Author's Note: Been having writer's block for this story. XD I got the story all planned out from point A to point Z but those in between it has yet to be thought of. I'm trying to work it out one by one while I got the time. So sorry for the wait.
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Chapter 7
Resolve
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When Kagome got back from his session with Toga, Sesshoumaru was already in her room, busy with the paperwork. He walked over to the desk and sat opposite of her. The desk was littered with papers and he shuddered at the work his wife had to do.
'She was really something.' He thought as he admired her resolve.
Toga had told him everything about Sesshoumaru. How she had strived to do everything to change herself. She had trained and fight through the rank to reach where she is now. She had educated herself in everything possible and gone to war with her father every single time. The reputation she got on the battle field was true to her name, the Killing Perfection.
This was the first time he had seen another female aside his mother with so much resolve. After his father died, his mother had tried to pull it through and act as if she was not touched by the death of her spouse. She was strong as she tried to take care of him and his brother. Even the harsh treatment of his uncle had not brought her down.
He had always admired and respected his mother. He had never viewed women as anything lesser than men. If he can have a word in it, he had to say that a woman is a whole lot stronger than a man can ever be but Sesshoumaru had done the opposite.
She had shunned her female side rather than embrace it. 'Does the demon view female as something less in their society, like us human? Is this why she had done so much to erase her true self?'
His thought was broken when a knock resounded from the door. The door slid open and the demon allowed himself in. Kagome narrowed his eyes at the demon. He looked like a frog but with a beak. He was relatively small as well and he was doing his best to balance the tray of sake bottle and cup on his puny little hands.
"Lord Sesshoumaru, I have brought you your potion." He put the tray on the table next to her and bowed.
"You may leave now, Jaken."
"Yes milord." He bowed again and before walking out of the room, he gave Kagome a dirty look. The human gasped and glared back at him.
'What did I do to deserve that look?' Kagome asked himself.
Sesshoumaru ignored them and downed the whole bottle, forgoing the cup. Kagome looked on as she took the whole bottle. 'Is this the potion which Toga mentioned that she took to keep herself from going into heat? It smelled like sake to me.'
As Sesshoumaru finished the last drop, she threw the bottle onto the wall as the potion did not relieve her like it used to. It did not help matter much that her mate was sitting right in front of her. She had tried to ignore him the best she can but her resolve was breaking.
"Jaken! Bring me another potion."
"Yes milord." The servant's squeaky voice could be heard from behind the screen doors. Kagome looked from the door and back to her. She was panting and her hand was gripping the table, creating claw marks on it.
The servant came back with another bottle and she downed it in one gulp. She asked him to bring more and Jaken did as he was told. One more bottle and then two more followed.
Kagome was getting worried when Sesshoumaru grabbed her stomach as if she was in pain after the seventh bottle. The demon fell onto her side, as sweat marred her face.
"Sesshoumaru, are you alright?" He got up and moved to her. His eyes widened when he saw blood staining the white of her pants. She was bleeding. "Sesshoumaru hang on." The demon closed her eyes as her consciousness began to leave her.
Kagome panicked and called for help. The servants heard him and came to help. They were shocked to see an unconscious Sesshoumaru and quickly carried her into the infirmary.
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Kagome paced outside the infirmary in fear. 'I should have stopped her. This was all my fault.'
When Toga heard the news, he rushed to the infirmary. He saw his son-in-law pacing back and forth and decided to ask him what had happen.
"She drank seven bottles of that potion you speak off and began to bleed. She fell unconscious after that. I'm so sorry father. I should have stopped her. I was right there, looking at her trying to hurt herself. I'm so sorry."
The demon lord closed his eyes. 'That silly daughter of mine had finally done it. If anything happen to her, I'm going to teach her a lesson for this.'
The healer stepped out and looked at both of them. "She is conscious now. She will be fine once she got enough rest."
Toga stepped in front of the healer. "What about her womb? Did she ruin it? Is that why she bleeds heavily?" He could smell blood wafting heavily from the room. Kagome's eyes widened at the question.
'What if she could never bear any child anymore?' He began to think.
The healer shook her head. "If she had continued on, it will be but for now, her womb is fine. Her bleeding was a warning. Her body is trying to heal itself now. She will need plenty of rest."
"Can we see her?" Kagome asked. The healer nodded and let them through. Sesshoumaru was sitting on the bed looking out the window and away from them.
Toga walked over to her and slapped her face. "Do you know what you could have done?"
Sesshoumaru wiped the blood away from her mouth as she looked at her father. "What differences does it make if I have lost it?" A bruise was developing on her cheek from the slap she had gotten. Kagome had winced when the slap resounded around the room.
The older demon was fuming and he sat down on the floor, looking defeated. "All this time Sesshoumaru, I did not judge you. I did not shun you just because you are my daughter. I have not treated you differently. I accepted you for who you are. Why do you have to do this to yourself?"
"Accepted me, father? If you have accepted me, you wouldn't have been sleeping with that human woman in order to get a son."
Kagome was shocked to hear that. He did not know that part of the story about the demon lord. 'An affair with a human?'
"Sesshoumaru, I did take Izayoi in because I wanted a son. I loved her and Inuyasha was the product of our love."
"I do not wish to hear this, father. I tire of this foolishness. I need to rest." The younger demon laid facing away from them and covered herself.
Toga got up and looked at his daughter. "I'm so sorry, Sesshoumaru. I did not know you have thought of it as such all this time. I'm sorry."
To Be Continue
