Forgiveness

Hinata's true intention

chapter 7

Sasuke had finally satisfied himself last night after almost 2 months of abstinence. He turned his face and saw the curl up figure of his wife. He could still sense she was nervous about him.

'She will get use to it and to my presense.' He leaned toward Hinata and kiss her head before getting out of bed.

Hinata was in a deep sleep. He couldn't blame her for oversleeping today. Last night after he was finished, she turned her back on him, curled up and silently sobbed. He felt guilt and tried to confort her by caressing her hair. He can't remember how long Hinata stayed awake sobbing, after what they did he was really tire and quickly went to sleep.

Sasuke finished dressing, headed to the door and before exiting he looked back at Hinata's sleeping body. He loved the way she looked...so child like.

He knew that she still didn't feel confortable around him. She would love him, she would enjoy the nights they tried to revive his clan, she would enjoy his kisses and caresses; he would make sure of this.

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"You are my wife Hinata.", "I will be gentle.", "Don't cry.", "I love you.", "I am sorry.", "It is necessary.", "Just relax.", "Try not to tense up.", "Look at me Hinata.", "Am I hurting you?", "I need you.", "I love how you smell tonight.", "We are married.", "Don't worry.", "Its normal.", "Calm down.", "Close your eyes and relax.", "I want you.", " I desire you.", "I missed you, your voice, your kisses, your warmth and your lavander scent.", "You look lovely tonight.", "Lets go to the bedroom.", "I won't hurt you.", "You will enjoy this...I promise."...

This happened as time passed by. Sasuke had become acustom to saying some of this phrases before taking her to 'their bedroom or while in the bedroom.

Every time he came with any of this phrases, the time became lurid. She became his anytime he wished...what else could she do...she was his wife. Sure, Sasuke was always gentle like he said he would be but she felt disgust everytime he touched her. She would feel worthless, like she was his toy or something that could be handle at his pleasure.

After sometime she did start to feel pleasure, but then the thought that he was only using her to satisfy his manly urges made it feel disgusting and wrong.

OH, why was he doing this to her? Was she really that weak tha she could be handle like a rag doll? Did Sasuke think he could do to her as he pleased?

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Hinata's current POV of what is going on with Sasuke:

STAY AWAY FROM ME!

That was the only think passing in my mind everytime you took me.

I am the only to blame for what happened. I was too weak.

You were the one who changed me, you are the one that made me what I am.

I don't want to be with you.

I want you to suffer.

I know I can't hurt you physically.

I know we are now married...my body now belongs to you.

At first I couldn't hide my feelings toward you.

When you were near me. When you looked at me. When you touched me.

Everytime you entered the room...took your shirt off and the rest of your clothes...I was afraid.

I would tense up and you would try to relax me.

Whisper into my ear "I'll be gentle. Close your eye. Just relax."

You would gently touch me and then start kissing me.

Kissing me on the lips. Kisses trailing down to my neck.

It didn't help.

You saw it didn't help.

You felt my tense body.

You saw tears coming out of my eyes.

Yet...your were a male...your only weakness...that made you hurt me.

You were not able to control your urges...even though you said you did.

You said you wouldn't hurt me ever again.

Although you still hurted me everytime we were intimate.

You got pleasure, while I got pain.

Finally I realized that there was no point in crying and moaning everytime you took me.

I was your wife after all and it was your right to sleep with me when ever you wanted.

I HATE YOU UCHIHA SASUKE!

I know I can't hurt you...at least not physically.

I want to hurt you.

I want to hurt you.

I want to hurt you.

Yes, I want to hurt you...I want to hurt your pride at least.

It is decided. I will hurt you where you will least expect.

To be able to do this my attitude toward you has to change.

I have to pretend.

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What will happen next?

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Next chapter...

Sasuke thinks he has finally gotten Hinata to love him. (poor fool...I feel kind of sad for him...althought not that much...but I do.)