Chapter 7
*Next morning *
"I've gotta go to college again babe" Sian smiled apologetically as they stood outside the entrance to the shop.
"Please say this is yeh last day!" The younger girl whined tugging Sian round the back to catch a few minutes together before her shift started. She had apologised for her bluntness last night and they had, as they say, 'kissed and made up'.
"I'm here all on my one today..."She sulked.
Sian let out a snigger. "Awwww you can talk to your reflection if you get lonely" she teased, finding it rather funny, "I'm sure Amber will pop in anyways... She'll keep you entertained. 'Oh Tommys a dream, Tommys dead fittt' " She mocked in a high voice, bursting out laughing.
Sophie scowled unimpressed before reaching to touch Sian "I want you though!" she muttered.
Right there, right then Sian's heart melted. Her laughter died away and was replaced with an expression of guilt. Her next jibe dying in her throat, as she reached up to cross her arms behind Sophie's neck murmuring "I'm sorreh" then claiming her lips in a loving kiss, closing her eyes.
Eventually the younger girl relaxed as she leant into Sian pushing her back carefully against the wall. Pressing her lips forcefully back as the kiss increased in passion, she dropped her hands to rest on the blonde's waist. Slowly twisting her head and kissing her harder.
She felt Sian's tongue run delicately along her bottom lip, waiting patiently as she sought entrance. Something she could never deny. She opened her mouth as Sian's tongue eased painstakingly forward, softly colliding midway with her own. She let out a groan of appreciation into the blonde's mouth as her tongue gently enticed her own.
It was one of a million things she adored about her girlfriend; how damned good'a kisser she was. Always had been; Right from the very start. Their first proper kiss had been like a thousand fireworks exploding all at once and yet every single time she seems to find a way to top the last kiss. It sounds clichéd but the firework display would increase in magnitude with every touch and every soft moan.
She couldn't get enough of the way the blondes tongue danced intensely with her own. Sparring in a battle for dominance, yet at the same time remaining ever so gentle.
Somehow, every soft collision managing to send her mind further into overdrive as she'd lose herself completely in the kiss. Succumbing completely to Sian's every move; Putty in her hands.
There really was no other way to describe kissing Sian. It was just heaven.
"Do you have to do that in public?"
Sophie ripped her lips away and span round, breaking Sian's hold, to see Ryan stood a few metres away scowling; The only other person in the entire flippin' world to have had the satisfaction of kissing HER bird and BOY did she hate him for it.
"It's a free country RYAN!" She glared grasping Sian's hand.
"Yeah ... don't mean I have to witness THAT does it?" He scoffed "Public street..."
"Oh just DO ONE Ryan" Sophie shouted, glaring furiously in true Kevin style, to which he returned equally as venomously. He gave HER Sian a soft look before turning on his heels and skulking off round the alley.
Sophie's stomach knotted together in jealousy, her mind racing in pure hatred for the git, as she glared in the direction he left.
Only she was allowed to look at Sian like that! Sure he may have done once, but he lost that right a year ago didn't he? HA! Sucks to be him! Not that he should ever have had it in the first place. Dirty Slime ball! Twat ! Pure fucking gobshite, bleeding wanker... stupi...
She was broken abruptly from her inner rant as Sian gave her hand a comforting squeeze. She snapped her head to look at the blonde, softening her gaze.
"Sorry , I just hate him so much!" She huffed leaning across to press their lips together quickly.
"Don't rise to it babe..." Sian soothed gently when they pulled apart, stroking her thumb delicately over Sophie's hand.
Sophie lips turned up at the gesture, suddenly grateful for her presence. Sian always calmed her down.
"I'll see you later yeah?" She murmured pulling away to the extent that their linked hands would allow; giving her one last loving glance before reluctantly letting go and heading to the shop.
Sian beamed as she wandered over to the bus stop, pulling out her Ipod to listen to the playlist she so treasured. It was 100% solely about her girlfriend; every last song chosen carefully in a true reflection of everything she loved, cherished and even, dare she say it, disliked about her girlfriend. Every single lyric meaning the world, every song holding a very special place in hers, and in some cases, both their hearts as they collectively grouped together to form the perfect hour of bliss. And to top it all off it was very aptly named after her. 'My gorgeous Sophie'. Perfect
Bus stop scene
Sian was sat at the bus stop happily humming along to her Ipod when her favourite song came on. 'L.O.V.E' by Jessie J. Words couldn't even begin to express how much it meant to her. It made her cry and it made her smile every single time she listened to it because it was a song that meant so much lyrically to both of them.
...when you hold me, and you tell me
that you missed me, and call me milky
fuck it, Imma write a song about love, yeea
They both adored the song and each had their own favourite lines that they couldn't resist belting out to one another as they danced around like loony's in the bedroom. It wasn't really a song you could dance to, but hey they still managed to somehow. And if they weren't dancing around they'd be snuggled up together, listening to every single lyric, often with tears streaming down their faces. Yep they were that soppy.
Your my key, you unlock me
keep me close, keep me safe, keep me happy
so sweet, ooooooh looooove
But since the 'James scandal' they hadn't listened to the song. Hearing it again brought that familiar warm feeling to her stomach. It perfectly expressed how they felt for each other. How they understood each other. The song couldn't be more perfect and it wasn't just the lyrics that made her love it so much, but also the fact Sophie would hum when they'd be snuggled up together on the sofa or in bed. Unknowingly serenading her in her own special Sophie way.
It's destiny, so nothing stops me
I'll tell the world that your mine, and you got me
So sweet, ooooooh looooove
She closed her eyes and listened to the lyrics again. If she ever plucked up the courage to sing on a karaoke to Sophie then this would be a top contender for her choice of song. Alongside others like 'just the way you are' and possibly 'The Only Exception' by Paramore. Although she had to admit, her ideal serenade would be a mash up of as many songs from her playlist as she could. Not that she ever thought she would. She'd have to be stone drunk to even consider it.
I'm in loooove,
I'm in love,
I'm in looooooove,
I'm in love,
I'm in loooove,
L.O.V.E love
The beautiful lyrics were bringing back memories of their date and she couldn't stop the grin from spreading across her lips. She just couldn't resist singing along to her favourite line that meant so much to how she felt for Sophie. How their relationship started and explained everything in just one simple line.
See love doesn't choose a boy, or a girl, nope
When I met you, you hugged my heart and filled my world...
"You've still got a gorgeous voice I see". She paused and opened her eyes, to see who had dared burst her little Sophie bubble. Groaning inwardly when her eyes landed on a grinning Ryan perched next to her.
"hmm.." she mumbled "Nice of you to sneak up on meh"
"hey! You were in your own world... flaming Mary in her camper van could have pulled up and you wouldn't have noticed." He chuckled. The familiar sound forced a reluctant smile to her lips. As much as she hated him ... she knew he was alright at heart.
They sat in awkward silence for a while as the song switched to their second favourite song. "My little Bird" by Ed Sheeran. The song working to calm her nerves before she decided to break the ice.
"Why are you here Ryan?"
"Cos i've missed you ..."
She froze "Ryan...You know I'm with Sophie"
"No! Not like that... I mean ...as much as I wish everyday that we could get back together, I'm not an idiot! I know it'll never happen" He mumbled dropping his gaze. "It doesn't mean we can't still be friends does it?"
The frown that was set into her face washed away as the perfect retort died from her lips.
"I ... I don't know." He'd put her on the spot and she hated it. "I mean, you do realise that Sophie hates you, like properly hates you. Seeing you hanging round with me again would drive her insane!"
"She'll get over it! Look please Sian!" he moaned reaching for her hand. She closed her eyes at the touch, trying desperately hard not to rip her hand away. It felt weird; Unnatural after all this time.
"I know it won't happen overnight but I just want to be able to talk to you. I miss you and I know I can't have you. I've spent months wishing I could talk to you in Glasgow. Wishing you was there. Wishing I had someone I could talk to; rely on. And then I find you again in the shop, and my heart stopped. It's pained me for months knowing I can't have you. Knowing that I blew it and she was the one there to pick up the pieces. And now look. She's got you. And at times I bloody hate her for it. But I've grown to accept it, so PLEASE; can we at least be friends?" He pleaded tears threatening to form in his eyes. "I can't lose you a second time"
Sian took a shaky breath, if it weren't for the fact she had never heard him say so much in his life, she'd think it was all bullshit. She'd never seen him look so vulnerable; as much as she hated him for it, it tugged at her heartstrings. Sighing in defeat she reached up mumbling "Come here..."as she pulled him in for a hug.
"You didn't blow it ok ... I just fell in love with Sophie. And I'm sorry but I wouldn't change anything for the world because although you might hate it. I love her..." She trailed off closing her eyes. "We can try to be friends alright. But if there's any funny business, I swear I won't talk to you ever again you hear me" She scolded pulling back, needing to be sure it really was JUST friendship he wanted.
"Loud and clear" he smiled feebly as he chanced a look into the eyes he'd so missed. "Thanks Sian. You and Sophie honestly are good together. She better be treating you right, better than I did anyway" He mumbled, dropping back into silence as they returned to their normal positions on the bench.
After a while he spoke up again. "So err ...How you been?"
"Good... it's been a bit mad round here since you left but were fine" Sian smiled. "What about you? Glasgow nice?"
"It was good yeah" he nodded "I formed a band"
"really? "Sian raised her eyebrows.
"Yeah it's kind of why I'm here" He laughed. "I'm doing a tour with them, and a special guest but I'm not allowed to say who. But were kind of supporting him. The guy sorta got a bunch of new artists in for support acts really."
"That's really good!" Sian beamed, genuinely pleased for him.
"Will you come to one of my gigs?" He uttered feeling hopeful.
"I don't think that's a good idea" She dropped her eyes.
"Please... Sophie can come too; I just want you to see us play. "He pleaded. But seeing the bus coming, he pulled her up and gave her the puppy dog look. "Please?"
Sian rolled her eyes "I'll think about it okay"
Ryan burst into a grin pulling her in for a hug. "I'll see ya around then...Oh! One more thing" He blurted pulling out a card. "It's got my number on it and a picture of the band n stuff, let me know if you'll come yeah."
"yeah, I will!" Sian smiled softly as she turned to get on the bus stuffing it into her pocket.
(Later back in the Shop)
Sophie P.O.V
I hate him, really effing hate him. Who does he think he is?
I've been having this inner rant with myself for the past 4 hours, still stewing over the meeting with Ryan. Yeah I don't mind Sian talking to him, but he's still the homophobic prick he always was! Except it wasn't just that. Oh no...
Dad had popped in earlier to get a pint of milk smiling about somet (least one of us can) but the moment he saw me the dirty little smirk disappeared straight off his face. Almost like he'd forgotten I'd be in work, doing my best to pay him back. But the moment the glint left his eyes it was replaced with a look of such disgust and hatred. I'd shifted my eyes uncomfortably under his gaze before he glared down at the floor as he paid for it refusing to look at me. His own daughter... and he couldn't even look at me.
The encounter had left me feeling unwanted, and confused. Yet no one was there to cheer me up. No one was there to tell me it was going to be ok.
I'd resorted to scowling at the floor wishing the shift would end. It's surprising how boring a few hours by yourself actually are. I mean, I thought it would at least help me clear my head. But all I've been thinking is Ryan this, Dad that, Sian this, Sian that. Nothing to distract me. It's not like the radio's been playing anything decent either. I'm not gona lie, it's played the odd good song here and there, but the amount of god awful songs it plays completely drowns out the odd few good ones. And sure enough the next song switched to another 70's dodgy song. No offence to the artist, but REALLY not my cup o' tea.
I huffed throwing my head back in frustration. Muttering "Flamin hell" to anyone who could be arsed to listen. Enough was enough. I stormed over to the radio to turn it off mumbling a few choice curses at it before storming back to the counter to begin humming my own favourite tunes instead to stem the boredom. I only stopped belting out "my little bird" when the door was rudely thrown open. I opened my mouth to give a bollocking at whoever was about to come through but stopped dead when a distraught Amber stormed in.
Normal p.o.v
"Whoah whoah, what's wrong? Sophie called charging out from behind the counter towards her.
"It's my dad! "Amber sobbed. "He's kicked me out the house. Him and flippin sunitta, I don't think I've got anywhere else to go!"
Sophie was lost for words. She opened and closed her mouth in shock, trying to get some sort of sound out but ended up mastering the perfect goldfish impression instead. Not knowing what else to do she extended her arms and pulled Amber in for a hug trying to calm her down murmuring soothing words. She prayed like hell that Sian didn't walk in as she would have a tough time explaining this one to her.
When Amber eventually stopped crying she pulled back with a face of determination. "I need some house listings! " She mumbled reaching for the nearest paper.
"Don't you think your rushing into it a bit? I mean they might change their minds?"
"Sophie! They've kicked me out, I've got nowhere else to go! "She exclaimed "I've gotta look now. Besides, I can't do it tonight I'm going out with Tommy!"
"But... "Sophie began but was interrupted by a flustered Dev and Sunitta charging in.
"Heya Sophie... can you finish here today? We'll continue your pay for the rest of the day"
"Uh yeah sure "she called knitting her eyebrows together in confusion before grabbing her stuff and leaving the shop.
*later on *
"Hey babe" Sian called as she walked in through the door "your home early!"
Sophie glanced up from the sofa. "Heya."
Sian frowned "uh is that it?" she questioned dropping down next to Sophie, a look of feigned hurt on her face as she grasped her chest dramatically.
"Hello my gorgeous, amazing, sexy girlfriend" Sophie murmured rolling her eyes.
"That's more like it" Sian grinned reaching over to press a sloppy kiss to her cheek before getting up to make them some tea. "How was your day then babe?" she called from the kitchen
"s'alright..." Sophie mumbled not taking her eyes off the tele.
"Did you miss meh?" Sian chuckled
"Course! It was your last day right?"
"Yeah so you won't have to die of boredom tomorrow in your morning shift. I'll come save you!"
Sophie continued staring ahead calling out a quick "cheers."
Sian's grin faded. "What's up?"She spoke softly, coming to stand by the sofa
"nothing."
"Soph don't lie to me ..."
"it's my dad... He came in today" Sophie scowled
"Well that's a good thing right?"
"No! Cos he didn't even look at me. Sian you should have seen the look on his face! He... he flaming hates me" she stumbled letting out a sob.
"Hey hey shhh" Sian rushed to sit down next to her, pulling the brunette against her chest. "He doesn't hate you!" she soothed pressing a kiss to the top of her head.
"You coulda fooled me" Sophie sniffed
Sian let out a grumbled sigh coming to the realisation that Sophie was in no mood for persuasion on the matter. She pressed her chin down on the top of Sophie's head rubbing her arms softly. "Just don't think about it eh "
Sophie let out a small sigh of agreement closing her eyes.
"How was your last day?" she sniffed.
"It was kinda boring, just loads of assemblies n crap like that..." Sian trailed off suddenly remembering about Ryan. Should she tell her? Part of her was saying she should but another was screaming rather dramatically at her 'She'll hit the roof!'
But they shared quite literally everything right?... And they never kept secrets before they got together. So why start now?
She let out a slow shaky breath before deciding.
"I uh... I bumped into Ryan at the bus stop."
"You what?" Sophie frowned pulling back. "He walked off round the back though ? What did he want?"
Sian paused trying to think how best to phrase her next sentence, so Sophie wouldn't kick off. "He just..." She started, closing her eyes before starting again " he just talked to me; he says he wants to be friends again."
"Yeah ...friends!" Sophie scoffed
"No honest! That's all he wants, he even said we were good together!"
Sophie paused not quite believing her ears. "This is Ryan Connor were talking about here right..?"
"Course! I think he's grown up a bit in Glasgow."
Sophie frowned in confusion before pressing her head back onto Sian's chest. "That's all he wanted? "
"Well err. He sorta invited us to come see him play with his band sometime."
Sophie closed her eyes and tried to calm down. No use. "He wants you back" she growled through gritted teeth.
"No he doesn't don't be daft!"
"Sian don't... You know he does. Hell, look at you! "She huffed pulling back again to make her point "Frankly You've never looked more friggin' gorgeous. Of course he wants yeh back" she dropped her gaze. That familiar feeling of jealousy creeping in.
It was times like this she really doubted Sian's love for her. A part of her could never quite comprehend why Sian did...How she could possibly love her. She often wondered what exactly made her change her mind and come back to see her all those months ago. She trusted her with her heart but, being as gorgeous as she was, it was so hard to believe that Sian truly did want her. John Mayer expressed her thoughts perfectly in her favourite song of his. 'You're body is a wonderland'.
'Damn baby ...you frustrate me, I know your mine all mine all mine but you look so good it hurts sometimes"
The words rang through her mind like a record stuck on repeat.
Sian was so damned gorgeous. It hurt her knowing she could have anyone in the world if she wanted. Anyone at all. Because all she'd have to do was bat an eyelid and they'd be putty in her hands, just like she is. And yet for some incredible reason Sian was with her. Sian wanted her...
Sian closed her eyes and softly rubbed them. "He says he's moved on though... "
Sophie scoffed in response.
"Look even if he did..."
"See..." Sophie butted in
"Let me finish ... even IF he did, he won't get me back. It's you... "She trailed off reaching to cup Sophie's cheek with one hand softly rubbing it with her thumb. "...I love. No one else not ever! We've had this conversation before and I promise my response is still the same. Always will be" She ducked her head to meet Sophie's gaze. "You just gotta trust me"
Sophie's face softened as she admitted defeat. "I do trust you" she mumbled dropping her hands to Sian's legs. "I'd trust you with my life..."
A small smile tugged at Sian's lips at these words. "Look!" She began, placing a finger under Sophie's chin. "We don't have to go see him play, we can stay in tonight babe, I know you're upset okay." she soothed wrapping her arms around the brunette, cuddling her tighter.
Sophie let out a contented sigh before softly closing her eyes and dropping her head back down snuggling into her girlfriend. Sian really was too good for her at times.
They stayed snuggled up together for a few hours, drifting off into a blissful sleep before the sound of the front door opening awoke Sian as Sally walked in calling out "Girls I'm back!". She paused when she caught sight of them on the sofa, partially lying down cuddling into one another.
Softly gazing at them she couldn't stop her smile. There was just no denying it, they looked adorable. She turned to silently pad in the kitchen. Frowning when she caught sight of the unfinished cups of tea. As she tried picked one up she knocked it over by accident "oh... sugar!" she hissed.
"It's alright" Sian called softly "I'm awake."
"Sorry love." Sally spoke in a soft voice coming to stand back in view and caught sight of Sophie's mascara streaked face.
"Is she alright?"
"Yeah. It's just Kevin. He wasn't particularly nice to her at the shop."
Sally's mouth opened in shock before twisting into a frown of rage. "I'll flaming kill him!"
"No Sally don't. I think Sophie wants to sort it out with him herself "she murmured trying not to wake the sleeping beauty on top of her as she rubbed her sides softly.
Sally bit back her retort and sighed "okay love... aww look she's ruined your top!"
Sian glanced down at the head on her chest spotting the huge black stain by Sophie's eyes. She let out a soft laugh. "Doesn't matter, didn't like it anyway"
Sally smiled gently, as she turned back to the kitchen to make them both a cup of tea. Except when she returned she found Sian fast asleep.
Not having the heart to wake them, she padded upstairs to retrieve a duvet, softly draping it over them.
She stood back to admire the sight. Young love at its sweetest. Despite how she felt, she couldn't deny them the title of 'cute couple'.
There were still times when it would hit her again that Sophie was indeed a Lesbian, and part of her still couldn't understand it. But the rest of her was growing to accept it because, well how couldn't she?
She couldn't have asked for a better partner for Sophie if she'd tried. The way they understood each other perfectly, they could even finish each other's sentences at times they were that close. She smiled softly at the thought. She was finally realising that Sian was perfect for her.
Sighing she turned away wishing with all heart that she could meet someone half as decent. Her Sophie was very lucky. Despite all the family disasters she'd forced her daughter in the middle of; Sophie had managed to find something worth fighting for, worth living for. And she was proud.
Authors notes : So yeah ... I wrote this BEFORE I read the spoilers and just reading over this now is making my heart ache. The blissful moments before it all kicks off.
It's been REALLY tough trying to write the next couple of chapters... Now knowing how it's all going to end. This fic was intended to be fillers for the storylines and it's going to kill me writing anything happy again I sound pathetic i know but I'm genuinely gutted about how they plan to handle Sacha's (Sian) exit. But hey, nothing we can do except cry when the scenes air! Lol but seriously i think i might.
Thanks for reading this fic so far! I'll try to get next chapter up soon. Finding it hard to write though. Sorry !
But on a lighter note... Im proud of this chapter. Considering i hate anything i write, thats good for me Haha :)
