New chapter. All mistakes are mine.
General's POV
"What happened?" asked Arizona with a trembling voice. Seeing her daughter lying on hospital's bed was enough to make her world spinning. Her heart kept on beating out of her chest.
"Well, that's easy. You happened." Callie answered the blonde's question with sarcasm. Even if she knew that her partner hates it.
After taking one deep breath in order to calm herself down, Arizona opened her mouth once again. "Seriously Callie, right now I'm just too tired to fight with you. So please, I'm begging you can you just tell me why my daughter is lying in the hospital's bed."
"That's new. Begging huh." Again, Callie decided to go with sarcasm. Her eyes still glaring at Arizona.
The pediatric surgeon took a few steps forward and stops when she was fully facing her wife. "Callie, please. I know that you're mad with me, but please, I need to know okay. Was Sofia hurt? What happened? And are you okay?"
After receiving no answer, Arizona held both of her palms up and gently cupped Callie's cheeks. She let her thumbs brushing Callie's face slightly. Callie spontaneously closed both of her eyes and let her body absorbed the sensation of Arizona's hands on her face. She missed the intimacy between Arizona and her. The word 'intimacy' somehow sparked the memories of Arizona and Lauren together and it made her stomach churned slowly. Deciding that she had enough, Callie finally took a step backward. Her body straightaway began to tense again.
"I can't you know. With you, I can't." It was Callie who broke the silent between them.
"You can't…with me? What do you mean Callie?" Arizona stated to feel confused. One minute she held the wife, the next minute her wife began to pull away.
Taking another step back, Callie took in a shallow breath. "Be here. Watching you and Lauren again.. I-I can't, it…it hurts too much."
"Again? What do you mean by again? Lau-Lauren and I… It was a mistake. You know that. I told you that." She thought that she had made it clear to Callie in the letter that whatever happened in that on call room was a big mistake. And it will never happen again.
Releasing a deep sigh, Callie finally found her courage. "I've been looking for you. I've read your letter. So I thought that-that I should go and try to find you. You know, to see if-if we can fix this, fix us. But apparently I was wrong. Obviously I was wrong."
Now even more confused than ever, Arizona tried to take a step toward the other woman, but Callie clearly didn't to be near her as she just took another step backward. "Callie, I told you that Lauren and I was a mistake. And I meant it. And-and you are not wrong. We-we can fix this. I will fix this. For us and for Sofia. All I need is one more chance."
Callie narrowed her gaze and her expression hardened as she glared at the blonde. She could feel her anger bubbling up just beneath the surface. "No. You know what Arizona. You blew your chance when you choose not to come home but to stay in our favourite hotel with that home-wrecker. You had your chance and you blew it."
Callie could clearly see the confusion written all over Arizona's face. So before the blonde could have said anything. She cut her off. "Ohh please Arizona. Don't you dare playing stupid with me. Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me. And yes, it indeed shame on me. I should've not been looking for you. I should've stay in the apartment. God, I'm-I'm so stupid. I dragged our daughter and promised her to find her Mama and now-now she's lying in hospital's bed."
"Calliope," the blonde started again. "I-"
"Don't 'Calliope' me," Callie quickly snapped. "It was you who did this. If you just keep yourself together and not fuck some slut that you barely knew, then, Sofia won't be here. In fact she will be sleeping in her bed. Like she always do every night. So it was your fault."
Arizona visibly shuddered at the word "slut" used by Callie. Dr. Lauren is a highly regarded professional, not some slut. So, for some reason, Arizona felt the need to defend her fellow doctor. "It was my mistake, so can you not dragging Lauren into this as well."
Callie's lips turned up in a sneer as she took a step closer. "Wow… Really Arizona, really. You choose to defend the honour of your fuck-buddy in front of your wife. Classy, just classy. Oh-oh, I have a better idea, maybe-maybe I should call you the slut instead. Would it be okay for you?"
*PANG*
Callie's POV
I brought my left hand to cup my throbbing cheek. The impact from the slap was enough to send me a few steps backward. Being slapped for the first time in 31 years was making me speechless. Even in my wildest dream, I could never imagine Arizona would raise her hand to me like that. To be honest, the throbbing on my cheek is nothing when it was being compared to the pain in my chest. I could almost feel my heart shattering into pieces. And there was nothing to stop it from happening. I reached my other hand up to cover my mouth as I turned away from the blonde, tears slipping from my control. I didn't want Arizona to see me cry. No, I didn't want to give Arizona the pleasure in seeing me cry because of her.
Arizona's POV
As soon as my right hand making a contact with Callie's cheek, I instantly regret it. I was a firm believer in solving problem with talk. Not with violent. What's happening to me? She's my wife and I just slapped her across the face so hard that it made my palm stinging. I promised her father that I would protect her from everything. Now, she needs a protection against me. Gosh, I need to fix this. Hesitating for a long moment, I started to reach out and touch her.
General's POV
"Don't touch me!" the brunette instantly snapped as she quickly jerked her arm from the blonde's grasp, whirling to face her. Fury was written all over Callie's face.
Betrayed. Humiliated. Disappointed.
"I was right you know, you're untrustworthy and you're self-centred. And yet, I still let you in my life again because I love you. And now look where it got me. All you did was hurting me again." The sudden outburst from Callie made Arizona glued to her place. She hated seeing Callie cry, and it hurt knowing she was the one causing that pain.
"I'm so sorry, Calliope." And she meant it. More than anything.
Another few moments of silence past. Arizona could sense herself getting impatient. So, she spoke again.
"Callie, I'm so-so sorry okay. It won't happen again."
"Yes, it won't. And Arizona. I don't want your sorry, I-I want a divorce." she answered softly. Not a hint of anger or hatred in her tone. "Now, can you get out from this room? I need some space where it won't have you in it. Please?"
Nodding her head, Arizona glanced down miserably, staring at the floor. "I'm sorry that I slapped you." she said quietly. She shoved both hands into the pockets of her jeans. Tried to hide them from her sight as if she was ashamed by the fact it was her hand that hurt her wife. "I will give you everything that you need. Even-even if it include some space and-and a divorce." It broke her heart to think about the word divorce, let alone say it.
Arizona took a few steps forward until she reached Sofia's side. Learning slightly, she kissed her daughter in the forehead. She turned her head a little and whispered the words "I love you".
Deciding that it was the time for her to go, she made her way to the door. With her hand touching the door knob, she turned around to find her wife's eyes, with a shaking voice; she said, "I love you, too."
A moment later, the door finally shut with a soft click.
Tears that Callie thought she'd already cried out once again stung behind her eyes. She didn't fight them back this time as she slowly made her way to Sofia. She need some contact tonight or she might go crazy. For once she was glad that Sofia was a heavy sleeper. She didn't need to see her moms were fighting. Looking down at Sofia's tiny body, she was glad that nothing happened to her. The accident only managed to shook her daughter up. Other than that, Sofia was fine. Leaving a trail of kisses on Sofia's face, Callie let herself getting comfortable nestling her side to Sofia. Physical and emotional abused left her body wore out.
AN: I used some dialogues from the show in this chapter, so the credit goes to the writers and Shonda.
AN: I like to think that Alex is Arizona's person and vice versa. So next chapter, you will have a lot of Alex and Arizona interaction.
