Hi guys! So I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while. This isn't as long as I would have liked, but hopefully it's still good. WARNING: yaoiness ahead, don't like, then don't fucking read, bitches. Deal with it. That's all. Thank you.
Ciel's POV:
The snow drifted lightly in large flakes around me. I was enveloped in darkness. The only light coming from the shimmering flakes that continued to fall. I heard a rustle of feathers and the call of a crow in the distance, and suddenly all of the snowflakes turned into pure white feathers, silently shimmering as if they were made of that bright light. I felt like I was floating. What was wrong with me? I felt a burning in my eyes and a tingling sensation all over my body.
"Ciel?" I turned to the voice but saw only an opaque-colored bird perched on a black branch of wood. The action of moving my neck caused great pain throughout my body.
"What do you want?" I asked with difficulty. The birds' tiny black eyes shimmered and seemed to reflect the light coming from the still-drifting feathers all around us.
"I want to help you. But first, you need to wake up!" I cringed at the birds words. They reminded me of somebody. They held a gentleness I couldn't remember with a trace of desperation and something else that I couldn't decipher. I felt a sudden tightness in my chest. I didn't want to wake up. I was perfectly fine being in this dark world. And what the hell did this strange bird care if I awoke or not?
"I-I don't want to!" I whispered quietly, tears of an unknown origin beginning to fall down my pale, cold cheeks.
"And besides, why do you want to help me? I haven't done anything for you before, I don't even know you!" I cried, my voice slowly gaining strength with every word. The bird seemed to frown, and a small tear appeared to drip form it left eye. But birds didn't cry, right?
"No, Ciel. Birds don't cry, but demons do." I stared at the bird, startled.
"Are you a demon?" The black bird shifted from one foot to the other.
"Of sorts, yes." My eyes went wide with shock. This only decreased my feelings towards the strange bird.
"Then how do you expect me to trust and believe you?" I asked, my skepticism evident in my words. The bird nodded sadly.
"I understand if you don't want me anymore, but I need you to trust me, Ciel, Calder. Whoever you currently are." My eyes widened further at the use of my true name. How did this small insignificant creature know my name? Why did he care so much? And why did his sound so irrevocably familiar? I felt my heart tighten in my chest. H-he was somebody I knew, wasn't he? Why did I feel like I needed to do as he says? WHO IS HE?
My mind was buzzing with all these questions that I couldn't seem to answer, and it was driving me near insane.
"B-but why do y-you care s-so much?" I asked, my voice shaking. The bird ruffled his feathers again.
"Because, Ciel. I love you." I stared at the bird. H-how was that p-possible? But suddenly, it didn't matter, because I understood. My chest released its fright to let in something new and completely strange to me. It was big and warm, and it just barely fit inside my chest, but it filled my whole being and warmed me from head to toe. I smiled gently, tears still streaming down my face.
"Okay." With that, the feathers around us began to fall harder and a harsh wind flew them up in a whirl wind of black. My heart thudded in my chest, I didn't like the darkness.
"I-I'm scared!" I couldn't see the bird anymore, and I couldn't hear him either. It was just me and the feathers. I heard a shout and the feathers burst everywhere, returning to their previous, glimmering state. I felt a soft, nimble hand on my cheek and I turned to face its owner. I meet with a pair of two, large, shinning, burgundy eyes filled with tears. I knew those eyes, I knew I did. But why couldn't I place a name to this beautiful, beautiful face?
"Come on, let's go." I nodded my head and the man, or just barely that, he was around my age, lifted me in his arms. I fell against his chest and laid my head in the crook of his neck, breathing in his intoxicating scent. I wrapped my arms around him and held on tightly to his strong form. The arms that enclosed me gripped tighter and held fast around my tiny body. I felt small and safe, like a child, in these large arms.
"Take me home." I felt the boy holding me sigh.
"What home we have left…" he replied. I heard the rustling of feathers, and then….everything went black.
I awoke with a start, my breathing ragged and my chest tight. I looked around, taking in my surroundings. I was still in this stupid, decrepit cell, and it was hard and cold. Except for the warmth right next to me, that made my heart race and my skin tingle wherever it touched. I turned my head and saw Sebastian's peaceful, sleeping form. He had his arms wrapped tightly around me, his warm breath hitting my face every time he breathed.
"Sebastian…" I murmured. He shifted slightly in sleep so that we were even closer than before. I felt something move in my chest, and a familiar feeling of warmth spreading though out my body. I sighed and moved closer to Sebastian, resting my head in his chest, listening to the thud of his heart. I closed my eyes again, and an image of feathers floating surrounded the blackness behind my closed lids. That's strange…
"Sebastian…" I muttered again before the gods of sleep took over my body.
O-O-O-O-O-
"Aufstehen du drekige schweine! 1" I sat bolt right up, my body trembling all over. I looked around to see a fat soldier standing over me, his breath stinking of beer and puke, and his body odor overwhelming. I turned quickly to Sebastian who was still sleeping soundly, his eyes closed peacefully and his breath deep in soundless unconsciousness. The German's eyes seemed to bug out of his head as he repeated his words from before, with more ferocity. I quickly shook Sebastian's shoulder, regretfully waking him from his slumber.
"Wha-?"
"AUFSTEHEN DU DREKIGE SCHWEINE!" The soldier screamed at us. Sebastian was standing in an instant, gripping my hand tightly.
"Follow him, he's talking to the both of us." He whispered quietly as the soldier walked out of our cell. I did as I was told, gripping Sebastian's hand tightly in my own. I didn't want to go back…they had never made Sebastian go with me…what was so different about today?
But I soon discovered they the soldier wasn't taking us to that horrible white room, we were going to a part of our Hell that we'd never been before, and it was just as bad.
The room we were brought to was large and filthy, lined up on the walls were bunk beds, five beds to a tier. On every bed was a person, often more than one. I walked closer to Sebastian, gripping his hand tighter. I could feel my entire body trembling in fright. What was this madness? The people in the room were all male, and seemed to range in age from about ten to fifty. There were very few boys that looked my age, and this fact alone troubled me greatly.
"Aufenthalt." The soldier said coldly, and then he left. I turned to Sebastian for a translation, but he was staring on in horror. I followed his gaze but all I saw was rows and rows of beds and boys and men, all filthy, and all sick and thin.
"Sebastian?" I said quietly, afraid to disturb his train of thought. He closed his burgundy eyes and shuddered, pulling his hand out of my grasp and draping his arm around my shoulders.
"Follow me, and don't look at anybody." I was surprised by the coldness in his voice and the hard look in his eyes as we walked down the narrow, dirt hall. Sebastian stopped in front of a tier of beds, all full accept the bottom one.
"We're going to sleep here, okay?" I nodded my head, but inside I could feel my heart beating in my chest and I could feel my blood pumping and I could hear my brothers screams as was being torn apart by a wicked, wicked man dressed in a white lab coat, and there was blood everywhere, and I couldn't take it!
I fell to my knees, covering my ears with my hands, trying desperately to erase the images from my mind, to block out the horrible screams that ricocheted in my skull. I was completely blind to the world around me, all I could see was my dark, despicable existence in this Hell called Strasbourg.
"Ciel." I felt a gentle hand on my back, and his voice shattered the sounds of my brother screaming, and chased away the nightmares. I looked up into those beautiful, beautiful pools of burgundy that were so strange and held no trace of hate or dislike, only love and kindness and a deep sadness that was hard to grasp.
"Come on, we have to sleep for a little while longer…before they take us out." I cringed. I didn't want to go anywhere.
"Out where?" I asked, my voice sounding much too small and scared. Sebastian's eyes grew hateful, just for a moment, and then it was gone, but it was there.
"To work in the fields." My eyes went wide and my heart grew in my chest. I would be able to go outside? To see the sunshine? To breathe fresh air? To see the sky? I would get to hear the birds? But how and why did Sebastian know this? And why did it trouble him so much? I was about to ask this when a man from two bunks above us threw me a hateful look.
"Will you go to bed already?" I gulped, a slight trace of fear creeping back into my heart. I looked suspiciously at the small space before me, but crawled in. unlike our mattress in our cell, this bed had a pillow, something I hadn't seen in what seemed like years. Sebastian crawled in after me, and the space grew dark and close. I felt his arms wrap around me tightly, Sebastian's' warmth seeping through his skin and into mine. I sighed against his chest and snuggled closer.
"Ik hou van je, Sebastian." The black-haired man sighed sadly and rubbed his thumbs in circles on my back. I lifted my face up to see the expression on his face, to see what he was feeling because I felt lost and confused, and I couldn't see how Sebastian could be so calm and all-knowing. But I never got to see his face, for his lips caught mine and pressed hard against me, making my heart leap in my throat and warmth spread throughout my whole body.
Sebastian's hands left my back and went to my face, pulling me closer to him and deepening our kiss. I could feel myself trembling in his arms, but this time it wasn't from fright or from being cold. It was something very, very different; something I couldn't really explain. Sebastian's tongue licked at my bottom lip greedily, and I complied by opening my mouth for him. His tongue scraped the roof of my mouth and tangled with my own. I moaned into his mouth, completely unaware of the people all around us, and I wouldn't have cared even if I had been aware them. The only thing I felt at that particular moment was Sebastian's hands roaming over my body, slipping under my shirt and rubbing my chest, making me moan again into his mouth.
Sebastian's hand reached around and moved low on my back, pulling my lower body closer to his. I gasped as I felt something different in my nether regions. I blushed a deep red in embarrassment as I realized deep, hot warmth between my legs. I gulped and breathed heavily against Sebastian's lips.
"I-I'm sorry…" I whispered as quietly as I could. Sebastian smiled in the darkness and rubbed my cheek with his thumb.
"It's okay…but I think we have might have to fix that." I blushed an even deeper shade of red, as I remembered where we were.
"B-but..there's all these other people, and-" Sebastian quieted me with his lips.
"They're all asleep, they don't matter, Ciel. All that matters here is you and me." I nodded slowly and pressed close against Sebastian again.
"Okay." And with that Sebastian wrapped his arms around me again, pulling me into another deep kiss. I moaned against him and felt myself get hotter all over as his hand traveled further down my body, and slipped into my pants. I gasped as the cool air hit me and shivered as it hit my warm skin.
"shhh." Sebastian whispered gently. My breath hitched and I gasped as I felt his fingers close around my organ. I trembled and wrapped my arms around Sebastian, grasping the back of his shirt tightly with my fingers. Sebastian's lips closed against my own once again as his hand began to move, and I squeezed my eyes shut as I kissed him, trying desperately not to make a sound. But I found that to be quite impossible as Sebastian picked up his speed and I let out a moan, it was like nothing I had ever felt before in my life, it was intoxicating and made me feel crazy.
"Se-Sebastian!" I started to feel like I was going to burst; I was overflowing with pleasure and love for Sebastian. Somehow, and I don't know how because we were in a very, very small space, Sebastian bent down and clasped his lips around my organ. I gasped and groaned, pulling my fingers through his hair as I reached my climax.
"S-Seb-bastian!" I said again, desperately trying to warn him, but he seemed ready, and he swallowed all of my cum. I gasped; amazed that he could accomplish such a feat. He came back up to face me, his face flushed and his breathing heavy.
"Did that feel good?" I let out a contented sigh, slowly coming down from my intoxicating high.
"Yes." I whispered breathily. Sebastian's lips curved up into a smile and his pressed his lips against mine. I could faintly taste myself on him, and I cringed a little bit at the bitter taste.
"I've missed you, Ciel. You were asleep for a long time." I sighed sadly and snuggled closer against Sebastian's chest.
"I'm sorry. I missed you too…they…they…" I felt my body trembling again. I didn't want to talk about it, not at all, but I felt like I had to tell Sebastian, I owed it to him for causing him so much pain.
"They killed my brother." I whispered shakily. Sebastian stiffened against me.
"What?" he whispered, fear laced in his voice. I trembled against him and felt the tears beginning to fall down my cheeks.
"I-I saw th-the m-man in wh-white r-rip him apart right in fr-front of me, a-and I…I…I couldn't help him at all!" Sebastian wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close, enveloping me in his warmth. He didn't say anything, and I was glad of that. I didn't want to know what he would have said. He had never met my brother before, and it was something that I could never change.
We were silent for a while, and I almost thought that Sebastian was asleep, for his breathing had slowed and his heart beat gradually beat slower and slower.
"Ciel, I promise that I'll get you out of here." Hearing those words was like a knife cutting through the silence, and it warmed my heart better than anything ever could. I nodded my head and snuggled deeper into Sebastian's chest.
"Just promise me that we'll never have a white room." Sebastian craned his head down to stare at me, eyes wide with surprise. I stared back at him, completely serious.
"You'd stay with me? Even if you knew you were free?" I gaped at him. Had Sebastian really just thought that I would up and leave him?
"You think I would leave you? I…I could never leave you, Sebastian…I don't think I would be able to." Sebastian smiled down at me and closed his eyes.
"Good. Because I don't think I would have been able to leave you either."
So? How was it? Bad? Good? Let me know!
Translations:
"Aufstehen du drekige schweine!"- Get up filthy pigs!
And that's it. Yup. Hopefully there will be another update soon! (probably a week from now…) R&R to let me know if you liked it or not!
