Enveloped in a warm fuzzy feeling all evening, she kept glancing at the polaroid of her and Maggie and smiling, reliving the whole day in her mind on repeat. Nothing could bring her down today - not after sharing such a personal part of her life with someone and actually enjoying it. Alex had always been an incredibly secretive person - her friends didn't know much about her thoughts or feelings, only the outside appearance she presented to the world. It was such a relief to open up to someone and have them understand you completely.

Lying awake at night, she wondered why she felt so vulnerable in front of Maggie. Whenever they were together, Alex felt at ease and had no trouble with expressing herself in front of the shorter girl. They had a mutual understanding, somehow - that both of them knew each other's limits and boundaries, unspoken yet not unknown. In the short space of a week, Maggie had discovered Alex's past, her most troublesome thoughts, and her most private, which made Alex realise that she didn't know anything about the other girl. Apart from her life in National City, and brief mentions of family, Maggie was a somewhat mystery to her - a girl who used humour and sarcasm to protect herself. Or maybe that's just who she is, Alex thought. Don't be stupid. You can be funny and interesting at the same time.

Alex's mind flashed back to the morning she'd met Maggie at the beach - she remembered seeing flashes of sadness on the dark haired girls' face occasionally, and when asked why she'd come to the beach to clear her mind, Maggie had prefered not to say. Alex thought about what might have upset the girl, but couldn't find an answer. She began to feel slightly guilty - Maggie had been so supportive towards her since that morning. She got me that camera , Alex thought. I'm going to be a better friend to her, she vowed to herself as she drifted off to sleep.

The next morning was spent with family- the Danvers took a trip across the lake for a morning at the beach. Alex enjoyed the quality time with her family, hearing Kara openly talk about Lena and the family chatting about everyday topics.

'So what's put you in such a good mood lately?' Eliza asked Alex, who was drawing hearts absent mindedly in the sand.

'What do you mean?' Alex replied with a smile.

'Well, you're happier than I've ever seen you.' Eliza stated, making Kara glance in Alex's direction with a slight glint of hope in her eye.

'You know I love coming here.' Alex stumbled slightly with her words, hating how the attention was now on interrogating her. Yes, she was happier than usual, but she usually was on holiday and thought there wasn't anything different with her behaviour.

Eliza abandoned the subject once she'd understood Alex's reluctance to talk about it and decided to change the subject.

'Is Winn still seeing that Siobhan girl?'

'No, they broke up ages ago.' Kara replied, making Eliza sigh with relief.

'Good, I didn't like her one bit. Winn is such a sweet boy, he could do so much better than her.' she replied fondly.

'Well,' Kara began, glancing sideways at Alex as if to catch her reaction, 'He's thinking about asking Maggie out tomorrow at Alex's party.' she continued, her gaze still on Alex who had now turned her attention to the conversation.

'He's what?' Alex stuttered with shock. She had remembered James telling her that Winn liked Maggie, but had no idea he was actually being serious.

'He's going to ask her out.' Kara repeated, examining the look on her sister's face attentively.

Alex was slightly lost for words. There was no denying Winn was a lovely boy, but Alex couldn't help but feel defensive that he wanted to ask out her friend. Alex imagined Maggie and Winn together, and felt a slight uneasy feeling come upon her.

'D-d'you think she'll say yes?' Alex asked curiously, inexplicably concerned about this piece of gossip.

Kara smirked.

'I don't know.' was all she replied. A flood of thoughts overcame Alex - she loved spending time with Maggie. She should be happy at the thought of her being happy with Winn, but somehow felt like her new friend was going to be ripped away from her. Alex knew she had a special connection with the girl, something unlike any friendship she'd had before, and the risk of losing Maggie to Winn made her heart drop in her chest.

Alex was silent throughout most of the morning after that conversation. She was trying to convince herself to be happy about it but just couldn't seem to. Alex had thought of herself as a bad friend - her jealousy was affecting her more than her desire to see Maggie happy and couldn't bare to think about it anymore. She spent the rest of the morning reading silently and trying desperately to clear her mind of any negative thoughts.

That afternoon, the girls had plans to go to the Crab Shack for a lemonade, but Alex felt the strong desire to cancel.

'Kara, I don't feel like going today.' she muttered as her sister came into her bedroom. She saw Kara smile an understanding smile and sad herself down on Alex's bed.

'Look, if this is because of what I said-'

'It's not.'

'Alex…'

Alex sighed. There was never any use in lying to Kara, she always knew when Alex was telling the truth.

'Fine. Look, I just don't want to lose Maggie as a friend.' she stated grumpily. Kara smiled again and listened to Alex as she had explained her connection with the girl and how it stood out from the rest of her friendships.

'I think you need do some thinking about this.' Kara said simply. 'About why you feel the way you do.' she continued.

Alex rolled her eyes. 'I have, and I'm just being selfish, I don't want to lose her to a relationship and I can't help but feel that way. I'll get over it.' Alex replied. She couldn't help what happened between Maggie and Winn, and told herself regularly throughout the rest of the morning that if she was to be a good friend to Maggie, she had to learn to cope. It couldn't be that bad , she thought.

After finally giving in to Kara's pleading, Alex finally agreed to going to the Crab Shack to see the group. It was now two o'clock, and the girls were greeted warmly as always by their friends.

'Hey you two.' Lucy greeted. 'Get up to much today?'

'Beach and gossip with mom.' Kara said humorously with a nod towards Winn. Alex felt sick.

'Ahh, so you have heard. Pretty much everyone knows except Maggie herself. She'll find out tomorrow though. Or today, depending on if Winn has the balls to ask a girl out without being drunk.' Lucy said in a hushed voice, trying not to be overheard by Maggie.

Alex had decided to distract herself and talk to Maggie instead of hearing all the rumours about her from everybody else.

'Sup Danvers.' she said with her usual smile.

'Not much. Kinda hungry.' Alex replied casually, taking a seat on the bench next to Maggie.

'Me too, actually. Fancy getting some food with me?' she suggested.

'What, now?'

'Yeah, there's that sixties looking gas station right next door and they sell some food I think. You up for it?' Maggie asked, glancing at Alex who looked slightly confused.

'Uh, we're at the Crab Shack, they do food here.' Alex replied matter-of-factly. Maggie stuck her tongue out and spoke.

'Yeah, I know. I'm not stupid, you don't want to be here so I'm offering you a chance to get away for a while. Unless the reason you don't want to be here is me.' Maggie added quickly with a laugh.

'How do you manage to read my mind? I can't stand the sight of you.' Alex joked. 'You're right, though. I kind of want to go for a walk or something. Can we?' she asked.

'You don't have to ask me twice. Let's beat it.' Maggie said decisively as she leapt from the bench and dragged Alex by the arm.

'We're going to get some stuff from the gas station. Won't be long!' Maggie said quickly, hoping no one would have the chance to ask to tag along, and dragged Alex out of the Crab Shack.

Alex had felt the tension rise from her body once she'd left the Crab Shack with Maggie. It was clear all people wanted to discuss Winn's new found crush, and it was created an atmosphere neither Alex nor Maggie wanted to be a part of. Walking to the gas station in silence, the girls bought some sandwiches and proceeded to walk further down the road towards the beach. It was still daytime, however the clouds in the sky had given the impression of it being later, making the atmosphere rather gloomy.

'So what was eating you back there?' Maggie broke the silence, happily taking a bite out of her sandwich as she sat on a small sand dune.

Alex didn't want to tell Maggie the real reason why, in fear of a negative reaction, and took it upon herself to concoct a believable lie.

'I had another nightmare about my dad last night, so I'm still feeling a bit, uh...distraught.' Alex had said as she sat down next to Maggie, feeling bad for using her dad as an excuse for a lie.

Maggie gave Alex a sympathetic smile. The taller girl felt arms snake around her waist and felt her breath hitch in her throat. She looked at Maggie who was beckoning her for a hug. Alex leaned towards Maggie and rested her head on the other girl's shoulder. Alex felt Maggie's arm move to Alex's shoulder and felt her thumb slowly graze her skin. Alex lost all ability to think and sat there in Maggie's arms, feeling nothing but goosebumps and chills which shivered down her spine whenever Maggie moved.

They sat there for ten minutes, chatting about other things and taking their minds of the other people. Alex didn't know how, but Maggie had the ability to make her forget everything negative. Despite what she was feeling this morning, Alex felt safe in Maggie's arms - like all the bad in the world had completely vanished. Alex wished she could freeze time and stay like this forever. She thought of how lucky she was to have Maggie as a friend, someone who understood her, someone who had an unspeakable connection with her, and someone who managed to make everything seem okay. They sat there for a little longer, gazing out onto the sea where ships and ferries were passing calmly in the distance.

Not wanting to worry the crowd, and now feeling replenished, the girls headed back to the Crab Shack. They spent the afternoon chatting with friends, laughing and drinking, and Alex had forgotten completely how awful she had felt that morning.

As the sun began to set, the group decided to go their separate ways and head home. Kara and Lena kissed goodbye as Kara mounted her bike and began to ride off. Alex hadn't expected her sister to leave to abruptly and quickly mounted her own bike and began to follow without saying goodbye. As the girls were about to turn the corner away from the Shack, Alex looked back at the group and shouted a hasty 'Bye!' before she stopped in her tracks.

Winn and Maggie talking away from the group, alone, and deep in conversation. Alex felt her heart drop and kept pedalling. Winn was going to ask her tomorrow , she said to herself angrily. Why didn't he wait until tomorrow? Alex felt a sudden surge of emotion as the thought of Maggie leaving her flashed across her mind - and suddenly tears were trailing down her cheeks. She peddled faster, trying hard to stop herself from crying as she picked up speed, but only found herself to cry harder. Why am I crying? You're being ridiculous. Pull yourself together. It'll be okay. You'll still see her, and she'll still want to see you. Alex's mind was racing with thoughts and she couldn't quite make sense of them all. She arrived home way before Kara, parked her bike and sped off in the direction of her room, closed her door, and slumped on her bed.

It was only four o'clock, but Alex attempted to force herself to sleep to avoid thinking. She couldn't bare the thought of Maggie with Winn. She didn't know why, but the thought alone made her want to be sick. She didn't want to think about that anymore. She was sick of thinking about it. Burying herself in her book, Alex absent mindedly read through the pages, not actually taking in what it said, and spent the rest of the evening distracting herself from any thoughts. Once it was late enough, she took one of her mother's sleeping pills and fell asleep in a matter of minutes, desperately trying to escape the thoughts she couldn't bare to think of.

A/N: Alex being a jealous girlfriend without knowing she's being a jealous girlfriend. It'll click into place soon enough, I just don't want to rush anything :) Hope you enjoy this chapter! It's a brief chapter, delving into her feelings a bit, but it's setting up the scene for chapter 8.

Chapter 8 is Alex's party & shit goes down! Hopefully uploading that chapter tomorrow.

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Luna xo