AN-it has been a long time since I uploded a chapter, I'm not sure if people are even still reading this story but my muse arrived today so here is another chapter.


As much as she had tried to fight her feelings she now felt for Sirius Black she couldn't help herself. He and James had stayed through Christmas, but even the few days from the day they left until they all met up at Hogwarts again seemed to last an eternity. She didn't want to admit it, but no matter what she said or how she acted Lilly could tell she wanted to see Sirius again. The way she smiled, the way she blushed the way she avoided eye contact when ever his name was mentioned were dead give a ways that Seneca had feelings for the Gryffindor play boy.

She pretended she didn't care when she would see him as she and Lilly stepped onto the train and walked to an open compartment. Lilly talked about James and how excited she was to get back and see everyone again, she even mentioned her Slytherian friend that Seneca didn't care for. She tried to listen to Lilly, but her eyes were on the door waiting for the boys to burst in like they always did. Hardly taking notice anything of anything Lilly was saying. Her mind was on one thing and one thing alone and that was him.

Her heart seemed to stop beating as the door opened, it reveled James with the other boys behind him. He went strait to Lilly and kissed her without even saying hello, just simply a big grin on his face as his messy hair bounced on his head as he embraced his girl and kissed her. Seneca looked to the other boys with a smile on her face, but it fell when she realized that only Remus and Peter now walked in shutting the door behind them. The two boys sat down next to her as Lilly and James broke away from each other. Lilly looked at Remus and Peter like Seneca she let her smile fall when Sirius wasn't there.

"Where's Sirius?" Lilly asked turning to James, knowing Seneca wouldn't ask the question so she knew it was up to her to find out.

"Um he's, er" James seemed to be looking for words when Peter spoke,

"He's with Annie Hale, you know that hot Ravineclaw, he helped her with her trunk and then she flirted with each other then went into a compartment just to two of them." Peter wished as he spoke that he could be in Sirius's place, being alone with a girl, doing what ever he wanted, but no girls seemed to go after him that way. He was interrupted from his thoughts when James kicked him. "Ow!" Peter cried out "What was that for?"
"Nothing" James mumbled, but knowing all to well that with Peter's outburst anywhere Sirius had gotten with Seneca over winter brake now came to a crashing halt. He knew Sirius would be angry later when he found out they had let his whereabouts slip.

The door swung open once more as Sirius walked in with a huge smile on his face,

"Here you guys are I've been looking all over for you." He walked over to Seneca and sat down next to her pushing Peter out of the way, "I missed you." He whispered to her, but to his surprise she didn't smile, in fact she seemed more repulsed by him then anything else.

"Get your arm off of me." She snapped "and don't even try and talk to me." She stood up and sat down next to Lilly leaving an all to surprised Sirius sitting in between Remus and Peter.

"What has gotten into you, last I knew we were on good terms?"

"Yes, but that was over a week ago." Seneca said "and I'm back to thinking you are nothing more then an egomaniac who doesn't think with his upstairs brain." Seneca said looking him strait in the eye. Everyone else was quiet as they waited to see how the event unfolded. Lilly felt bad for Seneca, the girl had tried so hard to fight any kind of feelings for Sirius and now here she was heartbroken by the man she tried to deny for so long. It angered Lilly, after all Sirius promised not to hurt Seneca and here he was right after he had been with another girl pretending like Seneca was the crazy one for not wanting him near her.

"What do you mea-" he stopped as he realized one of the guys let it slip where he just was, he hadn't been thinking with his brain when he went off with Annie, his mind had been clouded for he hadn't been with a girl in two months, and for him ever since he reached the age he could have sex he had never gone that long before. Annie was hot and she was easy she wanted him and he had just wanted a girl, but now he regretted it, he regretted that Seneca knew.

"I'm going for a walk." Seneca said when Sirius still said nothing

"Do you want me to go with you?" Lilly asked knowing her friend was upset

"No, please Lilly stay I just want to clear my head." Seneca stood and walked out of the compartment closing the door behind her.

"Did I miss something?" Peter asked he was always last to find out about everything, but this time he wasn't alone Remus as well was confused.

"I'm with Peter, why is Seneca upset?" Remus asked as his shaggy brown hair fell in front of his tired eyes.

"She's upset because of your man whore of a friend." Lilly sighed

"What?" Remus asked "Sirius? You can't be serious" Remus looked over at his friend, he had never let anyone in the group know but he had liked Seneca, he had hoped Sirius's fascination with her ended soon so he could perhaps see if she liked him. He hadn't thought of her as the type of girl to fall for his friend's tricks. "What did you do to hurt her?" he said letting his anger get slightly the better of him.

"Nothing I did nothing." Sirius argued, "she's just mental that one."

"Mental?" Lilly said "Mental?" slightly angrier now. James had only heard Lilly angry once and that had been when she yelled at Snivelles she hadn't been someone he wanted to mess with and now she seemed to be getting just as angry as she had the day she yelled at her ex best friend. "Mental? She has every right to be upset after you had her fall for you, after everything you did, protecting her, dancing with her, saying lines such as this is paradise and then just go off and shag another girl like this Christmas meant nothing to you?" Lilly glared at Sirius "I don't believe she is the mental one Sirius Black, I believe it is you throwing away something you could have had with her, something great just so you could have a romp in a compartment that means nothing. It just shows how little you are and how right she had been all along."

Sirius didn't say a word to Lilly, as he knew she was right, he had messed up for only a little while of pleasure. Had he really given up something great with Seneca, but in truth he never wanted her to find out. Was it to late to try and win her over even after he had hurt her? His mind flashed to the night they had danced together, when he had kissed her. She had been the first girl he had just kissed without pushing for more. Something about her made him want to do everything just right and the simple kiss they had shared, the simple moment had been perfect even for him. He had been content just kissing her nothing reaching for more he had known he was lucky just getting the chance to touch his lips on hers, but now he feared he would never get that chance again all because he went for shag that meant nothing to him, it hadn't even been all that great. He leaned back in his seat for a moment not sure if he should give up on her or perhaps try all over again to win her over. His mind played over their kiss again and again and more then anything he wanted to recreate that, he wanted to hold her in his arms again and never let go.


Seneca walked around the isles of the train, how had she been so stupid? How had she let herself fall for his game? All he had wanted to do was prove he could get her and once he had her he would go after someone else. She didn't know if she yet had the right to be upset, after all they had just kissed she had let herself get wrapped up in the idea of him rather then the reality of him. Why had she been so stupid? She had really believed that Sirius Black was interested in her.

"Sen." Came a voice from behind her, she knew the voice to well, it was the voice of the man that upset her.

"Don't cal me that Sirius" Seneca said as she continued to walk forward without looking back at him.

"Please stop walking and talk to me." He told her as he hurried to catch up to her, he needed to talk to her, he needed to get her to forgive him.

"I will not stop and I will not talk, Sirius there is nothing to talk about." She wondered if perhaps she had imagined the whole thing perhaps she just made what happened over the break into something it wasn't.

"Well soon you are going to run out of train and will have to talk to me." Sirius told her hoping this would make her stop, he was right. Seneca spun around her eyes angry and hurt.

"Leave me be!" she almost yelled at him causing people in open compartments look at them, "Just leave me be!"

"Listen I'm sorry about what I did, I really am, but you can't expect me to change who I am so quickly, I'm not the type to be tied down by one girl." As the words left his mouth he knew he should of said something better, he knew he shouldn't of expressed a relationship as tied down. He tried to recover and spoke quickly again. "We just shouldn't tell anyone about what's happening between us and still lead our normal lives."

"I'm being silly." Seneca said after staring at him a few moments, "That night wasn't anything was it, just a simple laps of judgment." She sighed "I shouldn't of gotten upset with you Sirius."

"Right" he said unsure of exactly what she was saying.

"After all it meant nothing we aren't anything to each other, you are still the arrogant show off you have always been, and I am the book worm who isn't good at anything, it was simple my fault for allowing myself to think that we were anything more then that." She pushed past him, "Now if you please I must go."

"Seneca!" he called out after her, but she didn't stop, if anything she sped up to where Lilly was, she didn't want to talk to him any longer as she tried to hide the tears in her eyes. She had been right, she and imagined that anything special had happened with him. He had only kissed her that night because she was the only girl around and he had simple been bored.

As she reached where Lily was sitting she wiped away tears and entered. James, Peter, and Remus were still sitting in with Lily and all stopped talking when she entered. Without saying a word she walked over to the seat next to the window and sat down, she looked out the window without making eye contact with anyone, not even Lily. Shortly after she entered Sirius entered as well, he took one look of the lot looking at him and while he sat he mumbled,

"What are you all looking at?"

"Is everything alright?" Lily asked, not sure, which once she was asking hoping at least one or the other would answer. Neither did. The rest of the ride to the castle was quiet, James and Lily tried to start up conversations but being Remus never talked much and Peter babbled about nothing the conversations didn't stay long. Sirius watched Seneca while Seneca watched the window. Either she didn't know she was being watched or she was simply ignoring it.


Sirius hoped in the next few days that he would be able to talk to Seneca again, this time with rehearsed words, but he never got the chance to be alone with her, either she was walking with Lily and ignoring him or she was locked away in the girls dormitory studying.

He was sitting in the common room a little over a week since the train ride waiting for James about to give up on trying to speak to the girl when he heard footsteps walking in. Looking up he expected to see James, but instead he heard a voice then saw her face.

"Lily I told you I don't like to wonder around here alone or that git will corner me and talk-" she stopped when she saw him, "Great" she mumbled

"Seneca" He said with a smile, "Wait" he hurried up to her as she was about to turn around, he blocked her from going back up the stairs. "Please just listen to me, everything I did and said on the train was wrong, I'm new at this, please just listen."

"Listen to what Sirius? I don't have time for your games!" She folded her arms and looked more annoyed then anything else, "Now move!"

"No I'm not going to move until you listen to me, until you hear me out!" Sirius didn't wait for her to argue he began speaking again when he saw her mouth move to say more, but he wanted to avoid her yelling at him. "I've never felt this way before the way I feel about you, I've never actually wanted to be with one girl to actually date." He paused for a moment looking into her eyes, "Seneca your different I don't want to play games with you, I don't want to be with a new girl everyday I want something like James and Lily have, with you. I want to wake up every morning knowing that I get to spend it with you!"

Seneca didn't know what to say she didn't know what to think. Could he really be telling the truth, then again this could all be a game. Why would Sirius Black want her? He was everything a guy should be, strong, handsome, smart and what was she? She couldn't fight off anyone, she wasn't beautiful, and she was far from smart. The only reason she got good grades was because she studied for hours and hours on end because her only friend was Lily. Sirius was the type ever guy wanted to be and ever girl wanted to be with, she was simply the girl everyone avoided.

"Sen, if you are listening to what I am saying, I want more nights like the one when we danced and I kissed you, I just want to be able to do that when ever we want, I want to be the guy that looks out for you makes sure you are safe, in short I want you to be my girl Seneca, I want you to be my girl friend."

"I um" Seneca couldn't argue with him his eyes seemed to be telling the truth, she couldn't find her want to be with him, "I want to be your girlfriend." She said softly slightly cursing herself for being so easy to forgive.

"So will you forgive me?" he asked hopefully "And be my girl."

"No" Seneca said, "I won't forgive you at least not fully, not yet what you did hurt me, I thought we connected over the break-"

"We Did Sen that's what I'm trying to tell you, please I swear I haven't been with a girl since the train and I won't be with another girl ever!"

"That is unrealistic even if I become your girlfriend Sirius hardly anyone that dates during school ends up together forever." Seneca said to him

"I speak the truth Seneca Mars you are the only girl for me, and for as long as I life you are the only girl I ever want to be with." He spoke the truth, all he wanted was she, all he wanted was to have her be his.

" You interrupted me before when I said I wouldn't fully forgive you, what I was about to say was I don't fully trust you, but I do want to be your girlfriend Sirius." She looked at him a smile starting to fight off her frown.

"You do?" he asked, but then smiled, "You Do." He said as he looked at her, "Then its settled, you are my girl."

"for now." Seneca said, "Until you mess it up."

"I believe me, I won't" He said "Not now not ever." He leaned forward and kissed her softly hoping that she would kiss him back, he happily met her lips and she didn't pull away she kissed him back.


From under his invisibility cloth James stood with Lily the to looked at each other and smiled, they had set up the meeting of their friends, they had hoped that Sirius would corner Seneca and the two could talk. James knew that Sirius wanted to be with Seneca and he promised that he wasn't fooling around, and by the way Seneca moped around Lily knew she wanted to be with Sirius she was just to stubborn to do so. When Sirius and Seneca walked away to the great hall to get some dinner they pulled the cloak off,

"So when can I start making fun of Sirius for some of the corny stuff he said?" James asked Lily

"Never!" she said to him frowning, "Plus how would you remember half of it?" she never understood why these boys always had to pick on each other.

"With this." He pulled out something that reminded Lily of a recording tape that she and Tuney used to play with as kids, he hit mumbled something and taped it with his wand and it began to repeat Sirius's words.

"James Potter don't you dare!" Lily told him "I seriously wonder why I'm with you most days!"

"Because you love me." He said with a cocky side ways smile

"Shut up" she mumbled as she playfully hit him in the arm, but she knew he spoke the truth, while he was a handful always getting in to trouble she couldn't stop herself from loving him, she couldn't stop herself from still blushing when he complemented her and she definitely couldn't stop her heart from skipping a few beats when he entered the room. "Let's just hope Sirius doesn't mess this up" Lily said to James.

"How do you know he will? Maybe Seneca will" James said knowing all to well if anything was going to go wrong in the new relationship if would more then likely be the fault of Sirius and not the girl.


AN- So what did you guys think? Should I continue or is this a flop, please Review and tell me what you think.