I really struggled with this chapter so hopefull, it will be a good one.
Light wakes from his deep sleep and finds that the sun has yet to rise. He briefly glances at Itsumo. His brief glance changes to a steady look.
'If I could find her worst weakness, I could make her crumble at my feet. I could kill her now while she was sleeping. I could create an alibi and Misa could back it up. I still don't know her name. I could always do it the old fashioned way.'
He thinks of ways to kill Itsumo without the chance of retribution and without the death note. He walks over to Itsumo and kneels in front of her. His air of coldness seems to infiltrate the room.
'It's a good thing that Naraku isn't here at this moment.'
"Light, what are you doing?" asks Ryuk with a chuckle.
"I'm going to kill her." He says this as if it were a normal thing.
"Why not use the death note?" Ryuk is poking fun at Light now.
"I don't know her name and I'm sure that you won't tell me."
"You've got that right. I'm not going to help you at all." Ryuk smirks.
Light limply closes his hands around Itsumo's throat.
'Her throat fits right in my hands. Her life is literally in my hands.' Light thinks triumphantly.
Light is so absorbed in his thoughts that he doesn't notice Itsumo waking up.
He tightens his grip around her lifeline and cuts off her oxygen supply. He looks at her pale face that always seems to be serene. After a few moments however, he lets go. He closes his eyes momentarily. He can't do it.
"What's wrong, Light? Kill her already." Ryuk states gruffly.
"If she dies like this, L might still suspect me. He would accuse me even if I had an alibi."
'I can't kill her while she's seems so innocent.'
Light scolds himself mentally. He tries to convince that annoying voice in the back of his mind that Itsumo is guilty and that she needs to die. He can't convince the voice completely, but he does manage to push it even further back into his subconscious.
'I'll need to kill her the right way. I'll find a way to do it without this annoying feeling nagging me. She needs to die for my plan to succeed, and my plan will succeed at all costs.'
Light wants whatever problem he has with killing Itsumo to disappear quickly. He knows that he can not afford to let anyone or anything, especially L's sister, get in his way.
"...Light..."
Light turns his head toward Itsumo.
"What do you want?" His tone is impolite.
She feigns sleep and Light believes her to be slumbering.
"Heh. I wonder why she's dreaming about you." Ryuk states.
Light is curious as well, but he says nothing.
His mind has questions and for once in his life, Light didn't want to know the answer.
She remains still but a lonesome tear trickles down her cheek. She knows that her dream will never be a reality. Light will always be Kira and she will always be his enemy.
'Why am I wasting my tears?! He isn't worth it! I can't allow him to be worth anything to me.'
She gets up and notices that Light is sitting at his desk with his hand partially obscuring his face.
"What's eating away at you?" she asks with a yawn.
"It is not your concern." He says coldly.
"Well, you don't need to be rude. If you have any drama in your life, it's most likely your fault anyway. You are the queen of self-inflicted drama." Itsumo stresses the word queen.
Light bites back a very rude and extremely harsh comment. He doesn't want Itsumo to know that her comment had affected him in any way whatsoever.
"My problem has nothing to do with you." His tone remains icy.
"I see. That's interesting to know. Also, I want you to know that I was awake. I was wide awake."
'She didn't try to stop me.'
"Why didn't you attempt to save yourself then?" his tone is a bit softer but is not kind in any sense.
"I really don't know."
Itsumo is speaking the truth.
"What will you do now?"
"Do you really want me dead? Do you really want to end my existence?"
Itsumo's voice is quieter than the softest whisper of a wind. Some tears caress her cheeks and give them an unnatural shine.
"Itsumo..."
'I can't say yes because she might use that for black-mail. If I say yes, it will only further the damage done to my plan to get her to trust me.'
Itsumo walks over to a trunk of hers and removes a dagger.
'This will jar him if my plan is working. I need to keep up the drama for a little while longer. Still, I don't want him to wish death upon me.'
"Answer me! If you want me to die; I'll end it before you get the chance." Her voice is low.
Light makes no action to stop her.
Itsumo takes a deep breath and lightly presses the blade to her throat so only a small, nonfatal, amount of blood is drawn. She bites her lip.
'It's worth it. I must find out if my plan is working.' Itsumo thinks stubbornly.
'She's serious.'
Itsumo gasps when she feels Light holding her and prying the dagger from her hands.
Both people believe that their plans are fruitful.
"You fool! Why would you try to kill yourself?" he keeps his voice low so his family doesn't hear.
Light is playing along with Itsumo's game. However, that annoying little voice in his subconscious actually wants to know.
Her tears are falling but despite what she tries to convince herself, they aren't fake.
She buries her head in Light's shirt.
'My plan is working perfectly.' Itsumo thinks smugly.
'She's falling for my act. I wonder if I could push it a bit farther. Perhaps now would be the right time to initiate stage two of my plot.'
"Itsumo?"
Itsumo looks up at Light.
"What is it?"
"I don't want you to hurt anymore."
"It's a little late for that."
"I know this isn't a good time, but just now, I realised that I would be upset if you died." Light lies.
"I would be upset if I died too." Itsumo says with her head still on his chest.
"Like I said, I know this isn't a good time."
"What exactly are you trying to say?"
"I wanted to know if you would be my girlfriend."
'He isn't really nervous. If he was, his heart beat would have increased. This must be a plan against me. Fine. If he wants to get closer to me, I'll let him. It will only help me in the end.'
"Alright." Itsumo says with false happiness.
She tightens her grip around him then let's go.
"The task force meeting start soon We need to leave." Itsumo states.
She stands up and tucks her notebook into the inner pocket of her jacket where it won't be seen.
'She goes from sad, to angry, to suicidal, to happy, then to nonchalant in the lapse of thirty minutes. Is she just manipulating her own emotions? I loathe her attitude.'
"Light, are you coming?"
He nods.
They walk out the door and are greeted but a blustery atmosphere.
"Where is Naraku?" Light asks.
He hasn't seen that troublesome death god all day.
"He had to prove to some old man that he was still attached to a second Death Note."
Her voice is blank.
"Itsumo, Light, you're later than usual." L states.
"Yes, but we are on time right?"
"You arrived on time, just not as early as you normally arrive. What delayed you?"
"Light asked me out." Itsumo says as calmly as she can.
L blinks but doesn't vocalize any thoughts.
Soichiro looks at the both of them but also remains silent.
"That's wonderful!" Matsuda exclaims.
"Matsuda, it really isn't a big deal." Itsumo mumbles.
"Do we have any new information?" Aizawa asks Ryuzaki.
"Well, I suspect that Misa Amane may be the second Kira. Of course when I say "suspect," it is only a 10 chance. We have also discovered that Kira can kill in other ways, not just a heart-attack."
"How is that?" Soichiro inquires.
"I'm not sure. That is what I was investigating before you came."
"I think that Kira can somehow control his victims before they die." Itsumo states.
"That's impossible." Aizawa counters.
"If Kira can kill in more than way, who's to say that he can't control how victims die?" Itsumo retorts calmly.
"This is true." L agrees.
L notices that Itsumo is nibbling her bottom lip. She only does that when something is upsetting her. Chewing her lip is like her control mechanism.
"If Kira controls his victims, then anyone who has ever been suspected of a crime could die in any way. How would we know if it was Kira's fault?" asks Light.
"If they died from a physical issue, we could use their family history. If the committed suicide, we would check for any previous mental disorders or odd behavior. In my opinion, anything that could be coincidence, such as a car crash, would be extremely difficult to trace back to Kira. I have one more theory..." Itsumo begins.
"That would be?" asks L.
"Kira may be suffering from a mental disorder."
"What kind of mental disorder makes people kill someone?" Matsuda questions.
"If Kira has multiple personality disorder, then he wouldn't even know he was Kira and he would unwillingly and unknowingly switch back and forth between two or more personalities. A person with multiple personality disorder doesn't remember what their other personality does so Kira's other personality could be docile and caring." L informs.
"That means that anyone in this room could be Kira and not even know." Itsumo states darkly.
A noise is heard. Matsuda looks out of the window.
"I thought owls were always nocturnal." he says confused.
"They are. An owl out in daylight like this one is probably rabid." Light says with an annoyed tone.
"Owls are bad omens. An owl out in daylight means danger." Itsumo states grimly.
"What kind of danger could be foretold by the appearance of one sickly owl?" asks Light.
Itsumo turns away from the window to face him.
"It could be any kind of danger, a death, an accident, a stalker, or even a random act. That's why an owl is one of the worst omens. Anything could happen once you've seen it."
Aizawa snorts.
"I don't believe in superstition."
"It isn't superstition, Aizawa. The morning someone very dear to me passed away, I saw an owl, just like this one, flying over my head." she says sadly.
"Who passed on?" Matsuda asks.
"I don't want to say. I don't trust everyone here."
Only L and Light know that she is speaking about Bakura.
"It's 6:30 pm now. You can all leave if you wish." L states in a monotone.
"Itsumo, could I speak with you a moment?"
"Sure, L. What is it?"
"You have feelings for Light, don't you?" He tone isn't accusatory.
"I don't harbor any feelings for Yagami."
"I noticed the change in you mannerisms while he was close to you. It was very minute and the only reason that I noticed is because I know the real you." L states bluntly.
"Those changes would be?" Itsumo asks quietly.
"You smile is a little different for Light than it is for anyone else. I've noticed the way you look at him. I've also noticed how he looks at you."
'This is nonsense, right? Yes, it must be. I could never really be attracted to Light, could I?'
"I don't mind if you do have feelings for him. Itsumo, be careful. I don't fully know to what extent Kira can manipulate his victims or how he manages to control them. If Light Yagami is Kira, you are in a position that is very dangerous and it's too late to turn back now. Don't let your emotions blind you or you will end up in a tomb." L's voice holds a tone of warning and for an unknown reason, hints of regret.
Maybe he regrets letting Itsumo get so involved in this case.
"L, don't worry about me. I know what I'm doing. I've done this before and I can do it again." Her voice is soft.
"In the other cases, I knew how the convict killed, why he did it, when he did it, and what weapon he used. Those times, all I needed was a confession. This time, I don't know how the murderer kills, when he does so, or what weapon he uses."
"If you want me to break up with Light, I will." Itsumo's voice is firm.
"No, don't do that. Just be cautious. He may be using you." He states emotionlessly.
L hopes that his sister won't get wounded anymore. Her physical wounds are minuscule but her emotional wounds are gaping and she always has trouble dealing with the nightmares that come with the wounds. L does not mention this hope.
Itsumo turns to leave and her sleeve catches on something. She quickly pulls it back down but not before L sees the pink line that stretches across her snow flake skin. He grabs her wrist but is sure not to hurt her.
"You've started again haven't you?" his voice holds a slight sense of anger but it is hardly detectable.
"Yes, but it is the one thing, my one habit, that helps me to keep my sanity." she states quietly.
Everyone in Wammy's house had their habits to keep them sane. L eats sweets and bites his thumb. Near plays with toys and twirls his hair. Matt smokes and plays video games. Mello eats chocolate and does not attempt to hide emotions. Itsumo's habit is the worst of all. She turns to a blade for her solace instead of something harmless like a toy or a video game.
"If you keep doing that, you will kill yourself before Kira has the chance." L's voice is detached from the situation.
"I know. It really isn't as bad as society makes it out to be. Besides, if anyone else found out, they wouldn't care. People never care."
'I never knew she hurt herself.' Light thinks.
He had walked back to head quarters when he realized that he left his bag there. He had heard what L was saying after he grabbed Itsumo's wrist.
Itsumo walks out of the room.
"Light, what are you doing back here?" L asks.
Itsumo's eyes widen.
How much did he hear?
I came to walk Itsumo back to my house, it is getting dark." Light lies expertly.
Once the two are outside, Light takes Itsumo's hand. She flinches slightly and stiffens but grasps his hand.
'Heh, she's really shaken up. That's great. My plan is working perfectly and soon I'll have your real name Itsumo. I'll have the key to your death.'
'His hand is ice cold, just like his heart. I wonder if he knows now.' thinks Itsumo as she realizes that his eyes flick to her wrist every now and again.
His glances are almost involuntary, but Light wants, no, Light needs to know why she would hurt herself when he could hurt her so much more.
They reach the door and walk in with their hands still clasped together.
"Hey Light! Are you two going out now?" Sayu asks loudly.
Itsumo briefly closes her eyes. Sayu's voice grates against her nerves.
"That's right." Light agrees.
"I'm going to go to sleep now." Itsumo announces quietly and walks up the stairs.
Light follows some time after and sees that Itsumo is writing in the death note, but she isn't using a pen. She's using her blood.
"Why do you write with the blood?" Light asks.
He is slightly disgusted yet also interested in the answer.
"It allows me to feel some of the pain of those that die. Of course, physical pain is much easier to bear than emotional pain."
Light looks at her and notices that her eyes appear dull and void of emotion.
She slowly closes the notebook and walks toward him.
"You should practice writing with blood. It's helped me in a tight situation." Her voice is still blank.
She lays down on her blanket and is soon in a world of her own creation., a world where dreams actually do come true.
Light sits on his bed and eventually drifts off to sleep. His slumber is racked with dreams of Itsumo committing suicide and murdering him.
Did I rush the Itsumo and Light thing? Thnx for reading :D
