Ryan's P.O.V.
Beep. Beep. Beep. That was all I could hear as I started to stir. Where was I? My head hurt. Why did it smell like rubbing alcohol and strong soap? I realized that the beeping was a heart monitor, and I grew concerned as I realized that this was a similar situation that happened to a character in one of my Cry Reads videos. I panicked, thinking that I was in a coma. Then I realized that I could open my eyes, and when I did, I was surprised to find myself in a hospital with an I.V. and I had apparently had a blood transfusion because when I looked at the chart on my bed, it said "3 pints, Type B". How did I end up here? I then remembered what happened: my father.
I woke up about 20 minutes after I had been knocked out. That was what my father had said anyways. He said that he was glad I woke up so fast because he wanted me to witness what he was about to do first-hand. I shook in the confines that he had tied me up in; I was suspended in the air by leather straps that he had apparently brought with him, along with a metal suitcase filled with god knows what. I wasn't surprised that I was gagged with a piece of cloth. "Look over here and see all of the tools that I'm going to use to make you a better son," he said with venom in his voice. I heard the rattling of what I guessed were the "tools". I looked over at him and my eyes went wide. He was currently holding up a vibrating dildo and a ball gag.
"Don't worry son; I'm not going to rape you myself. It would be too easy to trace," he said, smiling evilly. He walked over to me and removed the cloth. Before I could scream, he clasped his hand over my mouth and used his other hand to put the strap over my head. He reached in two fingers and pried my mouth open just enough to put the gag in. I tried to scream, but I was muffled out by the ball gag. "Go ahead and scream; no one will hear you and your desperate attempts will only make this more fun," he said. If I wasn't scared before, I certainly was now. I tried to get out of the straps, but they only dug farther into my skin. He turned on the dildo and placed it at my entrance. I screamed again, thrashing around to avoid the horrible piece of vibrating plastic that horrid man was trying to violate me with. Eventually, he got tired of my struggling and grabbed my hips, squeezing hard enough to leave severe bruises. He shoved the dildo into my ass without lube, patience, or adjusting. I screamed even more as I could feel my hole tearing and blood run down my thighs.
I thought that my entire being was split apart as he began to move that demonic contraption in and out of my ass, using my blood as a lubricant. Tears streamed down my face as he continued to thrust the dildo in and out. I felt horrible. I couldn't believe that this was happening to me. I needed Felix. He was the only person that even knew where I was! Then that man held up a knife and cut a long line on my left hip, releasing even more blood. I could feel my mind become cloudy as the blood kept coming out, refusing to give way. After a while, he finally was satisfied and after pushing the dildo in as far as it would go, eliciting another scream from me, he pulled it out all at once, making me gasp in pain. He took the gag out of my mouth, released me from the straps, packed up all of his things, and left me there to die. It wasn't too long before I passed out, but not before hearing the words "I'll be back for an encore later." With that, it became too much for me, but I could have sworn I heard a door slam and frantic yelling ensue before I became almost lifeless.
Now here I was, fresh tears running down my face as I recollected that nightmarish memory. What if Felix asked me what happened? Would I be able to tell him? I all ready kept the fact that my father had made contact with me a secret; should I really keep this from him too? My head was swarming and I had to clutch my stomach to keep from throwing up as the scenes from my rape kept playing in my head. It wasn't long before a nurse came in to check on me and saw me awake. She immediately rushed out of the room and I heard people talking. The next thing I knew, Felix burst into the room and hugged me, crying into my shirt. I blinked. Why was he crying? Was it because of me?
"Felix… I'm sorry," I said to him, "it's all my fault." He looked up at me, startled. I looked away, and he tilted my head up to look at him.
"Ryan, it wasn't your fault. Don't ever say that," he said sternly, but a worried tone still evident.
"Mr. Terry, I need to speak with you; without your friend," an unknown woman said. I looked at Felix, quietly begging him not to leave. He turned towards the woman and tried to be polite.
"I'm afraid that I can't leave him alone. You see," he said, pulling me closer to him, "Ryan's my boyfriend." I blushed. Boyfriend? Did he really want to date me? He did just break up with Marzia after all; I found that out after watching his video. Was he ready for a relationship? I looked at him. Determination shined in his eyes. The woman spoke again, now hesitant.
"Very well… Mr. Terry, I am with the special victims unit and am aware that you were raped," she said. I froze. I didn't want to think about again. Felix seemed to notice my reaction because he tensed up, ready to speak. I grasped his hand and intertwined my fingers with his, letting him know I was ok. The S.V.U. woman continued. "Do you know who your attacker was?" she asked. I now did not think that keeping Felix here was a good idea, but I couldn't ask him to leave. It would be suspicious.
"It was… Um...," I started to say, my voice giving way the shaking that was overcoming it. "It was…," I sighed. I knew I had to tell the truth. "It was my father," I said, my head bowed down in shame.
"What…? I'll kill him!" he yelled. He started to leave, but I wrapped my arms around his waist, which ended up removing the I.V. drip from my right arm. Felix turned back to me and his eyes softened and he embraced me.
"Ryan…," he said softly. A nurse came in a few minutes later to replace the needle for the drip and left; Felix and I were still in each other's arms as she left. The person from S.V.U. cleared her throat, clearly uncomfortable. Whether it was from the fact that Felix and I were both men or that the show of affection in general bugged her, I wasn't sure. Either way, I turned to face her.
"I need to run a few tests and gather some evidence for you, Mr. Terry," she said.
"That won't be necessary, ma'am," Felix said. "I already had the doctors compose a rape kit for him, including an STD test…with my permission, of course." He then turned to me. "I hope that's all right with you," he said, slight guilt in his eyes. I weakly smiled at him and pecked him on the cheek.
"It's fine, Felix. Thank you," I said. He blushed, and then looked down at the floor.
"Well, I guess that since you don't need anything, I'll be going, and leave you two alone" she said, and I was grateful. Felix chuckled.
"What's so funny?" I asked.
"I just noticed that you haven't worn your mask in about a week," he said. He was right. I had completely forgotten about it. "Oh, that's right, I have to ask you something," he said. I glanced up at him questioningly.
"What is it?" I asked curiously.
"Well…," he began. "Would… you like to move in with me?" he asked hopefully. My eyes widened and I couldn't hold back the grin that had exploded onto my face. His eyes lit up at my reaction.
"Yes Felix, of course!" I exclaimed happily. He smiled and I blushed; he really was handsome. He noticed this and leaned in closely to my ear.
"I love it when you blush," he whispered huskily into my ear. He stood back and laughed slightly as my blush deepened. That seemed to be the reaction he was looking for.
"Felix… Come here," I said in my "deep sultry voice", as Felix had called it. He instantly paled and I held back a chuckle. He knew he was going to get it now. I wiggled my finger for him to come when he did not move immediately. He obediently came to my side and I leaned near his ear similar to how he had done to me. I heard an audible gulp as he tried to swallow the lump in his throat, and smirked as I changed my plan.
I kissed him, hard. He gasped, and I took the opportunity to seize his tongue. I explored his mouth as an adventurer might a cave. I then broke the kiss and he whined slightly, but quickly stopped as I began sucking on his neck, leaving a hickey. He moaned, and once again I stopped my ministrations yet again. I then moved back up to his ear and whispered to him.
"Looks like I win this round," I said teasingly. Surprisingly, he growled in his throat, and kissed me passionately, refusing to release his new found hold on my waist. I gasped at his unexpected actions and moaned as he began kneading my sides, one of the most sensitive spots on my body. He released me as we both needed air. We panted for a little bit before he looked at me, a blush still on his face.
"Want to just call it a tie?" he asked. I laughed.
"Sure; a tie," I agreed. He put his head up against my forehead. "I love you," I said to him.
"I love you too, Ryan," he said. A knock on the door interrupted us and I heard Felix curse. I giggled as he locked the door to prevent anyone from getting in.
"Hey, what the hell man? Let me in!" a voice said from behind the door. I recognized this voice and told Felix to open the door. He reluctantly did so, and Scott came in. Jund, Red, and Spoon came in after him. They all came up to me and gave me a group hug. Felix had called them and told them what had happened to me, so they all got in Jund's car and visited me. He had also called my mother and kept her up to date on the past week and a half. He was so thoughtful and I smiled inwardly at the thought.
"Hey, you guys are crushing me," I said jokingly. We all laughed, and I looked over at Felix, who was still standing near the door, and smiled. He returned it. "Hey, uh… I want to tell you something, friends," I said, and then looked to Felix for approval. He nodded, still smiling. They all looked from me to Felix confused as to what we knew.
"Uh… Felix and I are… well," I wasn't sure how to put this. I looked to Felix for help. He came over to my side and kissed me on the cheek.
"We're dating," he finished for me. My face was now a deeper shade of red than before as I nodded.
"Seriously? That's awesome!" Scott said, hugging me.
"Yeah, actually, I'm moving in with him," I said. Everyone muttered things like "It's about damn time" and "Finally". I guess our love for each other was only unnoticed by us. Felix chuckled again; god, I loved his laugh. After a while of all of us talking, a nurse came in.
"Mr. Terry, you may leave now if you wish," she said, smiling at our little group.
"Woo-hoo; party time!" Scott yelled. Felix looked at me.
"What do you say? Want to party?" he asked. I grinned.
"Ain't no party like a Pewdiepie party," I said, winking at him. He laughed again, and my heart fluttered. After I got out of my hospital gown and into my normal clothes that Felix was kind enough to have Jund bring for me, we all left to go to a karaoke bar. This was going to be one hell of a fun night.
