Chapter 7

I woke up with a splitting head ache. I could feel the dry tears from the night before and the dry blood all over my arms. I got up and had another shower. I was surprised that none of the Cullens had come here. I thought Alice would see what had happened at the very least and Carlisle would have come over. I got dressed in my black leggings, black tank top and I decided that I would put my mini skirt over the top. I just wanted to have one more day with wearing my favourite clothes before my life changes. I made sure that my hair was severely straight. People could see my tattoo and my tank top only came down three quarters down my stomach. I wanted people to see the Bella Sawn at her extreme. I painted my nails black and my eyeliner was really thick. I had a feeling that today I would go out with a bang because it was just the way I wanted to say goodbye to the old/new me. After today I was going to be saying goodbye and I will start my recovery.

I decided that the cuts on my arm and hand from last night weren't deep enough to need a bandage so I left it bare. They looked fare deep but I don't care. I knew that even though the cuts were made last night that the Cullens would still be able to smell it. They weren't that deep so Jasper would be able to control himself. I doubles checked my appearance before I left the house and I knew I looked like an anorexic slut and emo but like I had thought before I wanted to go out big.

I arrived at school 15 minutes early. The Cullens were waiting for me just to make sure I was okay. I looked in the mirror at myself and said "Remember our deal I have until 12 midnight until you are allowed to interfere in my life. I love you all but this is what I need to do."

I got out of the car and I watched their expressions. There was shock and anger. I walked past them and I could hear growls coming from Edward. I just said "I am going out with a bang." As I walked past. I swear I heard Edward say "You are in so much trouble when you get home." I just laughed and said "Bite me."

I was actually enjoying this. I knew that there would be major consequences but that was the idea. I loved the thrill. When I walked into the hall way to go to English I noticed everyone gasp and move out the way of me. I heard snickers and comments about my tattoo. I just loved the thrill of my last day before I had to turn myself over to the Cullens and I knew that they would make me open up about everything. They would rip open my stitches. I would be in what felt like torture so this is part of what I needed to do.

The day passed and I decided that I really needed to step up my game. I walked in to the lunch room and sat at a table by myself. I decided to take my gloves of to reveal my cuts and scars. I knew the Cullens would be watching but I didn't care. I walked past Jessica Stanley's table when I heard Lauran make a comment.

"Geez Bella you are really looking like an emo slut today. Is there a special occasion as to why you are?"

I smiled and said "Actually there is Lauran; today is the day I beat the shit out of you in front of the whole school because you have had it coming for ages."

"What ever Bella, you can try but you won't get very far. And stop using your parents' death as an excuse to act and look like you do. No one cares what you think anymore Bella Swan, not anymore."

In that instant I grabbed Lauran and shoved her onto another table. She started to punch me but she didn't get very far as I had her pinned down. I punched her in the stomach two times. She gasped for air. She shoved me off of her and I fell to the ground. I got up so quickly and I shoved at her again. This time I had her against the wall.

She slapped me across the face and I just laughed. "Boy Lauran is that all you got. Are you going to go for the hair pulling next?" Lauran was a good fighter and I knew that. But the thing was I was better. I twisted my leg against hers and dropped her. She fell really hard to the ground. I made sure that she didn't hit her head though because I didn't want to kill her. She pulled me down on top of her. I was straddling her, I went to punch her in the face when cold hands wrapped around me and pulled me off. I thought it was Edward at first but it was Emmett. It tried to struggle against him but there was no luck. "Let go of me Emmett I am not finished with her yet."

"There is no way I am letting you go. You are a hazard on two feet."

Lauran called out at that moment and said "Can't finish a fight for yourself boy you are an emo slut."

"This isn't over bitch."

Emmett dragged me out of the lunch room and made me stand near the car whilst my anger was flaring.

"Let me go Emmett. You aren't meant to get involved in my life until after 12 midnight tonight."

"No fucking way. Where did you learn to fight like that anyway? You are one dangerous woman. Deals off by the way, you finally went too far by dressing like you did and acting like you did."

"That's not fair. This is bullshit. Let me go!"

The rest of the Cullens walked out in that instant and I felt a wave of calm. Jasper was using his ability to calm me down. I hated when he did that. I struggled against Emmett to try and get away. Edward noticed me struggling and took hold of me. I was thrown in the back of the Volvo with Edward on my left and Emmett on my right. Edward held onto my right hand and Emmett held onto my left. I knew there was no point struggling against them because I wouldn't be able to.

No one talked on the ride home and I knew I would be in a lot of trouble. Edward looked over my right arm as that was the one that went through the mirror. Carlisle would kill me. When we got to the Cullens house I stepped out of the Volvo only to have Edward lift me up bridal style and bring me into the house. He dropped me on the couch and told me if I knew what was good for me to sit down and be quiet.

So now I am sitting on the couch and waiting for Carlisle to come home. I knew that I was in trouble but I just didn't know how much. I grabbed my iPod and turned it onto Eminem and Rihanna Love the way you lie. I sat there waiting for what seemed forever. I turned my arms over and looked at what I had done. I felt bad now. I was so stupid. I just don't know who to deal anymore. I need to get my life back on track but I just don't want to give it up. It is part of my pain relief. It is how I express what I am feeling.

Carlisle must have walked in because my earphones were out of my ears and Edward, Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie and Alice were all in the room. I guessed Esme was out hunting because I don't think she would want to be here for this.

"What happened?" Carlisle asked looking at me.

I let out a sigh and said "Well you see I was minding my own business when I got into a fight with Lauran and Emmett came and took me off her. Now I am here. The end"

"Not funny Bella. Why did you get into a fight?"

"I don't think it is funny either Carlisle and I got into a fight because she said to stop using your parents' death as an excuse to act and look like I do. She said that no one cares. Oh and she called me a slut but I let that slide because I do look like one but that is beside the point. She deserved everything she got and if Emmett didn't pull me off I would have had her begging for me to let her go. She is a whore and the whole school knows it."

"Bella that language stops now! This is not a joke anymore. You seriously need help. Now I can smell blood on you and it is yours. How did it get there?"

"I couldn't deal last night I wasn't paying attention and I was in the bathroom. I screamed to my reflection yelling 'its all your fault'. I punched the bathroom mirror by accident. I didn't know exactly what came over me. I was just looking at myself and the next thing I knew my fist went through the glass. But that is not the issue. I had 48 hours without any of you interfering with my life. Lauran and I were just blowing off some steam. It is not a big deal. Geez it's not like the world is going to end "

"Right, well at least you are being truthful. Now I am sorry about Charlie and Renee but as of now you are my adopted daughter. The forms have been signed and approved. This cutting stops now, you will dress in what we tell you and you will follow instructions that you are given. Is that clear?"

"This is shit you are not my father and I am old enough to make my own decisions. Edward please say something."

"Bella this is for your own good. You chose your choices and they were bad now you have to deal with the consequences. I love you but there is no way that I am going to just watch you throw your life away."

"I am not a child and there is not way I am going to let any of you treat me like one. I am capable of living my own life and I am not going to throw my life away."

"Bella when you stop acting like a child then you can be treated like an eighteen year old. Until then you will do as you get told!"

I just sat there looking pissed. Edward and Carlisle were right I was acting like a child but this is just ballshit.

"Hey Bella I just want to let you know that when you become a vampire I would love to go up against you in a fight. I have a feeling I would be a little scared because you looked like one scary bitch" Emmett and Jasper laughed just then and I couldn't help but laugh myself. Edward glared at him and Rosalie just hit him which then caused Alice to laugh. Carlisle just stood there and shoock his head.

I got up then and said "Emmett you're funny and if I were up for it I would take you on now. I know you are a hell of a lot stronger then me but I would still do it. You never know I could probably teach you some things."

"Very funny Bella I doubt there is anything you can teach me."

"Oh I don't know, I mean I have been fighting for a while and I was constantly working on my moves. There wasn't much else to do when you all left. I did get a laugh at what I did to the school though. That kept me entertained for a while." I just smiled and I could see shock expressions on everyone's faces. I knew one of them would ask me. Amazingly it was Jasper.

"Bella what did you do?"

I decided to smile and say "Oh I had my fun and games. I guess you guys rubbed off on me the last time you were here."

"I don't believe you."

"No okay but I suggest that tomorrow at school you check the other school roof that we were not on yesterday, because you should see a massive 'life sucks…deal with it' sign spray painted in black across it. There should also be initials is the corner reading 'I.S.' for Isabella Swan. So check it if you don't believe me. Now I am going to go to Charlie's house so I can get changed and start packing."

"There is no need to go there Bella I already have most of your clothes here. I knew you would have needed them." Alice said still looing amazed at what I had said before.

"Well I guess I am going to go and get changed. Excuse me."

I walked up the stairs and went into Edwards's room. I had my top off and just about to change my skirt when Carlisle walked in. I gasped, I must not have heard the knock at the door.

"I have come to check your cuts from last night also I need to weigh you so I can arrange a schedule for you to get back to proper health."

"My cuts are fine and I don't need to be weighed."

"Did you miss the part where I told you down stairs that you will do as you are told? Now give me your hands."

I just stood there with my arms crossed. There was no way that I was going to just give him my arms and let him weigh me. Not going to happen.

"Rosalie can you please come in here, Bella is deciding to be difficult."

In an instant Rosalie was in Edwards room and holding my arms steady for Carlisle. I just stood there getting really angry.

"I don't need any of your help. I don't need this shit in my life! It would be so much easier if everyone just leaves me the HELL ALONE! ITS YOUR FUCKING FAULT I AM LIKE THIS! IF YOU ALL DIDNT LEAVE BECAUSE EDWARD DECIDED THAT IT WAS A FUCKING GOOD IDEA I WOULD NEVER OF BEEN LIKE THIS!"

I was angry. I was breathing so hard that it was getting hard to breathe. Nothing felt right inside. I wasn't numb anymore. I had full fled emotions and feelings and it wouldn't turn off.

"I FUCKING HATE YOU JASPER! I WOULDNT BE FEELING WHAT I AM IF YOU DIDNT MAKE ME!"

"Bella, Bella you need to calm down. You will do more damage to your arms if you don't." It was Carlisle talking but my brain wouldn't register what the words meant.

I kept breathing hard until I felt like I was choking. This time Rosalie tried talking to me.

"Bella, breathe like this." She was taking in slow breathes but I was too out of it.

"Jasper get in here. I need you to try and clam her otherwise I will have to sedate her."

Jasper was sending me a wave of calm but I was starting to black out from the lack of air in my lungs.

"Bella I am going to give you a sedative. You will calm down and you will fall asleep."

I felt a slight prick in my arm and then I was out like a light.