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your reviews are keeping me writing! They are so awesome to read. THIS IS ONE INTENSE SEASON OF ONE TREE HILL. Too much happened tonight. I really loved the Naley at the river court. (That's what I wanted all along) Poor Brooke, I feel really bad for her. It was cute when Jamie wanted to make Q a cape.I'm not a Leyton fan but it's good to see them happy. I CAN"T BELIEVE THAT iDioT SHOT QUENTIN!! That made me cry. Real tears no joke. I will really hate Jamie's reaction to this devastating news. I think I might cry when he does.
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"She did not tell you that!" Brooke was so shocked. "And I can't believe you beat up Tim." She said motherly.
"I did it for her." Nathan shook his head. "He pissed me off. What was I supposed to do?"
"I told you I wasn't helping you. Now go get ready for the game. I have to help Lucas. He needs the luck." She winked.
"Enough said." Nathan looked disgusted. "I'm talking to her after the game."
"Does she even know about it?"
"Well, maybe if her friend Brooke invited her?" Nathan suggested.
"Nathan, I'm not helping."
"Come on Brooke, please?" Nathan looked at her with his sad stare.
"Do not use those sad eyes on me Scott!" Brooke warned. Seconds later she sighed in defeat. "That's it then. I really can't screw up again Nate."
"It wasn't your fault. She looked at the wrong time."
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I needed to talk to Kelsey pronto! I went to the computer that was just put into my room so I could keep contact without my dearest of parents finding out. I decided to see if she was on the computer indicated that Emma was. She already sent me an email. I clicked on it.
You should be glad to know that I got a small update on our buddy bud, Kelsey. I heard from around school that requested to her parents about public school! Rumors say that her father hit her and told her to stop being so selfish, trust me Lucas, I've seen her at school. It's not looking too good. Please respond and tell me how it's going over there!
-You're a Saint
Emma
It wasn't supposed to be this way for us. How are we so selfish? All we want to do is try and be happy. The pain people deal with is only caused by the happiness we want and by the happiness we cannot give. We can never take it back and in return it causes us pain.
If this was true then I wondered how Kelsey was dealing with all of this.
Hey it's me. I'm really scared of what could be going on with her. Thank you for keeping me posted. Things aren't as good here either. I'm actually having guy drama. Can you believe it? I really like him but one moment he can be my hero and then he completely turns into my worst enemy. Today for example: he beat up someone. He did say he was doing it to protect me. I really don't know what to do anymore or believe for that matter.
-Haley
I clicked send. I spilled out my feelings for Nathan to Emma. I really hoped that she wouldn't tell Alex about Nathan. My thoughts were controlled by Nathan. he protected me and all I did was yell at him about not being enough and not wanting to be friends with him. He probably thinks I'm some bitch who got drugged. I rested my head on my desk.
Tonight there was going to be a basketball game in Whitey's honor. I knew that it would be the right thing if I went. The only thing that scared me was the fact that Nathan was going to be there. I doubt he would ever forgive me. How could one boy like me so much?
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"Nathan you're in for a surprise!" Dan Scott said as he walked into Nathan's room.
"What do you want?"
"Lucas Scott is at our door. Why do you think that is Nathan? Are you talking to that boy now? Huh? Are you becoming a softy to him?" Dan slammed his fist against the wall.
Nathan got up from his bed. He didn't dare answer his father's questions. He wondered why Lucas was here. Nathan still sort of hated the guy, but when it came to Haley, Lucas let him have her. He made it down the steps and he met up with Lucas outside. "What brings you to Hell?"
"I heard your fight with Haley. You really did that for her?" Lucas asked calmly.
Nathan nodded. "I think I'm falling for her."
Lucas drew back for a moment. "Really? You barely know her."
"The morning after the whole party thing, we talked all about all sorts of stuff. I realized when she told me about Alex that I got all boiled up."
"I call that jealousy."
"I'm jealous? I am jealous." Nathan admitted. "Now she tells me that she wants nothing to d o with me. She's going to focus on school so that she can return to her precious Alex."
"To tell you the truth, she doesn't even love him or even know him for that matter."
"Why are you telling me this?"
"I want to help you get her."
"There's no way you are helping me. Brooke would strangle the both of us if she found out."
"Who says she will? Nathan I understand is us talking right now is weird, but I can tell you really like Haley."
"Thank you Doctor Love, but I want her to make her realize this herself. Oh and Lucas, thanks for being so good to Brooke."
"Nathan she only deserves it."
"I know that. I guess I'll see you at the game. Hell, I might even pass you the ball." Nathan joked.
"Oh what an honor! I get to be Nathan Scott's first pass!" Lucas waved him off as he went back to his car.
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I decided to have Ravens' spirit. I wore my grey hooded sweatshirt with blue lettering with matching sweats. I sighed as I looked at myself in the mirror. How was I supposed to talk to Nathan looking like this? When did I care what I looked like?
"Haley let's go!" Whitey shouted up the stairs. I had to go early with him. I would have to find Camilla later on.
I rushed downstairs.
"Now usually I always tell you to stay with me but you are forbidden from the locker room."
"Of course."
We arrived at the gym. It was filled with what appeared to be the whole town. I saw Whitey yelling at Nathan and Tim.
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"I can not tolerate this Scott, Smith I'm going to have to bench you!" Whitey yelled.
Nathan stood up. "You have to let me play tonight! It's the first game of the season and…" He sat down as he saw Haley staring in his direction.
"Because Haley's here Coach. Nate over hear likes he. Don't you Nate." Tim stated.
Whitey stared at him. "Stay away from Miss James. Sit your ass on this bench!" he pointed down.
"I'm out of here." Nathan swung his bag over his shoulder.
"Nathan! Nathan!" Coach shouted after him.
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I stood there as Nathan was coming closer. It was only now. I had to apologize. "Nathan, can we talk?" I asked softly.
"I'm not in the mood. I have a long walk home." He said.
"I'll come with you. I really need to talk to you."
"Okay, but I was warned to stay away from you."
"Well I was warned that you're an ass. I was wrong. I never meant to be so harsh earlier. So much has happened to me since the moment I got here."
He put his arm over my shoulders. "Sometimes I am an ass, but I try to control it. You scare me."
"I'm scared of taking a chance on you. I don't know why, but I am."
"Come with me I want to take you somewhere."
"A detour from your place sounds nice."
He led me to a basketball court. It was so private here. "Why are we here?"
"When I get scared I come out here and just shoot. It's like it heals me in a way. You are the only one who I brought here. I know we should be talking so tell me." He sat on some bleachers. He motioned me to sit next to him.
"I do want to be friends with you Nathan. I just want everything to go slower. I really should be focusing on school. I'm not staying forever. I can be an ass too. One moment I'm sweet, the next I'm biting off your head because of who you are. You don't deserve that from me."
"I need to tell you something. I can't take it slow with you because I have sort of fell for you and I know that you don't want that because of Alex but I needed to tell you so you could see where I'm coming from. I didn't want to hide this from you."
I was speechless. Did he just say that? I was scared more than I just was. "Nathan, I like you but…"
"As a friend."
"No." I shook my head. "but what happens when I have to leave?"
"Just don't think about that yet. Live in the moment."
"I never can. I have to obey my parent's orders."
"You know Haley; I can't play this game with you anymore. You need to make a decision between what you want and what your parents want. I guess I'll see you around." He got up from the bleachers.
"Nathan stop!" I called.
"Then you start."
