Leah's POV
The next day we eat breakfast together then head into the city. We talk about school and her babysitting and she finally starts talking about Sam.
"Am I being stupid Lee? I mean I know he's too old for me and he's never going to like me but is it stupid to still spend what time I can with him?" She asks and I have don't have a clue what to tell her.
"I guess it's fine Bella as long as you don't forget he's too old for you and you don't let it keep you from at least considering guys your age." Dad would kill me. I should be telling her no boys. "What does Embry think about all this?"
"He knows I like Sam and he says he's cool with it even though he's too old for me. I really do like Embry; he's a great friend more than Jake even. I do hang out with him too. Sam isn't always there when I go." Hmm, if Embry knows there is a good chance Sam knows too.
We get into the city and spend the rest of the day shopping for makeup and clothes and she buys an iPad.
"Holy crap Bella, where did you get all that money?" I ask her.
"Well I babysit or mow lawns almost every day and I get paid well… And I hardly ever spend any of it. Plus my uncle just sent me $200 for my birthday plus my allowance from mom and dad. I actually still have $1000 left." She says as if this is perfectly normal for a 13 year old.
Damn. I work 3 days a week at the vet as a receptionist and I blow it all as soon as I get my paycheck, same with my allowance and I'm pretty sure Seth does the same thing. She probably has her whole future planned out too.
"What are you plans for the future Bella?" I ask her and she thinks.
"I kind of want to open a restaurant." And I'm sure she will. "Or design clothes and sell them in my own shop. Also I want a horse." Random much? She sighs then is suddenly interested in an ugly shirt.
"What else Bella?" I ask her and she looks at me thinking about it.
"It's nothing Lee, I'm hungry. Let's get Chinese." She tells me and I tell her as soon as she tells me what's wrong.
"Nothing!" she yells but I'm not dropping this.
"Bella I don't like you to be upset." I tell her hoping to guilt her into it.
"OK fine! When I think about my future, I think about it a lot I always see myself with kids and I don't want kids but I can't imagine my future without them. It doesn't make sense and it pisses me off." She's trying not to cry and I know I should drop it but she doesn't talk about stuff like this often.
"Why don't you want kids?" I ask her and she looks at me like I'm completely insane.
"Um because I have evil in me Lee." She tells me completely serious.
"What the hell are you talking about?" Evil my ass, on top of beautiful she is also perfect in personality too. Her biggest issue is she tends to let people take advantage of her but Seth is always there to stick up for her. I do worry about her sometimes because eventually Seth won't be there.
"My mom did horrible things to me Lee. How do I know I wouldn't do that to my own kid?" She says quietly.
"You babysit all the time, have you ever thought about hurting any of them?" I ask her and she says no but what if she changes, what if it's a hormone thing. She needs to be cut off from Google.
"Bella the fact that you are worried about kids you don't even want proves that you wouldn't do anything to hurt them. But if you're really worried about it you should talk to Charlie or Sue."
"Yeah maybe I will. Can we please eat now?" She whines and I laugh at her as we walk to the closet Chinese place.
"Are you married in the future Bella?" I ask her and she smiles and says maybe.
We eat and talk about the dumb people we see walking past us.
After lunch we shop for a while longer than head home and as soon as we get home she heads straight up to her room to play with her iPad.
I'm incredibly jealous.
