he was kissing me like he could only live on the air from my lungs. He slowly laid me down on the bed sitting on top of and straddling me then used his hands to pin mine to the bed on either side of my head. He then slowly tilted his hips sliding his legs out behind him. His body slid sensually down the length of mine.

He broke the kiss using his arms to slide himself further down kissing my neck and the rise of my breasts on his way down. His knees landed between my knees and he sat up pulling my legs to one side and pulling my pants off. He took his time with his own pants. It took him ages to unbutton and unzip them before taking a step back off the bed and standing up to drop his pants.

When he positioned himself back between my legs I almost couldn't breathe I loved him so much. His hand slid from my hip up my side, over my shoulder, and hooked behind my head pulling me up to meet his mouth. His fingers demanded all of me, not just my body. So once he laid me back down I untied my hair from it's pig tails and leaned up to kiss him lightly on the neck. I enjoyed the feeling of peace surrounding him as I showed him what he meant to me through touch.

My hands ran the length of his back caressing every thick muscle that ranged there. I kissed his collar, then kissed him directly over his rapidly beating heart. His muscles tightened and he bucked his naked erection against my naked clit. I tenderly kissed his temple, my hands on the side of his head covering both ears.

He kissed me pushing my head back down against the bed then pulled his hips back finding the right spot and entering me. I gasped at the feeling of completeness I felt with him in me. It was like he was meant to be there, meant to be a part of me. He was physically inside of me just as he was inside of my heart. I moaned differently with every move he made, he was slow, thorough, not missing a single spot. I held onto his shoulders, they were my last grip of reality as I was consumed by him and my love for him. Under my hands he began to sweat, his arms wrapped around my shoulders pulling him into me again and again.

His breathing sped up to match mine, our hearts beating the same frantic rhythm. My head was buried in his neck as he thrust into me. We clutched each other tighter finally reaching our climax together. As I fought to remember how to breathe I whispered in his ear "I love you Sasuke." He smiled and kissed me delicately on the lips before snuggling up with me under the covers and closing his eyes.