Chapter 7

I know I said there was going to be more Dez and Trish in this chapter, but I lied. :)) Haha, this story took a totally different turn. There will deff be more spying and stuff later, and lots of secrets revealed :)

Austin's POV

I walk Kira home after the Zombie Slayer movie ends. "Wasn't that the best movie ever?" Kira asks, bouncing along the sidewalk swinging our hands. Ally is sort of bouncy too. "Yeah!" I say, pretending to be enthusiastic. I had a lot more fun the first time. Probably because Ally was with me. "Well I'm glad you liked it! See that's why I'm a good girlfriend. I know what you like," she says and smiles at me. "Yup," I answer. Ally knows me too. Probably better than Kira. And I know that I know Ally a lot better than I know Kira.

"What's wrong, babe?" Kira asks after a little while of silence. "Nothing, I just have a lot on my mind," I say and shrug. "Wanna talk about it?" she suggests. "No, I think this is something I got to figure out on my own," I say and sigh. Her face looks worried, but not with concern for me. She's more concerned that I'm going to breakup with her. I can see right through her eyes.

I walk her up to the porch where she turns and faces me. "Thanks Austin, this was really fun. You're the best," she says. Suddenly, guilt surges through me. Here Kira was, giving me all of her love and happiness, and the whole night I was thinking about Ally. I can't help it though. Maybe I should kiss Kira, and then see if I feel sparks.

I brush my hand on her cheek and then lean in. I put my arms around her waist and her's go around my neck. I press my lips softly to hers. Nothing. No sparks. No fireworks. Nothing. It feels like I'm kissing a wall. I pull back. "Goodnight Kira," I say and turn to walk off her porch. "Goodnight, Austin," she says, "I love you." I mumble back "me too." and then walk off the porch.

Ally surely went home now. I feel awful that I didn't stay with her. Especially when it was so obvious that she needed me. I sigh. I must call her when I go home... And do my homework.

Ally's POV

After I cried my eyes out at Sonic Boom, I finished my shift and came home. At one point during the night I got a text from Austin. He asked if I was okay. I didn't want to say I wasn't, so I told him to focus on Kira. That's who he likes anyways. Why spend your night worried about me?

Now I'm at home, feeling lousy. I'm laying on bed drowning myself in junk food, or as I prefer to call it "comfort food". I got pickles, fruity mint swirl ice cream, and Oreos. They are the only things getting me by.

Tears are in my eyes again. I wonder if Austin is going to call. He said he'll call me. Maybe he's still out Kira's house. They are probably all snuggled up on his couch sharing pancakes and playing video games. He's probably saying how beautiful she is and how much she loves him. Ugh.

After a little while, my phone rings. I reach over to my nightstand, grab my phone and a tissue in the process. I blow my nose, wipe my tears, clear my throat, and answer the phone. "H-hello?" I say, my voice shaking ever so slightly.

"Hey Alls," I hear the familiar voice say. I hope my voice doesn't sound shaky again when I respond. I breathe in and out and then answer him.

"Hey Austin."

"So, um, how are you feeling?"

"Better. Like I said, don't worry about me. I'll be fine."

"I don't know Ally. You didn't seem alright before. Something's really bothering you. You could tell me. You could tell me anything."

"I want to tell you, I really do, but I'm scared of what you might think."

"What do you think I'll get mad at you or something? You know me better than that."

"Austin, this is not just a family problem or anything I can just spill out. This is a personal struggle."

"Wow. I can't believe you. I thought we were best friends. I thought we're supposed to tell each other everything."

"Austin! Are you getting mad at me?"

"Ugh...no. I just don't understand why you just can't tell me. I mean, it can't be that bad. Everything in your life seems to be going great for you right now."

"Great? Austin, you have no idea what I even go through everyday. You think you know me, but you are fooled by the mask that I put on whenever I'm around you."

"What can you go through that can possibly be so bad. My life is a hell of a lot worse than yours."

"Um, I'm constantly being degraded. Austin, I get the worst side of the stick in everything. Don't you realize? You're life is a lot better than mine. You are a rockstar, you are living your dream. I'm held back from living my dream because I have stagefright. It breaks my heart to see you on stage and realize I'm never going to be able to do that. And you know what else? You have girls waiting on you hand and foot, flinging themselves at you. I never even kissed a guy. You are so confident and cool and I'm not even close to that standard. You have Kira, I don't have anybody." That was so hard to tell him.

"It's not my fault, Alls, that you feel that way. I'm sorry that you feel degraded, but I can't just make your stagefright go away and your confidence grow. And honestly, I think you're very cool. I never thought any less of you, trust me."

"Austin, you only stick around with me because I write your songs. Honestly, besides songwriting you have never shown me any kind of other interest in being around me. Really too often, you say I'm uncool and that offends me. I'm just stating the facts. You wouldn't look twice at a shy girl like me. Admit it."

"I will not admit that because that is not true. I have never once said that I don't like being around you. And sometimes I joke about your uncool personality, but it's a joke. I never knew it hurt your feelings. And you are saying that I wouldn't be friends with you if it weren't for your songwriting? Ally, I have been crazy about you since the second I saw you."

"Hmm, yeah okay. Crazy about me? That's why you turned yourself orange and sweaty? That's why you liked Cassidy and Brooke? That's why you're dating Kira? You have never thought of me anymore than a songwriter and you know it. I don't even know how we can call each other best friends."

"I just admitted my feelings for you and you think I'm lying?"

"Austin, please. Save it. Because you are just using it cause we're arguing. Because you know I can see through your "Ally your awesome" speeches."

"Alls, I never wanted to hurt you."

"That's what you're doing though. Everyday."

"Please tell me how."

"That's what I was crying about to begin with!"

"ME?"

"Austin, look. I know your type of girls are pretty. Gorgeous, whatever. Cheerleaders, fun girls. I'm none of those things. But I just can't believe you never even thought about me than being anything more than I don't know 'Your best friend'. I just.."

"Of course I've considered it and I-"

"You think we should be friends. I get it. But that's not what I want and I can't keep pretending that I do. I like you. Like like you. No, more like I love you. That's what was hurting me. Because I know you don't like me back. You have Kira. This is so embarrassing to admit. Why did I do this!"

"Ally, calm down I-"

"You what? You just want to be friends? Is this an Ally you're awesome speech?"

"Let me tell you what I want to say! Then you'll understand!"

"I don't want to hear it. Leave me alone. I don't want to be best friends, I don't even want to be partners. Leave me alone, before you make me more upset."

"Ally I-"

I hang up the phone. If he says he doesn't like me, it'll tear me apart. I can't bear to hear it. I just lost my whole world. I never cried harder.