JuseaPeterson - Well, I'm wary about Rosalie. I know she's capable of being a good person, and she has a lot of points which have turned me to not hating her character, but even in the end, I found she was more concerned about Renesmee than Bella, and she didn't seem to care for Bella as much, though it may just be the way I saw it.
Oh, side note, I'm working on a sort of 'Bella's Diary' story, which is her personal thoughts from just before Twilight, to throughout the book/movie. Do you think it's an ok idea to do? I got the original idea from your 'Syd's Diary' for PRNS (and I credited the idea in my disclaimer on the first chapter)
Exactly. Well, I just wanted her to have a moment alone to collect herself, and speaking through the shower seemed like a good way to do it. Of course Edward wouldn't go in there, despite wanting to, and Bella would know that. She'd also know he'd be able to hear her over everything, and he'd pay close attention to her words. Really? Wow, thank you. I'm glad you enjoy it. I have to be honest, though, my favorite chapter, by far, is the Rose one. I've never used so much symbology, and it struck me as being really deep.
TriGemini - Well, they had cares. With the upcoming battle with the newborns and all that, but for the moment they were able to put everything on the back burner and just relax together.
Rating : 'T' for minor language.
Note : This one is going to follow fairly closely to what happens when Bella finds out about Jacob imprinting on her daughter, only with more thoughts and (hopefully) more descriptions. This chapter had me grinning almost evilly while I read over what I wrote. I hope you enjoy it.
(Me thinks I let my sick, masochistic side out a wee bit too far in this chapter. LOL)
Book : Breaking Dawn
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I puzzled over it, watching him stare at my daughter. Staring at her like... I felt like the wind had been knocked out of me as my mind and body froze. I felt the horror and rage almost as strongly as the thirst.
No, that's not right. I felt them stronger. Right now, I wanted nothing more than to make Jacob cease to exist.
How dare he?! I thought angrily as the rage built up. How dare he! How dare he?!
Jacob stared at my daughter with such uncensored adoring and longing. He stared at her like...like he was a blind man seeing the sun for the first time.
"No!" I hadn't meant to shout. I heard Jasper's teeth snap together, and felt Edward's arms around me, even as Jacob snatched my baby girl out of my arms. I stood there without fighting, a low growl resonating through my chest as I glared at my soon-to-be-dead best friend. I felt it coming, the snap they were all expecting. I didn't even try to fight them, but without removing my glance from Jacob, I turned my head towards Rosalie. "Rose... Take Renesmee." I was a little surprised at my own self control over the situation.
Jacob seemed to realize the wisdom in not fighting. He didn't look pleased, but he allowed Rosalie to take Renesmee, and they both backed away from me.
"Edward..." I raised my hands and placed them firmly on his arms, squeezing only tightly enough to make sure he was fully aware I could hurt him if I wanted. I think he knew though, I'd have rather died than hurt him, but in my condition, it wasn't something I had a lot of control over at the moment. "I don't want to hurt you..." I tightened my hold ever so slightly. "So please let go of me." I felt him hesitate. "Go stand in front of Renesmee." I suggested, releasing his arms and patting them slightly.
I trembled a little as he reluctantly did so. As soon as I was free, I leaned into my hunting crouch, my mind still chanting 'How dare he?!' over and over, even as I took two steps closer. "You didn't!" The tone was an outraged hiss.
I stalked him out of the door, even as he half ran down the stairs, backwards. "You know it's not something I can control." He was trying to reason with me. The damn dog imprinted on my daughter, and he was trying to reason with me?!
"How dare you!" I hissed, allowing my thoughts to roam freely. "You stupid mutt! How could you?! My baby!" I was advancing on him, and the trembling of the rage got stronger. My baby! She's my baby! I wanted to tear him limb from limb, and my newly powerful mind helpfully shared images of his reaction as I cheerfully mangled his body so that when he healed, he'd be walking on his hands and eating with his feet.
"It wasn't my idea, Bella!" He insisted firmly, still backing away.
"I've held her all of one time and already you think you have some moronic wolfy claim to her? She's mine!" She was my baby. My baby! She wasn't even a week old! How dare he!! I growled loudly and took another step forward.
"I can share." He stated pleadingly.
I felt my eyebrows skyrocket at that. He was speaking of sharing my daughter, like she was some little toy. Some piece of property. Then again, 'she's mine' doesn't sound any less possessive. My logical side chimed in. Shut up! She's my daughter, so she is mine! I argued, my eyes narrowing. Who did he think he was, trying to negotiate terms of possession of my daughter?!
"How dare you imprint on my baby?! Have you lost your mind?!!" I advanced another step, still snarling, with my fists at my side.
"It was involuntary!" He had his hands up in a peaceful sign as he backed to the tree line. Suddenly, he wasn't alone, but I couldn't have cared less that Seth and Leah Clearwater were there, backing him up. I'd deal with them too, if they got in my way. There was no way this...this... There was no way in hell this mutt was going to imprint on my little Renesmee!
A loud, animalistic snarl ripped through my lips, and I was slightly startled by the venom behind it. Literally. I had to swallow the venom that pooled in my mouth. It still wasn't enough to calm me. He tried to insist it was an accident. He even went to explain he'd originally gone over to kill my baby, because he thought it killed me.
Another snarl slipped past, but I was beyond the point of caring how deadly and terrifying I sounded. "You wanted to kill her, and now you've imprinted on her?!" I stepped closer, ignoring him ordering Leah and Seth to stay behind him. "You're not helping your situation, dog!" I spat angrily. Leah pulled her lips back from her teeth and I mimicked the posture, only with ten times the hostility.
"Just listen to me!" He was still pleading, but I could see he was beginning to get frustrated.
It hit me then, another reason little Renesmee wasn't safe around him. What if he lost control of his anger and hurt her? What if he phased in front of her and hurt her? What if...?!
I snarled and growled, glaring when I sensed Jasper making a move. He frowned deeply, his own lips pulled back from his teeth, but he remained still. I don't know why. He should have interfered to keep me from killing Jacob. Why hadn't any of them interfered? Rose hated him almost as much as I did at the moment, so that explained her. Edward was pretty damn pissed, but even he wouldn't have allowed me to go too far, I hoped. Jasper looked confused, and Carlisle, Esme and Emmett all stared at me in blatant shock and confusion. Alice looked like she had a migraine.
For a moment, I slipped out of my rage, seeing the looks on their faces. Oh my... They must think I'm such a monster. I swallowed heavily, but seeing Renesmee in Rosalie's arms brought my rage back and I spun back to Jacob. "She's a baby! She's not even a week old!"
"Bella, would you try listening, please?"
My family was forgotten as I glared at him. "Why should I?!" I growled, standing where I was.
"Because you're the one who told me this. Do you remember? You said we belonged in each other's lives, right? That we were family. You said that's how we were supposed to be. So..." He shrugged. "Now we are. It's what you wanted?" At least he had the sense to seem uncertain at the last little bit.
My eyebrows had settled down at first, as his weird rambling made a very bizarre sense, and yet they shot up at the end of this. "You think you'll be part of my family as my son-in-law?!" I couldn't handle it. The idea was too perverse and weird. He was only two years younger than me, though physically, he was much older. The idea of him and my baby was so wrong!
Emmett was laughing. I think I even heard a few random chuckles from the others as I had a Bella moment in the argument.
Again, I froze. It was so very strange. From everything I heard, I should have ripped his throat out already, and made a huge bloody mess of what was left of his body. Then I should have been dancing with Edward on his grave. Yet... Here I was, having a fairly Bella-like argument. I was rational -to a point- and angry, but I hadn't lunged for him...yet.
Esme sighed quietly. "Stop her, Edward." The tone was a quiet murmur, but I heard it as clearly as if she'd spoken it in my ear. "She'll be unhappy if she hurts him."
No I won't! I thought, a perverse masochism filling my mind. I really, really, really won't!
I waited for him to race over and wrap his newly warm arms around mine. I waited for him to say something that would snap me out of my nearly murderous rage, or to walk in between us. Hell, I even waited for him to encourage me! There was nothing. No pursuit. No movement.
"No!" Jacob stared at me in blatant horror. "How can you even look at it that way?!" He looked almost disgusted, but the awe and adoration as he glanced to my baby girl obviously overpowered the thoughts I'd put in his head. "She's just a baby for crying out loud!"
"Exactly!" I snarled, hesitating and stopping myself from taking a step forward. "That's my point!"
"You know I don't think of her that way!" He was trying to defend himself, the look of disgust still wedged firmly on his face, and he was also trying to explain to and placate me at the same time. His eyes shot past me, but in a different direction, and I could clearly see Edward's face reflected on the surface of Jacob's brown eyes as he locked his gaze on my husband. "Do you think Edward would have let me live this long if I did? All I want is for her to be safe and happy, is that so bad? So different from what you want?" Now he was angry and shouting back at me.
No. It really wasn't, but knowing they'd grow to be lovers, that my little baby girl was 'destined' to fall for Jacob.. She was just a baby! I couldn't get over it! I didn't know what to say, I was so angry and confused. Instead, I shrieked a growl at him, more animalistic than anything I'd let out by far.
I was a bit stunned to hear a very soft laughter from behind me. Edward was clearly enjoying my rage and reactions more than he should have been. "Amazing, isn't she?" He murmured in a low voice filled with awe and love.
"She hasn't gone for his throat even once!" Carlisle's tone was just as muted, but filled more with shock and confusion. He sounded so stunned.
Emmett hissed almost silently, but I caught the sound. "Fine." He obviously wasn't happy. "You win this one."
I wasn't so sure. I still wanted to kill Jacob, and if the bet was on my going for his throat, I was fairly certain the odds were in Emmett's favor. Sure, the rage had backed off, but it was still there easily within my reach. All it would take was one wrong word from Jacob's mouth and my control would surely snap. I closed my eyes, trying to take deep, even breaths. It didn't help my throat was burning with thirst, and Jacob was still a target if I decided I needed batting practice.
I threatened him to stay away from her. I could handle anyone else being nearby. Hell, I'd prefer Leah Clearwater to Jacob being near my baby right now. He insisted he couldn't be away from her, that it was beyond his control. I didn't buy it.
I didn't want to.
Glancing out of the corner of my eye, I saw Renesmee watching the whole thing with teary eyes. She wanted Jacob to stay, there was no doubt in my mind. I knew she'd like him. He explained the imprinting, and it wasn't just the wolf. The human/human-vampire hybrid/whatever felt the connection, too. Did I even dare believe she wasn't being coerced by this strange connection??
"Run away while you still can." I threatened, my hands shaking again. There were too many unanswered questions and too many answers I just plain didn't want to accept. She was my little girl and I would be damned before I allowed this imprinting to happen. A small voice in the back of my head informed me it already had and there was nothing I could do about it, but I stubbornly pushed that little voice away.
"Come on, Bells." Jacob grinned a little. "Nessie likes me, too!"
I stopped breathing. Everything went completely and unnervingly silent behind me, showing me the reaction of the others. I tried to take a breath, but the rage was so powerful, I was beginning to see red in the corners of my vision. "What....did you just call her?"
He looked sheepish and took a quick step backwards. "Well...that name you came up with is kind of a mouthful." He admitted with an apologetic smile.
That did it. All the control I struggled so hard to keep had finally snapped and I felt Jasper's awareness of the situation. "You nicknamed my daughter after the Loch Ness Monster?!" My daughter, the sea serpent. I let out a shriek I heard echoing for miles. I heard birds take flight in terror, along with other animals, some distance away. I didn't even pay attention.
I lunged for his throat.
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