Seriously, I think I'm in love with Munro Chambers. I mean, he's just so gorgeous, and perfect and ugh! (like Clare would say.) Here's my plan; I'm moving to Canada, stalking him, and becoming his best friend. Great plan, I know. (:
When I got into school the next day, all I could think about was what happened with Eli last night. I mean, it was just amazing and magical. Sure, I didn't think my 'prince charming' would wear black all the time, I didn't think he would listen to screamo music in a hearse that he drove, and I definitely didn't think he would have such a mysterious secret that he couldn't tell me. But even though Eli was all of those things, he somehow fit perfectly into the role of my perfect prince.
I felt someone tap on my shoulder and turned around, thinking it would be Eli but instead, KC was standing there. Even though I didn't want to talk to KC, he was standing there and there was nothing else I could do but stare at him. As I did, I realized his appearance was completely different from last year. It went from skater to punk rocker, in a way. Finally, after observing him, I stopped staring at his outfit and looked at him. His eyes looked confused and somewhat scared. I didn't know why but maybe it wouldn't hurt to find out.
"Are you okay?" I asked him.
He stood there silently for a few moments, probably thinking of something to say, and then replied, "Actually I'm not."
"Why?"
"Other than the fact that you hate me?" KC asked.
For a moment, I didn't actually comprehend what KC had said. Sure, KC hurt me and for a while, I did dislike him a lot but I never hated him.
"Why would you think that I hate you?" I seriously wanted to know why he thought I hated him.
"Because every time we talk to each other, and most of the time we don't, you talk to me with a sort of piercing tone in your voice." KC said.
"Well, I wonder why. Did you think I'd be all glitter and rainbows after you cheated on me with Jenna? If you did, you were sadly mistaken." I really hoped he didn't think that. KC seemed smart enough to know that was completely idiotic.
"No, I didn't but I didn't want you to hate me either."
"KC, I don't hate anyone. But yes, I do strongly dislike you at the moment. I mean, you cheated on me with Jenna while I was away. And anyways, Jenna? She's like, the most wrong person to cheat on someone with."
"I don't feel like talking about Jenna." KC said, stuffing his hand in the pockets of his dark blue skinny jeans.
"Then you shouldn't have brought us up in the first place." He should have known that if we were going to talk about our relationship, Jenna would come up.
"Okay, fine whatever. I came over here to get advice from you." KC looked at the ground as he said that, like was afraid of what my expression would be.
"If it's about you and Jenna, I can't help you." I wasn't going to give him advice on making his relationship with Jenna better. It might have been wrong but that was just me.
"It's not. And anyways, why would I come to you, out of all people, for advice you me and Jenna?"
I rolled my eyes at his sarcasm. It was starting become it a little annoying that fast, "Then what about?"
"My mom." KC miserably said.
For a second, my heart stopped. I guess I did still care about a KC a little. I remember the little bit that KC told me about his mother. He said that she was definitely hooked on drugs and it ended up landing her in jail. He didn't seem like he cared that much about her by the way he walked about her. I didn't understand it, though. My mom was a huge meth head but, deep down inside me, I still loved her dearly.
"What about your mom?" I asked him.
"She wants me back. She got out of jail, and now she wants me to come live with her again." KC said, looking at the ground.
"Well then move back with her." I said. It was easy to realize what to do, it wasn't rocket science.
"It's not that easy, Jill. My mom left me for dead once she got hooked on drugs, and she'll probably do it again. I can't trust her easily, I really can't trust her at all." KC said.
He started to look distressing but that wasn't really normal for him. Sometimes, I could hear the sadness in his voice but I could never see it on his face. KC Guthrie wasn't an open book.
"I could only think of one thing for you to do, and that's to move back with her. Sure, your risking being hurt but she's your mom. You'll give her a chance, and if she screws it up, you'll go back to your group home like where you are now." I said, "So, go with her. You won't be missing anything."
"I can't go back with her. I just can't." KC said.
I rolled my eyes at how closed he kept his mind. It was his mom, for crying out loud. Not a foster mom who wanted him, she was his real mom.
"Then I don't know why you asked me in the first place. It seems like you already have your mind made up." I said, then tried to walk away but KC followed after me.
"Did you ever think it was because I miss you?" KC asked, looking in my eyes sincerely.
"No because if you missed me, you wouldn't have cheated on me in the first place. Don't, just please don't bring the 'I miss you' card out because both you and I know we are better off apart."
"Okay maybe we do have our differences, but I can still miss you." KC said.
"Yes, you surely can but it doesn't mean I have to still miss you."
"Of course you don't miss me. You're too busy spending your time with Mr. Death." KC said.
"For the second time, don't talk about Eli near me if you're going to talk about him like that. You don't know him-"
KC cut me off, " And I don't care to know him! He has you, and that's the highest reason I have to hate him."
"Well, it's not a good reason. You cheated on me, not Eli. You let me go, not Eli. And you broke my heart, not Eli! So, cut the bull crap, KC and take responsibility for what you did."
I was tired of the new KC. He just never took responsibility for his own actions. Maybe it had something to do with me, but it wasn't my fault. I was faithful, he wasn't.
"Okay, I know I did brake your heart but I'm sorry. I'd do anything for you to know that I am truly completely sorry for doing it."
"Well, if you cared so much about me, you'd leave me alone." Even though it was kind of brutal, it was the truth and that's what I wanted to tell him. The complete truth.
"I can't leave you alone, Jill." KC said.
"Couldn't you at least try?" I asked him.
KC looked like he finally got fed up with me telling him the truth. I couldn't help it, it was something I had promised myself I would do; tell the truth. His face started to get a little red and his expression changed to furious.
"Fine, I will." KC said, and stormed off.
I looked behind me to see KC walking quickly somewhere. I had no idea where, and I really didn't care. I told him what I felt, and if he didn't accept that, then we probably had no business talking to each other in the first place.
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