Only Girl In The World
Digidestend Angel
I Do NOT Own Victorious
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Chapter Seven
Settling With Companionship
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A few concerts later, Cat and Jade watched as the boys were wrapping up the concert at Caesar's Palace in Las Vegas, NV. Jade looked to Cat. "Excited to see Dean?" Cat nodded. "What's wrong?"
Cat gulped. "I'm…I'm going to tell Dean I love him."
Jade closed her eyes and then opened them a second later. "Cat…do you really love him though?"
"No." Cat automatically answered. "You can learn to love someone though."
"Yeah, you can." Jade rubbed Cat's back. "What will you do if he…"
"I have no clue." Cat whispered. "I…I just hope I don't screw everything up."
"No matter what happens, Cat, you have me." Jade told her in a comforting tone. "You have the boys. We're here for you."
Cat smiled. "Thanks." Beck, Robbie, and Andre ran off stage as the crowd roared loudly. They were sweaty and disgusting. "If only they saw you up close." Cat commented, making the three boys glare at her.
"Go get cleaned up and we'll hit the road." Jade nudged Cat. "I know someone is excited to see their fiancée."
Cat blushed.
Beck sighed deeply, walking away. Andre and Robbie shot Cat an apologetic look for Beck's actions and then followed him.
"What am I going to do with him?" Cat shook her head.
"Hell if I know." Jade sighed. "Come on, we'll meet them on the bus."
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Cat packed a small bag for her and Precious to leave for the night. "Are you sure you want to spend the night?" Jade asked with caution. The door to the rest of the bus was open, so the boys could hear them. "What if things turn out bad?"
"I'll go somewhere else." Cat said simply. "I hope things go okay."
"Me too. For your sake…and his, since I'll beat the living shit out of him if he breaks your heart." Jade gave Cat a small smile. "Actually…so will the boys too."
Cat blushed again and sighed. "I know. I'm happy to see him though. The love part is still rocky, but…companionship wise, we're perfect there." Cat pointed out. "See? Companionship/friendship is one of the most important parts in a marriage. So if Dean and I don't love, love each other…we still have communication and friendship time with each other. We could make it work. I just know it."
"Cat, it sounds like you're trying to convince yourself and not me." Jade chuckled. "Don't stress out." The bus came to a slow stop. "Ready?"
Cat nodded and left the room first with Precious in her arms. She looked over Beck's head and out the window in front of the Luxor hotel. She saw Dean's smiling face. "Dean!" She squeaked. She gave each of her boys a hug and a kiss on the cheek. After hugging Jade, she practically skipped out. "Text me when you're ready for me tomorrow!" She called back.
"We won't be too early, just in case you want to have a quick sexy time before we come." Jade told her with a smirk.
"JADE!" Cat scolded before leaving the bus.
Beck watched with painful eyes as Cat jumped into Dean's arms. They kissed passionately, not minding that her puppy was still in her arms. Soon, they just wrapped their arms around each other, hugging. He swallowed the lump in his throat. He felt jealously and worry. He heard every word the girls were discussing in the bedroom just now. Cat was going to tell Dean she loved him, even though she wouldn't mean it. If Dean didn't say it back, what would happen? He sure will come beat the shit out of Dean if he hurt his Cat. She said she was content with his friendship, but that couldn't be enough in a marriage!
Beck stood up and punched the wall before going into the restroom and locking the door behind him, leaving Andre, Robbie, and Jade with confused looks.
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Cat immediately put Precious down on her bed and let her sleep. Almost immediately Dean picked her up like she was a bride and practically threw her on the bed. She squeaked in surprise and giggled. He soon put himself above her and they began kissing with such force, showing how much they missed each other. She reached for the bottom of his shirt and he gladly helped her remove it. She put her hands on his lean chest as he leaned down to kiss her again.
After making love, Dean pulled her to his chest and she leaned against him.
This is it.
"Dean."
"Yes?"
"I…I love you."
She felt him gulp. She wouldn't cry or show emotion. She promised herself that.
"I…"
"It's okay if you don't."
"Cat, do you really love me?" Dean asked as he fondled with her body that he could reach to make her relax her nerves. "Or do you feel like you have to love me?"
"I don't know." Cat sat up suddenly and straddled his waist. He put his hands on her hips and stared up at her with lust. "Dean, even if we don't feel love…we can make it work. We have good- no, great companionship and we can make each other happy."
"I agree." He whispered and leaned up to her, capturing her lips. "So we're okay again?"
Cat nodded against his lips. "Yes, but one more question." He nodded. "Why marry me if we…just…I don't know."
Dean sighed deeply. "Oh, I hope you don't dump me over this."
Cat leaned forward, resting her bare chest on his and wrapped her arms around his torso, staring him in the eyes. "What is it?"
"Cat…I…I need a child." Dean confessed, looking guilty. "I need to marry someone. And I really like you, Cat. I don't know how to love someone, but I find you so intriguing and I admire your spirit. I want you to be the mother of my child. Preferably a son, but all the same." He bit his lip. "So?"
Cat smiled. "I would be honored." He sighed in relief and she began kissing him again with passion. They were fine. It felt the same as before. But for some reason…Cat felt completely empty inside. As she and Dean made love once more, Cat couldn't help, but think of how it'd be nice if he said I love you or if she could say it back while they did it, but she would never get that wish granted. She was going to be in a loveless marriage, be a mother to a child that wasn't conceived out of love, and all that horrid reality…but at least she would be taken care of forever. That's all that mattered…right?
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Jade was right.
When Cat and Dean awoke that morning, they made love again right after waking up. Room service brought up breakfast and then they took a shower together, made love in there. And even when Cat was getting dressed to leave, they couldn't help, but make love again. Jade just so happened to text her and asked if she wanted to stay with Dean longer, since the boys only had a photo shoot and she really didn't have to be there. Cat immediately took her up on that offer and jumped on Dean, who was happy about it too. They watched a movie, took a bubble bath, Cat gave Dean a massage, and made love once again. They realized the tour bus would be there any minute. Quickly, Cat took another shower and dressed in record time, only making the bus wait for a few minutes. She ran downstairs after kissing Dean goodbye and telling him she'd miss him with her bag, Precious, and her hair soaking wet.
Jade was going to see right through her.
The bus doors opened for her as she climbed in and saw the boys and Jade staring at her, Jade smirking. "How many times?" She asked as the bus started driving again.
Cat burst laughing. "8." She said as she put Precious on the seat next to Jade.
"Holy mother of- oh my god!" Jade shouted. "He's a keeper! Rich and an energetic bunny? Hell yes! Keep him forever!"
Cat grinned. "That's the plan."
The boys looked confused, while Beck seemed to get their code talk. It worked between Cat and Dean…great.
Jade chuckled. "You boys don't want to know, trust me. Cat, you may want to dry your hair and make yourself look pretty."
Cat sighed deeply as she took her hair straightener and hair dryer out of her bag and scowled to Jade. "Hush." Jade slapped her butt when she passed her as a friend usually does. "Ow!"
Jade laughed obnoxiously. "You're sore there TOO? Dang!"
Cat looked like she wanted to crawl under a rock and die. She went to the bathroom and suddenly Jade's hand grabbed her wrist. Cat turned to look at her. "What?"
Jade looked serious. "What'd he say?"
Cat gave her a tiny smile. "We're okay." She said simply and Jade seemed to understand.
"Alright. Just wondering." Jade said as she released Cat's arm.
Beck slammed the side of his head to the window he was sitting next to, staring out of it at the cars passing by. He had never loved a girl romantically before. He had never felt this way for a woman. Now that he did, it would never happen. It wasn't fair. His parents had disowned him because of his music career he chose, which included the whole family as well. He had no one that loved him. He was empty and depressed, even if he didn't show it all the time. He cried himself to sleep every night, silently. All he wanted was someone to love and care about him. He wished it was Cat, the woman he loved and cared about.
Why couldn't she see he'd cherish her and take care of her like Dean could?
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Cat sat down in the dance studio they rented out in Las Vegas as they planned for another performance. The boys were practicing their dances, but this time, Cat let them do it on their own with her watching. She said she was giving them independence…but she really just wanted to rest because she was so bruised and sore between her legs. Sure, making love with Dean felt wonderful and great at that moment in time, but now, she's paying for it.
Beck noticed how she winced every time she even walked. It made him sick to his stomach. He hated the fact that she and Dean made love 8 times in just 12 hours! Unbelievable! Why couldn't Cat be his? She obviously was not only perfect and beautiful, but dang, she must be good in bed. It wasn't fair to him. What could he do though? She was (forcing herself to be) happily engaged and she was excited to marry Dean Houston, the richest man alive.
What more could she want?
Sure, Beck was a famous pop star with more money than he could count, but riches and fame would mean absolutely nothing to him when it came to being in love. His heart earned for Cat to feel the same. He wanted to feel like he was worth something to her. He realized though…they could never be together. And also…even though he was rich…he could NEVER compare his bank account to Dean Houston's.
Yup.
It wasn't fair.
"Cat, I'm frustrated on this one part!" Andre kicked the air in anger. "Please help me here!"
Cat looked like she was going to dread it, but forced herself to stand up. She lost balance, but leaned against the mirror. She chuckled nervously as the boys gave her eyes of concern. "I'm okay. I'm just…tired…didn't sleep that much last night." She told them. "Anyways, let's get to work." She forced herself to walk up to Andre. "Okay, this is what you need to concentrate on."
Beck watched with intensity as Cat winced in pain constantly, but still kept going on as she showed the boys what to do and gave them advice. He rubbed his lips together as he kept to his thoughts.
Cat deserved love.
Not emptiness.
xScreamingxAngelx, Charleyxxxx, Xxxx4evaSummerxxxx, CourtsxBatFan, MariaLuvsYew, LittleMissVictorious, VictoriousForever10, Julie, and Ameha Kay: Thanks guys for the reviews :) I had the worst nightmare last night! I had a dream that I was so depressed that I deleted my FanFiction Account and I lost EVERYTHING! I woke up, freaking out…my poor son next to me start crying. Oh, but I was SO happy it was a dream. Aren't you?
