You Make Me Retch

The REAL Chapter Eight: Second Opinion

By: Maggiles

Authors Note: Hey guys. I'm verrrrrrry sorry for the long wait. I didn't put Bella in this one, because it would've been much to long, and I didn't think you'd mind. I had a dream a couple of nights ago about this story, and it's like a new fountain of inspiration. There won't be another month long wait I promise DD...and another thing. Am I the only one annoyed with the spacing of these chapters? Theres a new tab for every line! I didn't write the story this way, and it's annoying seeing it. Anyways, enjoy!

Edward

A deep sigh escaped my throat as I laid back against my bed, arms stretched out to either side of me, my eyes glued on the ceiling.

A strange feeling of anxiety washed over me as my thoughts went back to that girl.

In all of my experience, I knew that thinking too much on an action can make you feel regretful.

I knew that.

So why?

Why couldn't I stop myself from picturing her so helpless on the tree?

Why couldn't I stop...stop worrying about what happened to her when the guards came?

Was it the wisest decision?

The right one?

"Ughhhhh."

I moaned, rubbing my face using all the frustration inside of me. I got up from the bed and walked over to the mirror, taking a good long look at my reflection

Black eyes.

Tousled hair.

Teeth exposed.

I looked like I just came back from hell.

Turning on the faucet, cold water rushed out and I watched as it filled the sink to the brim. I didn't stop it when it overfilled. For some reason, it didn't feel important enough to turn off. I mean, what was the point? There was no use for saving a little water.

But then, it was as if something in my mind was screaming.

As if there was a different part of me yelling, 'There's something else that's worth saving, something you left to die on a tree.'

Snarling, I cupped my fingers into the sink, making sure to splash water on my face over and over again to help clear my mind.

What was wrong with me?

Why couldn't I find peace?

Why was it that every part of me was screaming to go back and save that girl?

She was nothing to me.

Nothing...so why?

Thinking back on it now, of course it was the right decision. If I hadn't left her, who KNOWS what would have happened otherwise.

...But I did know.

I knew all to well.

If I had not left her at that moment, I could not have resisted. She would've been sucked dry. Her fluids would be inside of me right now, pulsing through my body, her heat giving me a temporary sense of warmth. That's what would've happened.

Of course it was right. What other option did I have?

A few seconds passed and not a sound entered my room. All I could hear was the tick-tock of the clock, my breath as my chest heaved up and down.

The wind blew gently, my window slowly opened, and a tiny pair of feet landed softly on the floor.

"You could've stayed with her you know." The voice chimed with a hint of annoyance. My head shot up.

Great. It was Alice.

Though I wonder why I was so surprised. Alice always had a habit of appearing out of nowhere. God knows our whole family was used to it by now.

She had always been my favorite sister, and when we spent time together it was the wonderful. But at the moment, she was the last person I wanted to see.

Frowning, I slumped my way to a chair, making sure not to make eye contact. "I don't know what you're talking about."

"Ohhh, but you do."

"I do? And allow me to take a stab in the dark as to how you came across my current situation. Spying again I resume?"

My eyes shifted to hers for a moment as she stuck out her lounge mockingly. I rolled my eyes.

"Well?" I asked, some acidity in my tone, "What do you know?"

A thrilled giggle escaped her throat as she pranced around to the seat next to me. She took my hand in hers, obviously excited.

"Oh...just about everything!" she sang, her smile ear to ear.

"Care to elaborate?"

She took a deep breath. "Well...I was in the pantry with Jasper-he and I were daring each other to eat some pie- when a vision suddenly struck me. I saw you and that girl in the garden...fighting each other."

She paused at this, giving me a look of vain disapproval. "Really Edward, I agree she is quite the clever little mortal, but you should've been able to handle the situation far better then you did."

My eyes widened.

It was like a slap to the face.

As if she was mocking my self control!

I snarled. "Alice, she was different...I can't explain. Her scent was...powerful. Dangerously so. I could never describe the sheer pain of being next to her, let alone her touching me-"

"La tua cantante."

"...what?"

"She must be your La tua cantante."

"...I'm sorry?"

Alice sighed and gave me a dry look.

"Really Edward, do you even try to learn some of your history? Instead of prancing around the kingdom like some kind of thief, it would do you WONDERS to go to the study and-"

"Instead of going to the study, why don't you save me time and explain to me what an Avine is."

Alice scoffed. "Save you time? Edward, you have an infinite amount of time. There really is no hurry-"

"Alice..."

"Alright, alright. It's said that every vampire in this world has a mortal just for them. Quite fascinating, actually. Someone who is, perhaps, hundreds of thousands times more appealing than anyone else they will ever encounter... Though, it is very rare to find them-I mean, humans reproduce at ridiculous rates..."

Alice continued her little speech, but I didn't hear the rest. It was as if something powerful had just struck me in the head.

It all made sense.

So she...she wasn't a devil. Not at all.

But she WAS different.

She was my La tua cantante.

The one mortal in the world who could make me lose control.

I almost laughed with relief. So it wasn't me who changed. I still have control...just not around her.

...Yet...

My attention refocused on Alice who was still chattering away about avines and stories when I suddenly grabbed her arm. She stopped, giving me a look pure irritation.

"I'm getting quite tired with you cutting me off all the time." she snapped.

"Alice." I breathed, making full eye contact. "Do these cantantes...do they have...some sort of bewitchment abilities?"

I could see the look of confusion in her eyes as she narrowed them suspiciously. "Not that I know of...why? Do you think you're bewitched?"

"I'm not sure."

"Explain to me."

"...Well... When I'm around her, all I want to do is have her. Her blood is...unresistable. But somehow, I managed to get away from her-"

"By tying her to a tree of all things..."

"-But now that she's gone from me, all I can think about is her. Her scent, her blood, her face...her eyes...her lips...everything."

Silence engulfed us both as we tried to make sense of what was happening to me. Even though I would never admit it, having Alice here had made me feel much better about what had happened.. Centuries old and this girl had turned my life upside down in but a few hours. She was worth trying to figure out.

Alice shot out and grabbed my hand, making me jump in surprise at her sudden touch. Had she figured it out?

I waited patiently as she cleared her throat. "It seems to me, Edward, that what you have is much more then a simple La tua cantante attraction."

My eyebrows rose.

"...what do you mean?"

"I mean that cantantes are not always what you expect. For example, MY cantante could be an eighty-year-old grandmother of five. Jaspers cantante could be a little two-day-old boy. You just got lucky to find yours to be close to your 'age' and of the opposite sex."

"...I'm afraid I still don't see your point."

"Edward" she moaned, "...must I spell it out for you? For the first time in your 200 years, you are PHYSICALLY attracted to someone... a MORTAL no less!"

I inhaled sharply as Alice began to roar with laughter. What...?

That wasn't possible.

There was no practical way that that would ever happen.

I had control.

I used to roll my eyes at mortals and their raging hormones. How was it...?

"Oh Edward!" Alice choked, eyes watering, "I never thought I'd see the day my stubborn, spoiled, older brother would find love...with a HUMAN!!" she fell back into the chair, holding her sides, in obvious hysterics.

This was humiliating.

And not true in the least.

There was no feasible way I could look at that devil like that. I HATED her.

We weren't even the same SPECIES!

As I opened my mouth to protest, it was as if for a sheer moment Alice had read my mind.

"I know what you're thinking Edward" she giggled, "...but remember: We were ALL humans once!"

At that note, another wave of laughter washed over her as she shook uncontrollably.

My eyes narrowed. "If you're done laughing at your false testimony, then please leave to where you came from. Jasper must be lonely."

My attempt at a threat didn't seem to weaken her, as she didn't change her state at the least. But finally, moments of laughter soon quieted down to a small giggle. Alice wiped her eyes with a huge smile on her face.

"Maybe you're right." she chimed, "Jasper must be wondering where I've escaped too...though if I tell him why, surely he'd forgive me."

My eyes grew large as I began to panic.

If Alice told Jasper, there was no doubt it would reach Emmet. And if that happened, utter humiliation for the next couple of centuries.

To be physically attracted to...to a HUMAN...nothing was more shameful.

I quickly opened my mouth in objection, but she held up her hand to quite me down. "Don't worry Edward." she smiled, " I won't tell anyone. But let me ask you this: When you had her on the ground and you began caressing and touching her, did you feel an arousal in your lower half?"

I gulped.

What kind of question was that?

But...

Slowly, I moved my eyes past my shirt and made my way down to my pants. How...how did she?

"HAHAHAHAHA!!"

Booming laughter bounced off the walls as Alice giggled all the way to the window. She grabbed the porch and looked back at me, her face distorted in humor.

"Let me leave you with this Edward: Your cantante should do nothing more than make you unable to resist her blood. Once you feel the need to take pleasure in her BODY as well...then you've got more then a cantante. You've got a future mistress."

A strange feeling of embarrassment washed over me, and I wanted nothing more then to dissapear under the floor.

I had never been so vulnerable in my life then right now in this room.

Alice broke the silence.

"And another thing. If your heart does nothing but pine for her, you will never be able to kill her... if that's what your worried about. Vampires are very selfish in nature Edward. We won't kill what we want to keep. You still have time to save her... Though, if you don't act fast, that opportunity will diminish into nothing but a faint memory."

On that note, Alice jumped out, dissapearing into the gardens below. I walked over, briefly looking for any trail, any proof that she had been here at all.

Dazed, I walked back to my bed, sitting down and glancing at the clock. Three more hours and my fate would be sealed.

"If your heart does nothing but pine for her, you will never be able to kill her."

Alice's words seemed to echo back and forth inside my mind. Maybe...maybe I could save her. If I left right now...there would still be time...

No.

I couldn't go back to her.

I could never see her again.

It was for the better, for the both of us.

A deep groan escaped my throat as I rolled over, thoughts and regrets filling my conscious.

"Alice you fool..." I cursed bitterly, "How long until you understand? Vampires don't have hearts."