Bellamy
I just stood there in the woods, after Clarke had left back to the camp. I did that really just happen? All of me wanted to her to kiss me back but for a second part of me doubted that she would. I though she would be discussed by me. I was under the impression she was annoyed by me. And honestly she had me convinced that she would rather kiss lover boy than me. Of course I had a lot of girls interested in me but I never thought Clarke would be. Clarke wasn't the usually type of girl that would admire me. All the girls who liked me were the ones who were shy and had self-confidence issues which is totally the opposite of Clarke. Now that I think of it… don't they say opposites attract? I am too similar to Clarke. I am a leader she's a leader. I'm confidant she's confidant. She always makes sure that her voice is heard and I do the same. I know our feelings for each other, what ever they are, will never work out. My fear is that we will have personality clashes.
But at the same time I want to love her so bad. I want to always be there for her when she is in need. I want to be the one she comes to for comfort. I have this driving passion inside me that makes me want to protect her. If I had my way another boy would never touch her, ever. I wanted her all to myself.
Clarke is so gentle and kind while at the same time being strong and independent. Like I said, I want to protect her but I know she can protect herself. I truly admire her strength and perseverance. I'd never met anyone else like her. All the other girls that I have found attractive, I've always wondered what they were hiding beneath their clothes. But when I first met Clarke, I was wondering what she was hiding in her thoughts. Naturally I wanted to know what was under Clarke's clothes too but the difference was I knew that there is more to her then that.
Why am I thinking so much? It was just a kiss, wasn't it? Maybe it was just a moment of weakness for us both. But not even I could deny that there was something between us. I just plead that I wouldn't be weird between us. A friend once told me that it isn't awkward unless you make it awkward.
A few days passed and nothing out of the ordinary had happened. I still couldn't rip Clarke from my thoughts. I just kept thinking of the way her lips brushed mine. Every time I would picture these thoughts, it would send a shiver of my spine. I'd sometimes watch her when she wasn't paying attention and she was focused on her medical work for the camp. A few times she had caught me in the act. And I won't lie my face did have a touch a pink to it when she stared at me. She actually made me of all people feel self-conscious. I didn't even know that I could feel self-conscious until I met her.
One time when she caught me watching her she looked very impatient almost as if she couldn't bear it any longer. She walked up to me and said "I need you to help me collect some herbs from the woods," she said sternly.
"Whoa, okay princess, you don't have to be so polite," I chuckled. And she couldn't help but laugh. See, why was I worried, things aren't awkward.
I got up from what I doing and I followed Clarke into the woods. We walked for some time and then I asked "Aren't the herbs found by the river, in the opposite direction we are going?" We were probably a few kilometers away from the camp when I mentioned this to her.
"Oh, are they? I didn't notice, " She smiled with a very sarcastic tone while she spoke.
"Then if you knew we are going the wrong direction from the herbs, what are we doing out here?" I questioned.
"You aren't very smart are you?" She proclaimed.
"What?" I said. I was honestly confused. Why won't girls ever just be straight with you? They always have to play games but I guess I liked that about them. It always makes me more interested.
"Well, we agreed no one can about us, right?" She spoke. I then I finally clued in.
"Oh so wait, there are no herbs you wanted to find?" I said jokingly.
Her gold hair gleamed in the patches of sun the trees didn't block out. "Just shut up and kiss me," She ordered.
I touched her beautiful soft face and touched my lips to hers. There was not another moment in the world that would make me happier that this one. Clarke made so happy. I just wanted to hold her. I would be hers for as long as she would have me.
