Ok so this is for letter G…This will be the last update until after the 26th! Vacation time is calling me! :D So hopefully I'll be able to write more while I'm away from all the drama and horribleness that is my life! So I'll add more entry for the Smut Challenge on the 18th and I'll be away after that! So I hope you guys like this addition! Make sure you drop me a line and let me know what you thought!
Getaway by Hilary Duff
Emily pulled up to a red light and debated her destination. Her mind was running wild and she couldn't slow her thoughts down.
"Turn Emily," she told herself. "Go home and sleep it off. Everything will be fine in the morning." She sat staring at the light before she began talking to herself again. "Just go straight. Go anywhere as long as it's not here and it's away from him," she spoke the words with venom seeping through.
She shook her head debating her decision. On one hand she was tired and in the morning he'd apologize again and things would return to how they were. But on the other hand she was tired of him thinking he could treat her anyway he wanted to because she'd always come back.
Here I am again, talking to myself, sitting at a red light
Both hands on the wheel, how am I supposed to feel,
So much running through my mind?
First you wanna be free, now you say you need me, giving mixed signals and signs
It's so hard to let you in, thinking you might slam the brakes again
Hotch had a way of making her feel alive, and he showed her that there was still beauty in the world. He would tell her he loved her whenever he could and Emily knew that she could be happy with him forever. It was like the man was made for her and she loved him more and more with each passing day.
But the man also had the ability to rip her heart out of her chest and stomp on it repeatedly over and over again.
Put the pedal down, heading out of town, got to make a getaway
The traffic in my brains, driving me insane, this is more than I can take
You tell me that you love me first, then throw your heart into reverse
Gotta get away
She could never see when he was in one of his moods when he crushed her. Emily didn't know if he was guilty for moving on after Haley or if he just had mood swings, but every time he pushed her away and acted like he didn't love her broke her each and every time. Every other time that he hurt her she would go home and drown her sorrows in a tub of ice cream but tonight while looking up at the red light, she wasn't sure what she wanted to do. She wanted to get away because she was losing her grip on reality every time Hotch did this to her. She wasn't sure what he wanted from. She gave him her heart, soul, her entire world and 99% of the time she knew he appreciated her and treasured all she gave but that one percent was what had her debating her next actions.
Is this just a detour, cause I gotta be sure, that you really mean what you say
It's so hard to let you in, thinking you might slam the brakes again
Maybe if she went away for a few days to clear her mind without Hotch around he would realize what he was doing and how hurting her was driving her away. Emily didn't want to leave but as she thought about him pushing her away again and saying everything was a mistake, she knew getting away was the best thing she could do.
To a place where I can be redefined
Where you're out of sight and you're out of mind
But the truth is I can't even say goodbye
Here I am again, talking to myself,sitting at a red light
Both hands on the wheel, how am I supposed to feel, so much running through my mind
The light was turned green and instead of turning left onto the long road that led to her condo she went straight. She didn't know her destination; she just knew what her destination wasn't. She just hoped that getting away for a few days wouldn't drive a bigger wedge between the two. She just needed to show Hotch what he'd be missing if he kept keeping her out. The next four lights were green and she put her foot further down on the pedal and sped away from her troubles and her broken heart and hoped she was making the right choice.
Put the pedal down, heading out of town, got to make a getaway
The traffic in my brains, driving me insane, this is more than I can take
You tell me that you love me first, then throw your heart into reverse
Gotta get away
