A/N: Ok here's part three. Please read and review. This chapter goes out to Pink Jover who followed me over so greatly from other stories, thank you for your reviews! Also to diaza44 who has seriously reviewed every chapter of every story since the second story I wrote and she even reviewed the first one after she found it. Also thank you for putting up with my serious moodiness during finals week. You are an awesome reviewer and friend. So here it is part three. This is a busy week so I don't know when the next chapter will be up.
Reid
Spencer Reid hadn't known great loss in his life. He had known great disappointment, rejection, and success. He had known the pain of bullying but he had never really lost someone completely. When he had started the BAU, he had immediately taken a liking to Jennifer Jareau, the media liaison and it looked as if she had taken a liking to him. She called him Spence.
"Did you know she's the only person in the whole word to call me Spence?" Reid said to Gideon one day in the bullpen.
They had tried a date and realized that their admiration for each other was strictly limited to that of a big sister and little brother. Reid had been naïve when the relationship between JJ and Emily had first begun, in fact he was the last to know and he had found out rather abruptly.
"So Emily, how's JJ in the sack?" Morgan had elbowed Emily while sitting around doing senseless paperwork. He had been joking of course, too respectful to actually ask details about their sex life. It had been done for the specific reason to make it known to Reid that the two female agents were officially a couple.
Reid had spit out his coffee.
"You and JJ? Statistically speaking…" Reid had said once he had recovered from choking on his coffee.
"Reid, please no more of your statistics. Yes I know that same sex relationships tend to last longer and be more monogamous than heterosexual relationships. Yes JJ and I have been an item since last month and you didn't have any clue?" Emily had said cutting him off rather grumpily.
After the conversation, Reid could tell that there was a difference in the woman he considered a big sister. She had more sunshine to her he thought and he had never been one for clichés. Her eyes sparkled and looked a little more blue and if he had look at Emily, she was a little quicker on her feet and faster on the comebacks with Morgan. The team never changed and if it did, they had become closer now that the two agents who were madly in love with each other were now together rather than avoiding each other. Reid and Emily grew closer because she was more attuned to his statistics and random facts of knowledge and she found herself allowing her geek side to embrace his knowledge. He soon became a little brother to her as well and Reid soon found himself attached to her just as much as he had JJ.
Reid saw the changes in JJ right away after Emily died. He wasn't so young, so naïve anymore. He had seen the evolution of their relationship as it grew, as he grew, and he could see the absolute devastation in JJ's eyes. He had never known true, great loss. Losing Emily tore a piece away from him. He had been through so much, been tortured by someone whose dogs had traumatized JJ and they had worked through it separately. As he looked back he could tell this was just another pit stop in the relationship between Emily and JJ. He knew JJ would try to fight her demons alone know that Emily was gone but Emily being gone was one of the massive demons JJ had to fight every day. Reid broke a little too inside when Emily died. JJ, at first, would sit and stare at him while he spouted off his statistics and random facts and then just one day she broke. After yelling at Reid and collapsing in tears into his arms, his heart broke. He vowed one day that he would repair the pieces of Jennifer Jareau's heart that had just fallen to pieces right in front of him.
Jennifer Jareau
The day Jennifer Jareau fell to pieces in front of the entire BAU, was the lowest day of her life compared to the day Emily died. She felt so empty. She was haunted every night of the empty promises Emily had left her with including the promise that she wouldn't die on her. JJ had known it was a naïve promise to make and that it would be one that would be impossible to reassure but being lost in the moment, lying in Emily's arms she had let herself believe every word Emily had ever told her.
Some nights JJ would sleep without a dream, falling exhaustedly into the bed she once shared with the brunette agent and drifting off into sleep that was just as empty as she felt. Other nights she would wake up in a fit of sweat after a nightmare, reaching for Emily, and realizing that Emily was not just gone, but was never coming back. She would spend the rest of the night curled up in a ball, wearing Emily's old Yale shirt that was slowly losing the scent of Emily, and sob. The majority of the nights were spent waking up screaming from a nightmare. These were the nights she would call Garcia in the middle of the night who was more than happy to take the phone call and rush thoughts of rainbows and kittens into the blondes head after an especially terrifying nightmare. Garcia had to remind JJ that Emily had died knowing that JJ loved her and that she hadn't died alone or scared.
Some days Jennifer Jareau beat herself up after Emily died. She thought she could've done more to help her wife out while she had been alive or that Emily had died afraid or in pain. She tried not to blame Morgan because on a good day which were few and far in between she could see just how the death of her wife was beating up her family, their team. On a good day she could Emily whispering in her ear that she loved her and that it was time to move on, pick up the pieces, and to live her life. JJ wasn't naïve and she knew that the promises they had promised each other and the vows they had taken didn't guarantee a life full of happiness or a long life together. Naïve or not, it hadn't helped the pain. Emily had a way of making JJ believe that things would be alright no matter what had happened to either agent. Some nights before Emily died, JJ would wake up and just hug her wife from behind and sob quietly from the pain of loving someone so entirely much. She knew that their fire wasn't one that could be put out by any fight and that there would have to be something so strong as death to pull them apart. But even JJ knew, even the entire team knew, that after death the fire wouldn't be put out and that one of them dying would be the end of the other one. They just never knew it would actually ever happen, to whom it would happen to, and how greatly it would affect the team.
