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Feeling the sun in my face, I concluded today was going to be a different type of day. There was never sun in La Push. I opened my eyes and notice that I wasn't in my room. As soon as the thought came to mind I remember what happened the night before- bodies pressed against each other, thrusting, moaning. I blushed and rolled over and see Jake woken up by my movement.
"Good morning" he said in a hoarse voice.
"Good morning sleepy head" I said.
He looked down and blushed. Why was he blushing? I looked down as he did and notice that we're naked with a sheet burly covering us. I blushed as well. He grinned and his fingers strolled through my red cheek.
"Do you want me to leave so you can change?"
"No stay!" I replied a little too quickly and he chuckled. And I smacked his arm.
"I'll just stay with you then" Wrapping himself around me, he said.
We kissed trying not to get too into it.
"I'm going to go change before your dad comes and see me naked in your bed."
"We'll lock the door" He smirked.
"Your not getting lucky today" I laughed. He pouted. I stood up trying to find my clothes. When I look up Jacob is staring at my naked body.
"Take a picture it'll last longer" he replied by raising his eyebrows. "I was kidding Jake"
He laughed stood up and pulled on his short. It took me a little more time.
"I have the same clothes since yesterday." I whined. Crap the packs rubbing off on me. Then I remember the events of yesterday. I was too caught up in my little world. "I have to leave"
"What-why?"
"I haven't been home since yesterday, and Seth hasn't seen me since the fight."
"Oh the fight, I'm sorry about that"
"It's okay but I need to go."
"Do you want me to walk you over there?"
"Thanks but no I think I can handle anything that comes my way."
"True. But Can I take you some where later on?" his face lit up.
"Where?" I raised my eyebrows.
"Somewhere I like going. It'll just be the two of us."
"Hmm okay, see you later then." He kissed me goodbye and I left.
When I got home Seth was there and he was worried like I thought.
"Where have you been?" He said pacing across the living room. "I had no idea where you've been , You leave all mad from Sam's house and don't come back to sleep!"
I appreciated my brother caring for me, but he got a little worked up. "Seth I just stayed over at Jake's okay, your worst then mom."
"Oh you were at Jake's?" At first he looked grossed out and then his face went serious. "About that –can I talk to you about it?"
"About Jake, yes. About me staying over at Jake's, no."
"The first one; Trust me I don't wanna know about the second. Wait first, go take a shower you smell like him." He said while the disgust formed his features.
"Seth your weird, your smelling senses are too good." I said while walking up the stairs to the bathroom.
The shower helped relaxed my muscles. I closed my eyes; it was like the water was washing away all the problems- Too bad that wasn't the case.
I put on some Jeans and a t-shirt and headed downstairs to have an exciting conversation with my brother. How awesome! Sike.
"So what did you want to talk about?" instead of saying anything he padded the couch so I could sit. "Okay could you start I'm getting old here."
"Oh Leah please don't slap me or get mad, but I agree with Sam, Embry and Quil, you can't fight the imprint it's impossible. I don't want to see you hurt again, I love you Leah and it was hard seeing you go through Sam's break and I don't want you to go through another one. And I know your going to say that you don't care that your not gonna get hurt, and hopefully that's the case. But if he does hurt you I'll try my best to kill him. The only reason I don't do it right know is because I haven't seen you this happy in years"
"Thanks Seth" I hugged him. I was touched by his words and I hate that he had to see me hurt over Sam, Seth truly cared. "But what do you mean that you agree with Quil? He has never told me anything about me and Jake."
"He has a different point of view," He said looking like he wasn't sure if he should say something. "Quil doesn't understand why Jake is trying to break the imprint, because it's the most amazing thing in the world, he says that its hard not to think of the imprint all the time so how could you break the imprint if your always thinking of them?" he asked a rhetorical Question.
"Oh" was all that seemed to come out of my mouth. Jacob was different though, he did tell me that he always thinks about Renesmee but that when he is with me he forgets about her.
"Yea" Seth mutters while getting up.
"Where you going"
"Thought I was the mom here?" I rolled my eyes in response. "I'm heading over to Embry's. He doesn't want to come over here" Oh Embry I wonder how his doing. "Are you doing anything today?"
"I'm going to be with Jake, that's all you need to know"
"It's not like I want to hear it either." He muttered on his way out.
Now I was alone in the house bored and still had lot of time to kill for Jacob to come. I turned on the TV and started watching some random show – it was stupid. It was too corny, and it was suppose to be comedy, and it wasn't making me laugh. Before my critiques could go on I heard a knock on the door. I stood up and opened the door to my surprise the last person I wanted to see -Sam. Looking like the asshole he is.
"What are you doing here?" I asked harshly. Pshh I wasn't going to try to be nice to him.
"I need to talk to you, can I come in?" what did he want to talk about? And the last thing I wanted to do was let him in my house. He just stood there, his tall frame waiting on the door step. He looked different his hair was in a ponytail showing his pained eyes.
"Ugh make it quick I'm kind of busy." I said while he came in.
"Busy watching TV?" he looked over at the babbling TV.
"Yes I'm busy watching TV; got a problem with it?" I Hated being in the same room as him. How could I ever love him? Imprinting must change people drastically. "So what did you want to talk about?"
"Why are you doing this Lee-lee? I don't want you to get hurt"
"Oh like how you hurt me?" I said mocking. He flinched. "If you came to talk about stupid nonsense, Could you leave?"
"I'm sorry Leah, If I could go back I would get away from vampires, never become a wolf, and I would take you with me. It would be like we always planned. Get married have kids. I love you, and if I had a say on imprinting I would have chose you."
His stupid little thing was not going to make me like him again, or want to be with him or anything he was planning to achieve by saying those words.
"Too bad life isn't that easy. Oh wait for you it is. So I would appreciate if you leave and accept that I already moved on."
It was like what I said went through one ear and got out the other. I don't know what he didn't get by me saying get out; I thought I made it clear. Because when I finished talking he was trying to kiss me.
I froze I had always wanted this I wanted him to crawl back to me so I can take him back, and I would've but not anymore he wasn't worth it. So when he tried to get some movement on the kiss I didn't move I just stood there waiting for him to finish.
"Leah Please, I'm sorry forgive me" He wasn't asking me to go back to him he just wanted me to forgive him for leaving me, but I wasn't going to forgive him he didn't even try fighting for me. I just wanted to forget him. But I had to forgive him first. Forgive and forget.
"I actually forgive you, only because if you never left me I wouldn't be the strong person I am now"
"I love you Lee-lee, and I'm sorry"
"Okay." He started to lean in, so I slapped him.
"What was that for?" he asked.
"I forgive you, but that doesn't give you a right to kiss me, or anything okay! You have Emily, you should go with her." When I mentioned Emily's name his eyes changed. He had adoration in them.
"Oh Emily," Yes he remember Emily his wife. "When I'm with you, it makes me forget about her"
"Yea I tend to do that a lot, so you could leave now." I was glad he left this time without his ranting.
He stepped outside and I closed the door.
Something about what he said made me think. I made Jake and Sam forget about their imprints? I wonder why.
I didn't give it much thought, and went back to where I left off: Lying in the couch watching a stupid show that was still on.
Minutes later Jacob came. Good thing he didn't come earlier to see Sam- they would probably get in a fight again.
"Hey beautiful" He smiled.
"Hey, come in" I didn't know when the butterflies were going to stop.
He didn't go in so I raised my eyebrow. "My turtle could walk faster than you Jake."
"Ha-ha you don't have a turtle! Don't you remember I want to take you somewhere." He smiled, "Come on lets go." He put his hands over my shoulder and drags me to his car.
"Are you going to tell me where we're going?"
"You'll see when we get there." He slipped his hand into mines and kissed it.
We went through forest trees and ended up close to a cliff leading of to the beach. It was lonely. Maybe people didn't come here.
It was beautiful and it was Jake's.
We went and sat on the edge of the cliff. I felt a pinch of fear in my stomach.
"Scared?" He looked down at me.
"Me scared? No!"
"Its okay I'm here for you" he said while putting his hands around me.
"Thanks" I smiled laying my head on his shoulder.
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"You shouldn't be scared of this place, I come here all the time, It doesn't judge me and its always here for me." He looked at me and smiled, "You're the only person I've ever brought here." He said the last part looking at the sunset.
I was the only person where he brought to his favorite place. It made me feel wanted. "You never brought Nessie or even Bella?"
"I come here so I won't think of them," he paused slipping his hand into mine. "or just to see where my life's going, it's my place to have my own thoughts"
"You bring me to this place but you never brought Nessie?"
"You're more important to me, and I need someone special to share this special place"
"You're so cheesy"
He ignored my comment and asked me how my day was after I left his house. I blushed at the thought of staying over his house all night doing things.
"Well other than that, it was boring" then I remember the dumb stupid ass Sam.
"What else happened?" I guess Jake could tell that I didn't have such a good day by the look on my face.
"Sam came over" His hands tightened around mines. Was I going to tell him everything? That Sam said he loved me? "He kissed me."
His looked mad like he was about to go to Sam's house and beat him up, but then he looked scared, pained.
"Are you okay Jacob?" Should I have told him that?
"Yeah I'm fine" He looked like his was deep in thought.
"What's wrong Jake?"
"Does he want you back; are you going back to him?" He struggled to say the words. I was hurt by his words. Did he think so little of me?
"No he has Emily, and I would never go back to him, you should now better than that about me"
He put his hands around me and laid me on his lap and pulled me to his chest.
"It's just that I don't want to lose you." He buried his face on my hair, breathing me in. "I love you"
I froze at his words. Was I ready to tell him that I loved him too? He's the first guy I've felt this way after Sam. We have a connection, we're always there for each other. The way he makes me vulnerable. The way it's so easy to open up to him.
"I'm sorry maybe you aren't ready but I can't imagine my life without you anymore."
We were looking in each others eyes and it was the right time in the right place.
"I love you too." When I told him those words our lips met, and there was so much passion, so much love, the love that you can only feel.
Our lips separated and he said.
"When I saw you, I was afraid to meet you... When I met you, I was afraid to kiss you... When I kissed you, I was afraid to love you... Now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you."
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