Chapter 7: Love?

Simply hiding out in his bedroom wouldn't grant him a Murdoc free evening and so the singer did what he had to do, he barricaded himself in. He dragged a drawer over to the door and piled the two broken keyboards by it as extra support, then he put all the small bits and pieces he could find around his room on top of it all to add extra weight. When Murdoc came looking for him there was no way he'd make it inside. 2D sighed of relief as he inspected his creation. With this he could finally have some alone time, without worrying about Murdoc's sudden appearances. He needed some time on his own to think. Turning his back towards the door he picked the cigarette packet he stole from Murdoc that very morning from his pocket. The packet smelt of tobacco but also of the Winnebago. Placing a cigarette between his teeth he quickly tossed the packet to the side to get rid of Murdoc's smell.

How did it all end up like this? 2D was lying down on his back on his bed, watching the smoke he exhaled slowly disappear into the space above him. Sure he had crushed on the bassist for months but didn't he have any pride or self respect? As the singer took another deep drag he furrowed his brows. So far Murdoc sure treated him better than his ex had for the previous months. Then again, they had at least been a couple; Murdoc was just using him, right? Or did he actually love him? Could it be that this was Murdoc's way of confessing? He knew since before that Murdoc had never been great with relationships; in fact had he ever had a proper one? Probably not. As far as the singer could remember he had only heard of Murdoc's one night stands and this… this thing between the two of them seemed to be different. Did that mean he was different from the others? Once again he exhaled the smoke and watched the gray smoke almost magically trailing off in the air. Where he was lying he couldn't reach anything to properly put his cigarette out so he pressed it against his jeans. It would definitely leave a mark on the fabric but the heat was not too bad on his skin underneath. He threw the butt on the floor and returned his attention to the ceiling above. On the other side was the garage floor, and most likely, Murdoc. What if he actually loved him? 2D caught himself thinking it would be nice. Maybe they could actually be together. After all Murdoc was probably the only one in the world who could understand him.

Whether 2D was aware of it or not he had slowly begun to properly fall for the bassist. The strong desire he felt for him, combined with the loneliness from his breakup, the singer was left defenseless. His ex had used him as a sex toy to please herself and completely ignored 2Ds own desires. So now when Murdoc wanted to touch him, wanted to make him feel good, it was easily confused with love. And feeling loved, 2D couldn't help but fall in love with the bassist as well. Although Murdoc never said anything of the sort, 2D felt like he had been confessed to and with each passing moment he'd accept Murdoc's love more and more, until he was properly in love himself. He found himself wishing and hoping that Murdoc would always be by his side.

When did his heart start beating like this? It was almost uncomfortable. 2D clenched his fist over the fabric of his shirt, right by his heart. He knew that he couldn't hide forever, this was becoming real. He had to face Murdoc sooner or later, they had to talk. He had to know what was going on between them. Or no, he already knew, but he wanted to put it into words and to say it out loud. He wanted to properly fall in love and to make it official. However he wasn't sure he'd be able to. Frightened of being rejected and used like in the past he didn't want to chase someone, he wanted to be chased. If Murdoc would only tell him he loved him, if only he could read 2D's mind and comfort him in the way he needed. 2D stood up and went over to the pack of cigarettes on the floor. He inhaled deeply to get a whiff of the Winnebago and he looked over to his stupid barricade. Right now he wanted nothing more than for Murdoc to bust through the door and tear it down. If only he could be in Murdoc's warm embrace. Without thinking twice 2D went over to his barricade and shamefully placed everything back in its place. He was glad Murdoc hadn't found out about his stupid whim. He would have laughed at him for being stupid. 2D just wanted to feel Murdoc's skin against his, hear his heartbeat and feel his breath. He needed it. He needed to feel loved. As 2D finished taking his barricade apart Murdoc was the only thing on his mind. He found it quite amusing that he had barricaded himself in there just to escape him and now he was the one tearing it down to go find Murdoc himself. He could feel the blood rush through his body and his heart beating fast. He had to see him, he needed to see him.

He swung the door open and leapt outside with incredible speed only to crash straight into something and falling down on the floor with a loud bang. Surprised he let out a gasp and then a grunt as he landed quite harshly on his wrist.

"Ouch" he whined as he inspected the damage.

The bruised area was throbbing and he could feel the heat through the skin.

"In a hurry are we?"

2D looked up. It was Murdoc. A blush spread across the singer's face but he felt unbelievably happy. Could it have been that Murdoc somehow had known he was on his way to see him? Had they been thinking about each other at the same time? Murdoc extended his hand to the singer to help him get back up on his feet. 2D grabbed his hand and pulled himself off the floor.

"Ah no…" 2D couldn't help but hesitate, what was he supposed to say when the reason of him hurrying suddenly asked if he was hurrying somewhere else.

"…I just… "

Murdoc smirked as if he already got it and 2D blushed even harder.

"How's the wrist?" Murdoc asked and reached out to examine it.

2D immediately flinched at his touch and pulled it from him.

"It hurts… so please don't"

Murdoc looked surprised but didn't try to grab it again.

"Don't let me get in your way, you were heading somewhere right?" he said instead.

Murdoc was just teasing him. He knew exactly where he had been going; it was all spelt out across the singer's face. Desperate to come up with an excuse, any excuse the singer grew silent. If there had been any chance of fooling the bassist this prolonged awkward silence sure as hell killed it.

"No I just… I was going to the bathroom but I just remembered now I have one in my room" 2D averted the bassists eyes.

It was such an obvious lie but there was no way he could just admit the truth. He wouldn't let Murdoc have that pleasure.

"Oh?" Murdoc smirked "how unusually stupid of you, do you need me to show you where it is?"

Without waiting for a response from the singer Murdoc passed him into his bedroom.

"This way"

Murdoc gestured to the bathroom whilst heading over to the singer's bed. 2D mumbled something under his breath as he went into the bathroom and slammed the door shut behind him. This was too embarrassing. They both knew he was just buying time. 2D sat down on the toilet with the lid still closed and buried his face in his hands. How did this happen? He reminded himself that he could have stayed put behind his secure barricade but instead this embarrassing situation had occurred. He gathered his thoughts for a few seconds and flushed the empty toilet. Using the toilet had been a blatant lie but he was sticking with it. Washing his hands he looked himself in the mirror for the first time in almost 24 hours. Last time he met his own gaze like this he only had one hickey on his neck, this time there were four. Had he been walking around like this? And in town as well… A blush spread across his face. Damn Murdoc. Luckily he hadn't run into Noodle or Russel today but they definitely would have noticed. He sighed at his mirror image and went back out into his bedroom wiping the water on his hands off on his jeans. Unlucky for him the ashes on his jeans from the cigarette he put out earlier smeared across the back of his hand. Great.

Murdoc smiled as he saw 2D's hand get dirtied right away and he couldn't help but chuckle at his dumbness. He had lit up a cigarette and was seated on top of 2D's bed, leaning against the wall behind it. 2D quickly rubbed the back of his hand against a different spot on his jeans to get some of the ashes off.

"shit" he muttered as he tried to conceal his nervousness.

"cute" Murdoc replied under his breath as he took another drag.

2D wasn't sure he heard him right but decided to ignore it. It didn't matter after all. Instead he walked over to his bed and looked down on the bassist.

"Did you want anything or why did you come down here?"

Murdoc blew out the smoke in the direction of the singer. He then used the wall behind him to put it out. 2D furrowed his brows and was about to complain but Murdoc was quick on his feet and before 2D could make a sound their lips were pressed together. Surprised 2D stumbled backwards. Murdoc was quick to take advantage of his stumbling and pushed the singer's back towards the wall beside them. Before 2D even realized what was happening Murdoc's hands were all over his body with his tongue deep down in his throat. When he regained control of his actions he quickly responded to the kiss and wrapped his arms around the bassist's upper body to pull him closer.

Murdoc soon abandoned the singer's lips and moved down to his neck where he licked the marks he previously left. The red marks was like a beautiful painting of pleasure upon the white skin canvas and the sight combined with the sound of 2D's heavy breathing drove Murdoc insane. He inhaled the singer's scent through his nose and pressed his growing erection to his thigh. 2D leaned his head back on the wall exposing his neck even more, longing for the bassist to touch every inch of him. Heat was quickly building up inside and his buttoned jeans soon became extremely uncomfortable. The wet saliva on his neck felt cold when exposed to the air and goose bumps spread across his chest and arms. Murdoc chuckled and his warm breath made the coldness unbearable. Longing for warmth and skin to skin contact 2D ran his hands up underneath Murdoc's t-shirt. It didn't take long before Murdoc took the hint and tossed his shirt to the side. As soon as it was off he immediately helped 2D to get his shirt off as well. Before the fabric even hit the floor 2D had lunged himself forward and off the wall to kiss the bassist. His hungry lips and hungry hands wasted no time. Murdoc chuckled a bit into the kiss with his eyes slightly open. The tension on 2D's crotch suddenly grew weaker as Murdoc unbuttoned his jeans to only a moment later sneak his hands down the back of the singer's pants to his bare ass. 2D gasped at the sudden touch and buried his fingernails into Murdoc's back. He could feel Murdoc's nails grasp his skin as well as he pulled his hip closer together to his grinding their erections together. 2D moaned into the kiss and grinded his hip in sync with Murdoc's to improve the friction.

Suddenly Murdoc retracted his hands and let go of the kiss. He smirked at the singer and unbuttoned his jeans.

"Why don't we find out what else that mouth of yours can do?"

2D looked confused for a second but in this situation there was only so much Murdoc could be suggesting. He quickly fell to his knees right by the wall and pulled down Murdoc's jeans and underwear to reveal the steadily growing erection. This was the first time he had seen it up so close and in all honesty the smell was a bit more pungent than he would have thought, but there was no time to think about such trivialities. With no hesitation he swallowed the entire length. It tasted quite salty from the sweat and whenever his lips reached the base of the bassist's dick his pubes tickled his face. Murdoc had one hand in his hair and the other was placed on the wall for support. His moans and firm grip on the singer's hair made everything worth it. If he could give him pleasure the sour taste and horrible smell didn't matter at all.

Suddenly Murdoc let go of his head and reached for something in his back pocket; it was lube.

"Why don't you prepare yourself while you're at it?" Murdoc suggested, dropping the bottle on the floor by his feet.

2D jumped a bit from the loud bang as the bottle hit the floor and looked up at Murdoc apologetically. Murdoc smirked and placed his hand back on top of the singer's head. 2D struggled to pull down his jeans and underwear enough whilst keeping Murdoc's dick in his mouth. Then he reached for the lube and coated his fingers. It was quite hard to concentrate on two different things at the same time but he somehow managed to do it. However it was probably only because Murdoc was kind enough to lend a hand guiding his head up and down his length. 2D wasn't sure if this still counted as a blowjob or if Murdoc was simply just facefucking him. Not being too bothered about it 2D placed his coated fingers on his entrance to rub some lube across it. Preparing was important and last time 2D had ended up bleeding, meaning it was a high risk of it happening again if he wasn't careful. He could still feel a bit of stinging from the night before but he was also a lot easier to enter like this. A finger slid in without him even really trying to and as he swallowed his own finger he couldn't help but let out a moan. He surprised not only himself but also Murdoc who grunted and his grip of 2D's hair tightened. Barely believing just how hot he was on the inside and how good it felt with just a finger he eagerly pushed in another one. He moaned again and his legs tensed up. Without thinking he leaned a bit backwards for better reach and his back hit the wall. Murdoc's body followed and 2D found his head pinned to the wall by the erect dick in his mouth. The fact that Murdoc moved with him made him feel so wanted and so loved. Every thrust into his mouth made him more and more excited and he matched up his fingers movements with Murdoc's. There was no way Murdoc didn't notice as his thrusts grew rougher and went deeper down the singer's throat. 2D did everything he could not to gag as the tip hit the back of his throat. If he did Murdoc would surely stop and 2D couldn't have that. Instead he focused on how hot he felt inside and how the pressure in his erection was building up by the second. He slowly and carefully started to rub his own dick, a lot slower since he hadn't properly applied lube to it. With his head pinned to the wall he didn't really have any opportunity to look for the bottle. It didn't matter though and mere seconds after touching his dick he came.

If he had tried to hide it from Murdoc he had to think again. He moaned loudly into Murdoc's erection as his whole body shivered and he shot his load right up on his stomach. Murdoc looked down on the blue haired singer and smirked through his pleasured grunts.

"Looks like you're ready" he said and pulled out of 2D's mouth.

2D inhaled sharply as if he hadn't been breathing during this entire time and was barely able to regain consciousness after his climax to realize that Murdoc had pulled him up off the floor. A few seconds later he crashed down onto the bed head first. Face down he could feel Murdoc climb up on the bed and pulling his hips up in the air to expose his ass and twitching entrance. 2D felt embarrassed about the position and tried to push his upper body up as well, but the pain in his wrist made it difficult. Somehow he managed to get up just in time for Murdoc inserting his entire length in one go. 2D cried out in shock. Sure he had been properly prepared, but only by two fingers, and his own for that matter. Whilst preparing yourself you don't reach as deep as if someone else does it. Tears immediately appeared in the corner of his eyes and he fell back down with his face to the pillow. Murdoc ran his hand from 2D's hipbone and up to the nape of his neck.

"Beautiful"

2D blushed and tried to hide his face if possible even more. Murdoc smirked as he placed both hands on either side of the singer's hip before thrusting hard and deep into him. 2D cried out in pleasure and pain making Murdoc even more excited. He was sure Murdoc tried to hide his moans only to hear his own cries clearer. It was rough, and so painful, but it felt so good. He felt loved, wanted, needed. Every time Murdoc partially pulled out to charge a new thrust 2D was afraid he would pull out completely and disappear. He started to move his hips on his own, chasing Murdoc down and shutting him in. It didn't matter if his body broke 2D wanted to stay like this forever. The pain and stinging didn't matter as long as Murdoc stayed inside of him.

Finally Murdoc couldn't hide his moans anymore, he was close. Murdoc's nails were digging into his hips and pulling him closer and closer with each thrust. The rougher he got 2D felt more and more wanted, more and more loved. It felt so good and 2D moaned louder and louder with each thrust, meeting Murdoc halfway and tightening up around him. Murdoc was the first to come and as he shot his load inside the singer he moaned loudly. His nails were digging even deeper into the skin of 2D's hips. Hearing Murdoc's moan and feeling his warm sticky cum fill him up 2D came once again. He couldn't help but arch his back even more and push Murdoc's rapidly softening dick deeper inside him. However it didn't last long as Murdoc pulled out and fell down on the bed next to him panting heavily.

2D didn't know how to feel. His insides were still twitching and his body screamed out in joy but at the same time he was sad it was over. Why couldn't he stop time? Why did it have to end? Even if Murdoc was lying right next to him it wasn't the same thing, this wasn't as intimate and it wasn't as obvious that he was wanted or loved. 2D was breathing heavily with his heart racing hard enough for him to feel it against the mattress beneath him. A few inches from his face were Murdoc's and he was looking right back at him. A smile escaped his lips as he was still trying to catch his breath. Murdoc returned his smile and pulled him in close to hold him in his arms. 2D was overjoyed. This was love, right? Right? Somehow it didn't feel like enough proof, just being held in his arms. Not wasting any time 2D went for Murdoc's neck, licking it up and down whilst slowly placing his leg on top of Murdoc's for easy access. Murdoc placed his warm hand on 2D's thigh and broke the kiss.

"What's this? Eager to go again?" Murdoc asked with a smirk across his face.

2D was too embarrassed to say anything and instead he tried to resume the kiss, hoping Murdoc could take a hint. Of course he could, but teasing the singer was much more fun.

"What? I don't get it? What do you want me to do?" Murdoc asked with an extremely faked wonder to his voice.

Annoyed 2D tried to reach his lips once again but Murdoc pulled away before he could. Instead he let his fingers wander up the singer's thigh and up his ass only to place his fingers within an inch from his entrance. 2D felt like he would die from embarrassment.

"Say it" Murdoc commanded.

2D hid his blushing face down in the mattress beneath them and as he pulled the bassist closer to him he whispered:

"Please don't stop"