Anna gazed into the window of her sister's study, admiring her beauty. It had only been a few days since the Great Thaw, which means not much longer since she had shared a kiss with Elsa. Her older sister's lips were cool to the touch, thin, and wet. Even with the cold touch of Elsa, Anna felt a warmth spread through her body, starting in her core and melting it's way through up and down her body. Her spine felt fuzzy the entire time, and she felt like she was higher than a cloud. Her mind soared, her eyes closed, her heart raced, as she focused on the intense moment. Oh how good Elsa's lips felt against her own. Anna wasn't stupid, and she knew exactly what she was feeling. How it made me feel was why I ran. It felt so right, and I long endlessly for it to happen again, but I needed time to think. It isn't every day you realize you have fallen head over heals for your sister.
Anna got lost in thought about her sister's immense beauty, her radiant skin, those ever so slight freckles, and those perfect ice blue eyes. The red headed girl began to blush lightly as she remembered tracing Elsa's freckles down to her clavicle. I wonder if she noticed? Anna smiled mischievously Or if she did the same to me? At this the girl looked down to examine her own chest of freckles, sprinkled across her skin. Her heart skipped a beat thinking of Elsa staring at the same spot she was now, where her dress came to an end, softly hugging the top of her breasts, so as to not show any cleavage.
I was confused when I ran out. I know I hurt Elsa, I see it every day. I remember her calling after me as I fled in fear of what I was feeling. Anna felt a pang of guilt stab her in the heart, her knees threatened to give out. She felt sick to her stomach. "And in my stupid confused haste I mistakenly fell for not only one, but two men. I'll bet I made Elsa feel just great by doing that. Hmph." Anna was muttering angrily to herself, scolding herself. "I do care for Kristoff, though not as more than a friend, I was so confused." The girl suddenly felt sorry for herself, feeling herself on the verge of crying, tears threatening to spill over.
She looked back up at Elsa hard at work and her eyes misty. She reminisced about staring into Elsa's perfect, icy blue eyes. The longing, loving, accepting look her sister would beam at her with, a soft red in her cheeks, a warm, sincere smile strewn out across her face. The face of a heart she had hurt possibly beyond repair. Elsa had opened up, trusted her and what did you do? You ran. How great of you. Anna thought of that soft face, those loving blue eyes, and looked at it now. Elsa was glaring at her paper with such intensity that Anna was surprised the paper didn't burn right there. Oh wait, it would freeze.
Anna chuckled at her own joke, which made her feel a little bit lighter. She felt a strong hand on her shoulder, "Whatchya' laughing about?" Kristoff asked excitedly.
"Oh nothing, I was just thinking to myself that with how intently Elsa is staring at that paper I'm surprised that it doesn't catch fire. Then I r-remembered.." Anna caught herself chuckling at her own joke again. She didn't know why it was so funny to her, it just was.
"Remembered what?" Kristoff gave her a quizzical look.
"T-that she actually has ice powers, so the paper would freeze, not burn!" Anna blurted excitedly. Well, that was a LOT funnier in my head.
"Haha, I get it" Kristoff badly faked a laughed, not wanting to make Anna feel dumb. Anna blushed lightly and turned to hide her face. He's too nice sometimes.
"Hey well, I was about to go wander the forest, I thought you would like to come?" Kristoff asked, smiling a hearty smile down at Anna.
"About to go wander the forest alone, huh?" Anna teased and lightly elbowed Kristoff in the side.
"Haha, hey watch it!" Kristoff boomed with amusement.
Before heading to the forest with Kristoff, Anna stole another look at Elsa. Her lovely sister was now looking out the window looking over at her and Kristoff. Anna felt the all to familiar feeling of her heart bleeding everywhere, she wanted to be with Elsa, even if it meant watching her work. Elsa put up her hand and gave a weak smile and wave. Anna returned the gesture with an equally weak wave and smile, but her face betrayed her commands and showed only sorrow. She slumped over, thinking about how she had hurt that beautiful girl. Sure they had retained their sisterly bond, but Anna knew Elsa wanted her as more than that, and the feelings were mutual. How did I let myself be taken off my feet not once but twice by other people? I'm such an idiot! Anna was lost in her thoughts as the turned to walk the forest with Kristoff.
She felt her face slam into something. "OUCH!" she squealed as her nose collided head on with Kristoff's chest.
"Watch where you're going, clumsy!" Kristoff teased.
` "Ha ha, very funny," Anna shoved the man lightly. "Now let's go to the forest!"
Kristoff took her hand. His large, warm hands were so comforting. She really did like being around him, but her heart burned to be with Elsa. All the time. Kristoff was nice, but Elsa just filled Anna with so much warmth and fuzz and she had been thinking of only her sister since the night of their kiss. Anna didn't feel up to doing anything, she wanted to lay down right there and started crying, crying for Elsa to forgive her and tell her it's okay. She remembered Elsa's comforting embrace, how it soothed so much pain that was bottled up in Anna over the years. Why can't I just be happy? Oh yeah, because I hurt Elsa.. At that thought Anna looked one last time back at Elsa, a pain shooting through her already damaged heart. From her seat in her study Elsa was watching them, but turned her head once she saw Anna looking over. Anna saw frost grow around her older sister. You really hurt her... nice going.
The two of them headed to the forest, which wasn't far from where Anna was already spying on Elsa from. They walked in silence for a while, taking in the sights, the smells, and the sounds. Birds were chirping, something Anna always loved and found relaxing. Kristoff's dull yet weak odor lightly masked the smell of flowers as they passed, forcing Anna to go up to almost each flower to pleasure her nostrils with its friendly scent. As the day wore on the girl found herself thinking of Elsa in everything she saw. When she heard the birds sing she heard Elsa's soft, smooth voice. The flowers were beautiful, but Elsa's natural beauty trumped them all. Over time Anna became more and more restless, not responding as much when Kristoff when he attempted small talk, and when she did respond she always managed to bring up her sister, something Kristoff noticed.
One particular flower caught Anna's attention, a white one with large, curving petals. Just like Elsa's hair. Oh that beautiful braid she puts it in! She felt a dumb mile on her lips. The flower was also rather frail looking just like Elsa, so curvy, so frail looking, even thought Elsa may just be the most powerful person around.
"I haven't seen you today, what have you been doing all day?" Kristoff's question pulled Anna out of her train of thought for a moment.
Oh, you know, the normal. Watching my sister through work through her window, knowing how much I hurt her and feeling like I'm shriveling into nothingness. "Nothing really, just wandering around. How about you? Where have you been?" Anna gave Kristoff a fake look of suspicion.
"Oh the usual, you know, sharing carrots with Sven."
"You're gross!" Anna giggled.
"I can't help it! I just love Sven, he has always been the one constant, you know?"
Anna looked at the ground and felt her eyes start to become misty and her heart sink. No, I don't. "Kristoff?" Anna started, her voice soft and beginning to tremble.
"Yes?" Kristoff replied with genuine concern in his voice and eyes.
"How do you know if you love someone?" Anna spoke seriously. She brought her teal eyes, now watery, up to meet Kristoff's eyes. She looked weak and broken and Kristoff knew she was serious. Who better to ask than him? I mean, his family is a bunch of trolls who are all experts on love. He wasn't lying when he said he knew love experts.
"Well," Kristoff started, unsure what to say, "first of all you can't get your mind off them."
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"And when you think of them you get this dumb smile on your face."
Anna thought of her happy moments with Elsa just days earlier. She weighed their kiss with the one she shared with Kristoff. When she thought of her lips touching Elsa's she felt her heart jump, remembering each and every sensation, and she knew exactly what Kristoff was talking about. Okay, strike two.
"And when they hurt it is the most painful thing you can go through."
The red haired girl thought of how she had hurt her Elsa, how she was now by wandering off with Kristoff. Her heart filled with lead, and started to burn. Her eyes once again were on the verge of dropping tears. She thought of the past days, leaving Elsa, running from her feelings. She would swear she heard Elsa's heart shatter to pieces as she ran away that night. Anna felt ashamed, responsible for her sister's current pain. The weight of an anchor stopped Anna in her tracks, making her want to fall over, to give up and break right there. Her stomach churned, she hadn't been able to eat much lately. Okay, that's three for Elsa and none for Kristoff. I really need to talk to her.
"Why do you ask?" Kristoff showed a tint of concern in his voice.
Anna suddenly let go of Kristoff's hand, turning around and running back to the castle, now finally with a mission to fix what she had done, Anna felt light as a feather in the wind.
"Wait, where are you going? What's going on? I'm confused!" Kristoff called out. Anna ignored his pleas.
I have to apologize, I have to tell Elsa how I feel and that I will never make the same mistake again. At night I can't even sleep most of the time because I'm thinking about her, oh how I want her to be there with me at night, oh how I want to just fix this and stop her hurting!
-AUTHOR'S NOTE: I can't help but feel like this chapter doesn't have the emotion of the others, I'm working on chapter 8 and juicing up the feels! Thanks again for the kind words!
