Meredith was relieved, more relieved than she'd ever felt until she saw that Derek looked sad. "Hey" she put her hand to his cheek "you ok?" She could see the disappointment in his eyes, even as he assured her that he was fine and she felt guilty that she didn't feel the same way.
His disappointment soon turned to worry. "You'd better get yourself checked out at the hospital tomorrow so we can find out what's wrong with you." Meredith nodded though she looked lost in her thoughts.
The next day at the hospital Lexie was sat in the locker room. She'd arrived early and there was nobody else in yet.
She was reading one of her textbooks as a guy walked in. He looked familiar. "Hey, do I know you?" He looked at her and she recognised him. "It's George isn't it? I thought you were leaving"
"I was" he said. He might as well tell her what'd happened. Everyone would know eventually anyway. "I was a first year intern but I failed. I wanted to just give up but Chief Webber convinced me to think about it and gave me a few weeks leave."
"So, you're repeating your first year? You're an intern with us?" George nodded "Good, I need all the help I can get" Lexie laughed "I'd only been here a week and I hit on my sister's boyfriend twice"
"Your sis-? Wait Mered-? You hit on Dr. Shepherd?"
Lexie groaned "I didn't know he was Dr. Shepherd, not the first time anyway. But I didn't know he was Merediths boyfriend."
"I bet that didn't go down well"
"Nope, I think I'm the least popular intern" She smiled weakly.
Their conversation was cut short as people began to enter the room.
"Dr. Bailey, are you busy?" Bailey was charging down the corridor when Meredith stopped her
"I'm on my way into surgery Grey, what's wrong?"
"I need a consult."
"Who for?"
Meredith coughed nervously. "Me"
"Page Dr. Montgomery, she'll see to you."
"What? Addison? No, I can wait, forget it"
"Don't make me tell you twice, you need a consult and Addison is free, go page her! NOW!"
'Crap' Meredith thought as she lay on a bed and threw her head back against the pillow.
"Ok Dr. Grey, what can I do for you today." Addison walked into the room her heels clicking on the floor.
"Um, well I've been feeling nauseous a lot" Addison groaned inwardly, she could see what was coming.
"When was your last period?" she saw Meredith blush slightly.
"I don't remember, I've never really been that regular. I know what you're thinking and I did a test. It was negative."
Addison gave a small laugh "those things are nowhere near as reliable as they tell you on the box. I'll do a blood test."
'Crap' Meredith thought again
"Do you want me to page Derek?" Addison asked as she finished drawing some blood from Meredith.
Meredith shook her head "He's in surgery" Addison looked at Meredith and sighed. She was fidgeting with the bed sheet, she looked scared stiff and Addison knew that Derek would have gladly stepped out of surgery for something like this. It crossed her mind to just page him anyway but she quickly rejected the idea, Meredith had said no.
"Is there anyone else I could page? Maybe one of your roommates?"
"Christina, she said she was on her way home, she should be here by now."
"Ok, I'll do that then I'll be back with the results" She was still picking at the bed sheet.
"Thank you so much" Christina sailed into Meredith's room planting herself in a chair and putting her feet up on the bed. "I was in with the chief, he's not happy that I came back early but Addison's page saved me. What does she think is wrong you?"
"She's took some blood to test for a pregnancy. Apparently those 'really accurate' pregnancy tests aren't accurate at all. They should change the description really, it's misleading."
"So where's Derek?"
"In surgery, Addison wanted to page him but I said no"
Christina sighed "Meredith, what did I tell you on the phone? He'd want to be here, he'll be annoyed when he finds out."
"I don't want him to get his hopes up. He tried to hide it but he got excited yesterday then he was disappointed when it was negative."
"And how do you feel?"
The colour suddenly disappeared from Meredith's "Like I'm gonna throw up!" she ran to the bathroom
"Don't think I'm coming in and holding your hair for you, I don't do vomit!"
Meredith didn't look much better as she emerged from the bathroom about half an hour later.
"You look like crap" Christina said as she flicked through Meredith's chart.
"Like you looked so hot when you were pregnant" Meredith retorted as she settled herself back onto the bed.
"AHA! So, you're finally admitting that you're pregnant?"
"Shut up, and put my chart away, you aren't my doctor" She reached to grab the chart but Christina pulled it out of her reach.
"So, you think Derek will be pleased?" Christina pushed
"Yeah, he's always wanted kids. He loves his family, did I tell you he has 14 nieces and nephews?"
"Yeah you did, it's sickening. So how about you? Are you pleased?"
Meredith raised an eyebrow at Christina. "Were you pleased when you were pregnant? Oh wait no, you weren't, you were booked in for a termination!"
"Hey" Christina said angrily "This isn't about me, and are you saying that if you're pregnant you don't want it?"
"I -" Meredith paused "I don't know. Anyway, it's too late. There's no way that Derek would agree."
"He wouldn't have to know"
"Know what?" Derek breezed into the room and planted a kiss on Meredith's forehead.
"Nothing" Meredith lied pulling away. "What're you doing here?"
"Bailey mentioned that you were getting a consult. Do we know what's wrong yet?"
"No, I'm waiting for the test results"
"Looks like your wait is over, I'm gonna go" Christina got up and left the room as Addison walked in.
"Ok, do you want Derek to leave while I go over your results with you?" Addison asked. Meredith shook her head, he'd know eventually anyway.
"Well then, I'll just spit it out. We were right, you're pregnant, I can't tell you how far since you don't remember when you last had a period but-"
"It'd be at least five weeks" Meredith interrupted. Addison looked at her questioningly. Meredith cleared her throat, "That's…….the last……..the last time that we……er……….you know?" Addison raised her eyebrows as she realised what Meredith was saying.
"Oh, ok" She tried to shrug it off as though she wasn't talking about the last time one of her interns had had sex with her ex husband and was now pregnant with said ex.
"Well, I'll get an ultrasound in here and we'll take a proper look ok?"
Derek turned and smiled at Meredith as Addison walked out. Meredith smiled back weakly. He pulled her into a hug, "I can't believe it, and after that test I just dismissed the idea. This is unbelievable." Meredith hugged him back "Yeah" she agreed "unbelievable…………………"
