HEY GUYS!
So before I say anything can any writers relate to this? A whole bunch of new people subscribed to my story, but didn't review, so I was a little disappointed. HOWEVER, thank you to Edward's spouse, 8letters, kitkatr, .79, tiffyboocullenjonas, MissMartha, fresh-BLOOD-was-drawn-2night, wolfygrr21, abaith, and a guest. You guys are the reason I am trying to update often.
I had a suggestion that I hadn't even though of so this may be a longer chapter than the last.
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
A Thousand Years-Christina Perri
EPOV
The little temptress!
I leaned over Bella's face, her scent overwhelming, intoxicating. I trailed my nose across her neck, unable to surpress the growl that escaped. Bella whimpered, closing her eyes. I pressed my lips to her neck. I could feel the blood rushing through her viens beneath the skin.
"I won't hurt you" I promised.
I took a deep, calming breath and then bit her.
Bella gasped as my teeth sunk straight through her flesh. Her blood flooded my mouth and she groaned. My eyes closed and I moaned. I wasn't sure what she was feeling, but this was undescribable. It was sexual, sensual, perfect. I felt our bond strengthening, electricity shot through my hands.
I didn't go into a frenzy as I worried, but it was because I knew I wouldn't hurt her. Reluctantly I pulled away from her, the bite bled. I went with temptation and ran my tongue across the cut, catching the blood. If she looked like she was in any pain I would get the venom out! To my immense shock the wound repaired itself.
I didn't even realize I was panting until I heard our breaths syncronize. I gave her time to get her thoughts together as I tried to gather my control. The remaining blood in my mouth teased me and I swallowed quickly.
Bella finally looked up at me, a new emotion in her eyes. It didn't look like anything negative so I was relieved.
"Are you alright?" we asked at the same time.
I surpressed the urge to chuckle at the question, of course I was alright. She was the one who lost blood.
She smiled and nodded, reassuring me.
"You stopped" she said, still breathless.
"I said I wouldn't hurt you"
Bella reached up and touched the faint scar, barely noticable to the human eye. She watched me as if seeing something new, but yawned. I laid next to her slowly. She turned and buried her face in my chest.
"You should sleep" I told her.
She nodded and snuggled closer to me. My dead heart threatened to start beating again. Slowly she fell asleep, her breathing even and her heart beat slowed down. I leaned down kissing the top of her head with a content sigh. If this is what life was meant to feel like then I wouldn't do anything to risk losing it.
However, a thought busted the perfect bubble I was in.
How would she feel when I expressed that I didn't want her riding her motorcycle anymore? Would she be mad? Would she argue? Or would she realize that it was for her own protection?
Soon she stirred, I pulled back to see her face. She frowned and clutched my shirt.
"Edward" She whispered.
I froze, did I wake her? But she still had her eyes closed. A smile spread across my face, she was dreaming about me. I wished I could read her mind and see what she was dreaming. But just being here was enough.
OH, you guys thought I was done? Mwahahaha
She hears his heavy breathing in the dark
His footsteps coming closer down the hall
She's so ashamed, she's daddy's secret love
She wants to cry, she wants to die,
but he can't get enough
11th Commandment- Collin Raye
Phil's POV
I couldn't believe she hated me so much that she wouldn't even speak to me on the phone. I mean, I know I fucked up, more than she realizes, but still. What did I gain from this? Renee kicked her out and she's pregnant with my child! None of this was supposed to happen. I was hoping the money to help her raise my baby would show her how sorry I was.
"Hey honey" Renee chirped, meeting me at the door.
"Hi" I said lamely, kissing her cheek and leaving her at the door.
She sighed angrily and stormed after me into our bedroom.
"What is wrong with you lately?" She yelled at me.
She was usually so kind, never screaming, always loving, but childish. But not lately.
"Renee can we not do this tonight, I am tired."
"Well I'm tired of this behavior from you! Ever since Bella left you haven't spoken 2 words to me without there being an arguement!" She screamed.
"What did you expect Renee!?" I snapped at her. "You just threw her out without a second glance!"
"She accused you of raping her to cover up her own stupid behavior!"
"We could have fixed everything! She is your daughter, how could you be so careless? And that is your grandchild she is carrying!"
Renee looked at me in shock.
"Phil, she could have had you arrested, then what? She is a liar! I didn't raise a liar, she doesn't need to be here!"
I wanted to hit her for not caring but I would never hit her. This was the woman I was in love with. She just didn't satisfy my needs the way Bella did, what else was there to say? She has had a kid, Bella was a virgin.
"Just leave me be, I had a long day at work. I am going to shower and go to bed, I already ate"
Renee stormed away, looking betrayed by the fact that I didn't just agree with her.
I was a little angry with Bella, but not as much as I was at myself for getting her pregnant. That was never the plan. But I didn't rape her, she asked for it. Not verbally of course, but I could tell.
How else was I suposed to interpret it?
After I convinced Renee to stop forcing Bella to go to her dad's every summer we grew closer as a family. I watched her go through the awkward prepubescent stage and grow into an amazingly beautiful young lady. Or course I fantasized, I couldn't help it. But I never acted on it.
Bella had the tendency to prance around in tight t-shirts and shorts 3/4 the year. Laying in the back yard in bikinis to try and catch a tan. She was always playful and loving. She was the perfect daughter.
Then Renee's mother died.
Bella didn't know her grandmother, so Renee didn't pull her out of school when she left to New York. She left a month before her mother's death, because her mother was sick and couldn't take care of herself. I missed my wife after two nights. Bella wasn't bothered, what 15 year old cares if their mother is gone for a few months? She went out with her friends and they came over and it was like nothing changed. Until it did.
Bella hated the sound of thunder and couldn't sleep whenever there was a storm. Until she was 13 she crawled into our bed whenever it stormed. After that either Renee or myself, but usually me, would sit up in the living room with her until she fell asleep.
A week after Renee left there was a particularly bad storm. It was very unusual for the time of year. Bella knocked on my door and came in looking scared and timid. She was blushing, probably embarassed that at 15 she was still scared of thunder.
"Come lay with me" I said, waving her over knowingly.
She hesitated but not for long. Lightning struck and thunder shook the house. She rushed over and laid in the bed on Renee's side. She was dressed in her normal sleep attire. She had one of my t-shirts on, it used to be huge on her, now it barely came down to her knees. She laid close to me and I wrapped my arms around her. She shivered so I covered us, she fell asleep quickly.
I faught against myself as I realized I could fulfill my fantasies. But I figured it wouldn't hurt to explore as she slept. But then she woke up.
"Phil what are you doing?" She cried after a few minutes, realizing what was happening.
"Nothing baby" I promised even though my hands still explored her.
"Phil stop it, don't touch me"
But I didn't listen.
"I know this is what you've wanted for a while now. That's why you prance around the house in those tight clothes. That's why you came in here tonight. It's alright, I want that too."
"No" She cried, pushing me away from her.
I was naturally stronger than her.
"Come on Bella, you can't be a tease forever"
I snapped out of the flash back at looked at the floor guiltily. She said no, I should have listened but I didn't, I know that was what she wanted. But now look where we were.
That went on everyday that Renee was in New York, and she was gone for 3 months. Bella protested for two months, but nothing could change what we had now. It was too perfect. It was easy to break down her defenses and convince her not to tell Renee. She believed me when I told her Renee wouldn't believe her and would be disgusted with her. I didn't think I was right though.
Two years have passed since the first time and I lost count of how many times she let me have her. But I made her a woman and she didn't appreciate it. Now she would be a mother too, and I knew she'd be a good one.
I knew she had problems eating and she was self destructive, but I was always there to make sure it didn't get out of hand. Now I was worried because I wasn't there and there was no one to keep her together. As much as I hate that she hates me there's one main reason I want her back.
Renee under me will NEVER compare to the feeling of Bella being under me.
Okay, I didn't want to get too graphic but you guys should know what happened even if Edward doesn't.
What did you guys think? I know I'm about to get some serious hate for Phil. What do you guys want to see happen next?
