Notes: Again I have to apologize, I told you a date and I am REALLY late. Sorry for the few who waited for it, I'll finish it. I don't know when, I don't know how many chapters they'll be but I won't give up! To make up for the deadline failure this one is a little bit bigger than the previous ones.
Hope you'll like it !
Anthea.
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Chapter 7 - If I had… If I had not
"_Yonekuni ! Don't you dare speak to your mother like that !
_The hell I will ! Do you really think I'll just say yes ? I'm not stupid !"
The croco was pacing, not able to calm down. "Like if I would let you do that !"
His mother wore an uptight smile upon her face, "Oh my… you're still a kid, I see, still so… impulsive.", her smile faded instantly and her eyes turned evil, "You'd better behave with me kid, I have every information you need to find him.
What was his name already ? Sh... Shogo ?
_Shiro. His name is Shiro.
_Yeah… Do you want to know where he is? With who he is ?...
_Don't try to trick me like this, I know how it works and I won't fall for it."
No matter how hard he wanted to know all about the wolf, agreeing to one of his mother's plan was like signing his own death warrant.
"Hmm… So, he's not worth it after all ?
_I told you once, stop it. There's no point in trying to prove him I'm serious if it's to have a breeding session with someone else after !
_What a loss… 'should wish you good luck then.
_Tsk."
*** Yonekuni POV ***
Despite all their effort -and money-, the security staff of the airport refused to let Father and Kunimasa watch the records of the camera videos… added to the fact that Shiro used another name in Okinawa, it made us realize we would surely never find him even with the detective help.
I decided to stay in London for the moment, with father and David.
They proposed me to stay in their flat, it was a good opportunity to change my mind and to think seriously and get some peace. I knew that alone I couldn't do more than I had; I only had to wait until the detective could give us his report. But times passes more slowly since he left…
"Yonekuni?, father's voice interrupted my train of thought, would you mind going out with us for a walk ? It would be good for you, you know, to get some fresh air…
_Hmm… Don't know, maybe later but..
_Max! Phone for you, David came in as always with a wide smile on his face, so.. you comin' with us? I 'now some good Restaurant and I know for sure you'll like it! Japanese of course!
_Yonekuni, you go with him. This call is important and I have to go, please be a good son and try not to kill him!
_So?"
Eating with David had been a far easier experience than I thought, he had not tried to hug nor kiss me.
In fact, it had even lighten my mood a little.
"Y'know, you resemble him a lot.
_Hmm?
_Maximilian, you resemble him a lot, not only physically but mentally too.
He was like you, afraid of what he could feel or be.
He was so hesitant… What will they say? What does it looks like? We should not do this in public…
Of course it was not easy; it took him time to be okay with their glances, the non-Madarui ones.
But then he realized, it didn't matter, they didn't matter; he loved me and I loved him, our relatives supported us and that was all, there was no need for more.
Did you know…, he stopped for a while hesitating whether or not to tell me, did you know that he escaped before Hidekuni's birth ?
_What?!
_He was so afraid to be a bad father, to mess up everything, afraid that I'll leave him or about anything that could have happened... he just panicked.
You don't realise how important you are to him… His little precious baby, the one he couldn't raise.
He... he thinks that if you dislike men this much this is because of him, because he abandoned you.
_Bu-but I…
_Hahaha! I know, I know it's because you hated when I cuddled you too much, but you were so cuuuu-te!" David is the only person I know who can switch so easily between seriousness and levity. In a way, it was refreshing.
"More seriously, don't be afraid; if he's the one your soul truly desires, you'll find him. No matter how far he is, how desperate you may be and how long it may take… you'll be reunited, believe me. The animal inside is never wrong; always follow him because he knows what's good for you.
Yonekuni, don't give up.
_Why are you so sure? How do you know?!
_I already told you, you resemble him so much." He just smiled at me and patted my shoulder, heading us to the main streets.
"David! I have something I want to do before going home; I'll be quick so tell Father not to worry.
_Don't you want some company?
_No thank you, I want to be alone.
_Okay sweetheart! Don't get lost!"
I walked around a little bit, wandering the streets freely when I found myself in front of a small but chic store, unsure about what to do. After five minutes of internal debate, which must have seen pretty strange, I finally decided to enter.
I suddenly felt really bad and pathetic while looking at the products, deep inside I knew I loved Pres', I knew he was the one for me; the only one who could forgive, support and love me, he was even my first love.
If I had admitted that I loved him, instead of being so stubborn and rejecting him…
I still don't know what I rejected so much, the fact that I might be gay or the fact I could be in love with Pres', the plain and boring class President; what a fool I was, he was everything but plain.
His smile, his face, his body, the way he cares about others, but especially his secret and passionate side; everything he was seduced me.
"Maybe if I had done something sooner, he would have stayed. If I had not..
_Good afternoon Sir! Is there something I could do for you? Do you want to see our special products? We guarantee the highest quality of course."
A tall and read-haired woman asked me with a lecherous smile, I could almost see her tail swinging, looking at a heavy-weight.
"Ye-yeah, why not?"
"Hello?
_ […]
_ Yeah. Maximilian, Phone! It's S I P!
_ Yes ?! […] What? Thank you, we'll go!
David, call Yonekuni! Now! They found him!
_ Where is he ?!
_ He has been registered in a hospital in Northern Europe!"
This day, they all left the flat in a kind of a hurry.
When they closed the door, the phone was ringing but they chose not to answer it. If only they had known…
"Hmm... Hello, well… my name is Thorsten and I am a current friend of Fujiwara Shiro,
there is something urgent he needs to talk about to your eldest son,
his step-mother told me to call him here.. It really is urgent so please call me back!"
