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She wakes up first, puts on his long sleeved pajama top and quietly slides out of bed. It's early and it's raining and the loft is pretty dark, but visible enough to bring her memories. Suddenly she can smell the waffles he used to make and all those herbal teas they drank, and the pizzas they ate… She inhales deep like she wants to keep the smell of the home in her nostrils forever. She stands behind the counter, observing the living room and can see herself crying on Dan's chest while he kisses her temple, or she falling asleep on his arm, or them watching movies and she can actually see him secretly looking at her with the corner of his eye. She can see her and Dan kissing on that sofa… Sudden sadness takes over her so she quickly prepares coffee and goes back to the bedroom.

….

"What are you doing this early?" – He mumbles into his pillow when she comes back to his bedroom.

"A habit" – She smiles and puts the cups of coffee on the nightstand and he sits up. She sits next to him. – "Keep sleeping, I just didn't know what to do, and I don't want lying in bed awake" – He smiles and looks at her… well the same way he was always looking at her, gently and with eyes full with love, but it seems that that morning her sensors are sharpened. She feels her chin trembles and she starts crying.

"Hey…"- Dan is surprised by her tears – "What's wrong?" – It's no longer just a few rolled tears, she actually cries. – "Blair, tell me what happened?" – He tries to raise her head and make her look at him, but she falls on his chest and keeps sobbing. – "Blair?"- She finally raises her head and wipes the tears with the sleeve from the pajama.

"I don't know…" – She says. He brings her closer and she straddles him, sitting on top of him, all teary in his pajama, still sobbing. – "It's the loft…and the memories…" – She continues crying heavily, shoving her face in his chest and he strokes her head and her back. – "And…" – Sniff – "I never apologized for being a bitch, and…" – Another sniff – "I hated you so much for going back to Serena and…I'm just so sad things went that way, and…"- Sniff – "I really, really wanted us to succeed, but stupid that I am…" – She sobs and can't speak coherently, and he knows that all of this is not caused just by the loft or the memories it brought, but it's put altogether, and he knows how Blair surpпresses things and avoids crying, so he just holds her waist as she rhythmically raises up from his chest, speaks and cries. – "And I'm really sorry for taking you for granted when all you did was being there for me…" – She cries so inconsolable, she actually makes his eyes teary too. – "You know I care about you and I always did and I'm really, really sorry for everything I did." – Her eyes get red and puffy and she can't stop crying. – "Now I made you cry too" – She manages to smile between tears but she still cries like there is no tomorrow.

"I'll be ok, I just… didn't expect this and it's actually a very pleasant surprise, although I hate seeing you cry, I mean… I know that you're a rock, but I thought… I just…"

She wipes of the tears off her face, but it's futile, her eyes are still leaking. – "I just feel bad and I don't know how to make it up to you…"

"Blair" – He strokes the several locks, wet from tears off her face, and rises a bit so their faces are close enough – "You don't have to make it up for me. I just want you to calm down and relax. All I want is you and you're here…" – He kisses her red nose, and wipes off her tears with his thumbs. – "Promise?"- He kisses her lips. She nods, rolls off his lap and curls next to him and he spoons her. Her hick-ups that follow the long crying, make them both smile.

"I'm like a baby" – She smiles and hick-ups. He smiles too and kisses her shoulder blade. – "We should go somewhere off for few days or a week, I really need to rest from everything."- She says. – "It's cold… but we can go to Cyrus's summer house in Hamptons."

"Anywhere you want…" – He mumbles.

They stay in bed the entire day.

"Next time try deeper" – Georgina walks into Serena's hospital room. – "I mean, we all know shallow silted wrists it's just an attentionwhoring, baby" – She winks to her. Serena rolls her eyes.

"What are you doing here?" – She asks.

"My, my… I heard an old friend was in hospital…" – She sits on the chair next to her. – "Plus, this place is so luxurious, one can only wish to get sick and have your money" – She is sarcastic as always. – "And may I know why you did this?"

"I'm sure you've already heard" – Serena turns her head away.

"Oh right… Honey, still?"- She pokes her leg with her purse. – "How many times should I say it? Everyone with a pulse knows that he is madly in love with Blair. Do you know that I tried to seduce him back then when we were in Rome? Yes!" – She widens her big blue eyes. – "Nothing. Ok, I thought…too soon, not that I really am into him, but you know out of boredom…and he was a nice substitute dad for Milo... Then we came back home, I was setting him up some sluts but, but all he was searching for was a decent one, you know… someone he could have actually stay longer with… or someone like Blair."

"I don't want to hear this Georgina"- Serena sighs tiredly.

"Oh, you know you do" – She winks at her. – "Then the stupid Waldorf got married to avoid jail and to save Bass…like someone can do that." – Georgina rolls her eyes, speaking her mind out – "I mean if I were you I'd have never, like never ever want to be with someone who has that god awful face while seeing the love of his life, slash your best friend getting married for the city male whore and the greatest douche of all times. Didn't you notice his face?" – She gloats and is not even trying to hide that. "His face was like this" – She impersonates sad Dan and his dead eyes. – "But poor you, you thought things would be better, right? One thing that I never understood about your fucking non-jugdemental breakfast club was the fact that all of you thought that marrying your first fuck was such a romantic thing." – She giggles. – "I didn't expect that from you… at all!"

"What do you want Georgina?" – Serena interrupts her.

"Nothing." – She says. – "I just wanted to see if you're well. And you should know that although I'm not Gossip Girl, I actually have spies who saw Dan and Blair yesterday going to his place."

"Okay… I know I did a stupid thing, I know they are together, so…?" – Serena is on the edge to cry.

"Nothing… Nobody thanks me for anything. If it wasn't for me, the naïve Humphrey would have been writing his fiftieth novel about her and he still wouldn't have tried to do anything. He should thank me for pushing him to kiss her… A simple "thanks" would be fine, but all of you are such ungrateful brats." – She rises from the chair never losing her smirk. – "You should thank me also, because I made you fucking grow up and see things straight. If I were you, I'd put my shit together and wouldn't bother much about them. Cause honey, this time I don't think someone can actually stay on their way" – She winks at Serena again and heads to the door. – "Because, Blair is kind of head over heels… just the masochist she is kind of wanted one last Chuck Bass screwing over to make her realize that she was always into the good guy. Toodaloo babe"- She closes the door and Serena remains alone.

tbc