Chapter 7

Im falling apart

barley breathing

with a broken heart

thats still beating

in the pain

is there healing?

hanging on another day

just to see what you will throw my way

in the pain

barley breathing

with a broken heart

thats still beating

I ran after Bella. What had come over me? I didnt mean to say that i didnt want her forever. I guess i never really thought she wanted to become like me. I could feel the extreme hurt raidiating off of her as she ran off into the forest. Alice had a sad frown on her face and a fire in her eyes as i made my way downstairs to go find Bella.

"She's so hurt Jazz, you hurt her so bad." Alice looked at me, not mad but sad.

"Did you see somthing?" I asked her noticing how her eyes had barley stopped glazing over.

"Yeah, acctually i did, and you just lost me my best friend, and your only true love" She said her voice cracking on the last word.

"What did you see?" I asked fearfully. I couldnt loose my Bells, she was my life, the only thing that kept me going.

"I see her at home, shes depressed agian, wearing all black, shes cutting her wrists, Charlie comes to her room, he beats her, shes unconcious when he slams her head against the wall, she wakes up, charlie beats her again, theres so much blood, she cleans herself up and packs all her things, she steals money from Charlie, and she runs away." Alice said dry sobbing by the time she got to the end.

I was shocked, i didnt know Charlie beat her so bad. He obviously did. I was furious at myself. Where would she go? She had no one.

"Theres no way to change it. It ends the same wether you go to her or not. But Jazz..." She said hesitantly.

"what is it?" I asked her.

"I see you trying to follow her, but...you dont find her, i see her jumping off a cliff Jazz.

With that both me and Alice ran to Bellas house. we saw her walking into the house tear stained with puffy red eyes.

I wiped at my eyes as i got to the front door. I unlocked it quietly and noticed Charlie sitting in the living room.

"Bring me a some dinner Isabella." He demanded slurring each word. He was drunk.

"No, get it yourself Charlie." I said running up the stairs. He glared at me furious. I had never once talked back to him like that. I was terrified. once i got up to my room i accidentally slammed the door causing him to yell even more. I wanst sure if a beating was to follow. I got into my room and saw all my pictures of me and Jazz. I slowly took out my old shard of glass i used for cutting and slit my wrist several times clearing my mind with pain.

I washed away the blood and pulled my hoodie on to hide it. It stung. I heard footsteps going up the stairs and frantically looked around for somewhere to hide. My breath came in short shallow gasps. Charlie stormed into my room and flung me against the wall. He kicked me in the stomach and slammed me against my bedside table I had several deep cuts. He grabbed me by the hair and knocked my head against the wall. All i remmeber seeing was black.

Wheni awoke again Charlie gave me a similiar beating earning me several more deep gashed and purple bruises. He walked back down the stairs leaving me alone. I was engulfed in pain, everyinch of my body felt weak and brusied. I cleaned off the seeping blood and changed into some black skinny jeans and black hoodie with black converse. I didnt exactly know what i was doing but i grabbed a duffle bag and flung all my possesions into it. The little i had. I snuck into Charlies room being carfull not to whimper with each painfull step and stole the bag of money i knew he kept under his shoes. It was several thousand dollars. I stuffed into my duffle bag and snuck out the back door. I ran into my truck starting it and pulling out of the driveway just in time to see Charlie storm out the door yelling and cursing my way. I floored it and made my way to the airport.