Chapter 7 – The Wolf is Out of the Bag: Part 1
B.P.O.V.
"Alice, stop it," I pleaded; pulling the blanket over my head. "I don't feel well," I groaned.
I was feigning illness but I was feeling awful all night. I couldn't sleep for shit. The never endless thoughts that resonated in my mind had made me feel fragile. My state was weak and sluggish. It's like I had a massive hangover without being in a drunken phase last night.
I let Jacob Black get to me. I allowed him to pry his way into my heart without my willing permission. It's extremely abnormal to understand your feelings about a certain person just over night, especially of the opposite sex but I couldn't shake the fact that I was slowly realizing what my heart was beginning to crave, that ache in my chest was for someone – that someone being Jake.
So that was my shitty night and morning of insomnia. I couldn't rationalize coherently with all these disarray of thoughts and emotions. Everything I thought was centered on him.
Last night had been one of the worst and best nights of my entire life. It began wonderfully then slowly progressed to detestable.
Alice had arrived early this morning; too damn early for any human soul to be awake, from her trip to Alaska. She arrived at my house around 10:00 A.M. while I was still curled up under my covers, trying to will away all this mess I had put myself in. Alice had absolutely no clue what had come to pass in the last twenty-four hours and everything those actions had an effect on me.
Yet, here she was with her all too bubbly self, taunting me with her annoying cheerfulness. Ugh!
She sat next to me on the side of my bed, "Bella, you're not sick, come on! I missed you. This is my first day back in Forks and I want to spend the day with you. So get your ass up, sunshine!"
I grumbled and rolled over, popping my head out of the all too warm blanket. I gazed up into her beautiful topaz eyes; she gave me a warm smile that stated she was sincerely happy to see me. I couldn't resist those eyes so I rolled up from my bed to a sitting position; I ran my hands through my disheveled hair.
Alice looked a little paler than normal. I guess that's your so called 'tan' when you go visit Alaska.
"Bella, do you have a hangover or something?" she inquired with her brow raised, giving me the 'I'm about to scold you' look.
"No Alice, I don't have a hangover, I just stayed out kind of late last night, that's all. So I'm just really exhausted. How was your trip?" I said, trying to subtly change the subject.
She frowned in my direction looking into my eyes but she seemed to drop it, for now.
"Good, I guess. My uncle wasn't even sick so I don't understand why my mom thought he was. But anyway, it was a blast up until Edward got sick. He was so sick my uncle had to fly back with us in order to give Edward the meds he needed. You know, since my uncle is a doctor."
"Oh my God, I hope Edward's alright. I'm sorry to hear that."
"He's fine, Bella. Well, I think he will be," she shrugged, "My uncle says with the proper medicine, Edward will be up and running in no time. I hope he's right though, Edward didn't look too good this morning. He seemed…worse," a worried expression flickered across her face but it faded just as soon as it came, "enough about us though, let's not damper our day with things that we have no control over."
"As you wish," I mumbled out like the prince from 'The Princess Bride', twirling my hand towards her.
She chuckled.
"So, you said you stayed out late last night, huh? Doing what exactly?" she asked.
I was doing Jacob Black, duh!
"Oh well, you know; normal teenage stuff. Leah called me up and invited me over, well; she invited both of us over but you were out of town, of course. She was having a movie night." I shrugged, feigning it wasn't a big deal.
"Just the two of you?" she asked, "Like two lesbians on a date?" she smiled sarcastically and wiggled her eyebrows up and down.
"Alice, if I'm going to switch teams; you'd be the first on my list to bang." I winked at her and we both giggled.
"But no miss smart ass, it was basically the whole teenage existence of La Push."
"So…that means Jake was there?"
I rolled my eyes, "Yes Alice, Jacob was there."
"Hmm, so you and Jacob were there; did you guys go like, together together?"
"I thought we already established that we both were there but no, we didn't go 'together'." I grumbled.
"Sure, whatever you say. So…what else happened?" her lips quirked up slightly.
"Nothing," I lied right through my teeth.
Exasperated I rose from my bed and padded my way towards the bathroom in the hallway to take care of my morning business.
I heard Alice holler towards the bathroom from my room, "Bella, you're not telling me everything," she said, "And for the record, you're an awful liar!"
I felt the blush creep up on my cheeks, "I'm not lying, Alice. Nothing happened."
"You're such a freakin' liar! Did you shower last night?" she asked while I was still in the bathroom. I scrunched my brows together at the odd question.
"Um, no...I told you I got home late. I was too tired to do anything but fall face first on my pillow. Alice, why are you interrogating me like the police?" I was getting agitated by all this damn questioning.
"You smell like the beach and hot sex." She stated.
My mouth gaped in bewilderment. Thank God I was in the privacy of the bathroom and she couldn't see my face, "Alice, you're crazy, you know that?"
She yelled back, "I may be crazy but you're the liar. So, who did you have sex with?" She asked
"Wait that was a stupid question to ask," She giggled.
I exited the bathroom and made my way back into my room and sat at the edge of the bed and turned to her, "Ali, look at me – I didn't have sex with anyone." I tried looking into her eyes.
Liar, liar pants on fire," she sang. Alice looked at me and her eyes almost bugged out of her head, "Oh my God, you boned Jacob Black!" she yelled.
I tackled her onto the bed placing my hand over her mouth. Her laughs were muffled under my palm as I shook my head indicating with my glare for her to shut up. I didn't want my dad to hear Alice yelling such vulgar things about me. I was 'Daddy's Little Girl' for crying out loud, innocent as far as he knew.
I pulled my hand away from her mouth and sat back up, "Fine, you win. I had sex and it was the best, no – greatest sex I've had in the few years of boning random guys. I had sex with Jake. I came three times and now I feel like shit. There, are you happy now?" I said crossing my arms looking at the wall in front of me.
I sighed and made my way to my closet to get my clothes out for the day.
"Okay, so if you came three times please explain to me why you're not on cloud fucking nine right now!"
I exhaled an aggravated breath, "Because, I shouldn't have had sex with him."
"Why?" she asked "It's just sex right? It meant nothing to you." She beamed brightly.
I turned around to look at her, her smile faded as she took in my dismal expression, "Oh Bella, I'm so sorry. You have to tell him."
I threw my hands up in defeat. "I can't. How weird would that be? He just had sex with me yesterday and we barely know each other. What? Should I just show up at his door and get all lifetime movie on him?"
"I'm not saying that. I'm just saying that you'll regret it if someone beats you to the punch. Think about it Bella, Jake is a good guy; not to mention he's hot as hell. Guys with that combination don't stay single for long." Alice sighed and just stared at me with a sympathetic smile, "You know what? I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be so intrusive…"
"No, don't apologize. I should learn to have control over my actions. But it was supposed to mean nothing to me. Last night when it was happening, it meant nothing to me until I got home. I really wish things weren't this complicated for me but I can't seem to fend off these feelings. I can't…I won't be able to even look at him!" I said dejectedly.
"Well, I'm sure it'll all turn out alright. All of your frustrations will soon fade away," she smiled.
"Yeah, I just hope you're right," I sighed.
"What's my name?" I asked with more optimism in my voice.
Alice looked at me confused, "Um….Bella."
"Right, I'm Bella. That's what I thought. No guy is going to slow or get me down."
"Alright man eater, whatever you say," She said with a playful smile lifting her lips.
"Call it what you want." I shrugged and padded back to the bathroom to take a shower.
I spent about two hours showering, brushing my teeth, drying and curling my hair. I made my way back into my room where I had laid out my clothes. I chose simple Juicy Couture jeans and a Chanel Grey tank top for today, throwing together the ensemble with my comfy Chuck Taylor's.
I spent the entire Sunday with Alice. We did all the girly frou frou things as any normal teenage girls would be so inclined to subject themselves to; we painted each other's nails, ordered take-out, watched movies and gushed over hot guys.
Sunday ended as quickly as it came.
Monday morning came around and I woke up wanting to feel sexy after the shitty weekend I had had. I got up and did my normal morning routine; bathroom, shower, brushed teeth, dried and curled my hair.
I chose some True Religion skinny black jeans that hugged my curves in all the right places and threw on my D&G satin diamond jacquard poplin shirt that had my breasts barely peeking out since I didn't button it all the way. The idea was what was underneath this scrumptious material of clothing that I left to the imagination. I put on my black suede thigh high Christian Louboutin boots that Renee had purchased for me last year when she had vacationed in Paris.
I didn't go all out with the make-up. I only put on some eye-liner, a little blush and some lips gloss, smacking my lips together as I put the finishing touches. My hair hung in long curls down my back. It had grown so long that it had almost reached my butt but I didn't want to cut it.
I grabbed my Hermès amethyst porosus crocodile Birkin bag and my school books off my desk. I made my way down stairs. Charlie had already left to work early in the morning. I stepped into the kitchen to grab a Luna Bar out of the pantry for a quick breakfast.
I stepped outside and locked the door behind me. I made my way down the steps of the porch and onto the gravel driveway, unlocking the car door I opened it and got into my sweet ride, strapping myself in as I turned on the radio.
The drive to school seemed to take forever; I couldn't stop the images and thoughts that flitted through my mind dampening my mood. I had done a terrible thing. I had given into my body's desire. I had sex with Jacob Black.
I sighed.
I didn't regret it at all though. I was actually hoping it would happen again if the chance arose.
Stupid Bella.
I made it to the school parking lot in one piece, thankful that I didn't smash into any trees while my mind wandered aimlessly at the thoughts of that night.
I parked in my usual spot. I noticed the few specific cars I came to recognize these past few weeks weren't in the parking spots that they usually occupied.
I gathered my things and made my way into the front doors of the school, walking to my locker and grabbed the books I needed for first period.
School had begun and for some reason, something didn't sit well with me. The atmosphere was strange. Everyone that had made each day bearable here at Forks High was peculiarly absent.
Jake and all of his friends weren't in school. Alice hadn't replied to a single text I had sent her this morning. That woman was always glued to her phone so it was really odd behavior for her not to reply.
As I walked down the school hallway to my next class, I kept gazing around to see if maybe I could spot at least Edward but it was apparent that he wasn't at school today either.
Once the second period bell had rang to excuse classes I quickly gathered my purse and books off my desk trying to shuffle through the line of desks as all the other kids in my way were taking their sweet ass time to get their shit together.
I finally made it to the hallway and speed-walked to the girl's restroom.
I had started feeling anxious during the whole time first and second period were going on, never once paying attention to whatever the teachers was babbling about. I felt the anxiety creep into my stomach, making it clench with the feeling of nausea.
I ran into the stall and closed the door, locking it behind me. I stood stock still against the stall door, my fingers clenched tightly around my books and purse holding them against my chest; my knuckles were turning white as snow as the blood circulation in my fingers was being cut off from the ninja grip my hands were possessed by. I tried to will away the feelings of panic, inhaling and exhaling deep breaths.
I heard the restroom door open as the clicking of heels against the tile floor echoed in the room stifled with high pitched manic laughter's.
Well, at least that's what it sounded like to me. I was able to recognize one of those annoying cackles from a mile away.
Angela.
She had walked in with her group of banshee friends. I groaned and cursed myself under my breath. This wasn't going to end well. I just knew it.
I heard as they stopped in front of the sinks, assuming they were checking to see if they properly glued their faces on this morning.
One of them with a nasally high pitched voice spoke, "So, the rumor mill around Forks High is that Bella Swan was down at La Push this past weekend," she giggled.
I rolled my eyes.
"Damn Ang, looks like she may already be marking your territory," another one joked and let loose her stupid laugh.
"Oh, please." Angela spat. "Bella Swan is nothing but a slut," Her voice was laced with such toxicity at the mention of my name.
"She's nothing but a whore who opens her legs for anyone; just another pale piece of ass for all the guys around here. My guess is that they've all had their turn fucking her, maybe even a few times already." She cackled cynically.
"You girls see how she looks at all the guys here, like they're some sort of game for her to hunt. What a tramp, her vagina is probably harvesting all kinds of STD's. Besides, Jake is mine; it's always been that way and will continue to be that way." The whole group joined in on the banter and continued to laugh their asses off.
I was fuming inside. I wasn't some sort of floozy.
Well okay, when I wanted to be that much was true but fuck them for thinking I've banged the entire student body!
I turned and unlocked the stall door, pulling it open and nonchalantly stepping out into the herd.
Angela wasn't surprised at all when I emerged out of the stall. She simply gave me an impish smile that could match The Joker's from the movie Batman.
"Oh, well speak of the devil," she said with an amused voice. "You know Bella, I warned you to stay away. All you had to do was stay away," a smile quirked on her lips.
I gave her a humorless smile, "Is that so?"
"Yes, in case you haven't noticed; I'm very territorial." She stated sternly, her brows pressing together now with almost a scowl on her face.
I squared my shoulders as I stormed over to Angela, glaring at all of them in the process, "You know? I'm enjoying this sick and twisted fascination you and your bitches have with me. But you think you have me all figured out, don't you?" I said sarcastically.
"Well, for starters; you have me all wrong. I would never fuck all of the guys in the school because this pale piece of ass has more class than you tend to show with yourself around here, you know; seeing as you're labeled the clingy, jealous, bitch of an ex-girlfriend. So, you may continue your prattling shit about me if that makes yourself feel better, whether it's to my face or behind my back. It doesn't matter." I shrugged my shoulders.
"At the end of each day though, whose name do you think Jake will be moaning when he gets his brains fucked out?" I smiled wickedly as I made my way to the restroom door.
"You ladies have a lovely day now; Oh, and Angela?" I looked directly into her eyes, "I'll leave the Vodka bottle you crawled out of on the school's curb so you can drown in your misery after classes are over."
I winked at them as I exited the restroom. I left with my head held high and my dignity intact.
The rest of third period dragged on as the teacher droned on about God knows what. It was finally lunch time and I made my way towards the cafeteria, getting in the lunch line as I picked a salad and paid for it. I sat at the lunch table over at the corner of the large room filled with bustling teenagers eager to sit with their friends as they all chatted away.
I was miserable and alone.
Alice wasn't here and I missed Jake fiercely. I had never missed anyone so much, much less a guy! I longed to see his face or hear the witty sarcasm his voice held.
Christ on a cracker! I was going insane without him.
I had to find out if everyone was okay. Shit, I needed to see a Dr. myself to make sure I was functioning properly. I guess I was being caring for a change which was totally out of character for me.
The noise in the cafeteria was overbearing, reverberating off the damn walls. It gave me a vicious migraine after a while. Maybe I was just aggravated as fuck.
I pulled out my iPod from my bag and adjusted the earplugs into my ear, cranking up the volume to drown out the noise in the room.
Miss independent
Miss self-sufficient
Miss keep your distance
Miss unafraid
Miss out of my way
Miss don't let a man interfere, no
Miss on her own
Miss almost grown
Miss never let a man help her off her throne
So, by keeping her heart protected
She'd never ever feel rejected
Little miss apprehensive
Said ooh, she fell in love
What is the feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open my door
Surprise...It's time
To feel what's real
What happened to Miss Independent?
No more the need to be defensive
Goodbye, old you
When love is true
Misguided heart
Miss play it smart
Miss if you want to use that line you better not start, no
But she miscalculated
She didn't want to end up jaded
And this miss decided not to miss out on true love
So, by changing her misconceptions
She went in a new direction
And found inside she felt a connection
She fell in love.
What is the feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open my door (open my door)
Surprise...It's time (yeah)
To feel what's real
What happened to Miss Independent?
No more the need to be defensive
Goodbye (goodbye), old you (oh you)
When love, when love is true
When Miss Independence walked away
No time for love that came her way
She looked in the mirror and thought today
What happened to miss no longer afraid?
It took some time for her to see
How beautiful love could truly be
No more talk of why can't that be me
I'm so glad I finally feel...
What is the feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open my door
Surprise (surprise), it's time (yeah)
To feel (to feel) what's real
What happened to Miss Independent?
No more the need to be defensive
Goodbye (goodbye), old you
When love, when love is true...
Soon lunch was over and I made my way to the three remaining classes for the day. I couldn't wait to get the hell out of here. The walls felt like they were closing in on me.
Shit, I think I may have been suffering from a panic attack.
It hit me then – I was more emotionally involved with all of my friends. I actually cared for them. It hit me harder though when I realized I was much more emotionally attached to a certain guy. It was ridiculous to think that I hated him when I initially arrived at Forks High.
Ugh! What are you thinking Bella! I shouldn't have slept with him, that's what I was thinking.
My emotions were beginning to unravel and they were running at full speed driving me crazy. The only thing keeping me sane now living in Forks were my friends, without them everything was a blur in my life. My mind pleaded to be with them, any of them! Why did this make me feel like my life was ending?
I was seriously going to be admitted to an insane asylum.
The last bell rang as the entire student body scurried out of each of their classes. I walked to my locker to put away the books I didn't need and to get the books I did need for homework.
This felt like the worst day of my entire life. Why did I feel so damn depressed?
What the hell is wrong with you Bella! Get your shit together!
I made my way down the school halls out into the parking lot. I was so out of it that I had forgotten where the hell I had parked my car this morning. I pressed on the alarm button a few times while walking around in circles like a fool until finally spotting my beautiful apple red BMW. I got in after unlocking it and backed out of the parking space, driving off the lot into the dreary weather of Forks.
I was exhausted by the time I got out of school. All this thinking and feeling drained every last ounce of strength that I had. I wondered if it wouldn't be too stalker-like if I went down to La Push to see Jake.
No. Yes! That would be too 'I'm obsessed with you' type of a thing to do, especially when it came to a guy. I wasn't even his girlfriend. God, get a grip already!
Maybe I could go see Alice; I don't think she'd mind if I dropped by to just make sure she was okay. Well, she hadn't answered any of my texts I had been sending her throughout the whole day. Maybe she was mad at me? Maybe she thought I was an idiot for sleeping with Jake? I felt even more like shit thinking my best friend could hate me now.
I decided to just stop thinking altogether and head home. That's where I needed to be right now.
As soon as I pulled up into the driveway I noticed Charlie's cruiser was gone. He must have had a late shift again. I parked, gathered my things and opened the door to get out. I trudged up the gravel walkway, up the porch stairs and to the door, unlocking it.
The house seemed so empty and cold. It had an eerie feeling. I couldn't stand it. I dropped my keys on the side table next to the door and made my way upstairs.
Closing the door behind me once I got to my room didn't feel any better. It still had the cold empty feeling. A shiver ran down my spine as I felt the hair on my arms stand up.
I was delusional now, great.
I shook my head to rid myself from all the apprehension and made my way to my desk, setting my things down. I took off my boots and undressed. Heading to my drawer I picked out some grey sweats and a white tank top to throw on.
I figured I'd take a nap to ease whatever all this that I was feeling. I padded my way to my bed and lay down taking my stuffed teddy bear Charlie had given me as a child and hugged it tight as my head hit the pillow.
I could feel the searing pain in my chest, making my heart clench in agony. My soul felt like it was being ripped out of me. I felt abandoned. Why did I feel like a part of me was missing? I felt my lungs constrict against my rib cage making it hard to breathe again. My heart pounded erratically in my ears.
The tears started to pool in my eyes making my vision cloudy. I moved my head facing down, burying it in the pillow as I felt the stream of tears rolling down my cheeks. I shut my eyes tight as I inhaled and exhaled deeply, blowing out a breath of hot air.
Why was I crying? I had no reason to cry. I was a blubbering mess.
Before I knew it, the darkness under my eyelids oxidized my entire being.
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Chapter 7 – The Wolf is Out of the Bag: Part 2
My eyes fluttered open as I felt the bright light against my face. I was still lying in my room, on my bed in the same position. It took me a minute to compose myself as my vision groggily adjusted to the atmosphere around me.
I lifted my head off the pillow and looked at the clock on my night stand. It read 6:00 A.M. – what! I slept through the whole damn night! This couldn't be right, could it? Had I slept all afternoon and night yesterday until this morning? Why hadn't Charlie awakened me?
Well, there was no point in bitching about it. It happened and now it was Tuesday.
I picked up my cell phone off the night stand to check my messages. I pressed the pad on my Blackberry as I saw the red light indicating I had a new message. I had a text message – from none other than Alice! I quickly scrolled to the text message icon opening it.
B,
Sorry, I know you think I'm avoiding you but I swear I'm not. My family is ill w/a bad virus that's really contagious. We can't be around anyone, things are hectic right now. My Uncle Carlisle is watching over us so don't worry. You have to stay away until I call you. I understand if you're mad at me but my family comes first.
Alice
I groaned. What was going on? This just made everything I have been feeling even worse.
I jumped out of bed quickly and shuffled my way to the bathroom to shower and get ready for the day. I turned the shower on letting the steam fill the room. I stepped in and let all the hot water wash away the crippling feelings that were tormenting me for the last twenty-four hours.
Turning off the shower, I stepped out and wrapped myself in the luxurious organic Egyptian cotton towel; another gift from Renee. She had also given me 1200 thread count Egyptian cotton sheets for my bed.
Nope, there was nothing I did without style. It was my life before moving here. I was just so accustomed to the finer things in life.
The softness was intoxicating against my damp skin. I walked out of the bathroom, back into my room hearing the faint click as I closed my door.
This was my favorite part of the day. Even if I was feeling like shit, I loved getting dressed with all my beautiful designer garments. Call me a spoiled brat but when you have parents that can buy you the nicest shit in the world, you'd milk that for all you can get. That always gave me a tiny piece of pleasure and satisfaction.
I smiled inwardly as I padded barefoot to my undergarment drawer.
I slid it open and indulged in the sight of all the beautiful lace that lay before me. Renee loved shopping at Victoria's Secret and every time she went there, she always brought me back a little pink bag with goodies.
I felt daring today for some reason. I chose a red set of a lace bra and a bikini style panty.
Once I had my bare essentials covered, I stood in front of my closet with my arms crossed over my chest, contemplating what to wear. This closet was so tiny compared to the one I had at Renee's house. I had to make do with the space given to me. My clothes, shoes and accessories were spilling out from everywhere. I sighed.
I really need to tell Charlie to add some more closet space.
I pulled out my Seven brand pull-on leggings in black and slid them up my legs. These made my ass look great! They defined every curve around my waist, thighs and down my calves.
I looked outside; it wasn't raining, so that was a good sign. I checked the weather on my phone and it didn't seem as I would need a thick coat today. I dug into the side where all my blouses and shirts were when my eyes finally rested on my Burberry London exploded check taffeta blouse.
Oh, how I love designer clothing!
Once I was fully dressed to the nines, I made my way to the bathroom; blow drying and curling my hair. I let it down in loose curls as usual. I applied a little blush, some eye liner and a light pink lip gloss. I padded back to my room and slipped on my simple Louboutin gozul crystal covered flats.
As I made my way downstairs I noticed Charlie was already gone; I guess he had an early shift this morning too. It felt like I hadn't seen him in forever.
I knew I didn't want to be alone today so I decided I'd skip school altogether. I needed to talk to someone, bad. The one person that came to mind that I thought would be available was Renee, my mother.
Now that I thought about it, I hadn't spoken to her in over a month even though I was always receiving packages with designer duds from her excursions and she'd send me an email here and there. It was odd she never has even tried to call me.
That uneasy feeling crept back up my spine. I shivered.
I figured I'd try calling her. I took my cell phone out of my Birken bag and scrolled through my contact list until I found Renee's number. I pressed the little green button and waited for the ring.
It went straight to her voicemail.
"Hey, you've reached Renee. I can't take your call right now so please leave your name, number and a brief message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can."
Beep!
I rolled my eyes. "Hey Renee, it's me; Bella Swan. Remember me? Yeah, you're daughter. Well, it's been over a month since we've spoken. Call me right away when you get this or I'll fly my ass to Germany to come find you." I giggled as I hung up the phone.
I gazed around the empty living as I stood there. I threw my phone back in my purse and grabbed my keys.
I contemplated what I should do for the day. I couldn't resist it anymore. I made up my mind and was determined to go see the one person who I knew would make my whole day better; hell, he'd make me better.
My body was aching to feel his touch again, my ears longed to hear his deep voice and my eyes craved the sight of his beautiful body. When we were together, somehow I felt euphorically amazing. He gave me the fix to satiate my obsession, the object of him. My body felt the withdrawal when he wasn't with me; he consumed every one of my thoughts now. I needed Jacob Black like a drug that I wasn't willing to give up, ever.
J.P.O.V
Filthy fucking leeches!
My body was in excruciating pain, everywhere. I rolled over onto my side trying not to agitate the parts that were hurting. All of this shit because of some filthy fucking blond leeches that sank their Dracula fangs in me.
Sam should have let me finish those fuckers off. God had mercy on them apparently, even as fucking bloodsuckers.
I slid my body up so that my back was resting against the head board. I sighed.
"I DON'T WANT TO BE IN THIS FUCKING HOUSE ALL WEEK," I growled out into the living room.
Emily appeared in front of the door standing in the hall way, a dish towel in her hand, "Jake you need to calm down. Sam just wants to help. He thinks it's best if you stay here until you feel better."
"You have to agree with Sam because you're his wife," I hissed. "I'm not staying here. I need to get back to my own life."
"This is your life and right now, you're sick. The venom is in your blood stream. We have no idea what that could do to a werewolf. You have to stay here until we can assure you're fine."
A low growl rumbled through my chest.
Thank you Mother fucking Theresa, you're not a doctor.
"I want out of this room," I demanded.
"Listen Jake, what if we bring Bella Swan here? Will that help to calm you down? Look, I know there's something going on between you two. Sam mentioned he could smell her scent all over you earlier. If her presence here helps in any way to soothe you, then so be it. Besides, I really don't understand why you don't just tell her already."
"Whatever I do with whomever I choose is none of your God damn business, Emily. It's no one's fucking business. I'm sick and tired of everyone trying to tell me what to do already. I'm fucking sick of the animal I have become that controls me now. I feel like a fucking caged animal in my own skin. I don't want to fucking deal with this shit anymore."
Emily rolled her eyes, "Listen Jacob, do you want to leave? Go ahead; there's the door." She waved her hand towards the living room.
"Who you are is never going to change now. You should be grateful you're not going through this alone like Sam had to. You may have issues with the way Sam runs the pack as Alpha but he has all of your guy's best interest at heart. You know that." She said exasperated. "So settle down now and if it will shut you up, I'll have Sam bring Bella here."
She turned from the doorway and walked back to the living room but not before she threw the dish towel she was holding at me. I caught it and threw it back towards the door at the air.
Sam appeared through the bedroom door, "No need for me to get Bella, Emily," he said as she walked past him. "It looks like she's really his Imprint. She's here on her own." He said looking at me with a tight smile.
My eyes narrowed and glanced in his direction, "Where is she?" I asked.
"She's in the living room. I'll send her in."
I nodded and he left. I could hear Emily whispering something like, "I can't deal with his shitty attitude all week!"
Well, screw you Emily. Screw you.
I tried to reposition my body along the bed, trying to make it look like I wasn't hurt or in so much pain. The fucking truth was that I was in excruciating pain. This shit burned. The fucking unholy shit that came out of those leeches' fangs felt like it was burning my soul down to hell.
I heard her footsteps coming down the hall. As I looked up I saw her beautiful chocolate brown eyes. Bella appeared leaning against the doorway, her arms crossed; looking sexy as fuck.
The scent of strawberries and vanilla assaulted my senses in a pleasant aroma.
She took in my expression and smiled. Her eyes looked relieved at the sight of me. We both stared at each other for a moment in silence.
Her eyes trailed down my body and it was then that I realized I was only in my boxer-briefs. The dark crimson rose under my cheeks. I blushed. I fucking blushed.
I smiled sheepishly at her.
Bella quirked the side of her lips up. She bit her bottom lip as she stared intently at me.
I indulged in the form fitting clothes she was wearing. The tan, black and white plaid quarter sleeve blouse hugged her torso in all the right places, showing her chest slightly as the buttons weren't buttoned up all the way. And God damn, those black skin tight pants she was wearing were looking like barely any material was on her! Her brown locks of long curls were beautiful hanging against her face and down her shoulders.
I've never seen a creature more beautiful than the goddess standing before me. Hell, she would have still been sexy if she was wearing greasy sweat pants and a wife beater.
As my eyes rose back up to her face, I noticed her eyes were slightly puffy and red. I could have sworn it looked like she'd been crying. I wondered why. Could she have been crying because of me? I hoped she wasn't mad at me.
She broke the silence then, "Hey Jake," she breathed out.
"Hey," I said with a smile on my face as I scooted over and patted the spot on the bed beside me.
Bella walked over to the bed and put a strand of hair behind her ear as she sat on the edge, quite a distance from me. I wanted her to sit right next to me, where our shoulders were almost touching. I let it go though. I would just deal with it at this moment. Maybe she wasn't comfortable being around me still.
She was fidgeting with her fingers looking down, "They told me that you're sick. Are you really sick, Jake? Or are you just avoiding me?" She had a sad smile on her face, "If you're avoiding me, I understand. I would just rather you…."
I interrupted her before I had to listen to her ramble on about something that didn't even have the slightest truth to it.
"I am sick, Bella. And no, I'm not avoiding you. I did want to call you but I didn't have your number. I also thought you probably didn't want to hear from me." I sighed, leaning my head against the head board, closing me eyes. "Look, that…that night, when I dropped you off, it just seemed as if you regretted what happened between us."
She looked up at me, her eyebrows furrowed together as she bit on her lip, "I don't regret being with you. I just felt bad taking advantage of you."
I chuckled, "I didn't exactly tell you to stop, Bells."
She sighed, "I know but I shouldn't have been so forward. I just need to control myself. I don't know what came over me."
"Bella…"
"No, let me finish Jake. If you are avoiding me, I…."
Okay Bells, we're done having this conversation.
As much pain as I was in, it wouldn't hinder me from putting her mind at ease. I scooted closer to her and pulled her into my arms and kissed her gently on those perfect pink pouty lips.
She sighed and moaned in contentment under my lips. Hearing that made me heart burst with happiness. Bella wanted me just as much as I needed her. I think being away from each other for more than twenty-four hours made her realize how emotionally invested she was in us.
I gently pulled away from the kiss.
I looked into her chocolate brown eyes under those thick lashes as I cupped her cheek, "I'm not avoiding you."
"Okay," she sighed with a dreamy look on her face.
We sat there in silence for a few moments before she spoke again.
"Why is everyone sick? First it's Edward and now you." she looked at me perplexed.
What?
"What?" I asked confused.
"Well, I spoke with Alice the other day and she said her brother caught some weird virus while they were on their trip to Alaska. Then she sent me a text early this morning and told me to stay away from her and her family until things calmed down. I guess it's a pretty contagious virus." She shrugged.
So, Edward Cullen turns up sick? With my luck he's probably a fucking leech. At least it'll give me an excuse to rip that motherfucker to pieces for flirting with Bella so openly.
"Oh, well I'm sure I don't have what he caught."
"Oh. Well that's good then. So my being here won't be an issue." She smiled.
"No, not all," I smiled back at her, "but we do need to talk."
She looked up at me confused, a flicker of panic crossed her face but she composed herself quickly, "Sure, about what?"
"Bella, there's something I need to tell you. There are things about me you should know."
She gave me a worried look but was almost amused, "You're not a serial killer are you?" her lips turning upwards.
I laughed. "No Bella, I'm not a serial killer. I am something else though."
"Oh? What is it Jake? You can tell me anything." She said sincerely now with her brows furrowed together, curiosity painting her face.
I sighed. "Bella, I'm, I'm… a werewolf." I exhaled with almost a pained expression on my face.
She laughed.
Talk about insulting. I guess I'm a real stand up kind of guy.
Bella took my hand in hers, "Oh wonderful, Jacob the werewolf and I'm Bella the tooth fairy. What kind of drugs are they giving you Jake?" She chuckled shaking her head.
"Bella, I'm being serious." I squeezed her hand lightly.
She looked into my eyes contemplating the seriousness of what I was trying to tell her. Her eyes then went wide as saucers as she searched my face trying to find any humor in it.
I think she was waiting for me to jump up and say, 'just kidding!'
She bit her lip nervously, her expression changed to pensiveness as it seemed the reality of it all finally hit her.
"So….you're a…werewolf? Can you explain to me how that's possible?"
