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Sorry for such the late update but from my last update I explained that I had a bit of writers block.. But I fixed it and I hope that you guys like this chapter. I'm surprisingly happy with this one but idk. Just let me know what you think.
Fair warning I wrote this chapter kind of differently … itwill probably be written like this throughout the rest of the story, it will be in character's Point of Views. I hope yall don't mind.
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{Demi's P.O.V}
A month has past. A month into the tour and I thought that since Selena and I were slowly becoming friends again, almost like before. Things were good. Well so I thought it was.
Throughout the month my feelings have return and increased deeply, the same feelings that for years since that tragic day I've fought to ignore and push away. It has become an hassle to ignore them but then again the past few days have been an hassle. Selena has become quiet and reserved. I have barely heard her speak two words when we're alone. In fact the only time I hear her voice is when she sings or she's in front of the media. The minute she steps foot onto the bus, she and her voice disappear and I'm worried. I don't know what I can do to help and it frustrate me to no end. I hate not being able to tell what's wrong with her and knowing exactly what to do fix it like I use to be able to do and it's all my fault.
"Um… hey."
I looked up from my phone to see none other than Justin standing at the entrance of the tour bus. I didn't even hear I'm come in, I guess I was thinking harder than I realized.
"Um hey, Selena isn't here, she had an interview for Getaway."
I watched as he nervously rubbed the back of his neck, shifting his weight between his feet.
"I know… I uh kind of came to talk to you about something, I mean if that's okay?"
"Oh um… yeah sure, what's up?"
"I know we don't really talk and all. In fact I know we don't technically like each other but we both care for Selena and want what's best for her. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I need to ask you about something."
"Um okay?"
I watched as he sighed, flipping his hair out of his eyes and took a seat across from me. I rolled my eyes at his signature hair flip. I don't understand the big deal about it. How do girls obsess over it and find it so adorable and hot? I remember saying that to my mom one day and Madison was quick to shut me up, being the crazy fan she is.
'Don't talk abut the biebs. You don't know the biebs, you don't understand the biebs… or his hair!'
I remember just laughing at how cute she was when she was being serious but again she was quick to shut me up.
'Besides you're the one that nearly passes out every time you see Selly on T.V. flipping her hair or moving her hips around!'
I had nearly choke on my water I was drinking that day. I couldn't and still can't believe that my little sister had said that let alone was so observant.
"Demi?"
"hu?"
"You kind of spaced out there, everything okay?"
"Oh um yeah just thinking about something my sister told me once. So what did you want to ask me?"
"Well honestly how is Selena? Like how is she when she's on the bus away from the spot light?" I think he noticed my confusion to why on earth he would be asking me this if he was her best friend because he was quick to continue. "The reason why I'm asking is because she's been kind of to herself and when I ask her how she is or what's wrong, she'll just say nothing is wrong or ignore the question completely. I just really need to know how she is when it's just y'all."
"Why?"
"Because I know Sel is lying to me but I need to know if my idea on how bad it is, is true or not. I need to know if it's becoming one of her, episodes I guess we can call it, and if so if I need to call um…."
"Call who? What episodes?"
"Demi just answer my question please, it's important."
"Well you answering my questions is important to, I deserve to know what's going on."
"Okay.." I watched as he ran his fingers through that stupid hair of his before sighing, "I'm going to answer your questions but you can't let Selena know you know anything that I'm about to tell you."
I was utterly confused and worried. What the hell is this kid talking about? What's wrong with Selena? "Okay fine I promise now tell me, please."
"Um well since what happen with you, Selena has kind of developed this depression."
A depression? What the fuck?
"Yeah she has to take pills sometimes but not often. She's gotten better of course. She learned how to control it and be happy as such as she can, but Selena thinks very low of herself so little things can cause her to enter the depression in a split second."
"Low of herself?"
"Well one problem is she is used to be dumped because she refuse to have sex with them."
"Yeah I know that, I was her friend when all that happen."
"Exactly do you remember who she was dating before y'all stopped being friends?"
"Um yeah Taylor Lautner what's that have to do with anything?"
"They last day y'all talked, the day you sang her the song. Did you notice that she was upset when you showed up?"
"Yeah but we never talked about it and since we um you know stopped being friends I never got to ask her why."
"Okay look. The night before you had come over she was with Taylor at his house and he was trying to sleep with her but she wouldn't and then well he blacked mailed her."
"What do you mean?"
"He basically told Selena he wasn't stupid and knew how she felt about you and if she wanted him to keep his mouth shut she would sleep with him, and well she didn't want to lose you so she did. When you came over the next day and what happened had happen she lost you anyways and it shattered her completely." He paused taking a shake breath. I could feel my nerves getting the best of me I knew whatever he was about to say was bad. "When you left, she was broke. She felt used from Taylor and she was disgusted with herself for what she did to you and her feelings for you. Miley had come home to find Selena laid on the floor with an empty pill bottle lying next to her. She had tried committing suicide Demi, she didn't have food poisoning like her manager said to the media."
"What… But.. Why?" I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Selena tried killing herself over her feelings for me? She lost her virginity to hide her feelings. I fucking hate Taylor!
"She tried to get over the pain and move from you by dating Nick but it didn't work. She lost all hope in love. She honestly doesn't believe she is capable of having someone love her for her. She lost all confidence in herself, she doesn't find herself remotely attractive. No matter how much I've tried and Miley has tried we just can't get through to her no one can besides one person."
"Who?"
"No tell me how she is first."
"She doesn't talk, she hardly eats. The moment she sets foot onto the bus she takes a shower and goes to her bunk. The only things I hear from her is a simply 'Morning' and 'Night'. Sometimes I'll hear her crying when she's in the shower and I don't know what to do to help."
I watched as he shook his head before standing up running his fingers again through his hair before he spoke. "She's entering another one of her depression episodes. I was hoping this wouldn't happen since as now y'all are working things out and becoming friends again. But I guess I'll have to call him even though I hate to."
"Call who? Why don't you want to call them?"
"I think you've notice that my feelings for Selena are stronger than just a friendship just like yours are so you're not going to like this either, we might just agree with one another for once."
HE KNOWS! How the hell does he know my feelings for her!? Wait! He just admitted he liked her too! I knew It! I knew I didn't like him for a reason. But that's besides the point I want to know what he's getting at. "Who is it Justin? Why don't you like the person?"
"Harry Styles."
"Harry?"
"Yeah he's the only one that can bring Selena out of her slump. He makes her happy I guess you could say. He's the only one that makes her feel beautiful and I hate it!"
I understand why he hates it because I feel the same way we both just wont the be the one to make her happy and feel beautiful but as much as I hate it at least she has someone that makes her better, right?
"So he's her boyfriend?"
"No."
No? What the fuck. "Hu?"
"They're friends. Really close friends like me an her but in a way they're closer." He said as he pulled out his phone. "Look I got to go and call him before I'm do for sound check for the show tonight, I'll see you later."
I shook my head as I watched him exit the bus. I couldn't believe anything I just found out, I seriously fucked Selena up. The one person that means the most to me I screwed over. I need to call Taylor.
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Okay that's the end to this chapter! I actually had it out earlier than I expected!
The next chapter will be up this weekend! So keep a look out for it!
{SPOILERS!}
~ Harry has a surprise for Selena
~ Justin and Demi bond more
~ Demi gets a bit aggressive
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