Chapter 7

Declaimers: I don't own twilight but I do own the notebook, pencil and Laptop in which I wrote this.

First, The reason why I update so late is at the end. Second, this chapter is kind of boring nothing exciting happens, is Elizabeth story , so I'm warning you! ^^'

I was listening to the song Memories from the wonderful band Within Temptation and I was thinking "Wow, is perfect for this chapter!" so if you have time I recommend it to hear it is really beautiful! On with the story!

(Italic are flash backs in a third PoV)

We sat in front of a water fountain, the mall was almost empty I could hear the echo of our own voices. Only some people passing, they give us strange glances, other men wink at us. Idiots, if only they knew what I am…(A/N this one is not flash back!)

Alice non Rosalie were anywhere to be found. I was accompany Bella, my brother's girlfriend. I never thought in my whole life those three worlds could be together, but here she is, sat next to me, the living prove that it was possible. And she wanted to know things about Edward past and family, my past and my family…

"How much have he told you?" I was really curious, has he been avoiding any memory from me so badly? I never thought my absent could hurt him so much. Forgive me but you know why I did it…

She seem to be thinking about it before answer "the only things I know is how his parents died, their names and how Carlisle transformed him, but whenever I asked him for more he just said 'its been so long I forgot' or he quickly change the subject. What hurt me the most was the expression in his face when Aro told him about your…little wish."

"You want to know why it hurt him so much right?"

"Yes, you can said that"

Here I'm bringing that up, something that cause my family so much pain, something I have craved to forget but I know, deep inside, I will never be able to…no matter how much I wished for.

I put my hands on my lap and start playing with them as if they were drums, then I bit my lip, I really dint know where, or how, to start. Should I tell this to a…human?. I pull my legs up circling my arms around them and resting my head on my knees. I can be really childish sometimes.

"I guess you discover how possessive can he be when it comes to someone he love" I looked at her, her answer was a small nod, not looking at me just staring at the empty long hall. "I was not exception, I cant blame him, we have been together all our lives. We did everything together since we were kids, sometimes we where so involve in each other that we forget about the other kids. Whenever there was a bully or a pervert he was there to protected me" I started laughing as I remember that, those perfect days when our only worry was a broken toy " With a single look we understood each other like we could read our minds, and now I think it was possible. But little did we know that was about to end, the influenza spread violently taking all those lives."

After dad died mom wanted us to escape to a safe city, someplace where we could hide from that plague…it was too late she and Edward fell ill, I did escape. About a month later mom died but I resive no news about Edward. I spend four years thinking he was dead, But my sad tears were replaced but more happy ones the day I married the only man I have ever loved. He was the perfect man, perfect husband, perfect father." a sad smile crossed my face when I thought about it, I noticed Bella's gaze on me, now I was the one looking at the empty hall, "I was a mother and… like Esme, my baby died his heart was too weak… I named him Anthony, because he looked like Edward with his, and my mother unusual hair color. I have dad's" I told her taking a small lock of my hair in my hands.

Andrew, my husband was in the hospital, he have an accident at work. One day on my way back home from my daily visit to the hospital I was attacked by some men they almost killed me, then, as if it where a dream I felt a familiar voice, Edward's. He took me to Carlisle…

I heard them talking about transforming me and all that, Edward finally agree. After Carlisle bit me, Edward refused to leave my side during the days of my transformation, he wanted to be with me at any cost. At times there was Edward with his hand in one of mine, Carlisle with my other hand and Esme stroking smoothly my hear like a loving mother would do, she whispered "is ok everything will be fine, hold for a little more' Carlisle too, he told me 'Its almost over be strong, this will pass' but Edward only spoke whenever I scream 'I'm sorry Sister, I'm sorry'. His last word keep dancing in my mind 'I fail to protected you, is all my fault, please forgive me'.

I have never blame him… I have never blame you…" Those last words where more for me than for her.

After I woke up Carlisle explained me everything, what I have become and why. But I refused to believe him, I thought I was dreaming after all everything felt so unreal like a dream. I decided to "play along" that "vampire-mystical-creature-game" because I refused to believe him, for me I was trapped in a dream and I would wake up at any moment. "

One afternoon while Carlisle and Edward planed were we should go, because we needed to move, I went for a walk in a forest near to the city, I was instantly attracted by the most sweetest essence I have ever felt. I followed the source of the smell, I was really surprised to see it came form my house. I was inside before realizing, I followed the delicious smell all the way thru the stairs... There was Andrew, my beloved husband, sat in our bed, the only bed I have ever shared with a man. His back facing me, I could hear his sobs…even his fallen tears when they hit the object he was holding, it was a picture of the three of us. A sleeping Anthony in my arms and his arms around me. A huge smile in both of our faces. I wanted to hug him, to consoled him…but must of everything I wanted to wake up from that stupid dream!" my voice started to grow higher, taking Bella by surprise causing her to jump and almost fell of, I just ignore her and continued talking "I wanted it to be a dream, and that when I woke up I would be in his arm…secured by his words…but what happened was far from that…"

As realizing there was someone behind him he turn around, his eyes wide with surprise when he saw me, but they showed so mush sorrow, he was completely alone and it was my fault… He whispered my name 'Elizabeth' in such a broken dead voice.

At exactly the same moment when he did that, the wing blew thru the open window taking his delicious aroma in my direction. I black out…"

I realized I wasn't talking "After a few minutes I was tacked back to my senses by his last word "Why" only three letters, only one words and it held so much power…

I was in the bed his body resting on my lap, his blood resting on my hands on my clothe, but must importantly…inside me! I drunk his blood! I KILED HIM! I killed my husband…I killed him…

I cradled him in my arms, hiding my head in his hair, and I started to scream the pain I felt have no comparison, not even when I was transforming…

Edward and Carlisle burst thru the door, compassion in Carlisle eyes. He tried to remove Andrew from my arms but I hold him tighter I dint wanted to let go of him, I was screaming all the time. Not even our venom could caused me that agonizing effect. Carlisle hugged me as a attempt to consoled me "calm down, calm down. Take it ease…"

I only answered, like a mantra 'I killed him, I killed him, I killed him'. That was when I finally realized I was in no dream, that everything was real…too real…" I saw Bella's face getting paler, Edward will kill me if something happens to her "Bella? Are you ok? Do you want me to stop here?" she composed her self a little and answered "No…Go on, I'll be fine"

They took me to the house where I run directly in Esme arms, she dint asked my why I was like that she juts sat in the sofa with my head in her lap caressing my hair, while I did the closest thing we do to cry…

After a few minutes I realized Carlisle and Edward were gone I was only with Esme.

'Esme where did Carlisle and Edward go?' I asked her 'Elizabeth… try to listen to me what I'm going to tell you wont be easy for you…but they went to your house-' before she finished I was already running out side the house" With every word coming from my mouth I felt the memories becoming more and more real…

She fallowed the smell of her brother but found the smell of burning woods instead. "NO! What are you doing? STOP!" Edward and Carlisle both turn to look at her. They stand in front of the burning house.

The horror in her face is obvious "NO!" she run in the direction of the fire but Edward stopped her "Sister please calm down, we needed to burn it is the only way" his words are smooth full of concern but she wont listen "But he is in there! My Andrew is inside the house!" Her eye are only in the flames not caring about the others.

"Elizabeth" Carlisle take her face in both hands " Hi is dead, we know is hard for you. But you have to accept that he wont come back" his sweet voice show so much care "understand we cant leave his…bo- we cant leave him like that we need to erase every evidence, the easiest way was to make it look like he died" he is afraid to used those word afraid to brake her even more "in a fire".

Her brother hold her tighter, his arms constricted around her body like a boa. She is helpless, just watching how the house slowly burn. How all those beautiful memories are tuning into ashes. "Let me join him! Let me go with him!" She screams while she desperately try to liberate her self from her brother arms.

"Please Edward let me go! I cant live without him! I refuse to walk in this land knowing he wont be by my side!" She beg her brother over and over the same, but he wont do it, non him or Carlisle would. Elizabeth finally give up realizing she wont be able to join him any time soon. She just look the house or what used to be her house, now only a pile of ashes, every trace of her lover gone. "Elizabeth?" Carlisle asked. Any sign of emotion gone from her face "Lest go home, Esme might be worried" she said in the same emotionless tone. They returned to the house, holding her brother hand like little kids searching for each other company.

I wanted to find a way to live without him but it was so hard.

We stayed I few more days after the…accident, while Carlisle made plans to visit the Denali coven. That's when I discovered I could sleep since it has been days since I last feed, because I refused to, I was extremely weak. Esme found me sleeping in the leaving room, she though I was dead or so" I started laughing when I remember Esme's horror expression when she saw me for the first time sleeping. Bella must be thinking I'm bipolar. First mad and now laughing? I must look like Aro, speaking of Aro, I wander how is he, he haven't even called and…Wait a minute? Why I'm I so worried about him, why all of sudden I started to think about him! Urgh! I have been away from home too long…wait! I'm home! Ok what is going on with me! Thanks god I'm able to think really fast and Bella dint even noticed my little internal argument.

"Don't worry Bella, technically the scarier parts is over, but here is the answer to you question. Edward thinks is his fault. He believe, since it was his decision to transform me, he is responsible for my husband death and also because he wasn't able to stop me."

"He blames him self…" her voice no more than a soft whisper, like finding the last clue that lead you to the wonderful treasure. In her voice you can feel the love she have for him. She really care about Edward. "So after that you went to the Volturi?" after a few minutes in silent she asked.

"Not exactly…I didn't know about them back then. You see…- You want me to continue?" I raised one of my eyebrows waiting for her to say 'no', but a big part of me wanted her to say 'yes'. For my surprise she said 'yes' and I found my self telling her the rest of the story.

"Carlisle was really curious about my ability to sleep so with more reason he took us to Alaska, we met a few nomads on our way there, he wanted Eleazar opinion about me. He discover my gift and helped me to control it. The only gifted vampire by that time beside him and Kate was Edward so I practice with him, he was pretty disappointed when he stopped reading my mind" I heard Bella's chuckle "He was quite annoyed because he couldn't read mine either" we both laugh at that.

"Where was I… Oh right! After the Denali's we visited many others of Carlisle friends. I think he took us in that trip to help me forget, to keep my mind occupied. I grow really attached to him. He was more than a father…"

Before we reached Volterra Carlisle warned us about Aro obsession with gifted vampires. He also told us about the Volturi role in our world…

Santiago and Afton greet us, Santiago in particular was really friendly. I must say we have been really good friends ever since that day."

When we meet the ancients, Aro thought Edward and me were mates, that was so funny. But Carlisle told him we were siblings that's why we stayed in the same room after all I was the only one using the bed. Besides for some strange reason Edward dint wanted me alone, 'to many unmated males' he said" I tried to imitated his angry voice. "Anyways…we spend in Volterra like two weeks and I feel good there thanks to Didyme, I love her gift. Edward tried to keep me away from Aro and Chelsea, Gosh he is such an overprotective fool!"

After Italy we stayed a few years in Rochester where we meet Rosalie and we become pretty good friends. I thought I was finally happy but no, everything was fake I was getting tired of pretending to be happy like nothing has happened. I was tired to see the guilt in Edward eyes whenever he looked at me, I was tired to pretend I could live without my Andrew. So one day when I was alone I did the must coward thing, I wrote a note 'Don't Look For Me' and I went to Volterra."

In front of the majestic wall of the intimidating castle stand Elizabeth, her beautiful ivory dress soaking wet with the afternoon rain. "Is this the only way?" She thinks. '"You there!" a curious female voice call from inside. She remember that vampire girl a beautiful face like that is too hard to forget. "Are not you Carlisle's daughter?" the beautiful vampire is Heidi and she seem to recognize her. 'What's this?" another female vampire appears from behind Heidi, Chelsea. Elizabeth wont forget about that one in particular because her brother dint want her with her. His reasons till oblivious to her.

"What are you doing here?" the first beautiful vampire asked "I need to speak with the ancients" Elizabeth manage to answer trying desperately to make her words audible. "Well, master Aro will be delighted to receive you" Chelsea tell her, shooting a suspicious look and smile to Heidi, she answer her the same way. "May I ask why do you wish to see the masters?" Heidi asked her not trying to be rude just sincere curiosity. "I did…something… and I wish to live no more" she might brake in endlessly subs if she's not able to hold the memories…

Once again the two beautiful vampires exchange looks but not the smirking once from before.

"How old are you?" one more time Heidi asked her "twenty-one physically…but I have been a vampire for twelve years" Chelsea place one of her hands in her face "My dear child… you are so young…A child in so many ways like a human also like a vampire. There's no way you can be tired of you existence" she liberated a resignation sight when she saw Elizabeth expression "Come lets get you inside, we don't want your dress to ruin"

Aro refused to kill me and so did Marcus and Caius. I begged them so many times, I even asked them on my knees but I received the same answer all the time. So he offered me a place with them. Resigned I accepted. I was not I guard exactly, but not a leader either just…one more member of their house. Aro made sure I get everything I wanted. He gives me the simplest insignificant thing I ask for, he gave me all. He brings me, almost every day, Gardenias… (A/N in the language of flowers the gardenia means "I love you in secret" but she is too blind to get it)

One day while I was outside painting with Marcus, Aro came with Chelsea and Didyme he showed me the must gorgeous but simplest wedding ring I have ever seen. He asked me to marry him, what other option did I had, Didyme and Chelsea using their powers on me at the same time, I was leaving in his house and I was grateful to him, but at the same time afraid, I know he chose to keep me for my abilities. But there was no other place for me to go so I accepted his proposal. The funny part was Santiago he ignored me for months after I agreed on marry Aro, I still don't know why…

I married him and here I am… that's my story, lovely don't you think, I should make a movie! It will be boring as hell but who cares!"

"I don't think it would be boring at all, I will watch it!" Bella said in a cheerful tone. At least she dint faint.

"Thanks Bella. By the way is there a flower shop near this place?"

"Yes! There's one inside the mall. Come I'll take you "

We meet Rosalie and Alice in the flower shop. Rosalie know why I was there and Alice I imagine she saw why because she acted like it was normal. I brought what you could consider the weirdest, no actually the ugliest bouquet. It consisted of three different flowers, chosen carefully for their meanings, pink Carnations (I will never forget), Heliotrope(Eternal love) and finally his favorites Forget-me-not (True love, hope, memories) each one of them reflecting a small part of my feelings, but when you put them together in a bouquet they turn into my heart. Cheesy? I know but it's the best way to put it!

I called Santiago on his phone, because seriously where the hell is he! Flirting with some pretty girls? No, he is not Felix. In a prank shop? No, that's Demetri's. In Games Stop? Oh! Wait! that's me…and my little companion Alec. Or in my others sanctuaries Borders and Barnes & Noble.

"Santiago! Where are you! We have to go!"

"I'm in Borders" Bingo!

"Well if you don't wish to go back to the house running you better be in the car in less than five minutes"

I should give him some credit, he is really obedient and fast. When we made it to Rosalie's BMW he was already there waiting for us.

"What with the flowers?" he asked me pointing to them.

"I wont tell you" I answered like a 3-years-old. He laugh and turned to look outside.

When we made it to the house Esme looked like she needed some girl time, we leave alone with all the boys. Each one of them run to meet their respective girls.

"Bella" Edward kissed her lightly on her lips, the girl looked like she would faint…again! "My sister dint perverted you, right?" all the other laugh at his little comment.

"What! What is wrong with you? You are the pervert!" Emmet laugh was the loudest

"C'mon cant you- you brought flowers…I suppose is obvious its been so long." Is incredibly the waythe atmosphere changed. "you want to go alone or want me to go with you?"

"No, you stay here, I'll go alone" I keep my eyes on the flowers.

"Mistress…you are not going alone-"

"Is ok Santiago I will be fine" I raised my hand to stop him.

When we moved here for the first time Carlisle built something similar to a stone tablet in the memories of my husband and my child. I used to bring them fresh flowers daily and almost always Edward came with me. The message carved in the stone was really short but full of meanings I least for me.

In the memories of:

Andrew Johnson & Anthony Johnson

This is not a farewell

"We dint have time to say good bye and I miss you so much. Forgive for no been able to come sooner. All my memories keep you near. In silent nights I imagine you are by my side. But my memories are fading, you are turning in a human memory something that will disappear…completely! and that's why I'm afraid, I don't want to forget either of you! If only you could give me a sign to let me know you forgive me, to let me know you are ok wherever you are…I love you my dear husband forever and a day…"

I placed the flowers and stayed there a few minutes just looking at the craved stone, is really beautiful. I think I was there for a least and hour when my senses started to feel an awful smell like a gigantic wet dog who hadn't taken a bath in years! Urgh! Is disgusting and its getting stronger, what the heck could it be? I heard the crack of wooden sticks, I turned my gaze in that direction and I saw I huge shadows almost taller than horses. The shadows started to move and I was petrified with what I saw. Three gigantic wolfs walking slowly in my direction they stopped like 40-45 feet away from me.

The one in the front was the biggest and his fur was shaggier than the others with a reddish-brown color. He bent his head and started running in my direction the others two following him. They where getting closer when I heard Santiago screaming in horror

"ELIZABETH!"


Wow is longer! I told ya! Nothing exciting in this chapter. Quite boring I know, but I'll really appreciate some reviews, thank you for all of you who did it!

MY EXCUSES!

1. Huge, massive, monumental, bigger than Jacob, writer block (I don't consider my self I writer. I'm doing this to improve my writing abilities in English since is my second language)

2. My 6 month-old baby nephew was hospitalized, so while my mom and sister took turns attending him I have to baby sit my 5years-old niece (she can pass as my daughter)

3. Laptop and desktop decided to died in the same week so I have to get a new one (my cousin fix them so my babies are ok!)

4. I have problem with my stomach (I can't eat unless I drink a tablet first) and with my back (in a few years I wont be able to walk, sometimes I have to use a walking stick so I look like a 19 years old granny LOL) So this pass few month I've been in and out from the hospital a lot!.

Thank You for you patience!