A/N: Stephanie Meyer owns Twilight and all recognizable characters and situations contained therein. This story is rated M and contains profanity, lemons, drug use, adultery, and general adult themes. If you are under 18 or any of the above offends you then this is not the story for you. Oh! Sam in this story is 30. Jake, Paul, and Brady are 25. Jared is 23. Bella, Embry, and Quil are all 22
**Paul POV the same morning**
Jake and I both got texts around 11:00 from Brady Uley that said, 'meeting in 2 hours, no excuses! 911'
I looked up with Jake, "Dude, what the fuck do you think happened?"
Jake looked back at me somewhat alarmed as he said, "I dunno man, but it can't be good if they're texting us a 911, at 11:00 in the god damn morning! I guess we should just be thankful that they decided to have the meeting at 1 when we close down for lunch, hopefully it doesn't take more than an hour whatever it is."
I looked around at the 5 cars already waiting on services and groaned loudly, I had been looking at working through lunch to get done on time, now I'd have to stay late tonight to get it done instead. Dixon-Black Auto Repair was going strong, we often didn't have enough mechanics for the work coming in, but our reputation for impeccable work at affordable prices made it so that people generally told us they would wait for whatever work they wanted done. I suck in the sigh that I wanted to let out and headed over to the next car to get down to business.
**Flashback**
Jake and I had started the business officially the year we turned 23; that was a hell of a year. It was the year that we got our business loan after working our asses off fixing cars on our own time to get the startup, it was the year I had planned to propose to Bella, it was the year I got arrested for assault and ended up on 2 years supervised probation, and it was the year that I ended up getting my last really good look at her fine ass as she had walked out the door leaving me behind and taking my heart with her.
I admit I'm kind of a Neanderthal when it comes to women, well not really all women, but Bella. I got with Bella when she was 18 and I was 21, on our first date I saw that creep Mike Newton staring down her shirt and beat the fucking crap out of him, she had pretended to be upset but I could tell that it turned her on more than a little.
We were pretty much inseparable from the start, her dad and I got along, I pretended to like the stupid whores she hung around with, and she was already best friends with Jake so no problems there. She moved in about 3 months into our relationship and that's when the problems started. I didn't think the issues were as bad as she seemed to think they were but I don't think I knew what was really going on in her mind half the time. The problems for me were named Angela, and Jessica. Bella's supposed best friends since middle school, only they didn't act like her friends.
Any time she left me alone with them, whether she was running out to get another 6 pack for me and Jake or she had to run over and do something for her dad, any time I was with them and she was out of the house they were trying to get me in bed with them. Sometimes at the same time! I didn't want to hurt Bella by telling her that her supposed best friends were nothing but a couple of whores but I was really at a loss. I ended up talking to Charlie, Bella's Dad, and he told me that if she asked he would talk to her about it.
I ended up taking the path of least resistance and just preferred to keep my distance. I gave Bella excuses on why I didn't want them in our place and she respected my wishes. I didn't really want her hanging out with those kinds of girls though, and I would've told her that, but I tried really hard not to be like Cullen. I couldn't help giving her the puppy dog eyes when she'd go out with them. I know she knew I didn't like them and eventually she stopped calling them.
She ended up leaving me over Collin fucking Ateara, not that she knew that of course but I'm getting ahead of myself, fucking kid had been talking shit for weeks about us, calling her a fucking paleface and telling me I was a blood traitor, of course it was all the fucking bullshit that his grandfather his father and his uncle fed to him but that didn't make it okay with me. I tried to take it in stride but I finally ended up losing both my cool and my heart the day he came up to me and asked how it felt to know that my kids with Bella would be nothing more than filthy half breeds who had a blood traitor for a father and a Paleface Res-whore for a mother. I fucking snapped! I beat that dude so bad he was in the hospital for almost a week.
Of course cousin Quil happened to be there at the time and he told Bella everything, well everything except for the fucking truth! He told her that he heard from a guy who witnessed the fight that the guy I beat up had made a bad joke about her being beautiful and how he would love to get with her and I had flipped out and put him in the hospital for that. Bella had known Quil since she was 16, and she thought he was her friend, so of course she believed what he told her.
He hadn't mentioned to her that the kid was his own cousin, or any of the derogatory things that had been coming out of the little fucker's mouth, or even the fact that he himself had been the witness. All that combined told me that I had been set the fuck up!
Of course it was my own fault for taking the bait but the manipulative fuck had definitely had something to do with the whole thing, I couldn't even remember an instance where his shit-bag cousin would have seen Bella! I should have told her the truth, hell I tried to tell her the truth, but she ended up blocking my cell number and I just wasn't home enough to try to make her listen what with getting the business off the ground and shit.
Maybe 6 months before my 24th birthday my boy Brady and his older brother Sam started talking to Jake and I about this motorcycle club that they wanted to start. We did some research and decided to go ahead with it. I remember when we had to fill out our emergency forms, who we'd want them to call in the event of an arrest, accident, or death. What we'd want in the event our emergency contact couldn't get to the hospital in time, who our lawyer was in the event of an arrest, and that under no circumstances would we wave our rights and speak to police without an attorney present. I had put Bella because at the time I had still been under the impression that we wouldn't be broken up that long. I thought she would come to her senses soon enough and realize that we had both been played and we would get back together.
I remembered the first time Bella got a call about me; I had been arrested for vandalism along with Jake about 2 months after we broke up. Her Dad had been the arresting officer. He had persuaded the shop owner not to press charges on us providing we paid for the damages, I would have to pay a fine but he wouldn't have to book us and it wouldn't affect my probation.
Charlie was the only one who believed my version of the story behind mine and Bella's break up; he had gone to bat for me in court as a character witness, and that was the only reason I had landed probation instead of jail time. So when I had given him my form the night he arrested me with Jake and told him to call Bella, we had a good laugh at how pissed she would be.
He called Bella at home in the middle of the night and I was shocked when she actually came out at 3:30 in the morning and paid the 300-dollar fine. I thought that meant she had forgiven me, but she just told me that I could pay her back by taking her name off my sheet.
A few months later I had met Kaycie at a bar in Port Angeles called The Black Dog. We had started talking, and I pretty much figured that if I had to live without Bella, I wasn't going to give her the satisfaction of living like a priest. I started going out with Kaycie and a bunch of other girls, I had a couple of girlfriends at a time and a bunch of one night stands, and then a while after that, Kaycie ruined it all by going out and doing something really fucking stupid.
She had gone out and been doing coke and she was really fucked up. I was pissed off that she was blowing lines because I really don't enjoy people who used harder stuff than weed so I wasn't paying attention when she was talking to me and telling me what tattoo she wanted where. The guy asked me if I was okay with what was going on and I had brushed him off like an idiot and gone home. Her friend brought her home 2 hours later with my fucking name tattooed on her chest for everyone to see! I was so fucking pissed! I thought I was going to lay hands on a bitch for the first time in my life that night. I kept my cool though, even when her parents flipped the fuck out and tossed her out into the street I kept my cool.
Originally she was not supposed to stay with me permanently, she was only supposed to be there while she looked for another place. The fucking thing was that she never fucking found any place! So now 8 months later she's still living with me. It pisses her off to no end that I still haven't made her my contact, and I haven't let her change anything in my place.
2 months after she moved in was the last time I had really seen Bella; I had run into her and fucking piece of shit Quil at his parents store and she came up to me and fucking begged me to change my form. I told her that I wouldn't because in the end I'd only have to change it back and that I loved her. She looked like she wanted to believe me, and I thought maybe she'd finally give me a chance to explain, but that was until fucking Quil put his hand on the small of her back.
Her whole face closed down and she threw Kaycie in my face. I told her not to worry about her that she was just a fucking stopover on my path, and that I would drop her in a second if and when Bella decided to give me another chance. She looked happy at that, but she still took fucking dickhead's hand when he offered it, and walked the fuck away from me.
**End Flashback**
I was so engrossed in my work and my memories that I barely noticed that 2 hours had passed by in the seeming blink of an eye. Jake and I got in his Rabbit and drove over to the clubhouse. It was in an outbuilding on the site of Sam's construction company and took only 4 minutes to get to from the auto shop. We get out and I'm surprised to see Bella's car parked in the lot.
We go in and Sam, Brady, Jared, Embry, and Seth, are all there already. Jake and I take our seats at the table while Jared, Embry, and Seth take the chairs around the wall, they're just prospects so they can't sit at the club table yet. I'm about to ask what the hell is going on when Bella walks into the room.
I look over at Jake and see a worried kind of shock on his face and I know that whatever the fuck is going on he at least suspected that she'd be here. Her eyes find mine and I look into them as I say to the room in general, "What the fuck is she doing here? If this is about my form again Bella, I'm sorry and I'll change it, but you can't be in here this room is for club business ONLY"
She cuts me off, "No, Paul. It's not about the form."
Sam breaks in, sighing heavily as he says, "Paul, man, I invited her here. She's pretty much the reason I called this meeting."
I turn to look at Sam feeling my face pale a couple of shades, I feel light headed and like I'm going to puke, because I know in an instant why we're having this meeting. I look at Bella sadly as I say to Sam, "You broke 2 club tenets with the same girl."
Bella actually took 2 steps towards me, I held my hand up and she stopped in her tracks as I said, "Don't Baby Bell, just don't ok? I knew you would move on eventually. Find someone better than me who would treat you the way you deserved to be treated. He's married though, Bella, did you think about that?"
Bella was about to say something when Sam interjected, "She didn't know I was married Paul. I had my ring off and I lied to her when she asked. I told her I was divorced. She didn't find out until afterward. She actually put it together when I told her the whole thing would stay just between the two of us."
Oh that is just some fucking shit then! I got up out of my chair and I envisioned myself knocking Sam's head right off his fucking shoulders, but I was frozen, I sank back down into the chair and heard Bella saying something. I tuned back in and said, "I'm sorry? I didn't catch that?"
She looked at me her face crimson with embarrassment and tears in her eyes as she told me, "I said that I knew he was married. Maybe not right out but I knew something was off. The fresh ring mark, the fact he never told me his last name, that he didn't want to bring me by his place, I let him lie to me, but I knew deep down that he was lying."
I snort derisively, "Well that's just fucking great Bella! You didn't think it would cause problems? Him being Alpha FUCKING Wolf!"
She interrupted, "I didn't know he was Alpha Wolf, Paul! I knew he was part of the club, but I didn't know he was Alpha Wolf until afterward, I couldn't read his patches in the bar! I'm sorry Paul, I did know that it would cause problems; I guess I was just in a place that I didn't care. Look if you want to talk about the why and how we can do that after this is done. Right now we're just here to talk about the consequences."
Sam spoke up again, "Look you guys know that shit with Em hasn't been good for the last year. I wasn't exaggerating when I said around the clubhouse that I hadn't gotten laid in 10 months, she's been pushing me away and brushing me off, I literally haven't slept with her since last February. Valentines Day to be exact, I snapped and I went out to the bar looking for a girl, I met Bella and we hit it off. We had some shots and we decided to hook up. I didn't realize that Brady and Jared were there with Leah, I also didn't realize that Jake was there with his old lady until Bella pointed him out to me.
We hooked up, and I told her the truth about still being married, she was cool about it pissed that I lied because that was indecent of me but we agreed we would probably continue seeing each other until she found a guy she could date or she decided that she would give Paul another chance.
This morning all hell broke loose. Apparently one of the guys in the band that was playing when we left was Collin Ateara, who told his cousin. Fucking walking hard on asshole Quil decided it would be fun to be completely up Bella's ass about it this morning. Jared you texted her about it, and also Jake, that prompted her to text me. I called her and figured out that Jake and J were in the club, and warned her that if Leah were there she'd probably be looking for her, tough bitch actually laughed!
We got off the phone and I guess she was going to see J, I don't know how Leah knew she'd go to J, but she was stalked out outside of J's apartment. Bella showed up and Leah was shouting shit at her and Bella just told her that if she had something to say to go on over and say it. Brady and I showed up as they were in each other's faces like a couple of spitting cats.
It came out that Em is 2 months pregnant. She's been cheating on me for God knows how long. Really we are here to clear the air, we're a family and I know that I fucked up, I'm asking that my trespass against my wife be overlooked on the grounds that she is a cheating bitch who is carrying another man's kid."
Brady took over, "Look you guys I know that Sam fucked up but he came clean as soon as he knew he was caught, he didn't try to lie or deny, didn't ever claim it was Bella. He took responsibility, I'm voting that we not punish him for breaking his vows, the fact that his wife is pregnant with another dudes kid is punishment enough for that I think. All in favor?"
I put my hand up along with everyone else in the "Aye" category. Taking a deep breath I asked, "What about his trespass against me? Bella is still, technically my Old Lady, is there to be any punishment for him on that?"
Brady sighed, "Do you want punishment for him on that, Paul? That's on you, she's your Old Lady so whatever you want, that's what we'll do."
I looked between the two of them, Bella the girl I loved more than fucking anything who had left me based on a lie and never looked back; and Sam one of my best friends, president of our small but ever growing brotherhood, and before today one of the most trustworthy guys I'd ever met.
Bella was staring at me, and for the first time in two years I really felt like she was seeing me, did I want to show her that I was the same guy who beat Mike Newton's ass for looking down her shirt? I sighed, "No, I don't want any punishment for him on that. Also I'll be changing my form, Bella hasn't been my Old Lady since before I even patched in, it was wrong of me to hold onto her for this long.
If I had let her go this wouldn't have even been an issue. She's a free woman, she's free to do whatever she wants with whomever she wants, it's none of our business who she chooses to sleep with. Sam, if after your shit with Emily is settled you want to be with Bella you have my blessing. Just, don't ever hurt her, ok?"
"Paul, STOP! For fuck's sake just stop! I know I fucked up and I'm sorry but I never had any intention of being with Sam romantically! I had just pretty much had my heart ripped open by the one guy I thought I could really trust, I wanted to know what it felt like to just do the no strings attached thing for once in my life, I never wanted to hurt you, I didn't think you or his wife or ANYONE really would ever find out!" Bella was practically crying as she poured this out.
I looked at her stunned, "who hurt you Bella?"
She looked down at the floor, "the one you always said would."
Fucking Quil, of fucking course, I couldn't help the bitter laugh that escaped me. I looked up at her sneering a bit as I said, "Yeah, I always did tell you that dude was a fucking worthless piece of crap. All his high and mighty morals, he'll fuck girls like you, but he won't date them. It's worse because you're white and his whole family is a bunch of small-minded ignorant bastards.
Look, I'm going to change the form and you'll be done with me once and for all, but before I do that though, you are coming back to the house with me. You are going to listen to every fucking word that I've been trying to say to you for the last two years.
If Kaycie is there I'll tell her to leave. So help me God though Bella if I have to fucking tie you to a chair you are going to finally listen to my side of the fucking story. After I've finally had my fucking say I'll change my form and that'll be that. Now are you going to walk out of here with me or am I going to fucking pick you up and carry your ass to my house? If you think that I won't you can just fucking try me!"
She looked at me defiantly for a minute but soon dropped her eyes and sighed saying, "I'll go on my own. I know you rode here with Jake, I have my car so if you want you can ride with me."
I nod, "thanks, that's fine."
Turning to Jake I sneer and say, "Thanks for giving me a heads up on this bullshit bro, I appreciate it, I'm taking a personal day by the way. Seth go into the shop and help Jake okay?"
Seth nods and I turn to Sam, "Meeting adjourned?"
He nods at me and I take a tight grip on Bella's arm and pull her along behind me out of the clubhouse. As soon as we get outside she yanks her arm out of my grasp and turns to face me with fire in her eyes, she spits out, "Who the fuck do you think you are Paul? You touch me like that again, and I'll call my father on your ass!"
I sneer at her as I say, "Fucking do it, Princess! Your daddy will tell you exactly what I told you in there you are going to, finally, let me have my fucking say Bella!"
She lets out a frustrated shout and tosses her head back. In her anger, I guess she forgot why she had left her hair down and over her neck in the first place, as I see about half a dozen hickies going down her neck. I snort derisively and say, "nice neck Bella. Christ, Sam really did a number on you, didn't he?"
She blushes and brings her hair forward again as we get into her car. Driving the 5 minutes to my house in silence. I look up as we pull into the driveway and she parks next to Kaycie's car. Just fucking great, bitch hadn't gone to work or out to look for another place, of fucking course why would she do what she said she was going to?
I sigh as we get out of the car and Kaycie comes to the door. She yells through the screen, "What the fuck is SHE doing here, Paul? I will not have her in our home! It's bad enough that in the last 8 months you haven't let me change anything in it I won't have you bringing her in here!"
Fucking bitch never could tell when I was in a fucking mood. I open the door and Bella comes in behind me. Kaycie of course can never take the fucking hint and she keeps yelling, "What the fuck Paul! I'm not fucking kidding! I don't want her here! She left you baby, I've been the one here for you, make her leave!"
I get right up in Kaycie's face as I scream, "SHUT THE FUCK UP! God damn it Kaycie I'm fucking serious I have never hit you or any other woman, but if you don't shut the fuck up, I swear to god I will punch you like a dude. Shut your fucking mouth and get the fuck out! You can come back tomorrow morning but until then I swear to God that you better not fucking let me see you here.
I'll have your shit packed for you when you get back. I'm done with this bullshit. This was supposed to be a temporary thing until your parents calmed down or you found your own place. It's been the better part of a year now and you're not even LOOKING for another place to live. I'm fucking done and you are fucking out of here! We are done, so do me a fucking favor, and just GET THE FUCK OUT!"
By the end of my tirade Kaycie was cowering in fear and the second I stopped yelling she bolted out the door got in her car and pealed out of the driveway. I knew that it wouldn't be that easy, she may leave for 5 hours or so go do some lines and get her shit all fucked up, but she would be back long before tomorrow morning. Unfortunately for her I was not joking the fuck around. Her ass was done as far as I was concerned. I'd pack her shit up and leave it outside. I'd had the locks changed on the sly last week because I had been gearing up for this anyway.
Bella rolled her eyes and said sarcastically, "Well, there's the Paul I know and love."
I scowled at her, "Really? Shut the fuck up, Bella. Just sit the fuck down somewhere so we can get this over with."
She stood in the doorway and took her boots off before walking across the white living room carpet that she'd picked out over to the beige sofa that she'd chosen and sat down with her legs up under her.
I kicked my boots off and went to sit in the recliner that she'd also chosen. It had been the one thing that she picked out just for me. I let the anger and resentment of the last 2 years roll through me, and I started in on finally having my goddamn say with Bella Swan. "Now that I have you here Bella, undivided attention and all, I want to tell you exactly what really happened that day I got arrested for assault and you ripped my heart out and left me. Did you know that the guy I assaulted was Quil's cousin?"
She looked stunned as she shook her head and I continued, "Yeah, his cousin Collin in fact, what a coincidence! The whole week leading up to the incident he had been coming up to me whenever I was alone and calling you a fucking Paleface bitch and me a blood traitor. I took that shit in stride for a whole week, because I knew who his family was, the biggest bunch of ignorant fucks on the entire Reservation."
I paused and she said, "Why would he say that? I still to this day have never met ANY of Quil's family aside from his mom but Quil always told me that him and his cousins swore they wouldn't follow in their father's and grandfather's beliefs!"
I laughed sarcastically, "Yeah, I honestly have no idea what his problem was, other than just trying to piss me the fuck off. I knew he didn't know you and hell I barely knew him by sight. You wanna know what the last straw was? When I couldn't take it in stride anymore?
He came up to me while I was on a lunch break, this time though Quil was with him, and he says 'So Dixon, how's it feel to know that when you have kids they're going to be dirty little half breeds with a blood traitor for a father and a Paleface Res-whore for a mother?'
No one was ever going to call you a whore to my face and get away with it. I beat that fucker half to death because of what he said about YOU and about our future children. You want to know the best fucking part? Your best friend Quil, well he heard the whole fucking thing, and never said a fucking word!"
I broke off and she gasped sharply, "No! Why would he have heard what his cousin said to you and never tell me about it? He told me that he heard from someone else who witnessed it that the victim had just told you I was hot and that he'd like to tap that or something equally stupid! Paul I swear to God I had no idea about any of this!"
I looked at her in disbelief before momentarily losing my cool and shouting at her, "OF COURSE YOU NEVER FUCKING KNEW ANY OF THIS! YOU WOULDN'T TAKE MY FUCKING CALLS!"
She cringed back cowering into the side of the sofa and I somehow got a handle on my temper. I took a deep breath and continued, "Did you know that your dad is the only reason I'm STILL not in jail for that shit? The DA wanted to give me 5 years inside just from the severity of the beating; your dad went to bat for me as a character witness, he's the only one who believed my story. Quil of course denied being there he got his friend George to tell them that he was the witness and George of course told the story that Collin and Quil had already told!
I tried calling you every fucking day Bella. Did you ever even listen to my messages? Or did you just hear my voice and hit delete? I'm STILL on probation by the way. Got another 3 months before my 2 years is up, I have to see a Probation Officer every week, and I get piss tested once a month.
I know you been buying weed from Jake this whole time, must be nice to be free to do what you want. I haven't been free to do anything I've wanted in the last 2 years. Not since you left. First it was not having you, then it was the probation shit, and then it was fucking Kaycie! If you ever thought I wanted a serious thing with her, then you're fucking stupid, and I never thought you were a dumb chick Bell.
You need to get this through your head honey, I was set the fuck up, and we both were fucking PLAYED! The thing that pisses me off most is that if you had just listened to my messages or let me talk to you we could have worked this out! If you had just once talked to me any of the times that I tried to talk to you we could have been happy for some of these last 2 years!"
She started shaking her head and hyperventilating and saying, "no, it can't be true. He wouldn't do that! Why the fuck would he do that? Why would he do that to either of us? He doesn't want me! We hooked up one time in the last 2 years shortly before this past Christmas. I told him I wanted more and he said he didn't want a girlfriend, which then later turned into he didn't want ME as a girlfriend, because I was too different from him.
When he found out about Sam he flipped shit but he STILL didn't want to be with me! So why would he ruin our relationship, make me think that you were a crazy possessive douche-bag who put a guy in the hospital for something innocent when really he knew all along that it was because his own cousin called me a whore and told you that our children would be half breeds? Why? Why would he do that when he doesn't want me?"
She looked so heartbroken I honestly felt bad; I almost couldn't blame her for having been taken in by Quil, but the fact remained that had she just once given me the benefit of the doubt we could have fixed this. Bella honestly looked destroyed, I understood why though, she had considered Quil a really good friend since before I had even met her.
From what I had heard from Charlie the two of them had been pretty much inseparable since about a month after our breakup. I got up and went over to sit next to her and I said, "Bella, look at me, please?"
She looked up at me and I saw a thoughtful expression cross her face. She looked at me skeptically and said, "Paul, why didn't Charlie ever tell me about this? That the kid was Quil's cousin? That the witness was his friend? Why wouldn't he have told me about this?"
I sighed, "He legally couldn't tell you Bella. Collin's name was being withheld from the papers because he was only 17 at the time. Your dad didn't know that George was Quil's friend. Honestly I think he just didn't really want to get involved, he thought you were happy without me. Then he got sick and I guess he didn't want to add more stress to you by dragging up old shit."
She looked surprised as she looked up at me, "You know that he's sick? He told you about the cancer?"
I nodded, "Yeah, he told me a lot of things, I'm guessing he never told you that we had kept up our weekly fishing trips, but he talked about you all the time. Told me how you were doing, the weekend after you had him smoking pot the first time we laughed till we cried! Classic shit Bella."
She laughed a little but it quickly turned into a sob, which quickly turned into Bella crying hysterically all over me. I was shocked as hell when she jumped into my lap I let her cry into my neck and I held her gently. It was strange after all this time to have her back in my arms, and it was stranger still to know that I wasn't even sure how I felt about her anymore.
All of a sudden she jumped and stood up a look of manic confusion on her face as she exclaimed, "Wait! Did any of you have any reason to suspect that Emily was being unfaithful to Sam?"
I shook my head no and she continued, "Did any of you know that she was pregnant until today?"
Again I shook my head no and asked, "What are you getting at, Bella?"
She looked at me with anger tight on her face and said, "QUIL!"
A/N: most of you guessed Quil for Emily's baby daddy, we know he's somehow involved but he may or may NOT be the actual father.
I had a general idea about how stuff was going to work out between Bella and Paul and what the underlying reasons for their breakup would be but when I sat down and started to write this was what ended up coming out, so I hope it's good.
I'm still working on my other stories too just this one has kind of run away with my muse for right now but don't think I've forgotten any of the others.
